When I started to write the memoir and I started to think about it, and then I -- I -- I did a reasonable amount of crying, and I realized how much I needed the father.
当我开始写回忆录时， 我开始思考， 然后我—— 我—— 我真情流露地哭了， 然后我意识到我是多么地需要“父亲”。