19F virgin (not by choice) I'm kind of just looking to vent.

So I'm a 19 year old college student. Never had sex, never had my first kiss. 

I have very low self esteem. I'm afraid to be naked in front of others, I constantly put myself down, and I don't do well in social events. 

People tell me I'm pretty and all that fun stuff but it's hard to believe sometimes.

I wouldn't mind being a virgin, but the fact that I haven't even had my first kiss bothers me. I'm just so horny all the time and masturbating hasn't helped much. Also, watching porn just makes me feel more lonely.