And maybe the hardest part about my life ending is that I learned something hard about myself, and that was that, as much as I would be frustrated about not being able to get my work out to the world, there was a part of me that was working very hard staying right under the radar.
人生の終わっていく中で おそらく もっともつらかったのは 自分自身の認めたくないところに気づいたことで それは 研究成果を世に出せず 苛立つのと 同じくらい 小さくまとまって 目立つまいとすることに一生懸命な 自分がいるということです