Everything freaking sucks. everything, everyone seems staged. &amp; I cannot grasp conversations without being so worried &amp; paranoid about this, my minds always going auto pilot when I'm outside walking I feel like my legs aren't even there anymore. I want to scream the top of my lungs on a really high mountain &amp; walk off. &amp; right then &amp; there I wouldn't even care anymore, I don't care about anything anymore 