And maybe the hardest part about my life ending is that I learned something hard about myself, and that was that, as much as I would be frustrated about not being able to get my work out to the world, there was a part of me that was working very hard to engineer staying small, staying right under the radar.
而或许其中最困难的 就是我发现了自身纠结的那一部分， 那就是： 一方面我会因为 无法把我的工作成果展现给公众而失落 而另一方面我又非常努力的 做到不引人注目， 隐藏在公众的视线之下。