And yet, if I just allowed myself to be overwhelmed by these feelings, I wouldn't be doing my job -- because I have to actually be there for them and make sure that rituals happen, that practicalities are seen to.
但如果我不控制自己的情绪，放任悲痛继续 我就没法正常工作了 因为我的工作就是帮助死者超度 给他们主持仪式，并确保仪式的正常进行