I gave when I was cornered, when it was difficult to avoid and I gave, in general, when the negative emotions built up enough that I gave to relieve my own suffering, not someone else's.
気持ちが追いつめられたら寄付しました 哀れみの感情が高まったときも寄付して 他の誰でもない自分の苦しみが 和らぐのです