I don’t feel like I am ready to do a photo shoot. I feel vulnerable in front of a camera. Despite my confidence on stage when I speak or when I conduct training with a group my old demons of being a teenager comes out.
The sad story of a girl with a disability never had dates, never went to the prom, didn’t deserve to have straight teeth – “Who would want to marry or even date her?” I was constantly bullied in the shadows or whispers.
When someone in college said I was pretty, I gravitated towards that and was taken advantage of again and again and again. I finally let go of all that stress on the day I was married. No more being judged, no more being criticized but it didn’t stop. The criticisms never end because the voices from the past keep coming back like a ghost.
Now I look at my wrinkles and my fat and thank God for Photoshop. Then again, should I show you what I look like with all my flaws? I’m already teetering on one leg with crutches in front of you.
Despite all of my flaws, I am content. I am in a career I love. I have jewelry and a clothing business that gives back to families and nonprofits. I love my husband, kids, dog, house, church, community (Mililani), networking groups (especially BNI), clients, etc. I have so much to be grateful for. That may show up in the photos and that may not. I know that this contentment is in my heart.
I’m only a $1000 away from earning a trip to Paris. I’ve never been out of the country. You can help me get to Paris. Share my page and of course purchasing any jewelry pieces. Think of Valentine’s Day!
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