Because I was afraid if I said everything that she meant to me -- that I owed perhaps the best parts of who I became to her care, and that the words "I'm sorry" were like a thimble to bail out all the guilt and shame and rage I felt over everything she had endured to care for me for as long as she had -- I thought if I said those words to her, I would never stop crying again.
因为我怕如果我说现在我人生中最美好的部分 都来自于她当年的照顾， 面对她，我只能用“对不起”这几个微不足道的字 来发泄我所感受到的耻辱和愤怒 那种因为照顾我而遭受这一切的愧疚。 我以为，如果说出了这些， 我永远都不会再停止哭泣。