panic disorde
"I have experienced several forms of anxiety/PTSD from childhood. I had a very crazy childhood, watching my mom being beaten, seeing a lot of blood, dealing with alcoholics all around me and moving related to abusive man that was literally "hunting" my mother down for a good 3 years. I have blank parts in my memories of my childhood and most of the memories I do have are not good. When you are 4-5 years old and are awakened to an ax tearing down your front-door and having to flee for your life, it kinda ruins you. Also watching so much abuse toward my mother and even her friend, the blood, the guns etc., I basically grew up in a war zone. My flight or flight response is hyperactive and I think it always will be. I take 4-6 mgs a day."