I would give this show a higher rating, but it's very poorly written. It goes down a bunny trail with unnecessary information - filler as though they only had six hours of material and stretched it over and over - going down bunny trail after bunny trail over and over. It was like a train wreck I couldn't look away from. It's so bad, I stayed with it only because I had invested in it already - until the last couple of episodes. When it was over, I was crying.

I understand why some people kill themselves.

I can understand why some people kill themselves. I've had the thought cross my mind many times through my life. I live alone and have no friends. I have nobody - my family has disintegrated to the point that I have a loose few family members, but no family. I go from job to job, always poor and spending large stretches of time unemployed. I'm always poor and surrounded by an uncaring world that leaves me for dead.

This world is a cold and uncaring place where the rich and the powerful control things and don't want to share. The way we do capitalism is built this way. It leaves people for dead, living under the constant threat of homelessness if you can't pay your bills. I fight and fight and fight; I pull myself up by my boot straps and try again - over and over and over - only to be ignored and left for dead over and over as I look for work. Constantly ignored and rejected. I'm not a trophy. I'm not tall, good looking, rich or any of the other materialistic things the world is attracted to and wants. I live alone in a tiny apartment surrounded by strangers. I could kill myself in this little hole and nobody would know about it for 30 days when the landlord comes looking for money. Money, money, money - it's what the world wants most. It doesn't love anyone - it just wants money and intrusively forces your attention and lies and manipulates to get it. It always wants money and I don't have any, so it leaves me for dead because I don't have anything it wants. Women have never wanted me - I've never had a real relationship and I was bullied as soon as I came out of the womb. My father bullied me before I started kindergarten, then I was bullied all the way through high school. I've never not been preyed upon for something - either to satisfy a bully's sick felt-need for power or some company's lust for money and/or power. I've been unjustly treated and used in nearly every job I've had and left for dead in the end. One fired me just because a customer didn't like the company not covering her claim, twisted my words and her agent was someone important or connected. He complained and they threw me under the bus just to please him - all politics - but I ended up homeless. That was 2004 and my life has never been the same since.

I can understand why some people kill themselves. Most don't - they just become alcoholics or drug addicts to get relief. This world sucks for most of us. We fight and work - trying to make it better for ourselves and some of us find success for our efforts and some of us don't. If you're short or fat or ugly or poor or an outcast who doesn't fit the world's molds and expectations - it won't let you have success - it just keeps kicking you.