When does life start to get interesting without alcohol? No matter what I’m doing, it all sounds better with a drink or 20. Yard work, drinking, going to a fair, drinking, shopping, it’s more fun buzzed, sitting at home bored, alcohol is my friend.

At what point do the normal things feel okay when not drinking? I say I drink because I’m bored, but most of the time it just feels more fun. Sobriety feels like I’m just sitting out bored out of my mind. 

Day 1 starting again, for the xth time in past several days. 