translation.en: at not having a self that fit, and the confusion that came from my self being rejected, created anxiety, shame and hopelessness, which kind of defined me for a long time.
translation.zh: 因为没有一个合适的自我 而带来的恐慌 以及因为被拒绝 而产生的惶恐 引起了我的焦虑，羞愧 还有无望 这些在很长一段时间里都限制了我