translation.en: And it was clear -- not to me, because nothing was clear to me at that time anymore -- that I would need long-term hospitalization in that awful place called a mental hospital.
translation.zh: 我的状况很明显—我自己不知道 我当时什么都不知道— 明显我需要长期的入院治疗 住进在那个糟糕的叫做精神病院的地方。