Etenim si eam tum defendebam, cum mihi aliquid illa debebat, quid nunc me facere oportet, cum ego illi plurimum debeo? Nam quid est quod animum meum frangere aut debilitare possit, cuius ipsam calamitatem non modo nullius delicti, sed etiam binorum in rem publicam beneficiorum testem esse videatis?
And indeed, if I defended her then, when she was somewhat in debt to me, what does my duty bid me do now, when I am deeply in debt to her? For what is there that could avail to cow or enfeeble my courage, since, as you see, my very disasters bear witness, not alone to the irreproachable nature of my conduct,  but even to my superhuman benefits to the state?
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