I feel like a terrible mother for REALLY wanting this baby to be a boy 19w4d, first time mom. We are going for our anatomy ultrasound on Wednesday at which time we will find out the gender of the baby!! I am SO over the moon excited but I have one issue...I want a boy. I want a baby boy so bad I cry every time I think about it possibly being a girl. 

I think a lot of this stems from my husband really wanting a boy and hearing him talk about having boys and how sad he will be if we have all girls. He swears that was all in jest but it stuck in my mind and now I’m scared I’ll only be able to have girls. 

Either way this baby will be loved, and I know that if it’s a girl she will have him wrapped around her finger but my stupid pregnant brain won’t rest