I've written hundreds of reviews on series and movies and this is the first time EVER that I can not figure out how to comment on a series. I typically have a format that I follow but this series is impossible to fit into that format and quite frankly the series deserves much more. So I guess I'll just let it flow for a few minutes because that is exactly how I felt after the opening scene in the first episode when I heard Joy Division playing on the soundtrack and knowing the tragic death of the band's lead singer Ian Curtis. My blood started to pump, the compartments where I hide all my different emotions started to crumble and those reccesses in my brain where all my hidden secrets and memories are located started to seep. I was in conflict whether to watch this show or not but it was too late now. I lost friends and family members to suicide during my childhood, my teenage years and my adulthood. Without getting into my own personal life in detail let's just say the show resonated with me on so many different levels. Hannah speaks of the Butterfly Effect in the series, well this had a trigger effect on this viewer. Memories started rushing in about inflicting emotional pain on others and being the recipient of the very same pain. Whether this was done unintentionally or not is really arbitrary. What is done is done. One can only hope to learn from the past and not relive it for a lifetime however long that may last. How was I to know at the time what the possible consequences were that lay ahead? Well I learned from personal experience what those consequences are for fact. Was it my fault I lost friends and family? Was it my fault I ended up the way I am today? These are questions this viewer will be pondering once again for some time. You can never know what is going on in someone's mind but you can help by thinking about your actions and the consequences that result from them. You can help by being present and listening. You can help by being present as a friend or family member. However sometimes a person's choice, as selfish as it may seem, is decided and irreversible for reasons sometimes only known and legitimate to them. The creator of this series Yorkey, the author of the novel on which it was based Asher and Netflix deserve recognition for tackling and depicting accurately such controversial subject matter and bringing to light some of the reasons people make such a tragic choice. It is done with boldness and brilliance. I've NEVER suggested in a review of a film / series that an individual view it or not as it is a matter of opinion. I will honor the series and that piece of my format, as the series warns from the opening. If a person chooses to watch this series, hopefully it will help people even if it's just one person. Sometimes sharing by any means helps. I now realize that by at least attempting to review this series by briefly writing about how it affected me, it's helped this viewer.