I don’t know what to do i found out today i didn’t get into my top college. i worked so hard and did everything right. I even applied early decision I was so set on going there. I put a lot of importance on getting in because it was going to be my escape out of everything going wrong. For years I have been dealing with so much but managed to always make my academics a priority and it didn’t pay off. i feel so defeated. I wanted this so fucking bad. I am over 3 months clean but this is pushing me over the edge. i don’t want to sh but these feelings are so overwhelming. idk what to do. could really use any support