Something wrong I can feel it I'm losing control, but not like before... This time it's, different... 

My motivation to fight porn is gone, I feel powerless against it. I feel like it consumed me whole, leaving me with nothing...

I can feel how hollow my mind is, just an empty shell that's being controlled by an addiction that I am enslaved to.

Days feels like hours, hours feel like minutes... I'm losing track of time, I'm losing myself. 

I no longer enjoy porn, yet I'm still imprisoned to the routine it locked me into...

Why am I still watching even though I don't enjoy it? Why am I still addicted?

A part of my brain keeps on telling me to bring all of it to an end... To end this loophole I am in trapped in, to end the disgusting person I have become...

I want it all to stop.