i dont know if i want to bother trying to find my bio father anymore like... honestly i dont even really care about reconnecting with him. he never was or will be a father figure in my life (my dad died like 12 years ago and no one will ever replace him)

mostly i just want to meet the rest of my family?? i want to meet everyone and learn about my culture (tongan)

but even with my best friends help, we ran out of ideas of how to look for him fairly quick... it also got a little taxing after a while

i guess i want to try some more to find him, but it does feel fruitless