It’s 12 am and I am watching YouTube videos and crying. I watched a video about a family losing their 13-year-old son to natural causes. It breaks my heart to think of a family losing a child, much less a child at such a young age. Just like my wild mind does, it wandered.
Let’s just say that I am a worrier. I think about the worst that could happen all the time. I wouldn’t say that I am a pessimist, though. I feel like I mentally prepare for things that could happen or maybe I am just crazy. I don’t know.
That was the moment that I knew she didn’t want to try anymore. She was over the sober life, which was incredibly shortlived. I realized that, to her, normal life is boring. Weekly tv shows, cooking with your family, maintaining a home, doctor visits, local events, working for a living – BORING.
She’s addicted to the fast life.
She’s addicted to the high.
She’s a 49-year-old addict that doesn’t think she has a problem.
She’s a 49 year old addict that may never make it to 59.
I feel like I am watching her die and I can’t do anything about it. I am watching her mind crumble right before my very eyes. I am watching her skin deteriorate, as she picks the sores that the chemicals from her Meth addiction have caused. I am watching her health spiral out of control. I am watching my mom give up on life. I am watching her give into her drug addiction.
My name is Joyce and my mom is a drug addict. My mom has a meth addiction.
Oh Joyce, I so feel for you. Personally myself I am a worrier too. I am such an emotional person and this post was truly inspirational and moved me so much. You do an excellent job with this series. With something like this, it not only affects the person doing it but all the loved ones around them. Addiction is tough but realization is the first step towards success. That is one of the biggest steps you can take moving forward.
My heart breaks that you are having to deal with this. Prayers for strength.