translation.en: But if I had done that, if I had given up writing, I would have lost my beloved vocation, so I knew that the task was that I had to find some way to gin up the inspiration to write the next book regardless of its inevitable negative outcome.
translation.zh: 但是如果我真的这么做了, 真的放弃了, 我将会失去所热爱的职业生涯, 所以我很清楚应该做什么， 就是要想办法重新激起斗志, 继续写新书, 不去在意会收到怎样的负面评价。