Went back to work today after a (difficult) first weekend sober. My first thought was to go get a beer, but my second thought was...why? I know these are knee jerk reactions, I'm so used to having a glass of wine, or a mixed drink or a beer in my hand that I keep reaching for one that isn't there. But I can't go back to drinking, picking fights, calling in sick, spending all my money, fighting with my SO or even strangers at the bar. I'm not going to drink tonight.