How worried should I be? I've been thinking about suicide a lot more these days. It's gotten much worse b recently - multiple times a day - and I really feel like I just want to end it all. But at the same time I want to keep on living and exprerience things in the future etc. 

So a fairly common situation. I'm just worried I won't notice myself slipping closer and closer to actually being able and willing to do it. 

Is it obvious when that is happening?