Rape fantasies about my abusers are the only thing that turns me on. Help. I get that rape fantasies are normal and especially common for rape/sexual abuse victims but the thing is that for a very long time now (honestly as long as I can remember) I haven't been able to get off any other way. I have kind of  a revolving door of abusers and I can't get them out of my head. sometimes I imagine fictional characters and I have tried to do that more often but it always comes back to the abusers in the end. and always it is rape, coercion, exploitation, or some other kind of abuse. it bothers me because it means these men are always in my head but also i am concerned that i can't get off without thinking about it. not sure what to do.