He didn't want cry in front of me, but he knew he wasn't going to make it back to the city, and it was better me than to allow himself to express these feelings and emotions in front of the women.
私に見られたくなかったでしょうが このままでは帰り道に泣いてしまうと思ったのでしょう 女達の前で悲しがるよりは 息子の前の方がましだと考える