translation.en: So for the longest time, all I would do is recall the memory of this person over and over again, wishing that I could get rid of that gut-wrenching, visceral "blah" feeling.
translation.zh: 所以很长一段时间里，我所做的 就是一边反反复复地回忆有关我前任恋人的一切， 一边希望自己能摆脱那种 令人五脏都纠结的痛楚。