i agree with all you say, but the key word is  ill.  you have to be in pretty bad shape to sit on train tracks and watch a train bearing down on you.  assuming she had any awareness...  if she was drunk, or high on something stronger than pot,  and couldn't function in time for her brain to perceive the situation will be anybody's guess.  if one decides for themselves they want to "check out" - it is their decision.  but don't make anyone else suffer as well.  a survivor's guilt a heavy, heavy load and it is unfair and damaging. i found a booking photo for her yesterday and she looks like a "normal" human being, a not happy one. so yeah, god bless all involved.