depression
"I have had major depression my whole life and absolutely none of the anti depressants worked for me, I had intermitant periods in my life were I had suicidal thoughts but I always managed to tough it out I maintained decent employment but chronically underachieved because I was always fighting internal demons and social anxiety, then my children left home, I got a divorce and lost my home, suicidal thoughts were non stop no matter how hard I tried to talk myself into coping and turning my mood around, the suicidal thoughts persisted for 2 yrs, then I was prescribed tramadol for Fibro 50 mg twice a day, I have never felt so normal in my whole life took it 3 yrs no dose increase off it for six months too hard to get the RX now suicidal 24/7"