Are you familiar with the Southern Teach trilogy and it's Area X ?
i googled it when you last mentioned it -- i saw the immediate resemblance to stalker. and also lost. i, like my friend, m., lately, have been in a mood -- a mood of tiring of being a content consumer and wanting to be a content creator. i hesitate to examine the ways others have explored the territory i might wish to cartograph.
I know that mood. Does it come and go?
it certainly doesn't believe in any other moods, as we know.
i would say it's mostly stayed since after college but it hibernates or vacations as the case may be. the jekyll to its hyde is that the obstacles are insurmountable and one should resign oneself.