If only people would stop asking whether I’m excited for Christmas...! For the last 16+ years, Christmas has always been one of my favourite times of the year. But now I’m single (divorce finalised in Aug), and will be going to my mum’s later this afternoon.

No - I am not excited. No - there is nothing about this day that is filling me with any positive feeling. It’s just another first I’ve got to get through. And I will get through it - I know that. There may be the odd tear - but I’ll cope just like I have coped with all the other firsts. But coping and enjoying are worlds apart. 

It is kinda funny - I don’t know what people expect me to say. (I don’t regret my divorce at all - this Christmas will outshine last years.)

World, just leave me be to get through it in my own way. 

(Coincidentally- I’m full of cold/fever so I will probably sleep most of it away!)