Everybody Leaves :'( F26 :
In the last three months, I've lost most of my friends, my boyfriend &amp;my reputation. I am tired of feeling like I'm a burden. I desire real human connection &amp;instead constant pain.

I live/work at a job outside a small town with 400 to 600 other people - it's been hell. If I have a bad night, in some way, news spreads. I can't leave the house without feeling painfully anxious or having a panic attack before I can leave my door. I think of people knowing about what I have &amp;judging me, hating me bc of rumours. 

I can't stay in my room forever &amp;I'm exhausted. The stress keeps me up at night, gives me nightmares. I'm so lonely &amp;I just want the pain to be over. I can't live like this, I need out.