translation.en: And I can get really despairing. I've spent a lot of the last few years really depressed about this, until this year, I learned something that I felt really excited about. I feel like it's really good news, and it's so shocking, I don't like saying it, because I think people won't believe me.
translation.zh: 我深感失望。过去几年我花了很多精力， 真的感到很沮丧， 直到今年，我知道了一些东西 让我感到很兴奋。我感到它真的很好 很震撼，我不想说出来，因为我想 人们不会相信我的。