Just torn up in side, so much guilt So recently much to do with the current state of affair and a lot to do with piss poor planning my oldest son has move back home. I’m so thankful truly, but so resentful. Like what the hell is wrong with me. My little boy killed himself ,and I’m mad, hurt, confused, that his big brother moved home. It’s so f’ed up my emotions. I wanna know what I did wrong that made my little man die, and still feel  loving and caring for his older brother who’s lived on his own for 15 years. I feel like I’m failing another one. I’m so lost and confused in emotion. I can’t even explain.