persistent depressive disorde
"I was diagnosed with dysthymia and mild anxiety. I've been struggling with depression since I was 16 (I'm almost 25).  My mood is just typically low. Recently, the depression skyrocketed and I was suicidal. I decided to try to get medicine this time (50 mg). It's only been 2 weeks but I feel a difference. I described it to my therapist as this: there's a fence and I can't cross it. On the other side is the darkness and desolation, and I know it's there, but I can't get there. It's a strange but riveting feeling. I finally feel STABLE. I can discern and identify ridiculous depressed thoughts. I still get a little sad about things, but it's not to the same degree at all. It hasn't done much for my anxiety but then again mine was mild."