i just go from one form of disordered eating to another when will it ever stop? i tried recovering three times this year, all i was doing was binging and feeling worse about myself. i tried losing weight healthily but soon enough i started restricting too much again because i wasn’t content eating more than 1000 calories. now i’m dealing with orthorexia. I try eating healthily and eating intuitively and it doesn’t fucking work i just want to eat like a normal person without being scared