I'm homeschooled, but my parents don't actually teach me I'm so messed up, and I don't know what to do. I've never gone to school a day in my life, I've always been homeschooled, but never actually taught anything, I never actually learned how to read until I was around 9 years old, and I taught myself, because I didn't want to be stupid, but all I want is to watch TV, no matter how hard I try to study, it never works, it's like an addiction, and I don't want to socialize, I just want TV and I don't know what to do about it. I want to go to college, I want to get a life, but I don't think I'll be able to, I think I'm too messed up