I haven't felt like this since my mutual days For context I haven't been to a YSA activity before, I went to a semester at BYUI and didn't really participate in anything there. Now that I'm back home for a while, my mom decided it would be a good idea for me to go to a YSA activity. So I went. It was not a good idea, this used to happen when I was in mutual. For literally no reason other than that I didn't wanna be there, I wanted to burst into tears. So yeah, great first YSA activity, I can't wait to move out so I can leave the church.