With the State of the World, how can one not be depressed? This may come off as an attempt to drag everyone down, but that isnt my intention. I am just trying to vent my frustrations and depressive state. 
I feel like I have a whole mess inside that I have major difficulty expressing but the main thing is there is so much suffering and discord everywhere and I feel it, intensely. I dont want to feel hopeless and apathetic, but I cant say I'm not. Inside, I feel the world doesnt have to be a hell hole, but I dont know the way out. It may be an egoic delusion, but I feel I'm here with some sort of responsibility to play a role in the elevation of our human family, though the path is very clouded at this point and I'm not meeting the mark. 

At this point I just want to be alone in the woods and cry, and when I do its a very intense feeling in the pit of my being and the only thing I can do is gasp and utter "O God, o God.."