Hello Elagabalus.   I can appreaciate your comment and your openness.   I was among the "first" in the "liturgical traditionalist" movement as a very young man in the early 90's.   I belonged to a parish which was probably among the very "worst" in the diocese for horrible music and even more horrible  mannerisms during the services.  The priest used to tell jokes even during the consecration of the wine.   At weddings (I used to be an altar boy at them) he had a "wine joke" he'd always tell over the microphone to the groom, as he gave the groom communion from the chalice.....  I also was extremely disillusioned by the very wild "liturgies" conducted in my high school's gym.   (They also had a chapel in the high school, and I literally was the only student out of hundreds who would stop in there to pray.).  

There happened to be an SSPX church in my area.  I stopped in there at age 21 to see what a Tridentine Mass looked like.  I was blown away by the reverence shown by people.