Scared and mortified, I listen, listen as I prattle on about the flotsam and jetsam of the day; listen as I confess my love for the president, and, of course, my heartbreak; listen to my sometimes catty, sometimes churlish, sometimes silly self being cruel, unforgiving, uncouth; listen, deeply, deeply ashamed, to the worst version of myself, a self I don't even recognize.
我带着害怕与窘迫的心情听着， 听着自己闲聊一些琐碎的事； 听着自己坦白对总统的爱， 以及感到多么的心碎； 我听着有时狡猾、有时脾气暴躁、 有时愚蠢的自己， 变得残忍，不愿宽恕，变得陌生； 我听着，我对那最坏的自己 产生了极深、极深的羞耻感， 那是一个连我都不认识的自己。