Anyway, as I plunged through my 20s ever more aware of how unobtainable the first part of my childhood ambition was, it was that second part, being able to successfully communicate to others whatever knowledge I was gaining, where the futility of my quest really set in.
后来，在我二十多岁的时候 我渐渐明白了 我那童年理想的前半部分是无法实现的 但是对于后半部分： 能偶成功地向他人传达 我自己获得的任何一种知识 无力感油然而生