relationships are so stressful I was first abused by an adult man when i was 11 to 15. i was so badly gaslighted that i was very attached to him. I genuinely thought I loved him and owed him my life. I got into another abusive relationship when I was 16 and absolutely threw myself into it again. few years later I'm in another relationship and it feels healthy but the stress and fear is unbearable sometimes. any feeling of rejection from him kills me, makes me feel sick. ugh. want this to go away