I’ve been throwing roses into an abyss After 9 weeks no contact I caught up with Nex for a drink last night - my instigation - it had been a long lunch when I sent the text....
We were catching up and it was fine - I asked about the last 9 weeks of silence and his reply, the words, his complete lack of care, his utmost belief that I was the one being stupid - his inability to say he had missed me even a little, his choice of attack over conciliation.....suddenly I saw he is not the monster in the abyss but the abyss itself. There is truely nothing loving or kind inside him. I saw the most empty human being I have ever seen. I was a bit drunk but it was like seeing an alien and going “OMG - this actually exists”
Back to NC, sad but a lot stronger for the revelation