I feel myself drifting away from my life and I'm scared I simply cannot come back. I used to enjoy everything, or atleast try to. I don't even like watching tv anymore, not even the walking dead. I want to go out but I forgot how to. I want to laugh so intensely untill I'm scared I might never stop.

Maybe writing songs will nourish? I'm not fooling myself. My self esteem is too low to believe in that, even if I know no one will listen.

I want to meet people who truly care about me and all of me.