pain
"Tramadol is like a cruel joke.  Something the doctors grudgingly give you while they moan and groan over the people in the street who don't bother to ask a doctor for relief.  After two years of constant pain I think I'm developing a syndrome long term pain sufferers are familiar with but doctors deny exist.  They won't even name it because then they could be held responsible for the neglect and abuse involved in not treating pain realistically.  At the present I can't come up with a label that doesn't involve profanity.  Meanwhile I have to pretend the pain isn't robbing me of a life I could have the stomach for.  Sick of waiting for the tides of pain to subside enough so I can do something to fool myself that I still have a life."