Mild scholarly type books on Mormonism? I really want to read some good books on Mormonism both from LDS and non LDS authors. I'm not looking for books such as Jesus the Christ or books by any GAs or anything but more into the theology of our religion. Every time I try to search for good books I tend to get anti literature! 

Any book topic is welcome, it may help to know the background of this search honestly. I have a personality disorder that makes me have identity issues and although I've been in the church almost 4 years I tend to jump in and out of belief. It's very hard tbh so I'm just looking for some books that can help me in some way that I don't even understand yet! 