My granny has died and I didn’t speak to her as often as I should’ve. My granny died yesterday night and I am in ruins. She basically took care of me my whole entire childhood and treated me like I was her own. Leading to her death she was beginning to lose herself mentally and physically, so it was often hard to hold a conversation. So I would rarely call her, when I’m the past I would call her every night to see how she was doing. I hate myself so much right, I am hurting so bad bc I cannot talk to my granny anymore. I’m balling my eyes out rn. She loved me so dearly, and I couldn’t even pick up the phone and talk to her for 10 minutes. I’m shit.