I submitted my PhD application. &lt;1 minute to spare. I never dreamed I would pursue academia. Next week I will finish my masters degree and a rollercoaster of juggling work with university. I hope my application is accepted so I can immerse myself in university life full time. Switching modes between complex work and intense technical learning has been hard and I’ve lost a lot of my creative flow over these years. 

Time blindness is always an issue, but I think my procrastination today was further driven by fear, fear of commitment for 3 years, fear of rejection, fear of not being able to study all the things. But, the proposal is submitted now, it’s up to the universe to decide what happens next. 

I really hate how often I submit things on the exact deadline.