detoxing from birth control after being on it nonstop for 14 years and WOO BOY this is the worst I have been on hormonal birth control since I was 12. Every time I went off of it, it was due to no insurance/no money. Every time, it was hell. 

This time, it’s on purpose because I just started Orlissa. I’m incredibly grateful for this medication and I hope it will help, but right now I’m just in agony. 

I know birth control is just a bandaid, but I haven’t had a true unmedicated endo flare up in a couple of years. 

I’m miserable. The cramps. The bloating. The fatigue. The horrible, all over, full body pain. The inability to eat. The depression. This is awful. 

I don’t even know what to say, I usually try to positively frame things but fuck this disease. I’m so angry. I hate this.