Circular logic and Practice After many years of Buddhist considerations, I finally admit to myself that I fight a constant battle for certainty and self-gratification. I guess those encompass the three aspects of dukka well enough.
So with somewhat of a renewed determination to practice, I have searched this generous website (and elsewhere online) for &quot;my&quot; book and &quot;my&quot; practice, and possibly my path/teacher.
The circularity I mention in the title of this question refers to the acknowledgement that these self-placating enterprises stand in marked contrast to the work that need to be done.
Sometimes i the past, in going to a website I have wondered if the drop-down for &quot;Reading List&quot; might say none. And more farfetched, if the &quot;Meditation Instructions&quot; say: figure it out yourself; no one is coming to save you.
I'm open and appreciative to any comments, admonitions, and advice.
EDIT (In response to @Rain) How to practice? Or better yet, how to find a teacher or some context (book, maybe)? Hence the circularity, so as to be my own teacher and this does not lapse into lip-service.
With kind regards.
Sometimes i the past, in going to a website I have wondered if the
drop-down for &quot;Reading List&quot; might say none. And more farfetched, if
the &quot;Meditation Instructions&quot; say: figure it out yourself; no one is
coming to save you.

You're on to something here. No one is indeed coming to save you. When you truly get that, all hope falls by the wayside, and you are forced into the body where we see feelings and their causes: the mind. These are three of the four foundations of mindfulness: body, mind and feelings. The last one is truth or dhammas which comes about through unflagging persistence with the previous three. Crucially, we take a backwards step and learn to be in the body with all of its contractions, squirms and other whatnots. Our minds can throb and thrash like a fish out of water but various 'higher insights' are revealed along the way giving us encouragement.

“You should therefore cease from practice based on intellectual
understanding, pursuing words and following after speech, and learn
the backward step that turns your light inwardly to illuminate your
self. Body and mind of themselves will drop away, and your original
face will be manifest. If you want to attain suchness you should
practice suchness without delay.”
Zen Master Dogen - Fukanzazengi