It shouldn't be this hard! I've just gotten off the phone with the 9th psychiatrist given to me by my insurance. Not a single one is accepting new patients and I am just ready to call it quits. I've been off of my meds for over a year and it was the worst decision I've ever made. I was so quick to shoot down the diagnosis of bipolar. I should have listened to my original doctor and now I'm stuck. This just doesn't feel worth it anymore. I don't understand why it is so hard to even be seen. It's overwhelming and frustrating. 

I'm sorry if this is just a jumble of thoughts I'm just super frustrated and I feel so hopeless. I hate feeling like I'm crazy.