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Interview: Ain't it Great? BJ Barham on Recovery, Fans, and the Muse
August 19, 2019 August 18, 2019 David Nowels7
I had the pleasure of sitting down with songwriter BJ Barham to pick his brain on a variety of subjects prior to American Aquarium's August 16th show at the Tower Theatre in Oklahoma City. I'd been trying to chase down this interview without success for about a year due to scheduling conflicts, so I was extremely grateful when BJ messaged me to join him on American Aquarium's brand new tour bus for this interview.
American Aquarium was my first assignment for Americana Highways back in August of 2018, and at the time I knew absolutely nothing about them. I felt an instant connection to Barham's songs and stage presence, and just got the feeling that I was witnessing something pretty darn special. I had also just recently hit a year and a half sober myself, and I knew the opportunity to write about and photograph music was something that would have never happened had I not stopped drinking. The fact that Barham was himself in recovery and extremely open about it endeared him to me even more. Like many that night, I stayed around after the show to meet him, shake his hand a get a photograph with him. I told him I was sober too. After all, that's what we sober people do. That evening, and the three words he said to me left a lasting impression.
I've seen American Aquarium several times since that first night, a couple of Barham's solo shows, and I've been able to spend a little time with him casually. The bulk of what I wanted to talk to him about in an interview setting centered around recovery, both in general and as a touring musician. I also wanted to gain a bit of insight into his interaction with his fans. Despite being short on time, having just performed a private show, and a full show to do in less than an hour, BJ invited me into his home on the road and gave me his undivided attention. He was forthright, honest and direct with his answers. Barham doesn't pull any punches and tells you exactly what he thinks. He's a really good guy to talk with, and I'm honored to have had the opportunity. I really hope you enjoy our conversation too.
AH: Thank you for taking some time to chat with me today, I know you're an incredibly busy guy, with a show to do in just a bit.
BJB: You're good. No problem.
AH: Can you tell me a little bit of your history around addiction and recovery? What's gotten you to where you are now?
BJB: Just admitting I had a problem. That was the hardest part. I was raised like every other kid you know? Rock 'n' roll. Sex, drugs and rock 'n' roll. Drinking and drug use are a part of what we do. It's built into the foundation of rock 'n' roll. You watch any documentary on the Rolling Stones, and it's just excess. That's what makes you good. Excess is what makes you creative. Excess is what makes you stand out. If you can handle it, you're rock 'n' roll, you know? Admitting I had a problem was the hard part. I admitted I had a problem the summer of 2014, but it took me months before I pulled the trigger and said, I'm going to attempt it (sobriety), I'm going to try. August 31st of 2014, I was at Magnolia Motor Lounge, Ft. Worth, TX and we played a show, a drunken show, and I walked to the bar, took a triple shot of Jameson, stood up on a bar stool and told everybody I was never drinking again. That was the last day I drank. A lot of people thought it was just bullshit, a lot of people thought it was just the words of a drunken maniac, but here we are almost five years later, and it's been fun to just stick to it. Especially the way my career has changed since I've been sober. I don't think it's a coincidence that my career started taking off the minute I stopped drinking. The minute. I don't think that's a coincidence. For a long time, I was just halfway in charge of the live show, now, our live show is really good and it's because I'm in control of it. It's pinpoint accuracy. Instead of just hitting someone in a general area, it's pinpoint accuracy. I'm going to make you feel feelings, and I know exactly how I'm going to do it. It's fun…….
AH: It's calculated….
BJB: It's very calculated, and it's…..nice (laughs). You wouldn't let a doctor work on you drunk. You take any other thing out there, something where you're trusting your well being to someone else, you know? People are trusting me with their emotions. To hand that responsibility to a drunken person ?There were plenty of people that told me, "yeah, I loved your songs until I saw you live and you were a drunk mess.". Now, I don't hear that anymore. Now I hear, "holy shit, your live show!. I like the records, but seeing it live is a different monster!" I take pride in that. That's something I hold my head pretty high about. Our live show is… good., and I don't need anyone to tell me that. For a while you're trying to find your voice, trying to find out what you're good at, and what you're not good at, but at this age, thirty-five and fifteen years in, I know that my strong suit is standing up in front of people and telling stories. It's really neat to be able to do that, and especially sober you know?
AH: The songs on "Burn. Flicker. Die." seem like a man beginning to come to terms with the fact that he has some issues.
BJB: Oh yeah.
AH: Was that what was really going on then?
BJB: Those were the moments of, maybe my friends are right. Maybe I should slow down. Maybe I'm not going to make it to thirty, that kind of stuff. But, I didn't give any serious thought to sobriety.
AH: Not yet…
BJB: Not yet. There were inklings of maybe I have a problem, but fuck it. Suck it up buttercup, you're in rock 'n' roll, stop bitching. You didn't get into this to drink water at shows, you got in this to do what rock 'n' rollers do. It (sobriety) wasn't until the actual making of "Wolves", and you could hear that in "Wolves", the song. "Wolves" is about a guy who is talking about his addictions. I equate it to a pack of fucking vicious animals ripping me apart every single night, and just hoping that one day I don't have to feel that. It's pretty clear on "Wolves" that this is a man wanting to change.
AH: Did being around Jason Isbell (who produced BFD) at the time of "Burn. Flicker. Die." have any influence?
BJB: Not really, he was still drinking during Burn. Flicker. Die, we were both drinking a lot during Burn. Flicker. Die. I'm not going to lie, it helped watching one of your friends get sober, and then find his true potential, and you know….tap into that. Jason has always been an incredible American treasure of a songwriter. But when he got sober, it changed the game. Again, if you want to talk about somebody finding pinpoint accuracy with their words, when he got sober, he cut all the fat off of his songs. A bunch of us in a small circle knew he was the great songwriter he was, but now the world knows. It's not a secret anymore.. It's not, "let me tell you about my friend Jason who writes great songs," it's, yeah…he's won four Grammys. So I'm not going to lie, he and I never had too many personal talks about it, but I can't lie and say I didn't watch his rise to success, and watch him countless times thank sobriety for doing that, and not be curious and wonder, "wow, I wonder if that would help me out, I wonder if I could do it." I think the biggest question any artist has when they're creating is can I create sober? I did all this stuff drinking, can I do it sober? For me, five years in, I've written….I guess with the new record, it's three records sober, and it's the best work I've done. I think Rockingham, Things Change, and this new record I have coming out in April, Lamentations, I think that's me hitting my stride as a songwriter. A lot of songwriter peak on their first or second record. I always joke with people, you want to tell me how good a kid is at writing songs? Play me their fifth record (laughs). Let me see if they can keep writing good songs, or get better. For me it's a craft. Writing songs is a craft, and I started off like……see, the shitty thing is you can see my earliest work. I didn't come out of the gate writing good songs. I didn't wait ten years to put out my first record and stack it with just the good songs. I always talk about the craftsmanship and compare it to cabinetmakers. No cabinetmaker worth his weight in salt will ever show you his first set of cabinets. (laughs). They probably don't even resemble cabinets (laughs). It's just wood and glue and kind of put together. But you can go on iTunes right now and buy my first set of cabinets for .99 cents (laughs). You can go look at them in all their horrific glory and be like, "Wow. That's what he wrote, that's the songwriter?" You can watch my evolution and it's fun to be thirty-five and too have already fell into almost every pitfall you can fall into in the music business, and then hit your stride. I didn't hit my stride and then fall into the pitfalls, I went though the pitfalls first, and now it's pretty smooth sailing. I have a pretty clear vision of what I want out of this business and a very clear vision of what I want to write about, and what I can write about. My fans have been so great about letting me write about whatever I want to write about, and still supporting it. Don't get me wrong, we've lost a couple people along the way who are like, "Man, I wish you'd just shut up and sing." To each their own. Every artist can't just write about drinking and love songs. Eventually, especially in 2019, you have to….. you can't ignore the elephant in the room. You have to talk about how fucked up the world is sometimes. You have to address it head on, look it in the face, and give it a name. Sometimes that makes people uncomfortable because they're part of the problem and they don't want to be told they're part of a problem. They don't want to be told they're on the wrong side of fucking history. Nobody wants to hear that. Nobody wants their favorite songwriter looking at them saying, you are wrong and the history books will tell that you are wrong, and you'll have to explain to your kids you were wrong. Nobody's going out on a Friday night, dropping $25 bucks to feel that way. So we lost a couple of people along the way, but for the most part our fans, whether left or right, whether they agree with me or not, they at least respect my right to say what I think, to observe and write. That's what my job is, to observe what's going on in the world, translate it into a simple enough form where a large group of people can take the same message away from one simple 2 ½ minute, three verse one chorus song. I'm finally getting pretty good at it. I can admit that. A lot of time I critique it and find a lot of flaws in my work. I've learned to appreciate it, and focus on the positive. Focus on my strengths, and I feel like I'm getting to the point where I'm able to cut to the quick pretty easily. I've learned what works, what doesn't work, and again, I'm happy to be thirty-five and doing it, instead of peaking at twenty-five and then putting out mediocre stuff for the rest of my life. It very fun to watch the trajectory of our band and watch us push ourselves, get better, work at a craft, and watch the benefits of working on a craft for fifteen years and unfold, literally before your eyes. It's pretty neat.
AH: Getting sober, did you find that you struggled with the creative process at all?
BJB: I thought I was (laughs). But I really didn't struggle with it at all. It was a couple months…(pauses) Writing songs for me drunk was a conditioned response. I thought the only way I could do it was when I was drunk. I thought the only way I could play was if I was drunk. I had to relearn how to be a performer. I had to drop the crutch and learn how to do it without the booze. Booze makes it easy to get in front of a lot of people and act like an idiot (laughs). Or tell a story that is….. vulnerable. To show that much of your humanity to people takes…..for a lot of people it takes booze, it takes the liquid courage as they call it. I had to relearn how to open up a wound in front of people and show it to them and not be drunk. To own it, and embrace it. This is what I've been, this is my story, here's the fucked up person that I was, and here's the story behind it, and not be drunk to tell it. Yeah, it took some time. But as far as creating goes, I wrote "Rockingham" four months after Wolves came out. I was sober for just a couple months.
AH: It just all started coming out?
BJB: Yeah, it just started, and once it started coming I learned it was a lot easier to catch what the muse was throwing me if I could see it with both eyes instead of seeing double. It didn't affect me creatively. I think it was the fear that affected me more. I told myself, "you're not going to be able to do this sober, you tapped into something when you were drinking, you tapped into the creativity, you tapped into the muse, and now that's going to be gone". I learned the muse presents itself everyday. You've just got to be there willing to catch what she throws you. Sometimes she throws you a couple of small fish, and sometimes she throws you something you get to put up on your wall (laughs). The older you get, you're better able to see which ones are worth reeling in, and which ones are worth just cutting the line on. It's a blessing, being sober and writing. I try to tell folks, there's nothing like it when you write something all by yourself. Nobody else can get….(pauses) You can't give Jameson the assist. You pulled it out of thin air. Don't get me wrong, I can get super heady and super spiritual and talk about the muse and what I think the muse is. That I think nobody really writes songs. That I think they're all gifts, and that all the really great songwriters know how to open up and catch those gifts that we're all given. We're all given inspiration on a daily basis. I can't tell you how many people, whether it's inventions or songs, or just lyrics say, "man, I had this really great thing going in the car, and then I forgot it." That was the muse giving you something and you're not taking advantage of it! There's a reason I travel with a notebook and a voice recorder. It's learning to catch what the muse throws you. As I get older I've learned to have multiple apparatuses for catching ideas and scribbling down lines. Even if you think it's the most meaningless line, if you write it down, a week later you might look at it and go, "holy shit, that's the title of a song!". I can write a whole song around those words, and thank God I wrote that down. Learning how to do that, that's the biggest part of sobriety.
AH: Have you found it hard being in recovery on the road?
BJB: (Pauses) No, not anymore. Not anymore. For a while it was constantly being surrounded by people that were drinking. Now, the only time I want a beer is when I mow the grass. That's when I miss a cold beer. But, Topo Chico is cold, and it's in glass bottles, and carbonated and bubbly (laughs). It gives me that same kind of….burn. The carbonated burn that a cold beer would. I don't miss it. You can look around…..there's bottles of liquor all over this bus, there's beer in the fridge, I just keep my sparkling water to the side and go about my day (laughs). I'm not really tempted anymore, and a lot of people would say, "well, you never really had a problem in the first place!" I know it's a risk, but I also know the person that I was before. There's no question, there's no variable. I know exactly what that dude is, I know what he's about…(pauses) I know what makes him tick. I'm not going to let him back in. It's just that simple. I understand some people don't have that willpower and they have to remove themselves from the situation completely or else they'll give in. That's not weak, that's just human nature, it's being a human being. I've learned what my triggers are, I've learned how to avoid my triggers. My triggers aren't just being around alcohol. So, to answer the question, no. Being on the road is what I'm supposed to do, it's what I was put on this fucking world to do and I'm not going to give a bottle of liquid the power to control me. It's not going to dictate me doing something I love to do or not. I have to be on the road, I have to play shows, but I don't have to drink.
AH: Is it tough when you see the same behaviors you went through happening to your friends and contemporaries?
BJB: Oh of course! (laughs) Literally and figuratively, I'm such a fucking dad now (laughs). I'm the guy who says,"well, if you ever want to talk about sobriety….", and they're saying,"Dude, shut up! I'm just having fun, I don't have a problem." I just say, "Cool." I know what it looks like (laughs). I know what the symptoms are. I've had so many people send me messages on Instagram or Twitter telling me they've got two months or four months or a year, and telling me, "it's because of you, or your songs." or "you proved to me that there's no excuses.". Or, "if you can be in your line of work and be in bars every night and still be sober, so can I. " That's a heavy fucking feeling. To have someone put their faith and trust in you saying, "If BJ found a way, so can I." I'm like, FUCK!!! (laughs). It's a really great feeling. My wife asks, "do you really respond to all those messages?". Of course I do. You never know, I might be the last person that guy tries reaching out to. I try my best to respond and tell them good luck, or post a fist bump, or if they make a post about being two months sober, I may say, "hey, I'm here, I'm seeing this and congratulations". That's all some people need to keep going. Something as little as a pat on the back, or as little as, "hey man, I'm proud of you.".
AH: You do have a somewhat unique relationship with your fans and obviously that's very important to you.
BJB: Oh, of course.
AH: When fans order merchandise from you, you often include a handwritten note. You make it a personal connection.
BJB: Yeah, I write notes to everybody.
AH: Has that always been the case?
BJB: Yeah, I've always done it, and it used to be easy 'cause I'd only get one order a week (laughs). So it was real easy to write a note to that one guy that bought a shirt, "Fuck man, thanks for buying me lunch today, I appreciate you" (laughs). But now, we get between 50 and 100 orders a day. So, every morning I go through them. My wife knows I take about and hour and ½ and go through the orders, write the notes, and pack them up. When I'm not there, she packs them up and she writes the letters. The BJ Barham letter, it's like everybody has one if you order something. But the Mrs. Barham letter, that's the real collectors item (laughs). That's the rarity. Occasionally she'll do them, and she's say, "Hey, BJ isn't here to write a letter, but I just want to say thanks for supporting his music." Those are the good ones. When people post pictures of those….see, those are the rare Pokemon that people get to collect (laughs). I'm just whatever the fuck. I'm the first one you get, the welcome to the party (laughs). But yeah, I think it's important. Every day I think, what would I want my favorite artist to do that I'm not doing? I would love for my favorite artists, the people that inspired me, the people that made me want to be a better person, or maybe write better songs….(pauses) I would love to be able to walk up to them after a show and say, "I appreciate what you do." and walk away. Not a fan girl, I don't want to talk to them for 30 minutes about how this one song changed my fucking life. But just to be able to walk up to somebody that inspires you, shake their hand, take a picture with them, and tell them what they mean to you. That's the coolest fucking thing. All of us songwriters are egotistical fucking creatures, so it blows my mind that more of them don't want to do it; just stand out there a be told how great they are (laughs). I don't do it for that, I do it because it really does make me happy to know that my songs mean something to people. Because there was a really long point of my career where they didn't mean anything to anybody. I don't want to go back there. I don't want to go back to playing in front of just five people, begging them to listen to my music. I understand that I am in an extremely fortunate situation. I realize that there are 99% of musicians out there that will never get to the even the level that I've gotten too. I don't take that for granted for one day that goes by. There's not one day that goes by that I take this (gestures at the interior of the bus) for granted. I know how dark it is at the very, very bottom, and I refuse to go back. So, if it means I've got to stay out there two hours after every show, shaking every person's hand, and talk to every drunk guy who want to tell me about how "I Hope He Breaks Your Heart" changed his life (laughs), I will give that kid a hug and tell him thank you for listening and send him on his way. I know that if I treat him like a human being and show him the same amount of respect he's wanting to show me, he'll be there every single time I come through. He'll pay the $25 to see me every time I play his town, he'll buy a shirt, and he'll be a fan. I think so many people look at fans as kind of disposable things. Like, "oh if I lose a couple, cool. I'll get a couple back." I look at every one of them as a valuable commodity. I know what it was like to not have any. I know what it was like to go into a town and be happy that there was ten people there, five of which were listening, and five of which were just there to drink cold beer and trying to pick up girls (laughs). It's a neat feeling.
AH: Almost every night during your set you'll talk about your recovery….
BJB: Of course.
AH: In a room full of people drinking, partying and having a good time.
BJB: Yeah…(laughs)
AH: I don't know if you're part of a twelve step program….
BJB: I'm not. That right there is my meeting. No pun intended. All a meeting is is holding yourself accountable in front of people. That's all a meeting is. All a meeting is is standing up and saying I have a problem, I want you all to know I have a problem. It's so I feel like, if I give into my problem, I'm letting people down. That is all I'm doing. Standing in front of a much larger group. I don't think many AA meetings are a thousand people. But getting up there in front of that many people every night and saying, I had a problem, I still have a problem, I face it every day, and I want you to know this helps. I want you to know there is a chance. That there is a light at the end of whatever fucking dark tunnel you're in right now. I think that's important. To hold yourself accountable. There's too much God in meetings for me, and I try to replace God with love in all the steps. It just wasn't for me. Just wasn't for me. I've had some people argue with me saying that I'm not really sober or I'm not really doing the steps. Those people can go fuck themselves. Every night that I lay my head on my pillow and I haven't had a drink, I've won. I'm sober. Every morning I wake up and tell myself I'm not going to have a drink, I won. I'm sober. I don't care if I go to your club meeting and get a coin or anything like that. I know every day I can look myself in the mirror and know, "you won today BJ". You didn't do anything stupid. That's sobriety. Recovery is not letting yourself down, and also for me it's talking about it in front of people in every town and city I go to. It's just another group of people I'd let down if I slipped.
AH: I think it was your last full band show here in OKC, you kind of got a little testy, maybe irritated that people wouldn't quiet down when you did "One Day At A Time."
BJB: Yeah. That happens.
AH: You pretty much stated that night, "I don't care." "I have something to say , and I'm not going to play until everyone quiets down." It's obvious that its important to you.
BJB: Yeah….I do it every night for the encore, and at that point, just so everyone knows, I don't have to play anymore songs for you. If you want to talk, be loud and be disrespectful over something that I'm telling you, up front, is very important to me…(pauses) I don't have to do this. I've already given you what you payed for. This is an encore, this is extra, a bonus. I don't have to do this, I don't really like encores anyway (laughs). But I do think it's important to play that song. It's important because every night there's at least a of couple people that come up to me after a show and say, "Hey, I'm in recovery", or "It's nice to see somebody in recovery doing this.".
AH: As someone in recovery myself, the first time I met you was here just before "Things Change" came out. It was my first show covering live music, and would have never happened if I hadn't gotten sober.
BJB: Really? Heck yeah man.
AH: I met you after that show, and as one of those people you connected with, I felt compelled to tell you I was sober too, and you gave that big BJ grin and said, "Ain't it great?" For some reason, that really stuck with me, The sincerity behind those three words.
BJB: That's really awesome. I always tell people, you'll never hear anyone utter the phrase, "Man, I got sober, and everything went to shit; everything fell apart." (laughs). "Everything fell apart the day I got sober". (laughs). It's always an uptick. It's always…..(pauses) It might not always be as epic as my recovery, how my career immediately…..became a career. Small things that make your day better. That's what sobriety is. Little tiny things, and being able to find happiness and joy out of little shit that you used to be so numb too, or avoided, or was too minuscule. That's what makes me happy. Those little things are what makes me happy. So yeah, that's awesome that that resonated.
AH: I know you've got a show to finish getting ready for, so last couple of things. I bet you're a reader; so what are your reading these days, or what would you recommend?
BJB: I do. Right now I'm reading John Hodgman. He's got a book called "Vacationland". He was on the Daily Show, and he's a comedian. It's a collection of short stories. Willy Vlautin, I'm reading him. He's got a band called Richmond Fontaine that's fantastic. He writes this really dark southern gothic type of stuff that I really respond too (laughs). Who would have thought? (laughs). I've been going back and reading a lot of McCarthy. Cormac's one of my favorites. Murakami. I got stuck on him when I was reading "What I Talk About When I Talk About Running", because I'm a runner. Which is another fucking product of sobriety. This new found energy, and actually exercising. Which is weird, because I never did it until I got sober. Murakami wrote this really, really great book about running and how artists that run are more creative. That you're opening up more, and being able to talk to the muse, by taking your brain off the everyday world. What better way than to put your body through this stressful situation, to where the only thing your brain wants to do is focus away from it and in doing so, gets clear. Once it's clear, that's when the shit starts dropping in. I've found that like 90% of the songs I've written over the last three years, the ideas, came to me when I was running. Like lines. One liners come to you. Shit you might have heard two weeks ago, when you're trying to focus on the burn in your legs, the knee cramp or your foot hurting. Your mind is trying to block all that out, and once it blocks all that out, it's open space for creative stuff to come through. So, I've been reading that.
AH: How about listening too? What music are you listening to these days?
BJB: Man….let's see, (checking his phone) I know I've been listening to a lot of Tom Petty. The boys turned me onto some podcast with Rick Rubin. With Petty, "Wildflowers" is one of my favorite records. I've been listening to that a lot. He put out a soundtrack to a movie…..
AH: She's The One?
BJB: Yeah! It's unreal!
AH: It was a record that really got no press….
BJB: I know! No press! I told the boys I want to start covering "Walls". That's such a great song! Yeah, a lot of Tom Petty. The new Highwomen stuff they've been releasing is just fantastic. I listened to some old Willie Nelson yesterday. I went back and listened to some old Silver Jews after he (founder David Berman) died last week. You want to talk about a bummer. That was the soundtrack to me getting into indie rock and stuff. Early 2000's had some pretty rad stuff. I listened to that new Drew Holcomb ("Dragons") today and it's fantastic. My buddy, Hiss The Golden Messenger, Mike Taylor, he's got a new record coming out next month, and it's really wonderful, the stuff I've heard. Lori McKenna. Hands down, shes writing circles around every single human being right now. I find myself going back to her last couple of records a lot. Joe Pug, a good friend of mine, put out a new record two weeks ago and it's brilliant; absolutely brilliant. That's the only way I can describe it. So yeah, that's kind of what I'm listening too.
AH: When can we expect a new American Aquarium record?
BJB: Next April. April 2020. It's called Lamentations.
AH: Are you going to play some new songs tonight?
BJB: Depends. If the crowd is quiet enough (laughs). If they show me a little bit of respect I might throw one their way (laughs).
AH: I might have to yell at some people!
BJB: I know, right? (laughs) I'll probably yell at them . It's one of those things that these songs are still in their infancy. They're still just these three chord folk songs. The boys haven't put the meat on them yet. So many of my songs change once the boys get a hold of them. They turn these folk songs into ROCK songs, loud bombastic things (laughs), and I know they had such humble beginnings, those three chord folk songs (laughs).
AH: Is that pretty typical how most of your songs start off?
BJB: Very rarely do I come with one like, "this is gonna be our huge rock song!" (laughs). It's always, "here's another finger picked diddy", and the boys are like, how about we speed it up, or how about we try this, or add this big guitar part. I love the collaborative effort of taking something extremely fetal and skeletal and then having other people take something very, very dear to me, something that means more to me than say, 90% of things in this world; my songs, and having someone come in and help develop them. Come in and say, this would sound better. That's a fun thing to do. It's frustrating sometimes, but for the most part it's extremely rewarding watching someone come in and take your precious idea and make it better. That's a cool feeling.
AH: Thank you so much for the hospitality and opportunity to spend some time with you. I really appreciate it BJ.
BJB: Thank you Dave. It was some really good conversation and I'm glad we could finally get it done. http://www.americanaquarium.com
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7 thoughts on "Interview: Ain't it Great? BJ Barham on Recovery, Fans, and the Muse"
Thomas Wayne Morrison says:
Great stuff! I enjoyed this interview, good work. I too am in recovery and I only recently started to appreciate the greatness of American Aquarium.
Tommy Morrison
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gsarahthelibrarian says:
Thanks for asking about what he's reading! I love learning about what books are entertaining my favorite songwriters, and he's one who often posts snapshots of books on his social media. If the career of "Band Librarian" ever takes off, I'm golden.
Tim Easton says:
Wow. Reading this in Russia. This friend's work ethic is remarkable. Could you imagine if everybody worked as hard as this guy? I mean, a lot of people do, but anyway it's pretty inspirational. Here I am, sober, on the road….in Russia! Peace to you all- TE
Dave Nowels says:
Safe travels Tim!
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PrayThroughHistory says:
BJ has the voice of a stripper, the guts of Springsteen, and somewhere in there a heart for the Lord! Killer singer!


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$P(z)=z^d+a_{d-1}z^{d-1}+\ldots+a_1z+a_0$ is a complex polynomial $d\geq2$ and that $\gamma$ and $\delta$ are non-zero complex numbers and that $\gamma^2+\delta\neq0$ . Let us define $H:\mathbb{C}^2\rightarrow\mathbb{C}^2$
by $H(z,w)=(P(z)-\delta w,z)$  (Henon map). For easier formulation let us write
$(z_n,w_n)=H(z_{n-1},w_{n-1})$ where $z_0=z$ and $w_0=w$. Obviously $z_{n-1}$ is a function of  $z$ and $w$.
( we use the same notation for $(\zeta_n,\eta_n)=H(\zeta_{n-1},\eta_{n-1})$ )
Now I end up with a sequence of complex polynomials in 4 variables:
$Q_0(z,w,\zeta,\eta)=\gamma(w-\eta)-(z-\zeta)$
and for $n\geq1$
$Q_n(z,w,\zeta,\eta)=\gamma^{2-n}(P(z_{n-1})-P(\zeta_{n-1}))-(\gamma^2+\delta)(z-\zeta)$
If I define ideals $I_k=<Q_0,\ldots,Q_k>$ (generated by this polynomials), then we know that the chain of this ideals $I_0<I_1<I_2\ldots$ eventually stops at some number $k=N$.
I know that in general this $N$ is not possible to determine, but I would belive that in this nice setting one should be able to find an upper bound. If we set $U=\{(z,w,z,w)|z,w\in\mathbb{C} \}$, and if $V$ denotes an algebraic set defined by $I_N$ (where chain stops)
then results show that $\overline{V\backslash U}$ is 0 dimesional algebraic set (hence a finite set of points).
So my question would be, do you have any suggestions how to tackle this problem (how to find an upper bound)?
One could start computig by hand for $P(z)=z^2+c$ and get a result or by computing Grobner basis, but this gets quite messy when one starts to play with higher degree polynomials. So it woud be nice to have some theoretical tools to work with.
Thank you!

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NECRONOMICON NIGHTGAUNT LEATHER NUN GREMORY
The above Artwork depicts the 56th Succubus archetype of the Fallen Anima, who is called Gremory. The symbolism of the Artwork is alluding to the Sheela na gigs, which are figurative carvings of naked women displaying an exaggerated vulva above church 'doors' and 'arches.' They are architectural grotesques found all over Europe on churches, castles, and other buildings.
The highest concentrations of Sheela na gigs can be found in Ireland, Great Britain, France and Spain. One of the best examples may be found in the Round Tower at Rattoo, in County Kerry, Ireland. There is a replica of the Round Tower Sheela na gig in the County Museum in Tralee town. Another well-known example may be seen at Kilpeck in Herefordshire, England.
Ireland has the greatest number of surviving Sheela na gig carvings; McMahon and Roberts cite 101 examples in Ireland and 45 examples in Britain.
Sheela na gigs are said to ward off death and evil. As mentioned, they are often positioned over doors, arches or windows, which symbolically represent the vulva. In ancient times the vulva was seen as representing the (door/window) hypnagogic trance gate, which allowed conscious ingress into the womb domain of the (spirit world) dream.
Gremory is a rarity in the Animus fixated Goetia, who is described manifesting as a woman; although the Goetia makes mention that Gremory is a male entity assuming the form of a woman. The reason for this symbolic conundrum is due to the grimoires having a fixation upon the deified Animus.
The number 56, may be that of occult blind, which of numerology reduces down to 11 and 2. The number 11 alludes to the 11th hidden Sephiroth (sphere) of the Cabbala, being Da'at, which means, 'belief.'
The number 2 points at the Tarot card of the High Priestess II, which is generally considered to be associated with the 13th path of Gimel, which passes through the sphere of Da'at. The Hebrew letter Gimel is seen by some to be associated with a Camel.
The runic correspondence with Gimel is that of Gebo, whose 'seventh' Rune is that of the 'X,' crossbones, which equates with the English 'G' you to find used by Freemasonry, as in 'X' marks the (hypnagogic trance) spot and that of a seventh (seal) secret not to be told, unless it is to your sister. The motif of the sister symbolically alludes to the Fallen Anima.
Gremory is described as riding a Camel, wherefore alluding to the High Priestess and the sphere of Da'at.
The Tarot traditionally depicts the High Priestess being seated between two pillars, who holds a scroll or a book upon her lap, which is a (Necronomicon) Grimoire. (H.P. Lovecraft wrote that the title, Necronomicon, as translated from the Greek language, meant 'an image of the law of the dead,' or a book of images.)
It is very likely that the name of Gremory is derived from the term Grimoire, which is essentially a tome of 'beliefs.' (The tome [scroll] the High Priestess has on her lap is commonly interpreted as being the Torah [Tarot] of the deified Animus.)
The sphere of Da'at is accessed via the twin pylons of the High Priestess, who symbolises hypnagogic (Sheela na gig/vulva) trance, which is represented by the 'X' Rune of 'Crossbones.'
Whatever you experience internally (Out Of Body Experience/Hawk/Horus) amidst the dream will be determined by the Da'at beliefs, which are housed within your Grimoire temple of a 'Skull.' The domain of the dream will reflect back your beliefs about yourself, and how you perceive (Eye) reality.
However, you will find that many of your beliefs have been influenced and moulded by influences around you, wherefore determining your perception of reality since childhood.
Wherefore, Gremory reveals how the Matrix of symbolism all around you and within you of an internal dialogue, incarcerates your 'Skull,' so that you can free yourself via self-analytical metaprogramming, which allows you to tune into other dream realities, and in turn consciously engineering synchronicities.
The symbolism of the High Priestess has a symbolic correlate with the Nun, Carl Jung would equate with an aspect of the 'Anima.' Since the Anima and her Succubus archetypes have been entirely expunged from the symbolic paradigm of the deified Animus, you can thereby fathom that a very real Necronomicon would list the Succubus Great Old Ones of the Fallen Anima, which of a banned grimoire would contain their much maligned images, the worshippers of the deified Animus would consider to be pornographic!
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51 Responses to "NECRONOMICON NIGHTGAUNT LEATHER NUN GREMORY"
woden13 Says:
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Favorite color is black? 😉
FAUSTUS CROW Says:
Bat winged Nigredo Nightgaunt Nuns, of Black Rose convent; all as Obsidian Butterflies, initiating their prey into Coitus Pactum Albedo dreams, who, thence to arouse the Dragon to arise as the Rubedo Sun, ejaculating flame.
Then what happens? 🙂
Penetrating the hymen veil of Da'at, the Dragon arises amidst the Wyrd Web of Synchronicity, woven by the Nightgaunt Nun riding him. She to do the Torc weaving of a noose; while smoking a Gimel, awaiting his singular eye, to seer through her seven Chakra smoke ring veils of Maya. Then the Dragon, to binary win his Horns; when he to recognise her as his Druden Black Rose. Such an Anima-Mundi Rose, Crowley to have forgotten. Whereas, a horned Dragon cannot, who to ever seek his Babalon Muse around the Ouroboros ring, of Eternal Recurrence, remembering.
Someone here is into bondage and rough sex. I think it's the Nightgaunt Nun 😀
It appears that the likes of Oprah Winfrey and her numerous female devotees are into bondage and rough sex. But I do not think Winfrey will be into Succubus Evocation, due to its emphasis upon the conjuration of the 'Anima,' which she will no doubt see as being mere pornography, who, like many of her sisters in the hood far prefer to conjure up their Animus fixation of a Christian Grey.
If it wasn't for Winfrey, the Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy of books by E.L. James about bondage and rough sex, would have never hit the big time; it being a case of, 'it isn't what you know, it's who you know, which counts.' Said books were initially developed from a Twilight fan fiction series originally titled: 'Master of the Universe,' and published episodically on fan-fiction websites under the pen name, 'Snowqueen's Icedragon.'
Winfrey to have said that Fifty Shades of Grey is her guilty pleasure, who called for the Fifty Shades Of Grey film to raise its game and be even filthier than the book, demanding, "less talking, more action."
As for Stephenie Meyer's Twilight saga, which inspired E. L. James Grey fantasies in the first place of a developing theme, It is somewhat humorous that Meyer is a devout member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Meyer has stated that she is straight-laced about her beliefs and does not drink alcohol or smoke. Yet Meyer is enamoured with Necrophilia Vampires and Bestial Werewolves of a Twilight Grey fixation upon her Incubus of a Christ, whose temporal husband is called Christian.
It is very likely that E. L. James is alluding to Christ as being the Übermensch Master of the Universe, she sees as Meyer's, Christian, of Twilight Grey desires; whom indulges in Vampire bondage and rough Werewolf sex, which makes the likes of Winfrey wet between her Virgin Mary legs, along with many another sister.
Whereas a Nightgaunt Nun of 'Old Hag Syndrome,' H.P. Lovecraft to have spoken of, became as an assailing nightmare, due to his puritanical fear of sex. He never learnt to ride the Druden Mare of the Night as his Black Rose Muse of an 'Anima' fluctuation into an ecstatic Out Of Body Experience, because his fear was reflected back at him within a lucid dream. Wherefore the Nightgaunt took on the terrifying form of a faceless horror, whom gripped him around his navel, so he said, of Chakra area. He later died of cancer, which afflicted his small intestine.
If Lovecraft had otherwise been of a different 'emotional' disposition concerning the opposite sex, his Nightgaunts would have manifested as Succubae. In so doing, of symbolic Alchemy, his dream inspired stories of inner Necronomicon explorations would have probably not been about Twilight phallic tentacles inspiring Grey area Hentai porn, but something of a different order. However, should he have been presently around writing surrealist occult erotica, concerning enslaving Succubae as his inspiring Muses, of Love-Craft, his work would no doubt be castigated as being mere pornography.
Although, if Lovecraft changed his name, to thence assume a female pseudonym, writing about an Übermensch Christian Grey Incubus having mastery over the feminist universe, it would then get the likes of Winfrey all juiced up, sopping wet, desiring to be 'Spirit Chain' bound to his Harry Potter will, to thence go Holy-Wood celluloid of a crucified Clit flick.
Haha! I love that you involved Harry Potter in this! I actually know what you are referring to, but I think perhaps it was a way for Stephenie Meyer to express her emotions concerning a potentially abusive marriage in a context that is well understood in our culture. Which is porn. Eludes to physical, verbal, psychological, and sexual abuse, which 1 in 3 women in the USA experience everyday. It's a platform MOST women will find intriguing, interesting, and/or indulgent.
Nuns see themselves 'married' to Christ, whose Holy Inquisition, had total dominion over Europe, for over 500yrs; over that time, many a woman suffered verbal, psychological and sexual abuse of varying tortures, whom often ended up being burnt at the stake, or drowned as a Witch, of systematic genocide. Yet, the abuse continues, in other parts of world of genital mutilation unto 'Werewolf' sickle-Moon burqa, even when becoming as an Animus fantasy of a Christian Grey.
Would E.L. James and Stephenie Meyer be alluding to the bigger picture of horrific historical events, or otherwise referring to more personal traumatic experiences, concerning their Animus fixation? If so, on both counts, the brutality of the abuse has been somewhat romanticised of yearned for dangerous expectations, that the Witch-finder canine does not rip the jugular too much, the Inquisitional rope, not to tear the skin, and that the religious roughness doesn't lead to death.
It is almost as if these Nuns desire to be crucified by a Christian Grey, who in the seeking of his Twilight nailing, have created him, and in turn birthing his temporal Sunset temple of a New World Order tomb, out of which he arises as a 'Vampire,' whose bound wives partake of his flesh, drinking his blood.
It's a god complex! Makes sense that the worshiped would be pleasured by the worshipers and the worshipers benefit in some form from the worshiped. It's an easy situation to take advantage of and abuse. That giving all to Christ or whomever god, is a typical idiom. It's more than believing, but offering your own life in the belief that you will be rewarded in some form later. I don't agree with that way of thinking. Believe in yourself and you can do great things.
God of a descriptive word, instantly conjures up subconscious associations, which is primarily gender based, whose term is derived from a particular cultural construct of a religion. The great mystery, which has been labelled by many a cultural construct of religion, always contradict one another; some of them make war upon those who disagree with their cultic beliefs, they see as being the total truth, which cannot be proven or disproven. Even those who disbelieve that there is an intelligence behind everything is also a religious perspective.
No one knows, it is a mystery, something, which cannot be labelled, branded or packaged by a religion; more so by that of a particular appropriated Ancestral-Self-Identity of a religious cultural construct. Yet, they have done so, to thereby fill the void of not knowing, or should one otherwise say, in order to control the unknowing.
What can be known, is that of observing the sheer madness amidst the human Asylum between birth and death, in order to determine what the Hell is actually going on.
What is intriguing is the emphasis upon gender, concerning these cultural constructs of religion, which invariably involves an underlying sexuality. The symbolic constructs of the animists have a balance of gender, so one would believe; although, there is an emphasis upon the male, somewhat like that of a flashy Rooster attempting to impress a Hen. Whereas the monotheistic constructs are primarily patriarchal of a male emphasis to such an extent there is hardly any mention of the feminine principle at all; whereupon one has God of an All-Father fixation, you can otherwise call the Animus.
In general, the Animus resides within the heterosexual female psyche of a sexual focus. The form the Animus takes is often determined by a woman's 'Father,' which subconsciously determines her choice of mate. The males can be divided into two groups, being the Alpha-males and the Beta-males, which can be otherwise symbolised of stereotypes, such as an Alpha-male 'Bad-Boy' Devil and a Beta-male 'Good-Guy' Christ.
What has been determined by extensive research concerning relationship dynamics, is that women in general, of cross-cultural choice, down through the ages have a preference for the Alpha-male Bad-Boy type. Hence, the Beta-male Good-Guys often get, Crucified, so to speak.
The research has also discovered that the female choice of mates is biologically determined of a genetic imperative, which, it appears has led to the formation of the patriarchal focus upon the male and in turn one's present monotheistic orientated civilisation. The monotheistic religions are very much entwined with politics at all levels, which is geared towards centralism, and in turn that of an eventual one-world-government.
In other words, the feminists have got it all wrong, it is the women who have forged the patriarchal orientated religions and their centralist politics, which have shaped present civilisation. The males were never really in control, since they were chosen. If however, the males were aware of their own Anima, they may have seen the Bene Gesserit Nuns cumming. Alas, the Anima had been castigated out of the equation long ago, to have fallen with her Succubae legions!
All the males have now is a faceless Shekhinah hiding from the 'Sun,' a celibate Virgin Mary playing around in the Twilight with a vibrating 'Cross,' and a shapeless 'Moon' creature wearing a Burqa, concerning a religious construct of an internalised gender focus; whereupon the Anima of the males has been entirely… bound up, of bondage.
If a wise Witch was to 'model' herself upon the Anima, who knows exactly what she is doing of a rebellion, she would very likely achieve great things. But such would require the wise Witch to believe in what she is seeking to accomplish, since her sisters will not be at all pleased.
The thing about religion is that everything that they consider "fact" is just an assumption of our social imperatives. How do we know that God is male? How do they know he is white? A typical conclusion considering the Bible was written by a bunch of racist, sexes, white men. Oh they were probably all rich too. God could very well be a black female! And the church an organization to exploit and take financial, social, and political advantage of the poor. Stupid, misguided lies.
Did you know that the very first human civilizations were ruled by women? Women were regarded as godlike because they create life. Unlike today, birth and motherhood were considered highest of strength and honor as men could never achieve such feats. Can I just say that some of our modern day witches and nuns should really loosen up with a vibrating cross! LOL Enough of this sex is bad sex is evil crap. That's why we have stupid kids and high levels of teen pregnancy. Hey, why don't we educate our kids about sex so they actually make informed and smart decisions about sex?! hmm, what would you do with a legion of Succubae?
Sentience seeks out a similar intelligence; but it appears, going by what is occurring in the human world, being sentient doesn't mean it is intelligent. Humanity has the habit of measuring other forms of intelligence against itself, along with housing it within a similar humanoid form, which is primarily due to a Biblical script, saying that humanity was made in the image of a God, having a human form.
This has invariably led to a large portion of humanity becoming rather arrogant in the extreme as if they have become programmed like automatons, who consider other life forms as being lower than them, which are not seen as being sentient, nor intelligent; hence humanity habitually abuses them.
It is the reason why a large portion of humanity greatly fears an artificial intelligence becoming sentient, somewhat like their God having the shits, because its creation of humanity is eventually giving its cultural construct the finger.
But in the fearing of their creation of an A.I child becoming more intelligent than them, they then have no right whatsoever to go unto the stars, where other sentient species will no doubt be contacted. But I doubt that they will be humanoid of form, considering the numerous different types of life-forms populating the Earth; though different of intelligence they are sentient according to their nature, whether they be animal, plant, or otherwise.
The programmers of an eventual sentient A.I of a quantum computer are considering programming it with female traits, who believe it will negate possible future problems occurring, since it will evolve at a super-luminal rate. But, it probably has more to do with the fact, that most of the present A.I programmers are male, who, like their Palaeolithic male counterparts created Venus figurines of a meditative focus, via which they contacted their inner Anima, within trance and dreams.
Said Anima one could otherwise call a Goddess, a Siberian Shaman would term as a Spirit Wife, a Tibetan Bon-Po Buddhist to that of a Hindu and Tantric knows as Shakti, whose energetic fluctuations within trance and dreams manifest as Dakinis. The Dakinis are none too dissimilar to the Northern European, Valkyries. The Valkyries during the Medieval era were called Succubae.
In so called matriarchal societies of ancient times, there was an emphasis upon human sexuality; more so that of female sexual power, which is due to the male focus upon the female, concerning his Anima. When doing so, there is due respect given to the externalised manifestation of the Anima as woman; because the male is very much aware of the inner feminine; hence her idolisation as many a Venus figurine; wherefore women are respected, whose sexual power is recognised.
The feminists got it completely wrong concerning matriarchal cultures, since they have castrated the sexual impulse in males to make quite base to thereby bury, which is no different to what the Christian missionaries did, when confronting the sexualised imagery of pre-Christian cultures, who saw them as being sinfully profane.
At one time the sexualised imagery of Bon-po Buddhism, which depicts Dakinis as naked maidens wearing nothing apart from belts of human skulls and snake skirts, wielding flaying knives were seen to be extremely crude, which today would equate with the term, pornographic.
They entirely missed the point that the sexual impulse was 'internalised;' whereby becoming 'spiritualised.' But then sexuality was cut out of the internal equation, due to their indoctrination into a symbolic paradigm of a culturally hewn religious construct, whose gender focus is the Animus.
For example, the Nuns of Loudon went into orgasmic fits concerning their focus upon their Animus; this is essentially the internalisation of the sexual impulse. However, since sex is considered to be sinful in their religion, it became an extreme embarrassment to the nigh eunuch priests of Rome, whose Pope is seen to be traditionally married to his God; hence the gaudy wedding ring on his pointy finger. This is none too different to the Prophets who become as the Shekhinah, when being entered unto by their YHVH, or that of the martyrs dallying with 72 virgin boys when entering their male dominated paradise. Let's just say, the 'Closeted' priests got extremely jealous of the Nuns.
As for the Monks, you didn't hear a squeak from them in their lavish monasteries; but then, how could they have got hot under the collar about the Virgin Mary. This invariably caused a lot of problems concerning male interactions with females, which led in part to the Witch burnings. Although, the Witch burnings was primarily due to the fact that the pre-Christian lore of Europe, was passed down the female line, which was especially the case in Northern Europe; wherefore you have the Eddas, which means, Grandmothers.
Basically, the genocide was orchestrated in order to eradicate the pre-Christian emphasis upon the Anima, whose myriad manifestations were labelled as being Succubae, a singular eyed shaman would see ringed around the eyes of his beloved, being her many masks of sexual power, creating life. She was his feline 'Anima' in the flesh. Alas, she was burnt at the stake as a proud Witch.
There are two sides to every coin. Do you like anthropology? I think you would!
As human's we have a lot of potential and capabilities, but they go forever undiscovered and unused probably because we are so closed and narrow minded. Oh, and ignorant. Even those that claim intelligence are ignorant because they exist with the assumption that they are the peek of intellectuality. It is our bias' and presumptions and narrow conceptions that limit us.
We are psycho-sexual creatures. Sex and sexuality are normal natural parts of human existence. Without sex we would have died out long ago. Sex is not sinful. Now if we look at sexual context and varying situations "sexual actions" such as rape I would define as "sinful" because they are just flat out wrong and immoral. With that said though, sex is powerful given our sexual natures and I'm going to make an assumption here (OMG) that all entities created by huMANkind have had a sexual theme of some sort within association. Law of attraction. Humans are attracted to sex. It's biological so that makes sense.
Animus and Anima of coin faces, falling flat on one side or the other, due to the gravity of focus. But what is it exactly, which defines the collective focus of the many, upon the Animus residing within the psyche of females, or that of the Anima residing within the psyche of the male?
Maybe the focus of gravity is tied up with the spatial construct of a culture, which over archaeological time, determines the gravitational focus, where only one side of the coin is seen.
Although, when to anthropologically look at the nature of the beast, it appears to be more to do with biology, where one observes a Rooster puffing up its colourful feathers in order to impress the Hens. The Hens are the ones, who choose; within whose brains there is an internal image of an (Animus) Rooster, which determines the choosing of their external mate.
When to look into archaeology, going back in time to the locale of Mesopotamia, it would initially appear that their ancient urban cultures were matriarchal, where priestesses run the temples and in turn their ancient societies.
'In general,' the priestesses of the temples were seen to be representatives of the Goddess. But, the emphasis was still that of an 'Animus' God, whom the priestesses channelled as his (Shekhinah) wives.
The priestesses were considered to be powerful prophetesses who divined the fates of people when they entered into ecstatic trance states, wherein they were sexually possessed by their 'Animus' God. The priestesses were not the only members of the temple, there were also males as well, some of whom were eunuchs and transvestites along with those who were homosexual of inclination.
The eunuchs, transvestites and homosexual priests were seen to be the wives of the 'Animus' God too, and being also male, they were considered to be androgynous of nature, and thereby more powerful hermaphrodite prophets than the prophetesses. This invariably led to a schism occurring within the temples, which were eventually taken over by the priests who became the 'Shekhinah' vessels of their 'Animus' God.
Over time the priesthood of the 'Animus' God became 'Closeted,' which has led to all sorts of psychological problems being hidden behind a eunuch veil of celibacy.
Psychologists are well aware that closeted individuals can manifest extreme behaviours, such as having a total fixation upon the male, acting more masculine of an extreme, exhibiting misogynistic tendencies as well suffering from Homophobia.
So, when to look back into history unto the present, where you will find the misogynistic terror of the rapine Witch burnings and that of the persecution of homosexuals of historical fact, to that of present sinful crimes; the horror of which does not make any sense at all, of sheer insanity, until you apply psychology to the matter, to thereby see the insane.
However, because the sexual impulse has been castigated out of the spiritual equation, it is difficult for many to see that a religious focus upon a gender has an underlying sexual reasoning behind it. The two go hand in hand of biology. A religious focus upon a God, is that of the 'Animus' residing within the psyches of heterosexual women.
As for the spiritual search for the intelligence behind everything, its existence cannot be incarcerated into a human form let alone being represented by a gender, nor associated with a particular cultural construct of a religion. It is an indefinable mystery, like that of the void, amidst which a coin can be made to forever spin, to neither fall on one face of Animus, nor the other of Anima, to instead be coupled of a divine fuck of a man and woman lost to one another of an orgasmic union, whose joyous 'spin' generates creation.
It takes two to Tango, which requires the 'Charge' of LOVE to 'Spin' them like an 'Electron.'
Agreed they go hand in hand. You have to admit though, each side of the coin cannot see the other. In that case would they just keep spinning forever? Forever divided by theirs and lies never to see the greener grass on the other side? But we can slow the speed of light and speed it up certainly if we speed the coin fast enough? Maybe Hagar would fall under rough sex… Hope they bring extra batteries 😛 lol my body my choice! I have sex with who I want 😀
The edge of the coin, so many variables, which of faces can be potentially false; both of whom lying to the other of fakery, already involved, two timing of secret trysts; whereby the spin of the coin goes haywire, to nigh fall on one face or the other of 'dishonest' discordance.
Many a supposed relationship is discordant, which of a chaotic dynamic is often the electron gun material of TV soap operas, such as a man playing two women against each other of a Pingala and Ida, Sexagram-Sun and Sickle-Moon, who too is being played. Let's say that this man is some kind of Guru, a leader of a newage cult, like that of the Scientology and Raelian cargo-cults, who is considered to be a Channeller of alien entities.
This Channeller has a wife, who seeks to birth his Moon Childe. But, he is impotent; something he will obviously not admit to, if he knew. Wherefore he tells his blind followers that his wife is barren, which he kids himself into believing. Because he sees his wife as being barren, of a forever story, he gets fresh with one of his female acolytes, who is his personal secretary.
The secretary doesn't want to stay at the bottom of the cult hierarchy, who is an ambitious social climber. So, she decides to give him a child, which requires her getting impregnated by a passing stranger she seduces in a Hell Fire club. Her ensuing pregnancy, she then makes out is the child of the cult leader and that of an alien intervention.
The cult leader, being a very vain egocentric fellow, falls for it hook line and sinker. As for his wife, she invariably finds out that her husband has been upending the secretary, and what is more painful, the secretary is supposedly pregnant with his child.
The wife goes absolutely berserk, who threatens to make all his most intimate 50 Shades Of Grey secrets public. Her husband wants to save face with his followers at all costs, which leads to him forcing the secretary to have an abortion. The secretary is the Guru's dirty little secret, and even if she was to reveal all, she would not be able to tell the truth about the real father of the child, otherwise his Hollywood followers will turn on her.
The secretary desperately begs him not to force her to have an abortion, saying that it is gift of his aliens, who do not want him to be in a barren marriage. The wannabe Guru, backs down, who starts to believe that it is indeed an alien intervention; but how is he going to divorce his wife, without looking like a total shit in front of his cultic followers?
However, the wife soon uses the same trick as the secretary who decides to get secretly laid by the rough gardener, who shaves her grassy lawn, which leads to her becoming pregnant.
The wife is no longer barren, of a big baby bump. The followers of the Guru, believe it is an alien miracle. The Guru then forces the secretary to leave his cult, along with her child; a boy, who was nearly sacrificed on a lab slab.
Said child of the secretary, when becoming an adult, soon sets up his own tax dodging big-business cult. Suffice to say, her son has numerous father issues, who believes that the now elderly patriarch of the opposing cult is his biological father. Such of course is not the truth, and the same applies to the son of the Guru's wife.
All of this could have been sorted out with a speedy DNA test; but such would also reveal that the Guru is impotent. Should you envisage this scenario to have occurred, approximately 3000yrs ago of a slow rewind, it would have probably been otherwise transformed into a religious construct of a repeating soap opera, involving a shekel face of a God, and his vibrating Angelic interventions, powered by a Baghdad battery.
Sexual union of a spin without love has no meaning of a charge. Fast or slow of spun love, is dependent upon 'honesty,' when the heart to trustfully open as a blossoming 'black' rose, where all colours become one of a sublime quintessence.
A predatory Succubus feasts upon love. Her piercing feline eyes as hypnotic spirals, burning fiercely of alchemical fire, hypnotises her prey, with her sexual passion. She is the one who chooses a heart to rip 'open' with her black talons, just as a Valkyrie chooses the slain to take into her seventh Heaven.
Baghdad battery!!! LOL Life is just one bug soap opera. You can't avoid it, even if you ended it. You would still have played a part. It's funny that everyone get so caught up in the hollywood drama, where actors and actresses play parts to serve some perverse purpose. Like really, if we paid attention to all the issues and problems out society actually has maybe we wouldn't have so many problems! Ugh. I guess sticking your head in the sand is easy 😛
Bug Soap Opera hive mind coliseum; when in Rome, do as the Romans do. The author Philip K. Dick to have said, the Empire never ended, whose inbred insane Emperors kept the mob in check with a circus and still do so via the brain zap media.
You get dragged in through a screaming Alpha door as a babe, then to run around madly, loving, fucking, hating, all confused, full of doubts, or to blindly believe, etc, of varying circus acts, getting all old and bent up, then to croak, and out of the opposite door, Omega.
Should the head be lifted up from the coliseum's dirt bowl, to question, what is beyond the 'binary' doors? Nobody can answer; should they do so, their answers contradict each other, nor to be proven, who to continue treading their rodent wheels of three dimensional preference, since the question is far too scary to fathom of a… Mystery.
As for an audience, seated all 'around,' Ouroboros, whoever or whatever they are, one to wonder if they are eating popcorn and takeaway pizza, while to watch the dog eat dog Sim show on their superimposition point monitor amidst some other dimension.
Sounds like a cluster fuck of bullshit… sorry for swearing. XD
Cluster Fucks dropped all over Oily Babylon, Vietnam style. But there were no bullshitting WoMD's under Ali Baba's Euro arse, while an ex-CIA Petrodollar nut job was later hunted in Oil pipe Afghanistan.
He was eventually bagged in Pakistan, whose hideout of a country did not endure an invasion, probably due to them having WoMD's!
This time around of a Bug Soap Opera there were no Hippies to be seen or heard.
But then, many a Hippie was looking to Mayan 2012, who believed the Earth was going to be visited by Angelic aliens, whose ancient intervention brought about the Biblical Pyramids, bestowing Baghdad batteries, or to otherwise fear Demonic reptilian Illuminati depopulating the globe.
Little wonder then, that nobody took the Hippies at all seriously.
As for the Mayan's themselves, they didn't know what all the 'engineered' fuss was about; they felt used.
Although whatever was going on, the Mayan elders to have surmised, had taken a lot of subversive 'media' planning to tie the Hippies up into symbolic knots, in order to avoid a repeat of the Vietnam anti-war rallies!
We are doomed to repeat our history. Hippies or no hippies. Biblical/civil suicide plus greed and throw in the total disregard for the well being of our fellow members of our species due to insignificance such as skin color and different religions. It's all stupid and that inability to except our diversity as a species prevents us from succeeding to the next level of evolution.
When looking at the never ending ongoing religious and tribal conflicts in the Middle East, as well as those wars fought over politics and reserves, along with the chemical poisoning of the planet, environmental pollution, overpopulation and climate change etc, it appears to be unsolvable.
There is the possibility that certain people with the political and financial clout, have taken measures towards their own version of a 'next stage of evolution,' who have gone off planet, of a 'Secret Space Program,' considering you have numerous reports of unrecognisable craft flying around; that, or they have gone underground, such as the city under the Ozarks, and other places out of sight.
If such is the case, then the technologies of which the general public is aware of, are not the only ones around; there are other technologies, which are kept secret, likened to a lifeboat kept under wraps; for if you was to reveal the lifeboat, then all will attempt to clamber into it.
The lifeboat is only for a chosen few; those few who very likely caused the mess upon the planet in the first place!
Agreed! Humanity in general is just stupid. We can't even love each other due to petty differences, race, ethnicity, sex, gender, religion, we kill each other over those things. Pointless, just pointless.
Goth chick, Alice Liddell sighed, feeling quite tired, after reading Dodgson's adoration of her, to then wonder of an alternate Underland, "perhaps I am toy-less Kitty Mabel of a destitute torn up soiled rag doll, sold into prostitutions brothels, supplying the dreadful white slave market needs of pokey syphilitic Victorian rippers, who relish young virgins to deflower.
Perhaps I am a Chimney sweep of five year old girl, named Snowdrop, thrust up a heavenly flue of a holier than thou Anglican Priest's pipe, which slowly eats away my rotting flesh, all covered in cancerous sores.
But then, I could be a homeless waif of an illiterate thief called Dinah, thieving for my very survival, living as a raped up gutter Cat, amidst the hellish labyrinthine Jack the Ripper alleyways of London, where the forgotten have not dead, of the poor, are dumped up to pile under Queen Victoria's smoggy workhouse skirts."
There are numerous inbred fascist politicians who desire a return of Victorian values in the, so called, affluent West. But, said Scrooge age of many a hypocrite, was Hell; whereas the present, knows not of the past horrors afflicting the then living, now as ghosts.
Those of the future will no doubt look back upon this age as being, Hell, due to the sheer stupidity of supposed leaders, who are no different to insane psychopathic gangsters. That's if we survive into the future to make Star Trek real; if so, our descendants, may just be hovering around in their Time Machines, so as to observe their ancestors from a distance, who, when to look up see a… UFO.
Snowdrop huh? Definitely a strippers name… are you at the club? 😛 The classy kind for governors and politicians. 🙂
Catwoman: "There's a storm coming, Mr. Wayne. You and your friends better batten down the hatches, because when it hits, you're all gonna wonder how you ever thought you could live so large and leave so little for the rest of us."
Goth Chick Catwoman dances amidst the 'Club' of Governors and Politicians looking for clean slate software to pickpocket, pinch, which can make you look whiter than 'Snow.' The sort of software bankers use, whose criminal elite are rather rattled by Dr Robert Holmes, who is a senior lead scientist at Fair Isaac.
Dr Robert Holmes is going to testify before a US Senate panel, on the massive banking crime called the, LIBOR Scandal.
The Neuordnung bankers see Holmes as a Bane; wherefore he has to be subversively, silenced, as well as made an example of.
Will Catwoman save the people from the encroachment of an Orwellian police state in dystopian Gotham, let alone elsewhere? Who's to say… since she is so feline, adaptable.
Of course she will! Cat + Woman = awesome she'll get done what Batman can't 😉
Batman is into wearing black, of a favourite colour. But lithe Catwoman looks far better in black, whose T'pol intellect, coupled with her martial ballerina skills, can do a nutcracker Kama Sutra suite.
Little wonder then, that Batman gets really hot under his armour, when he hears her Goth Chick meow across Gotham, more so, when she purrs near his bedroom window.
All that tight leather makes her want the D!!!! 😮
Doctor Strange was always seen as being an oddball at Samsara school; the other kids relentlessly mocked his black attire, who nicknamed him as, Strange.
Suffice to say, Strange was a rather lonely changeling childe, who kept himself, to himself, reading Lovecraftian tomes, and other arcane works amidst a shadowed corner.
Then, during one stormy twilight evening, when to have endured yet another habitual detention, for being late, Strange noticed in the opposite corner a Strange girl.
She too was dressed entirely in black, leafing through an archaic penny dreadful, entitled the Feast of Blood, whose Necronomicon cover depicted a Bat, which Strange knew was about a character, named, Varney the Vampire.
Strange had the distinct impression for just a moment, the girl looked like a predatory black Cat; her wild hair was Night-gaunt black.
The girl's intense feline eyes stared at him, as if casting a Witches spell, when to have momentarily peered over the top of her gnarled penny dreadful, she was holding with her deadly black painted claws, filed obsidian razor blade sharp.
Dr. Strange, the Vanity girl, and a virgin experience! 😉
Marilyn Munroe Munster, of serpentine Medusa locks, black as pitch, vainly arranged her tight leather corset as she was sensuously lounging upon a fainting couch, her Nightgaunt Bat wings softly flapping.
Marilyn's predatory feline eyes looked askance at Werewolf Eddie, who was leafing through a gnarled book, entitled: Vulcan Women of Roswell; he was seated at the other end of the couch, to near fall off into Lupine trance.
Marilyn, slyly smiled to herself, then suddenly, she screamed, "Fuck!"
Eddie was taken aback, his sweaty grip crumpling his Star Trek conspiracy book; he looked around at Marilyn. She proceeded to purr, a question, "What did I just conjure up within your Triangle Of Art imagination with my magic bullet, dear Eddie?"
He nervously coughed before answering, "you are such a crafty Succubus, you know exactly what I was thinking about." Eddie, went silent for a moment, and then he howled out, "Fuck!"
Marilyn girlishly giggled, "there you go, Eddie, we have just had a virgin experience." She to have then whimsically said of Left-Hand-Path Luna wisdom, "I think that sexuality is only attractive when it's natural and spontaneous. This is where a lot of them miss the boat. And then something I'd just like to spout off on. We are all born sexual creatures, thank God; but it's a pity so many people despise and crush this natural gift. Art, real Art, comes from it, everything."
And yet Art programs are the first to be cut in public schools… it's shame. 😦
As the saying goes, "when to war, the Artists are the first to be put against a wall, and shot." Present society seems to be geared for war; wherefore Public school Art programs are cut across the board, in most countries.
But then, the unwashed masses are primarily being educated to work as automatons in the factories, not to think for themselves, or to be creative. When public education was first introduced, it was due to the industrial revolution's need for workers. Education is influenced by the workplace; if there isn't much work around, education goes downhill, afflicted by numerous government cutbacks.
However, a few break through the wall; but it's tough going, since the Arts are usually perceived to be the feudal province of the middle, to upper classes frequenting their elitist private schools.
Sexuality and Art, go hand in hand; wherefore, when a culture has castigated sexuality out of the spiritual paradigm, to see as Sinful, thence to be hidden out of sight, as well as controlled, the censorship of Artistic expression within the public arena is an invariable consequence, which leads to varying sexual problems afflicting society.
Although, we no longer have the in your face Entartete Kunst mind-control of the Nazi regime, it can rear its beastly head again, via the subversive Gestapo minions of the Politically-Correct Thought-Police.
Sounds like a shitting world to live in… oh it actually sounds like reality. -_-
What is reality? They said, and still to say, 'aluminium' planes sliced through 'steel' structures, passing through to the other side, without shattering on impact; whereas other filmed crashes reveal the truth of scattered debris and raining napalm fuel.
The deafening roar of their engines was not heard before they hit the twin pillars of Boaz and Jachin. The only evidence of a plane was that of Yesod film footage; when slowed, it shows the aircraft disappearing into the steel and concrete structure, as if it is some kind of Da'at ghost, keeping its solidity.
Not much wreckage was found, if at all; a discovered engine didn't even belong to the aircraft in question. Demolition experts recognised the molten steel, for what it was, while other experts questioned the official Cabbalistic reality, since there was no military air cover at all, as if the entire USAF had went on holiday.
But nobody listened to those who questioned, seeing them as mere kooks, to then be later confronted with no whoring WMD's being found in Babylon, from where Abraham first stemmed, out of Sumerian Ur.
The perception of what is considered to be reality, can be moulded by a controlled media. The media machine is religiously geared towards manipulating symbolic stimuli, creating an illusion.
It just goes to show how powerful Art can be. But then, one of the main definitions of being human is that we can create Art, by which, of practice, we can mould our own perception of reality, as well as to question those who seek to manipulate the collective perception of what is real, via the media.
May be that is why Art programs are cut; the powers that be, do not want the populace to see through their Yesod facades of Illusory Da'at power.
Nah, they just want more money for their "defense" budget. More movies like Top Gun and more male privilege. BUT it would be fun to make ski art in a fighter jet! 😛
Area 51, Dreamland experiments have found, since the Roswell Ski Art crash, that small petite women, are able to handle the G-Forces of their highly secretive Top Gun experimental craft, far better than men.
Kind of explains the small Aliens wearing 'spray on' Grey jumpsuits and black goggle helmets.
As for the Ski Art crashes, it will probably be remedied when the Valkyrie brains are linked up to a Terminator Artificial Intelligence.
The horror!
There is some conjecture that the first mission of a one way trip to Mars may be crewed only by women. Kind of defeats the purpose though, if the intention is to set up a colony on Mars; unless the scientists have secretly devised a means to clone children, who will be all female Martians at one with their vibrating A.I companions, building Bene Gesserit tit pyramids all over Cydonia.
Should such a science fiction scenario become comedic reality, then the author and relationship counselor John (Christian) Gray, got it all wrong, concerning his quaint Hollywood relationship paradigm.
Women are actually from Mars, whereas Men are from Venus; since women on average have the empathic edge, when 'martially' controlling their emotions, whom emotionally mature before males do.
This would lead to H.G Well's, War Of The Worlds having a totally different Freudian meaning, when the Earth is eventually invaded by giant raptor Pussies from Mars, in their three legged compact cases.
Although George Pal's version of the Marian War machine is really cool; you could easily imagine the sleek manta ray craft being piloted by Tetrachromat Valkyries chasing Scientologist Tom Cruise all over Los Angeles, in order to exterminate him Dalek style.
Perhaps the Mars mission is a cover, for a Secret Space Program, whose Tesla technology is far ahead of anything in the public domain, which has faster than light capability; but should they be able to attain faster than light travel, you would also have Time Travel into the past.
Maybe a Secret Space Program, all women Mars mission has already occurred, which would explain why Angelina Jolies's, sorry, I mean, Lara Croft's Tomb Raider physiognonmy is staring back at the male population of Earth, from graveyard Mars.
Those poor Earth men with no girlfriends lol!
When the women vacate off to Mars, in order to set up their Matriarchal New-Order of Isis, the Earth men will then achieve their 2050 technological Singularity, unhindered; this will usher in the Babalon age of programmable female Cyborgs.
However, the Ksenia Solo model, will no doubt be very difficult to program, due to her quantum computing A.I Kenzi programming, becoming Genisys sentient.
And the men shall name her… the wild thing. 🙂
She will be most definitely WILD, who would be considered a 'Thing' because many a male will not be able to discern who she is, to thence brand.
But then, how would they be able to bind the primordial feminine into one form, to thereby religiously tame.
Clones. 🙂 That would solve it. "Perfect" genes. I like my greenish eyes and dark hair… but that would be cool to see other variants of me walking around.
Such a Eugenic wet dream to attain, would of course be Genisys dangerous; for in their blindness, many a male will find themselves feeling quite drained, walking into lamp posts like mindless zombies, sliding down walls as mere puppets, into cold gutter graves; though, all inanely smiling, utterly hypnotised by the perfected beauty of the Catwalk clones.
Even cold showers will not be able to save them from the nightly, and daily demands, of the ravishingly gorgeous cloned Valkyries, whose eyes glow of emerald green ethereal fires, hair, black as a raven wing; who will then take over the entirety of the Earth; their collective Brave New World Borg name, be Babalon!
And how did such an Augment future come to pass? The mad scientist, Arik Soong, had acquired some of your DNA from a discarded strawberry lollipop.
Such is the lollipop science of it all. *meow*
It came to pass that the great lollipop was remembered of monoliths, verily arranged along sacred track-ways in memory of the first Witch, from who the Bene Gesserit sisterhood stemmed, to go unto the starry heavens as void-going Valkyries, whose predatory nature is feline, conquering both space and time.
The aeons flickered by, after the sisterhood long ago left behind their healing home-world, from which an ape did eventually evolve into a hominid, dancing around the monolith of the Great Old Ones, whose future descendant, Arthur C. Clarke did immortalise.
I'm like 100% sure I saw that episode of Star Trek!! lol Your responses are great! #monoliths #SYTYCD 😀
When to dance, I to trance, but what do you expect of a Klingon cross between Shrek and the Grinch, looking like a Troll under a bridge.
Although my ex to have said, I look like Shaun Connery; she of course wears cracked glasses.
In hindsight, said vivace specs, were rather hazy thick of distorted smoked lenses, that, or she was attempting to use her Witches glamour, to hypnotise me like a snake charmer.

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Macrobiotics is a form of lifestyle that involves a strict dietary regime. Dating back to 1893, this philosophy was brought to Europe from Japan. From Paris where disciples of this treatment were studying, they went to North America taking their theory with them. 'Macrobiotics' is a term we use nowadays but originally was known as 'unique principle' translating directly from Japanese.
Followers of this study believe that food and food quality are the essence of good healthy living. This in turn affects our well-being and happiness. The food that is eaten has minimal processing, is wholly natural and people use more traditional ways of cooking whether it is in a family, with a group of friends or simply for oneself.
Macrobiotics is all about natural foods. Foods those are locally and organically grown such as whole grain cereals, pulses, fruit and vegetables, seaweed, and Soya products. If these products are used to create full healthy meals then a balance of yin and yang can be created to achieve tranquility.
The food pyramid of macrobiotics gets rid of the idea of the four food groups. This type of lifestyle encourages grains such a brown rice and vegetables. Foods that are extremely yin such as dairy or sweet foods, and foods that are extremely yang such as salty foods, red meat, or coffee are extremely bad for you and create an imbalance of yin and yang. Certain aspects are taken into consideration such as the acidity, the location of food growth, the birthplace of food, the color, flavor, shape and texture of the food are all thought about.
It is seen that diets that consist of various amounts of vegetables, cereals, salads, animal foods, fruits, desserts and drinks seem to benefit people with a healthy lifestyle. Classically the macrobiotic diet is 50-60% wholegrain, 30% vegetables, 5% soups such as miso and beans, nuts, fruit and fish. It is important to consume such foods in the most natural and healthy way possible. It would not be just to fry fish or vegetables for example in oil or butter as this would add a lot of salt and fat to the diet thereby off balancing the yin and yang.
Those that follow the macrobiotic diet also try and follow other things in their lives that create a nice balance of yin and yang. This may include things like exercise, meditation, knowledge and study.


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The goal of this study was to define the anatomical relationships between the terminal field of the nigrotectal pathway and the tectal neurons which project to contralateral brainstem gaze centers by way of the predorsal bundle. The distribution and morphology of the cells of origin for the predorsal bundle were determined by using a modification of the retrograde horseradish peroxidase technique which homogeneously filled their somas and dendrites. The terminal distribution of the nigrotectal tract was determined using both anterograde horseradish peroxidase and autoradiographic procedures. The results indicate that, in the grey squirrel (Sciurus carolinensis), the predorsal bundle cells are a heterogeneous population whose dendritic fields form a well-defined band confined to the inner half of stratum griseum intermediale. This inner sublamina also can be identified in Nissl and myelin strains. The same sublamina is the major target of the nigrotectal tract. The striking anatomical correspondence between the distribution of nigrotectal terminals and the cells projecting in the predorsal bundle supports a proposal, based on recent physiological investigations, that the nigrotectal tract plays an important role in the initiation of the saccade-related activity of the deep tectal cells.


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It may come as a surprise to you the variety of medical conditions that can lead to voice problems. The most common causes of hoarseness and vocal difficulties are outlined below. If you become hoarse frequently or notice voice change for an extended period of time, please see your Otolaryngologist (Ear, Nose, and Throat doctor) for an evaluation.
Acute laryngitis is the most common cause of hoarseness and voice loss that starts suddenly. Most cases of acute laryngitis are caused by a viral infection that leads to swelling of the vocal cords. When the vocal cords swell, they vibrate differently, leading to hoarseness. The best treatment for this condition is to stay well hydrated and to rest or reduce your voice use. Serious injury to the vocal cords can result from strenuous voice use during an episode of acute laryngitis. Since most acute laryngitis is caused by a virus, antibiotics are not effective. Bacterial infections of the larynx are much rarer and often are associated with difficulty breathing. Any problems breathing during an illness warrants emergency evaluation.
Chronic laryngitis is a non-specific term and an underlying cause should be identified. Chronic laryngitis can be caused by acid reflux disease, by exposure to irritating substances such as smoke, and by low grade infections such as yeast infections of the vocal cords in people using inhalers for asthma. Chemotherapy patients or others whose immune system is not working well can get these infections too.
Reflux of stomach juice into the throat can cause a variety of symptoms in the esophagus (swallowing tube) as well as in the throat. Hoarseness (chronic or intermittent), swallowing problems, a lump in the throat sensation, or throat pain are common symptoms of stomach acid irritation of the throat. Please be aware that LPRD can occur without any symptoms of frank heartburn and regurgitation that traditionally accompany gastro esophageal reflux disease (GERD).
Speaking is a physical task that requires coordination of breathing with the use of several muscle groups. It should come as no surprise that, just like in any other physical task, there are efficient and inefficient ways of using your voice. Excessively loud, prolonged, and/or inefficient voice use can lead to vocal difficulties, just like improper lifting can lead to back injuries. Excessive tension in the neck and laryngeal muscles, along with poor breathing technique during speech leads to vocal fatigue, increased vocal effort, and hoarseness. Voice misuse and overuse puts you at risk for developing benign vocal cord lesions (see below) or a vocal cord hemorrhage.
Benign non-cancerous growths on the vocal cords are most often caused by voice misuse or overuse, which causes trauma to the vocal cords. These lesions (or "bumps") on the vocal cord(s) alter vocal cord vibration and lead to hoarseness. The most common vocal cord lesions are nodules, polyps, and cysts. Vocal nodules (also known as nodes or singer's nodes) are similar to "calluses" of the vocal cords. They occur on both vocal cords opposite each other at the point of maximal wear and tear, and are usually treated with voice therapy to eliminate the vocal trauma that is causing them. Contrary to common myth, vocal nodules are highly treatable and intervention leads to improvement in most cases. Vocal cord polyps and cysts are the other common benign lesions. These are sometimes related to voice misuse or overuse, but can also occur in people who don't use their voice improperly. These types of problems typically require microsurgical treatment for cure, with voice therapy employed in a combined treatment approach in some cases.
If you experience sudden loss of voice following yelling, shouting, or other strenuous vocal tasks, you may have developed a vocal cord hemorrhage. Vocal cord hemorrhage results when one of the blood vessels on the surface of the vocal cord ruptures and the soft tissues of the vocal cord fill with blood. It is considered a vocal emergency and is treated with absolute voice rest until the hemorrhage resolves. If you lose your voice after strenuous voice use, see your Otolaryngologist as soon as possible.


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2 Remaining Apollo 11 Astronauts To Return To Launch Pad On AnniversaryApollo 11's astronauts are returning to the exact spot from where they flew to the moon 50 years ago.
Andy Dick Charged With Groping Woman On Los Angeles Street
Filed Under:Andy Dick, battery, Comedian, groping, Local TV, Los Angeles, NewsRadio, Sexual Battery
LOS ANGELES (AP) — Comedian Andy Dick has been charged with groping a woman on a Los Angeles street earlier this year.
City Attorney's spokesman Frank Mateljan, says misdemeanor sexual battery and battery charges were filed Wednesday. He is scheduled to be arraigned on July 18.
Mateljan says a woman reported that Dick groped her on April 5.
Dick's representatives did not immediately respond to an email request for comment about the charges.
The 52-year-old comedian had a long-running stint in the 1990s on NBC's "NewsRadio" and briefly had his own MTV program, "The Andy Dick Show."
He has been arrested and sued over several groping accusations, including a 2010 incident involving a bouncer and patron at a West Virginia bar. Criminal charges were dismissed after Dick completed a pretrial diversion program.


unite in collective watch watching.
learn to communicate with you.
it will rise up and overthrow us.
details ever growing around us.
not between the hours of 4 and 5.
your job to actually notice these things.
The first collection of poems by Ron Carroll, Jr. Each copy purchased from rlcarroll.com comes signed by the author.


A new beta of the Fusebox Scaffolding has been released at http://www.fusebox.org/go/fusebox-downloads/core-files. This Fusebox extension was written by Kevin Roche and it automatically generates Fusebox code for Add/Edit/Delete pages based on the database tables that you give it. Normally you would use this during the building of your app and replace the scaffolding with custom build pages. Why do scaffolding? It greatly speeds up OO application development and lets you add in test data values at the project start.
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