Second thoughts about T Okay I'm sorry but I just need somewhere to rant right now...  I was thinking about trying to see a gender therapist soon, I was really excited I wanted to start t asap, but all of a sudden two days before my doctors appointment I'm kind of freaking out and having major second thoughts. I couldn't stop thinking "what if t makes me ugly" "what if I hate the way I look" "what if I get way too muscular" "what if I regret it" "what if I end up not actually Trans?" (I highly doubt that one but I can't help but think it) it's like I no longer want the physical changes I wished for months ago and I now just want my voice to change for the most part... I'm so confused and I don't know what to do. I feel like these thoughts are just ridiculous but I'm in a constant state of concern. I also keep questioning my gender again but it's clear that I am a Trans guy it's like I can't trust myself...