I'm a complete failure I haven't been on here for a while. When I first decided to stop drinking, it was because I had got into a habit of trying to end my own life when I was drunk (I was drunk a lot). I managed two weeks. Since those two weeks all I have done is get blackout drunk every couple of days. I'm so embarrassed and disappointed but I just need to talk about this.
Last night got me back in the same exact position I was in before. I drank way too much and tried to hurt myself again. When I started drinking I told myself I'd never be like that again. I'd just go for a few drinks, casual drinks. No need to go back to binge drinking multiple times a week. Now look at me. I've hurt myself, I've spent all my money I need to get me by in university on drink and I'm back in my overdraft. I'm such a failure. 