Not because they had found some final peace or transcendence, but because they were so repulsed by what their lives had become -- in a word, cut off, or ugly.
と言ってもそれは 最終的な安寧や 超越を見出したからではなく 見捨てられ 醜い姿になった自分の こんな人生のありように 実にうんざりしてのことです