not sure if i should quit yet i have a fulltime job and nothing to do in this city. it tires me out so much i don't think i have anything to look forward to/waiting for me at home. i wanted to quit before scoring this job, but now i just. i'm too tired, this is the one thing that relaxes me. i cry every day, i cry in the car on the way home and when i don't smoke i can break down over the smallest things. weed is helping me handle it. is this an excuse? i'm getting to know myself better, it gives me the motivation to produce music and art on my free time, helps me forget i'm not living the life i want to. i might have tricked myself to see it like this though. what better time to stop than now, i know, i know but. am i strong enough to do it? this can't be good for my lungs or my head, but it "feels" good for my heart. i'm too lost 