I have a moral and ethical dilemma. I believe that the world is a cold and cruel place to be in. Had I myself had the option, I'd have rather my mother had me aborted so that I never experienced any of this. I cannot commit suicide so I'm pretty much stuck on this floating rock on Earth until my time finally comes. 

Being 26 many people I know are getting married and having children. I say "why?" Why bring an innocent child into the world just to make them live in this jungle? This is paradise for the nonbeliever and a prison for the believer. Why subject an innocent life to endure these horrible tests of faith until they depart from the world?

I believe that in my not having children I will potentially save hundreds or even thousands of future descendants from having to go through with living in this prison. Is this haram?