Maybe I should just drown myself and die (CW: suicide) I'm Grace, I'm a 17 years old Vietnamese trans girl. I just can't handle it anymore at this point.

From my prediction, it could take up to 9-13 years for me to finally be able to transition. With how bad my dysphoria has gone due to my parents strict gatekeeping and other pressures such as school. I just can't take it anymore. 

Every single day is painful and agonizing. The only time when I feel truly peaceful nowadays is when I sleep but then I just don't want to wake up at all.

I just want to end it all. But I'm so pathetic that I can't even tie a noose. I have an addiction to self harm that has been stopped from several months ago, but these pressures make me want to do it again.

I figured out that i would do better if I just jump out of a bridge or drown myself in a 2.2 meter pool. I can't take it.