Alicia, as a minister 45 years ago I realized the church would never be the ideal I envisioned. So I bailed out as the appropriate ethical step for me. The final straw was when I realized it can't be different and that I had no power to change it. 

Concurrently it dawned on me that I had no right to attempt to adjust it because there is no accurate model of what it ought to be.

An institution can't accommodate every interest. One adjusts to it or opts out.
Usually analysis such as yours are mostly rhetorical and there is nothing wrong with that. So, time will tell if you are a musing theoretician or a designer of your eventual departure.