Feeling like hurting myself. I genuinely hate myself. I’m a negative, toxic person. I’m selfish and insecure. I crave attention. I drive people away. Multiple people have cut me out of their lives completely because I’m so miserable and difficult to deal with. I’m 25 and this goes back to middle school. When I look back on my life I just feel pathetic and ashamed. Everything from age 12 on is just cringey and humiliating. 

I haven’t cut or anything in probably six months. Maybe more. I don’t really keep track anymore. But I really want to right now. 

I wish I could just go back to sleep and not wake up.