And these voices became so persistent and so persuasive that I started to legitimately fear for my life, which is the time that I said to myself after 34 days -- and I will never forget this moment -- I said, "I am either going to kill myself or I'm going to turn this into a game."
这些话开始持续不停，并且越来越有说服力 我开始很合理地对生命有了恐惧， 在34天之后那时我对自己说- 我一直都忘记不了当时的情形- 我说，我要么自杀 要么就就把它变成一场游戏。