Fuck this life. I'm a failure. 24 years of bullshit. I'm ready to go. Been severely depressed since I was a kid. Floundering in college. Unemployed in a big city with my girlfriend. Shit is running out fast. I am too paralyzed to leave this apartment. Have been for months. 

I've been wanting to form a band for years. I just can't move. Depression took the joy of music from me. Now I have no life. I've seen through myself too much. I just want to die. I need to die soon. I fucking hate life. I could never verbalize how much I hate living and the people who do it so well.