Roomate attempted to end her life and I was a mess about it. All my roomates think I'm an asshole. I just lost it. I cried for an hour straight. And like CRIED.  I was wailing and couldnt stop. Everyone told me I was being selfish cause I wouldnt calm down and was crying so loud.  My roomate is the only one I wanted to comfort me but he wouldnt. He comforted my friend who didnt want me in the room with them. (This caused the terrible panic attack.)

I'm in the parking lot of my old highschool right now and idk what to do.  I hate my fucking self, I hate that I made this about myself.  I couldnt stop. I cried for an hour and no one talked to me except to tell me to quiet down.

I vomited and pissed myself because I was so upset.  I hate that I made things about myself. I need help.