And I sometimes wonder whether I could have found such fulfillment in marriage and children if they'd come more readily, if I'd been straight in my youth or were young now, in either of which cases this might be easier.
有时候我在想 如果婚姻和孩子 来得更容易些， 我是否会找到这样的满足， 而如果我年轻时是异性恋，或我还年轻， 它们会让事情变得简单。