bipolar disorde
"It's been a rough 29 years discovering, living with and losing things because of bipolar, ADHD,and OCD!  Tried literally every medicine under the sun, (ours and prob a couple other solar systems too.). So many my doc looked me in my eye and told me that I might "just have to learn how to live" with my head, mind, thoughts, and lack of actions, or intestinal fortitude as your father calls it, he's Air Force retired after 22 yrs. Suicidal thoughts all the time.  Given all my possessions away.  Stood on the bridge, the roof, and had the gun in my hand, but I always held on, cause I knew their was something like NUVIGIL out there somewhere, I just had to hang on long enough.  If not for NUVIGIL I wouldn't have been able to focus long enough to write this!"