Told my TBM wife about my doubts She said she could tell I'd been struggling and then asked for specifics. I told her some of the things I'd learned.  She told me I was being judgmental and then brought up a bunch of bad stuff I'd done in the past. The next day she was so mad at me for even looking into these things and told me that my doubts were my own fault and how dare I do this to her. I'm just so confused as to how the church hiding things could possibly be my fault... but I do feel a bit guilty. Why?  Why should I feel bad for looking for the truth? 

I'm just so ready to get out of this cult but I doubt my wife will ever leave the church or even support my right to choose. This sucks.