not knowing who they can count on, not knowing who loves them, who they can love, not knowing exactly what anyone they know would do for them if it came down to it.
不知道自己可以依赖谁 不知道谁关心自己，也不知道有谁值得自己关心 不知道那些自己熟悉的人 在自己倒下时会作何反应