i can’t convince my brain to panic into action anymore i used to have this nifty thing where suddenly my brains panic response would kick in in the final days before a deadline and I could get an assignment done, or atleast throw some bullshit together after procrastinating forever.

i think that machine has finally broken. 

in the past, this is the time i would be panicking, crying, but still able to hyperfocus and pull an all nighter and get it done. i’ve got 3 days to do 5 design projects and i genuinely tried and i just......can’t? 
i started 4 of them, but i just can’t get my ideas onto paper well enough to trick myself into hyper focusing on it. 

at this point i just feel empty and nonchalant about my circumstances. the teacher ‘doesn’t care about excuses’ and i don’t even know what i would say to help myself out.


i don’t know if that’s progress or regression. i miss the panic response :(