I forgot how tiring socializing is and I love it I know that sounds a bit funny but hear me out. When I started college a year and a half ago, I ended up making no friends. Lonely, very depressed, and anxious, I kinda fucked up all my high school friendships. Now, 3 semesters, A LOT of therapy, and an anti-depressant later, I have my friends back. I got to see all of them at a party on Saturday and I'm still tired as hell, but I'm so glad I'm not alone anymore. I still want to make new friends and achieve a couple  other social goals this year, but I think fixing what I broke is a fantastic start to my year. Hopefully, I'll have the courage to put myself out there and reconcile with being uncomfortable around new people. One of the hardest parts of my autism is needing people but not knowing how to get them in my life or keep them there. Being lonely fucking sucks and I want to be loved and appreciated again.
Happy New Year's everybody, I hope 2021 is so much better than last year.