I'm afraid of fully confronting my childhood experiences because I'm afraid of experiencing a psychotic break I have childhood trauma ive repressed since I was 5, I'm 20 now. When I stoped repressing a new voice started to emerge within my consciousness. This voice Is my child self, yet my child self is dark and disturbed due to the violent trauma. I don't want to repress the voice because i want to integrate it. But when i let the voice speak it brings about horrible images and a fear, a deep fear. A primal fear, the voice brings me deep. And I'm afraid of following it. I'm afraid of delving into the shadows and not being able to handle it. Of reaching a point of no return