Anyway, as I plunged through my 20s ever more aware of how unobtainable the first part of my childhood ambition was, it was that second part, being able to successfully communicate to others whatever knowledge I was gaining, where the futility of my quest really set in.
話を戻しますが、２０代がどんどん過ぎていく中で 子供のころの願望の第一部の手強さを より一層意識しながら その第二部、 私が蓄積していた知識を 上手に他人に伝えることが これがどれほど手の届かない目標なのかが明らかになったんです