Don't know what your issue is motley, but you mostly did not defend killers or those who did things to body parts.  The typical criminal trial is a drunk driver, a man accused of yelling or threatening his wife, a drug dealer, a sex offender who failed to register.  The murders and killings are few and far between especially here in a place like Oregon.  Were you in NYC where even I served as a juror on a murder case, it might be different.  But for some reason, you exaggerate how awful the cases and those accused of transgressing the law are.