And it was devastating every single time, and every single time, I had to ask myself if I should just quit while I was behind and give up and spare myself this pain.
断りの手紙だけでした 手紙を受け取る度に絶望し 負け続けるのは終わりにして 書くのをあきらめ 苦痛から逃れるべきかと 悩みました