The seventh holiday season without my sweet flower is upon me.
Another Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year missing my 2010 girl.
Anyone who knows me well knows how much I love this magical time of year. But honestly, there is always a point when the sadness of her absence, and the absence of any child, comes rushing in.
My precious niece is here for her first holiday season (outside of the womb), and she helps my heart immensely, but having her here also hurts. It is a tangible reminder of of just how much I'm missing/have lost. Lily would be coming up on 7-years-old next Spring. I have missed around 2,500 days of her life so far.
It feels like I'm waiting between missing and longing, as I shared on my blog last year... missing her and what could have been and longing for the future.