These experiences eventually allowed me to have some happy physical relationships with women, for which I'm grateful, but I was at war with myself, and I dug terrible wounds into my own psyche.
这些经历最终让我和一些女人 发生了愉快的肉体关系， 我对此抱有感激， 但我也和自己不断的战斗， 我在自身的心灵里划下了了严重的伤。