translation.en: And I remember at the beginning of my career, again and again, on these dismal outings with orchestras, I would be going completely insane on the podium, trying to engender a small scale crescendo really, just a little upsurge in volume.
translation.zh: 我记得事业初期 在一次又一次跟乐队成员的出演中 我在指挥台上几欲抓狂 我只是想要一个小高潮 只是音量的稍稍提高