My neurologist told me something interesting at my recent appointment. Since the addition of a third medication I have been seizure free, which makes me feel like a normal person again.  

It was my year follow up, and he mentioned compared to the first time he saw me, I seemed more clear mentally.  He said patients who manage to get their seizures under control seem to have a different, more clear energy to them. I'm still depressed and not particularly "there" mentally, but since I don't have my brain frying once a month, my mind does feel a little more clear, even compared to between clusters.