I cant break the cycle I drink every day, I cant stop myself. Im stuck in a vicious cycle of feeling down and curing it with alcohol and then feeling down again because I am hungover. 
I drink to both celebrate and to commiserate. I cant relax without a drink. I cant break out of my introverted-ness without a drink.

Even on the days where I have the most epic of hangovers and have sworn no more drinking, by the evening I am feeling better and supping down a beer, or two.. or six.

But I hide it well. People wouldn't say I am a drunk. I'm a well kept male in my late 20s, I eat well, never miss a day of work and am rarely sick.

The lows are getting lower, yet I still have a drink in my hand right now. I want to stop, but I cant even get through two days. 