I don't even know who I am anymore I used to be so full of life, so curious, and hopeful. Constantly laughing, making friends, enjoying my hobbies. My future was so bright. Bad things happened, but never stuck around. 

Where did I go wrong? I find myself always grasping onto old memories. When I look at old pictures I see a carefree girl. Unsuspecting. Naive. But I was so satisfied. I had my imagination and personality. 

Where is the girl I was 5 year ago? Is she still in there somewhere? Or is she just a numb, soulless human who can only see numbers on a scale, numbers on a measuring tape, food in the pantry and fridge, calories, fat, bones, and ultimately death.

Where did I go? Who am I?