Spiraling out of control I’m learning that I’ve (34F) been suffering with severe anxiety and panic attacks for probably most of my life. I’ve thought I’ve been able to control it for the most part but it’s reaching the point that it’s consuming my life. I can’t go to bed without fighting off an attack and I have one the second I wake up every single day. I’m starting to have more and more attacks in public places and all I can do is run away like a crazy person. I’m starting to panic about the thought that I might panic. I feel like I’m losing my mind and I hate myself.