Need help trusting my boyfriend I was raped (by my boyfriends terms. I was forced to give blowjobs and forcibly fingered) at the age of 10-12 by my ex 18 year old boyfriend and some of his friends. I am 15 now and am in a relationship with my best friend of 5 years. I have the hardest  time trusting him and can't imagine us ever having sex, which I don't think is fair to him. I would like some advice on how to work on trusting him.