I do wish I knew what it was all about . " I thought of Mrs. Raikes 's gipsy face , and Evelyn Howard 's warnings , but wisely decided to hold my peace , whilst Cynthia exhausted every possible hypothesis , and cheerfully hoped , " Aunt Emily will send him away , and will never speak to him again . " I was anxious to get hold of John , but he was nowhere to be seen .
I didn 't want to talk to John ever again