And I realize, I think, the way I was feeling that way, is on a really deep gut level, I was feeling a lot of shame and embarrassed, frankly, that, in some respects, I had failed at delivering what I'm genetically engineered to do.
そして気づきました そういう私の思いは 非常に深い生理的なもので ある意味遺伝子的にできて当然の 出産に失敗したのだという とてもみじめな気持ち むしろ羞恥心を強く抱いていました