He adores kids, I don’t. Our compromise? We are not having any. Since then we’ve stopped having sex :( We’ve been together for almost 7 years. About to get married. He loves babies, children of any age and goes out of his way to play with them and hold them and make them laugh. 

I tolerate them, definitely don’t like kids enough to sacrifice my life, body, time, money etc. 

I thought time change my mind, but 3 years ago when I told him that I definitely didn’t want kids. Recently he said that conversation broke his heart. But he loves me enough to be together and get married...

His close friends just started having little ones and I can see the joy in his eyes when we meet. I feel like I’m denying him.

Our relationship feels like 2 very affectionate friends. He gives me pecks on the cheeks and we cuddle but there is zero sexual interest from his end. I’m not okay with that. It may be a punishment for not wanting to have kids. I don’t know what to do :(