Addicted to cutting. TW? I know this is common. But I'm addicted to the pain that's comes with cutting. I love how everything just blurs, turning into a bliss. I can't stop until my thigh is covered. I need to stop I know, but I love it so much. I just keep going back to my razors. 

Is there anyway to get the same "pain" without totally destroying my body? I've tried hitting and choking myself but that also leaves marks.