I can't stop masturbating to my rape and I don't know what to do I was raped twice. I've been thinking about it in the past couple months a lot more than usual.

Yesterday I came 4 times to memories of me being raped. Today I did that once but when I noticed I was doing it again I tried my best to only cum to erotica instead.

I feel completely ashamed and disgusted with myself. I don't know how to stop thinking about my rape almost every time I get turned on now.

I just want to be able to masturbate or have sex normally without thinking about this kind of stuff but idk how

Any advice? 