translation.en: And it was devastating every single time, and every single time, I had to ask myself if I should just quit while I was behind and give up and spare myself this pain.
translation.zh: 每一个这样的时刻都非常难熬, 每一次我都不由得问自己, 是不是应该放弃, 不要再这么痛苦下去了。