I blame myself for my chronic pain and it’s destroying me I made the decisions that led up to my accident. If I would have stayed home, literally done anything differently, I would be perfectly healthy and normal right now. I would be living my normal life (as normal as Covid allows). I wouldn’t be trapped in a moment in time. I would still have dreams and goals. I made the choices that led to my chronic pain. I ruined my own life by not being more careful. I don’t know how to move forward when everything I worked for has slipped through my fingers like sand and I am to blame. I loved life and I lost it. I just can’t figure out how to accept this new reality.