How should I (34M) hold the memories of people from my past? TL;DR: I am attached to acquaintances in my life, as none of them can be regarded as true friends.

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I've (34M) been struggling with this idea lately that the depression/loneliness I feel is not warranted, and that I just need to straighten out my view of the world.

I miss people that I know for a fact would not miss me back (like acquaintances). I lose sleep wondering if an old lover still has any memories of us, or the shared tokens (photos/gifts) that we exchanged.

I have recently felt the slow retraction of the friends in my life. I am mad at myself for not embracing the love of my family.

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