I can not handle the thought of dying. That's it's that simple. I am turning 37 this year and it keeps me up at some nights thinking that at best this is halfway over for me. I get extremely uncomfortable and even panic attacks just thinking about it. 

I don't really fear the after life just simply the fact that this. What I know and love stops. I have 7 years on my wife and 2 children. Just knowing that I'll be gone before them and how sad it will make them makes me sad to think about right now.