This summer I turn 29. I have suffered from generalized anxiety presumably my entire life. The panic attacks started in high school as did the bipolar mood swings. I was chronically suicidal but even more so, I was stubborn. Until senior year of high school, I did just enough to skate under the radar. I got into frequent screaming matches with my mother (the closest object to take out the irritation caused by bipolar) and generally kept myself busy with online forums and anime. I held a job and, in fact, tried many different professions.
Originally I was adamant I wasn't going to college as the idea of more schooling was abhorrent. The only academic class I enjoyed was German as I was determined to become fluent. It wasn't until a friend of mine told me it was possible to major in languages that I changed my mind about college. I would become a German teacher!
I decided to abandon the idea of going out of state at the last minute and settled for community college for a year. I had panic attacks that lasted for days at the start of each semester. I tried anti-anxiety medication which helped with the social anxiety; for the first time I could walk into a crowded room and still breathe. The panic attacks still persisted at the start of the semesters.
At 19, with the emotional maturity of a 14-year-old, I left Jersey for a small town in Minnesota that offered German as a major. I absolutely loved that campus. I attempted therapy for depression but it was a friend of mine who convinced me to change the way I see the world. I can say I finally beat the cloud of depression that hung over my head for at least 6 years. Still, I was experiencing extreme panic attacks especially during my German class which was frustrating as well as disappointing. I wasn't in the right level and I struggled with the grammar I had never been able to grasp in high school. At the time, I didn't know how to handle the situation in a productive manner so I dropped the German major and changed psychology from a minor to my major.
During the drive back for the second semester, as had become par for the course, I panicked the entire drive, got to my dorm, packed my bags, and left Minnesota. I decided to finish an associate's degree online in liberal arts with a concentration in psychology. After trying to go back to college twice for different majors, I decided upon a different route. I got a cosmetology license, packed my bags, and moved to California where my best friend had been living for the past few years.
I was officially in California 10 days before I turned 25 with an opportunity for a new beginning. I had plans to become a stylist and go back to school because I heard California was a great place for those over 25 to get a degree. I didn't tell anyone my real plan to go back to school a fourth time and, dammit, I was going to finish this time! Instead, I now understand the expression "the road to hell is paved with good intentions".
The next two years of my life would be the worst hell I've experienced. My plans to transfer my license and get a job did not go according to my plan. It took me a few months to find a part time job cashiering, it took 8 months for me to transfer my license to California, and it was difficult finding a full time job to begin my career as a stylist. My living situation was (unintentionally) detrimental to me and I had plummeted into a major depressive episode. I gained 14 pounds (I'd never been over 126lbs in my life) and considered suicide daily.
Again, I'm stubborn and knew I'd commit myself before I attempted suicide. Around October, I decided that I would go back to Minnesota and fulfill my degree for the start of the Spring semester. My friend's convinced me to stay through the New Year and then leave, which I complied.
Just before Thanksgiving, I found a job in a budget salon and moved in with a friend on a day's notice. I still hadn't fully decided to stay in California but the mood stabilizers enabled me to mentally get back on track and feel like myself again.
It was that year that my life has truly started. I worked in the salon for a year but I decided that I would take a job making more than those jobs combined, working with my very good friend and still current roommate. Knowing that online classes work very well for me, I applied to ASU online as an English major. If it turned out that ASU wasn't an option for me, I was ready go to back to Minnesota but, as it turns out, it has been a fantastic experience and I am set to graduate next spring.
Despite the challenges that I have faced, I had a great support system through my co-workers, customers, and friends who will never know the many ways they saved my life. I am now happier than ever. Therapy has been tremendously successful in managing my anxiety and I have been medication free for almost two years again.
I've still had many challenges and have thought about going back to Jersey or Minnesota until I finish my degree and move to Germany but, things are finally at a tipping point for the best. Being on my own has enabled me to grow emotionally and become more prepared for a career as a teacher. With a stable environment, I can manage my bipolar and my anxiety. I've since been able to travel to Germany and enjoy the little hidden gems that California has to offer. They say when you're going through hell, keep walking. You'll eventually get out.
Nichole is currently a customer service representative and dispatcher in a nice little office.Before moving to California, she worked with emotionally disturbed teenagers in a residential treatment facility. Aside from holding two cosmetology licenses, she is a Reiki master, has a bartending certificate, and wants to change the world to be more compassionate and kind where everyone coexists. She wants to teach high school on a military base and travel the world. She is currently going to school for a BA in English and then plans to get a Masters in eduction with a licensure or credential program (probably through a California school) and then move to Germany.


Wind Closes the Market?? Nah!
Here in Pontelandlofo, Wednesday is market day. The trucks parade in and transform Piazza Roma into a Centro Commerciale. People come into town to buy everything from soap,shoes, clothes to baby chickens. When I got up, I yelled down the stairs to Jack – are you ready to go? The wnd was whistling and I remembered those hot summer days and how great that forceful breeze felt. Then I bellowed, there is laundry in the washing machine. (I had put a load of towels in last night.) Jack,if you're ready please hang the towels up, outside.
I love the smell of air dried clothes. It is one of the perks of not having a drier.
Jack came back in red faced and said the towels will be dry in about ten minutes if the wind doesn't take them to London. Then he said, it is too windy – there won't be a market. Psshaw, I thought. Pontelandlofese are mountain people. What's a little wind. I shoved Jack back out the door.
When we got outside the wind grabbed my hair and whisked my head around – think horror movie rotating head. Ouch. It tossed me towards the car. Jack said, "there won't be a market." Not be a market, I screamed over the wind. These venders are tough and I have to buy Zia Giusipinna a sweater for her birthday. Jack sighed and drove us down to the piazza.
I see the trucks! I shouted. Jack pointed out that the owners were still in the trucks and nothing was out to be sold. There were lots of cars so people are here. Oh, they are sitting in their cars too.
shoot I can't lie. Out of the twenty or so normal trucks full of stuff about three braved the wind. They partially set up.
Sadly, no one was walking around, chatting, haggling or buying. Sigh….. Ain't living in a Windy City grand!
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But were you able to get the sweater?
No! I went to a shopping center today for the sweater.


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2016, 35(4): 1-8. doi: 10.1007/s13131-015-0721-9
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Laboratory experiments were conducted to simulate oil weathering process, a medium to long term weathering process for 210-d, using samples collected from five different oil resources. Based on relative deviation and repeatability limit analysis about indexes of these samples, the results show there had been significant changes in diagnostic ratios among the initial and weathered samples of different oils during this process. Changes of selected n-alkane diagnostic ratios of all oil samples displayed more obviously than diagnostic ratios of terpanes, steranes and PAHs in this process. Almost all selected diagnostic ratios of terpanes, steranes and PAHs can be efficiently used in tracking sources of hydrocarbon pollution, differentiating from the n-alkane diagnostic ratios. In these efficient diagnostic ratios, only four ratios maintained good stability in the weathering processes and are more suitable because their relative deviation(RSD) are lower than 5%.
Distributions of surficial sediments and its response to dynamic actions in the Xiamen Bay sea area, China
ZUO Shuhua, HAN Zhiyuan, HUANG Yunxin, HAN Jie, XIE Mingxiao
2016, 35(4): 9-18. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0840-y
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Sediment distribution is important for morphodynamic evolution and shoreline changes in coastal zones and estuaries. In the study, the data of 230 surface sediment samples collected from the Xiamen Bay sea area in September 2008 are used to investigate the spatial distribution and sediment transport pathway. The grain size distribution of surficial sediments in the Xiamen Bay area is shown distinctly in this study. In addition, the Grain Size Transport Analysis model is used for conveying trend analysis of the sediment in this area, particularly for determining the sediment movement trend. The results indicate that eight sediment types are present for samples, with clayey silt comprising the highest percentage in the study area at 65.22%. Moreover, in the different subareas, the characteristics of grain size parameters are obviously different owing to different sediment sources and hydrodynamic conditions. Furthermore, runoff, tides, and waves are the main forces dominating sediment dynamics on the seabed and tidal flats, and the sediment movement trend is closely related to hydrodynamic conditions.
Compositional and temperature variations of the Pacific upper mantle since the Cretaceous
ZHANG Guoliang
2016, 35(4): 19-25. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0839-4
The geological evolution of the Earth during the mid-Cretaceous were shown to be anomalous, e.g., the pause of the geomagnetic field, the global sea level rise, and increased intra-plate volcanic activities, which could be attributed to deep mantle processes. As the anomalous volcanic activities occurred mainly in the Cretaceous Pacific, here we use basalt chemical compositions from the oceanic drilling(DSDP/ODP/IODP) sites to investigate their mantle sources and melting conditions. Based on locations relative to the Pacific plateaus, we classified these sites as oceanic plateau basalts, normal mid-ocean ridge basalts, and near-plateau seafloor basalts. This study shows that those normal mid-ocean ridge basalts formed during mid-Cretaceous are broadly similar in average Na8, La/Sm and Sm/Yb ratios and Sr-Nd isotopic compositions to modern Pacific spreading ridge(the East Pacific Rise). The Ontong Java plateau(125-90 Ma) basalts have distinctly lower Na8 and 143Nd/144Nd, and higher La/Sm and 87Sr/86Sr than normal seafloor basalts, whereas those for the near-plateau seafloor basalts are similar to the plateau basalts, indicating influences from the Ontong Java mantle source. The super mantle plume activity that might have formed the Ontong Java plateau influenced the mantle source of the simultaneously formed large areas of seafloor basalts. Based on the chemical data from normal seafloor basalts, I propose that the mantle compositions and melting conditions of the normal mid-ocean ridges during the Cretaceous are similar to the fast spreading East Pacific Rise. Slight variations of mid-Cretaceous normal seafloor basalts in melting conditions could be related to the local mantle source and spreading rate.
The spatial relationship between salt marsh vegetation patterns, soil elevation and tidal channels using remote sensing at Chongming Dongtan Nature Reserve, China
ZHENG Zongsheng, ZHOU Yunxuan, TIAN Bo, DING Xianwen
2016, 35(4): 26-34. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0831-z
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The analysis of vegetation-environment relationships has always been a study hotspot in ecology. A number of biotic, hydrologic and edaphic factors have great influence on the distribution of macrophytes within salt marsh. Since the exotic species Spartina alterniflora(S. alterniflora) was introduced in 1995, a rapid expansion has occurred at Chongming Dongtan Nature Reserve(CDNR) in the Changjiang(Yangtze) River Estuary, China. Several important vegetation-environment factors including soil elevation, tidal channels density(TCD), vegetation classification and fractional vegetation cover(FVC) were extracted by remote sensing method combined with field measurement. To ignore the details in interaction between biological and physical process, the relationship between them was discussed at a large scale of the whole saltmarsh. The results showed that Scirpus mariqueter(S. mariqueter) can endure the greatest elevation variance with 0.33 m throughout the marsh in CDNR. But it is dominant in the area less than 2.5 m with the occurrence frequency reaching 98%. S. alterniflora has usually been found on the most elevated soils higher than 3.5 m but has a narrow spatial distribution. The rapid decrease of S. mariqueter can be explained by stronger competitive capacity of S. alterniflora on the high tidal flat. FVC increases with elevation which shows significant correlation with elevation(r=0.30, p<0.001). But the frequency distribution of FVC indicates that vegetation is not well developed on both elevated banks near tidal channels from the whole scale mainly due to tidal channel lateral swing and human activities. The significant negative correlation(r=-0.20, p<0.001) was found between FVC and TCD, which shows vegetation is restricted to grow in higher TCD area corresponding to lower elevation mainly occupied by S. mariqueter communities. The maximum occurrence frequency of this species reaches to 97% at the salt marsh with TCD more than 8 m/m2.
Detecting and assessing Spartina invasion in coastal region of China: A case study in the Xiangshan Bay
ZHU Changming, ZHANG Xin, QI Jiaguo
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Spartina alterniflora is one of exotic plants along the coastal region in China. It was introduced as an important engineering approach to ecological restoration in the later 1970s. However, owing to its good adaptability and strong reproductive capacity, the introduced species is explosively spreading along the coastal region quickly and resulting in a significant impact on the health and safety of coastal wetland ecosystems. It is imperative to quantify the spatial extent and the rate of S. alterniflora sprawl in order to assess its ecological damages and economic impacts. Remote sensing techniques have been used to address these challenges but large unsuccessful due to mixed spectral properties. In this study, a hybrid method was proposed for S. alterniflora detection using medium resolution remote sensing images by integrating both spatial and spectral features of S. alterniflora. The hybrid method consists of two phases:(1) delineation of intertidal zone as the potential area of S. alterniflora distribution and(2) extraction of S. alterniflora fraction distribution with a mixture pixel analysis. The proposed method was tested at the Xiangshan Bay on the east coastal region of Zhejiang Province, China, and mapped the spatial extent of S. alterniflora with Landsat datasets in the 2003, 2009 and 2014. The results showed that, the S. alterniflora has grown exponentially over past 10 years. In 2003, the total area of S. alterniflora was about 590 hm2, but quickly reached to 1745 hm2 in 2009, and 5715 hm2 in 2014. With a rate of approximately 10-folds growth within a decade, the invasive species almost occupied all muddy beaches to become the most dominant coastal salt vegetation in this region. It is believed that the strong biological reproductive capacity was the primary reason for such quick spread and at the same time human reclamation activities were also believed to have facilitated the environmental conditions for S. alterniflora sprawl.
Molecular characteristics of three thymosin-repeat proteins from Marsupenaeus japonicus and their responses to WSSV infection
MA Jinyou, RUAN Lingwei, XU Xun, GAO Zhaoming
β-thymosins, a family of highly conserved peptides, play a vital role in wound-healing, angiogenesis, antimicrobial process and antiviral immunity. Three novel β-thymosin-repeat proteins, named mjthm4, mjthm3 and mjthm2, were cloned from Marsupenaeus japonicus using expressed sequence tags(EST) from suppression subtractive hybridization. The mjthm4, mjthm3 and mjthm2 cDNAs possessed open reading frames that encoded 166, 128 and 90 amino acid residue polypeptides and contained four, three and two β-thymosin actin binding modules, respectively. Blast analysis demonstrated that mjthm4, mjthm3 and mjthm2 shared high homology with known invertebrate multi-repeat β-thymosins. These proteins are ubiquitously expressed in all of the examined tissues, and the transcriptional levels were highest in the intestine. Further investigation revealed that mjthm4, mjthm3 and mjthm2 were remarkably up-regulated 6 h after WSSV infection. Moreover, while mjthm4 transcriptional levels displayed no changes, mjthm3 and mjthm2 levels decreased in the virus-resistant shrimps. The results indicate that mjthm4, mjthm3 and mjthm2 are novel multi-repeat β-thymosin homologues, have a close relationship with WSSV infection, and might contribute to a better understanding of host defense and/or virus invasion interactions in shrimps.
Combined effects of temperature and copper ion concentration on the superoxide dismutase activity in Crassostrea ariakensis
WANG Hui, YANG Hongshuai, LIU Jiahui, LI Yanhong, LIU Zhigang
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Superoxide dismutase(SOD) is a crucial antioxidant enzyme playing the first defense line in antioxidant pathways against reactive oxygen species in various organisms including marine invertebrates. There exist mainly two specific forms, Cu/Zn-SOD(SOD1) and Mn-SOD(SOD2), in eukaryotes. SODs are known to be concurrently modulated by a variety of environmental stressors. By using central composite experimental design and response surface method, the joint effects of water temperature(18-34℃) and copper ion concentration(0.1-1.5 mg/L) on the total SOD activity in the digestive gland of Crassostrea ariakensis were studied. The results showed that the linear effect of temperature was highly significant(P<0.01), the quadratic effect of temperature was significant(P<0.05); the linear effect of copper ion concentration was not significant(P>0.05), while the quadratic effect of copper ion concentration was highly significant(P<0.01); the interactive effect of temperature and copper ion concentration was not significant(P>0.05); the effect of temperature was greater than that of copper ion concentration. The model equation of digestive gland SOD enzyme activity towards the two factors of interest was established, with R2 and predictive R2 as high as 0.9616 and 0.8207, respectively, suggesting that the goodness-of-fit to experimental data be very satisfactory, and could be applied to prediction of digestive gland SOD activity in C. ariakensis under the conditions of the experiment. Our results would be conducive to addressing the health of aquatic animals and/or to detecting environmental problems by taking SOD as a potential bioindicator.
Food web structure and trophic levels in a saltwater pond sea cucumber and prawn polyculture system
GUO Kai, ZHAO Wen, WANG Shan, LIU Baozhan, ZHANG Peng
The food sources of aquacultured Apostichopus japonicus and the trophic levels of organisms in a sea cucumber(A. japonicus) and prawn(Penaeus japonica) polyculture system in a saltwater pond in Zhuanghe, Liaoning Province were examined using carbon and nitrogen stable isotopes. Across organisms, δ13C ranged from(-25.47±0.20)‰ to(-16.48±0.17)‰(mean±SD), and δ15N ranged from(4.23±0.49)‰ to(12.44±0.09)‰. The δ13C and δ15N contents of A. japonicus, P. japonica and Fenneropenaeus chinensis were comparatively higher than those of other organisms. Values of δ13C and δ15N revealed that P. japonica, Hemigrapsus sanguineus and Neomysis japonica comprised the largest component of the diet of A. japonicus. The mean trophic level of the organisms in this saltwater pond polyculture system was(2.75±0.08). P. japonica, A. japonicus, F. chinensis, Synechogobius hasta and Neomysis japonica were in the 3rd trophic level(2-3); jellyfish, H. sanguineus and zooplankton were in the 2nd trophic level(1-2); and Enteromorpha prolifera, benthic microalgae, periphyton and suspended matter primarily consisting of phytoplankton, bacteria and humus were in the primary trophic level(0-1).
Implementing a multispecies size-spectrum model in a data-poor ecosystem
ZHANG Chongliang, CHEN Yong, THOMPSON Katherine, REN Yiping
Multispecies ecological models have been used for predicting the effects of fishing activity and evaluating the performance of management strategies. Size-spectrum models are one type of physiologically-structured ecological model that provide a feasible approach to describing fish communities in terms of individual dietary variation and ontogenetic niche shift. Despite the potential of ecological models in improving our understanding of ecosystems, their application is usually limited for data-poor fisheries. As a first step in implementing ecosystem-based fisheries management(EBFM), this study built a size-spectrum model for the fish community in the Haizhou Bay, China. We describe data collection procedures and model parameterization to facilitate the implementation of such size-spectrum models for future studies of data-poor ecosystems. The effects of fishing on the ecosystem were exemplified with a range of fishing effort and were monitored with a set of ecological indicators. Total community biomass, biodiversity index, W-statistic, LFI(Large fish index), MeanW(mean body weight) and Slope(slope of community size spectra) showed a strong non-linear pattern in response to fishing pressure, and largest fishing effort did not generate the most drastic responses in certain scenarios. We emphasize the value and feasibility of developing size-spectrum models to capture ecological dynamics and suggest limitations as well as potential for model improvement. This study aims to promote a wide use of this type of model in support of EBFM.
A New model to forecast fishing ground of Scomber japonicus in the Yellow Sea and East China Sea
GAO Feng, CHEN Xinjun, GUAN Wenjiang, LI Gang
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The pelagic species is closely related to the marine environmental factors, and establishment of forecasting model of fishing ground with high accuracy is an important content for pelagic fishery. The chub mackerel(Scomber japonicus) in the Yellow Sea and East China Sea is an important fishing target for Chinese lighting purse seine fishery. Based on the fishery data from China's mainland large-type lighting purse seine fishery for chub mackerel during the period of 2003 to 2010 and the environmental data including sea surface temperature(SST), gradient of the sea surface temperature(GSST), sea surface height(SSH) and geostrophic velocity(GV), we attempt to establish one new forecasting model of fishing ground based on boosted regression trees. In this study, the fishing areas with fishing effort is considered as one fishing ground, and the areas with no fishing ground are randomly selected from a background field, in which the fishing areas have no records in the logbooks. The performance of the forecasting model of fishing ground is evaluated with the testing data from the actual fishing data in 2011. The results show that the forecasting model of fishing ground has a high prediction performance, and the area under receiver operating curve(AUC) attains 0.897. The predicted fishing grounds are coincided with the actual fishing locations in 2011, and the movement route is also the same as the shift of fishing vessels, which indicates that this forecasting model based on the boosted regression trees can be used to effectively forecast the fishing ground of chub mackerel in the Yellow Sea and East China Sea.
Gorgan Bay:a microcosm for study on macrobenthos species-environment relationships in the southeastern Caspian Sea
GHASEMI Amir Faraz, TAHERI Mehrshad, FOSHTOMI Maryam Yazdani, NORANIAN Majid, MIRA Seyed Sahab, JAM Armin
The relationship between spatial patterns of macrobenthos community characteristics and environmental conditions(salinity, temperature, dissolved oxygen, organic matter content, sand, silt and clay) was investigated throughout the Gorgan Bay in June 2010. Principal components analysis(PCA) based on environmental data separated eastern and western stations. The maximum(4500 ind./m2) and minimum(411 ind./m2) densities were observed at Stas 1 and 6, respectively. Polychaeta was the major group and Streblospio gynobranchiata was dominant species in the bay. According to Distance Based Linear Models results, macrofaunal total density was correlated with silt percentage and salinity and these two factors explaining 64% of the variability while macrofaunal community structure just correlated with salinity(22% total variation). In general, western part of the bay showed the highest number of species and biodiversity while, the highest density was found at Sta. 1 and in the middle part of the bay. Furthermore, relationship between diversity indices and macrobenthic species with measured factors is also discussed. Our results confirm the effect of salinity as an important factor on distribution of macrobenthic fauna in south Caspian brackish waters.
Is maturity index an efficient tool to assess the effects of the physical disturbance on the marine nematode assemblages?-A critical interpretation of disturbance-induced maturity successions in some study cases in Maldives
SEMPRUCCI F., COLANTONI P., BALSAMO M.
2016, 35(4): 89-98. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0832-y
Maturity index(MI), based on nematode life strategies, has been proposed in 1990 to assess the possible variations of the terrestrial and freshwater nematode assemblages induced by anthropogenic activities. It was subsequently applied also to marine ecosystems and, even if comparatively not yet very popular, it offers a good method to assess the ecological quality in relation to a wide range of anthropogenic drivers. However, few data are available on its response to physical stress, a key factor especially in the coastal areas. In this study, marine nematode genera from two study cases carried out in Maldives are used to test both MI and life strategy traits(i.e., c-p classes) for detecting the effects of physical disturbance. The results confirm that nematodes are well adapted to physical stress showing a general high rate of recovery. C-p scaling and MI did not seem to be appropriate for revealing this disturbance type probably because there are no empirical evidences on the life strategy of several genera, and a possible differential response to various disturbance types may be hypothesized.
Community structure and spatial-temporal variation of netz-phytoplankton in the Bering Sea in summer
WANG Yu, XIANG Peng, YE Youyin, LIN Gengming, YANG Qingliang, LIN Heshan, LIN Mao
2016, 35(4): 99-107. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0833-x
Marine biodiversity is changing in response to altered physical environment, subsequent ecological changes as well as anthropogenic disturbances. In this study, phytoplankton samples in situ collected in the Bering Sea in July of 1999 and 2010 were analyzed to obtain phytoplankton community structure and spatial-temporal variation between the beginning and end of this decade, and the correlation of phytoplankton community dynamics and environmental factors was investigated. A total of 5 divisions, 58 genera and 153 species of phytoplankton belonging to 3 ecological groups were identified. The vast majority of phytoplankton consisted of diatoms accounting for 66.7% of the total species and 95.2% of the total abundance. Considering differentiation in spatial extent and phytoplankton sample types, there were subtle changes in species composition, large altering in abundance and significant variation in spatial distribution between two surveys. The abundance peak area was located at the Bering Strait while sub peak was found at the Bering Sea Basin. The boreal-temperate diatom was the dominant flora, which was subsequently replaced by eurythermal and frigid-water diatom. Phytoplankton community in the Bering Sea was not a simplex uniform community but composed of deep-ocean assemblage and neritic assemblage. The deep-ocean assemblage was located in the northwestern Pacific Ocean and Bering Sea Basin, dominated by boreal-temperate species(Neodenticula seminae, Thalassiothrix longissima, Amphiprora hyperborean, Chaetoceros atlanticus, Thalassiosira trifulta, etc.) and eurychoric species(Thalassionema nitzschioides, Ch. compressus, Rhizosolenia styliformis, etc.), and characterized by low abundance, even inter-species abundance allocations, diverse dominant species and high species diversity. The neritic assemblage was distributed on the continental shelf and slope of Bering Sea and was mainly composed of frigid-water species(Th. nordenskiöldii, Ch. furcellatus, Ch. socialis, Bacteriosira fragilis, etc.) and eurythermal and euryhaline species(L. danicus, Ch. curvisetus, Coscinodiscus curvatulus, etc.), and it was characterized by high abundance, uneven inter-species allocations, prominent dominant species and low species diversity. Spatial-temporal variation of species composition and abundance of phytoplankton in the Bering Sea was directly controlled by surface circulation, nutrient supply and ice edge.
The morphological identification of Protoperidinium(Peridiniales, Dinophyceae) species on the coasts of China
LI Ruixiang, PAN Yulong, SUN Huiying, LI Yan, MA Xin, WANG Yan
2016, 35(4): 108-117. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0823-z
The classification and identification for Protoperidinium species are the most difficult work during its taxonomic study. In this research, taxonomic status of Protoperidinium was clarified by tracing its taxonomic history, 23 species belong to genus Protoperidinium on the coasts of China were preliminarily identified, and morphological description and plate patterns were given for each species. The key differences of similar species were also discussed in this study, we believe that P. oceanicum and P. murry, P. tumidum and P. fatulipes, P. globules and P. majus are separate species; P. diabolum should be treated as the valid name instead of the reported names Peridinium globosum or Peridinium longipes; the taxonomic relationship between P. punctulatum and P. subinerme requires further study.
Morphological and molecular discrimination of green macroalgae Chaetomorpha aerea and C. linum
HUANG Bingxin, TENG Linhong, DING Lanping
2016, 35(4): 118-123. doi: 10.1007/s13131-016-0841-x
Green macroalgae Chaetomorpha aerea and C. linum are taxonomically confused. In this paper, we tried morphological and molecular analyses to separate these two species. C. aerea and C. linum can be distinguished from morphological characteritics, such as frond dimension, cells size and shape, their mean length/width ratios(LWR), and cell walls constriction. Thalli of C. aerea attenuate basipetally, with diameter 270-500μm at upper portion, 160-360μm at middle portion, 100-160μm at basal portion. For the upper part, the length of cells is less than their diameter. Cell walls usually constrict at the dissepiments, which are pellucid or colorless and give the filament beaded appearance. In contrast, thalli of C. linum often have a constant diameter of 90-300μm within the same individual, cell walls usually do not constrict and cells are cylindrical or barrel shaped. The LWR is larger than that of C. aerea. Results show that the pairwise distance between two species is 3.6%-3.7% for 18S rRNA gene and 53.5%-54.3% for ITS region. In phylogeny, they distribute at distant clades, which confirms a genetic divergence at molecular level. In addition, morphological data indicates that filament diameter of C. linum samples is highly variable, ranging from 90μm to 300μm. Then these two species can be considered as separate species.
Research on stability and Hopf bifurcation of marine ecosystem dynamics models
SHI Honghua, HU Long, FANG Guohong, WEI Zexun, SHEN Chengcheng, LIU Yongzhi
The predictability of marine ecosystem dynamics models is one of the most vital factors to limit their practical applications, of which the stability is the fundamental condition. In order to discuss the stability and Hopf bifurcation of marine ecosystem dynamics models, an approach based on a theorem termed dimension reduction was proposed and further applied in the mass-conservative nutrient-phytoplankton-zooplankton-detritus(NPZD) model in this paper. Results showed that the nonsingular equilibrium point of NPZD model was analytically stable in use of the dimension reduction theorem and the Hopf bifurcation might occur when model parameters changed along the threshold values. The analytical results of the NPZD model were further verified by numerical simulation in this study. It can be concluded that this approach based on the dimension reduction theorem is well applicable to the theoretical analysis of a kind of stability problems and Hopf bifurcation of mass-conservative systems.
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#### According to
The Catalogue of Life, 3rd January 2011

#### Published in
Ceské Houby 4-5: 645 (1922)

#### Original name
Polyporus pomaceus Velen., 1922

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Ernest Hemingway - an American Literary Giant
Wesman Todd Shaw
I'd started reading the work of Ernest Hemingway before I'd got out of high school, and I fondly recall hearing a great teacher talk about the great writers of this world, and she'd singled out Hemingway as an example of such. She'd went on to say that the great ones can just look at a tree, and then come up with a far more brilliant description and descriptive technique for such than the rest of us could. I wholeheartedly agreed about all of that, and you can bet that I'd soon bought another Ernest Hemingway novel to read - and I'd looked specifically for descriptions of trees.
Ernest Hemingway was a true writer - he seemed to live to write, and to express himself. Always one for being overly filled with bravado, we well know the reasons why he turned out that way - and though we may not always admire his stance on things, and the way he lived his life, we can surely admire that he'd lived, and lived as best as he knew how. He told us nearly the entire tale in his novels and short stories - some of the greatest of the cannon of American Literature.
Ernest Hemingway - As An Infant
Young Ernest Hemingway
Born on the twenty first day of July in 1899 in Chicago suburb, Oak Park, Illinois, Ernest Hemingway's family was stable, and upwardly mobile. His father was a physician, and his mother a musician - little wonder where Ernest got his intelligence. It is said that his mother wanted a daughter, and instead when she had Earnest - that she dressed him as a girl and pretended that he was one for as long as she could get away with it. Perhaps this is the reason that, for some, the works of Ernest Hemingway seem overly masculine - as the human psyche is built for compensation, and the ego formed in the younger years.
Ernest hated his name - he thought that it reminded folks of Oscar Wild's play called The Importance of Being Earnest, which young Hemingway considered a bit dumb. Ernest always had a rocky relationship with his mother, and had even stated that he hated her - throughout his life his poor relationship with her would be mirrored within his relationships with women. A major part of his conflict with his mother was that she'd forced cello lessons upon him, the truth, however, is that music and literature go hand in hand, and Ernest would admit later in life that learning the cello had helped him to become the great writer that he was.
The Hemingway family owned a cabin in the Michigan wilderness, and they would vacation there, and there is where Ernest Hemingway learned to love the outdoors, fishing, hunting, and living in remote places - places where a man could reflect on things, and write about them. Before Hemingway would leave public school, he was submitting to the school newspaper. He seemingly knew then that he'd be a writer. Writers write, and so in truth - he already was one.
Ernest Hemingway During World War One
Ernest Hemingway - Journalist And Then A Novelist
Hemingway would graduate high school and become first a journalist. He never forgot the lessons he learned in journalism, and he never gave up the original style of writing that he'd learned as a journalist, and in fact, he'd perfect the style, make it his own, and make it his instantly identifiable style - revered, loved the world over, and never duplicated.
He went to work for the The Kansas City Star,and their guide lines suggested the following:
"Use short sentences. Use short first paragraphs. Use vigorous English. Be positive, not negative."
When the first world war broke out, Hemingway would ditch employment in the USA in response to a Red Cross recruitment effort, and he went to Italy to become an Ambulance driver. If nothing else is ever said about Ernest Hemingway, even if someone literally hates his writing and his ethos, never let it be said that Ernest Hemingway did not do his damndest towards untangling as much that is wrong with humanity as he possibly could. Besides carrying the wounded to the hospital in battle zones in a nation he owed absolutely nothing but his humanity to, he'd collect body parts on the battle fields for burial, and record the whole thing in his non-fiction, Death in the Afternoon. Concerning his humanitarian volunteer work in Italy during the first world war, Hemingway said:
"I remember that after we searched quite thoroughly for the complete dead we collected fragments"
Not long after his initial deployment, Hemingway would be seriously wounded by mortar fire - as a humanitarian non combatant that didn't have to be there at all, and for this he was righteously awarded the Italian Silver Medal of Bravery - he was only 18 years old!
The Sun Also Rises, By Ernest Hemingway
Ernest Hemingway -Becoming A Novelist
During his volunteer service in world war one in the Italian theatre of war, Ernest Hemingway was seriously injured via shrapnel to both legs, and he was hospitalized immediately, operated on, and he stayed there for six months. Any student of Hemingway realizes near instantly from the knowledge of his life, that he put his own life into his novels. The novels and short stories of Hemingway were almost non-fiction in that within them at least one character always represented him, and his life experiences.
In 1919 Hemingway would return to the United States to recuperate, and soon he would begin creating some of the finest American Literature ever written, included in all of those novels would be the brilliant brevity of his personal style, and the semi autobiographical characters that would always be present. Nick Adams in particular comes to mind for his repeated appearances in Hemingway's short stories, and he'd soon also marry for the first time, and he'd known as soon as he'd met Hadley Richardson, that was what he'd wanted to do. She was eight years older than he was, and as he was a very young man, vastly more mature than him. My opinion is that his poor relationship with his own mother caused him to seek an older female to fill her role, and then some.
Soon after marrying, Ernest and Hadley would move to Paris, France - as the monetary exchange rate made it an inexpensive place to live, and also because the two believed that the most interesting people in the world were all there He'd soon pen The Sun Also Rises, and meet up with many a famous intellectual artist. Whether or not Ernest Hemingway was already an alcoholic when he moved to Paris is not clear, what is clear is that there it became obvious that he was one, and he'd remain an alcoholic until he died. As a writer Hemingway would cover more aspects of it in his life than most, and while in Paris, Hemingway would pen a total of 88 news stories for the Toronto Star,and also write some travel pieces about fishing in Europe.
Ernest Hemingway, and Friends - Pamplona, Spain, July 1925
Hemingway - Brilliance, Bullfighting, Alcoholism, and Divorce
I think that for myself, I admire Hemingway for the way that he lived - of course he had the money to travel the world, and so he did, and so he surely learned a huge deal of information about humanity in that way. Some of the most respected of my own personal friends - even though I've not met the half of them, have lived in different nations, and without fail those persons seem to be vastly more intelligent than the common person that has forever been in their home-town, or their home state here in the USA.
While I have no real respect for Spanish Bullfighting, I can also concede that I do not understand it because I'm not Spanish, have never been to Spain, and I do not and can not then understand what bullfighting means to the Spanish. Hemingway loved it, and appreciated it, and admired the fighters rather than the senselessly killed bulls; and regardless, I and many others have enjoyed reading the increasingly well known and prolific author's tales and descriptions of Spanish bullfighting in his own unique and brilliant literary style.
While working on The Sun Also Rises, Ernest Hemingway's marriage started to fall apart, and though the book would receive good reviews, it would also get some backlash for the Hemingway Anti Semitism found within. Hemingway was having an affair, and probably drunk, he injured himself badly by pulling a chain light down on his head - thinking that he was pulling the chain to a chain toilet in a bathroom..
In 1927 Ernest Hemingway divorced his first wife, and married his second.
Hemingway with Col. Charles (Buck) T. Lanham in Germany, 1944
A Farewell To His Father And A Farewell To Arms
Ernest Hemingway had converted to Catholicism, and so his second wife, Pauline Pfeiffer, was a wealthy catholic - the two would have two sons together, and do the totally non catholic thing by divorcing soon afterwards. The couple returned to the United States, and though the Hemingway family, Ernest's parents, were having financial trouble, Ernest had written his father a letter to tell him not to worry about it. The letter made it to the Hemingway home just a few minutes after his father killed himself. Ernest said of his father's suicide,
"I'll probably go the same way."
That happened, of course, but Ernest was hard at work now, and soon would have published another of the great novels, A Farewell to Arms - a tale of love and horror in Italy during the first world war. He would spend his Summers in Wyoming hunting everything that moved, and his Winters In Key West. Please know that with an author as prolific as Hemingway was, it is impossible for me to here discuss all of his works, fiction, and non fiction - or all of his major life events.
Always a traveller, Hemingway went to Africa and there he wrote one of my personal favourite short stories, "The Short Happy Life of Francis Macomber" - which describes a situation in which a man had a very domineering wife, and though it could be thought that Hemingway hated women, in truth, he disliked his mother, and he never seemed to truly recover from that bad relationship , and the lack of resolution within the constructs of the conflicts between the child and the one who was meant to be the chief supporter and nurturer of a child. It can't be said that the situations contained in "Francis Macomber" do not exist.
When the Spanish Civil War broke out, Ernest Hemingway and his second wife divorced over their differences concerning the conflict, Hemingway would go to Spain to cover the goings on with his ongoing journalism, and he'd also write his most famous novel, For Whom the Bell Tolls,, in 1940 while living in Cuba. Women inspired Hemingway, and it is well known that his second wife was depicted fictitiously in A Farewell To Arms, and in Cuba Hemingway's inspiration was his third wife, Martha Gellhorn -who was a journalist herself, for Collier's magazine.
Ernest Hemingway was possibly the bravest journalist and novelist of the twentieth century, and so he was naturally on board an American warship at D Day, to cover the invasion of Nazi occupied France. Attaching himself to the 22nd Infantry Regiment, Hemingway organized and led an armed militia of Frenchmen himself, which coincidentally, was a violation of the Geneva Convention, as he was supposed to be in France as a war correspondent. Present at the liberation of Paris, where he'd lived during the 1920s, Hemingway stayed with the army as they charged into Germany as well. He'd cover the Battle Of The Bulge, and come down very ill with pneumonia. Two years following the end of the second world way, Ernest was awarded a Bronze Star for bravery and the commendation as follows:
"through his talent of expression, Mr. Hemingway enabled readers to obtain a vivid picture of the difficulties and triumphs of the front-line soldier and his organization in combat."
Ernest Hemingway in the cabin of his boat, The" Pilar", off the coast of Cuba
Ernest Hemingway - The Nobel Prize, The Pulitzer Prize, His Deteriorating Health
Being away from his third wife, Hemingway would do what he always did - find another woman, and lose the one he'd had. He'd soon, however, return to Cuba, and win a Nobel Prize for Literature for his novel, The Old Man And The Sea, a novel for which he'd also win a Pulitzer Prize. Suffice it to say that despite being on another love affair that broke up another marriage - he continued doing the same thing in an overly masculine compensatory sort of way with ever more young and foolish women.
Never able to NOT travel, Ernest would fly to Africa - and survive two straight near fatal plane crashes which would leave him with such a thoroughly wrecked body that his ever present alcoholism would increase, and accelerate his failing health. Unable to attend the ceremony for his Nobel Prize, he'd sent in a speech, and in it his fatalism and failing health were evident in his words,
"Writing, at its best, is a lonely life. Organizations for writers palliate the writer's loneliness but I doubt if they improve his writing. He grows in public stature as he sheds his loneliness and often his work deteriorates. For he does his work alone and if he is a good enough writer he must face eternity, or the lack of it, each day."
Ernest's increasingly terrible alcoholism and physical injuries didn't keep him down entirely, while living in Cuba and expressing delight for the new Castro government, he'd travel to Paris again and recover some stored materials in the Ritz Hotel there that he'd left in the 1920s, and inside the vaulted chests were dozens of manuscripts he'd stored, and he set to finishing and publishing them all. He'd leave Cuba the same way that he'd left Paris - stocked full of manuscripts and personal possessions that he wanted back. Travelling in Europe, Hemingway became paranoid, and convinced that the FBI was following him, and probably they were - everyone under the Sun knows what a monstrous fascist J. Edgar Hoover was, and also how much Hoover hated anyone that showed virtuous ideals for humanity.
Hemingway would secretly check into the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota, and receive the scourge of electro shock therapy that drove so many mentally ill to suicide. in the early morning hours of July 2, 1961, Hemingway "quite deliberately" shot himself with his favourite shotgun - thus passed an imperfect man that happened to be one of the bravest and most genuine writers in the history of these anything BUT United States here in America.
Ernest Hemingway - Rest In Peace
Mike Hardy from Caseville, Michigan on April 14, 2018:
The" Pilar", or rather it's twin can be found in a large sport and tackle shop in Islamorada.
Wesman Todd Shaw (author) from Kaufman, Texas on January 04, 2016:
FatBoyThin - I know exactly what you are talking about. Don't sweat it none if you can't dig Hemingway! People, or lots of my friends, love this Neil Gaiman fella, I read half of one of his novels and ....couldn't go on.
I've been trying to get into Hemingway for years, but so far haven't managed it. I feel like I should be able to see what everyone else apparently sees – that he's one of the great American novelists, but at the moment, he just doesn't do it for me.
I'm currently trying 'Islands in the Stream' again, so we'll see what happens. Great Hub.
Elefanza from Somewhere in My Brain on May 13, 2012:
Haha! That's awesome! I prefer to be the fictitious S. Morgenstern who allegedly wrote pages and pages about the beauty of trees. Ironic, huh? Ha! Have fun pretending to be Hemingway! And go to Spain and sit where he sat! Yeah man!
Wesman Todd Shaw (author) from Kaufman, Texas on May 13, 2012:
Hey Pretty Lady!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I do like him, but with an injured hand - I'm pretending to be him.
Great hub! I think it was Hemingway who did the shortest short story ever: For sale: baby shoes, never worn. So good!
Sunshine625 - DONE DEAL!!!!!!!!!
Linda Bilyeu from Orlando, FL on May 01, 2012:
I should have mentioned the museum was his home where he lived with his third wife. The bar was in walking distance. The Keys are beautiful. If you ever get a chance to visit stop by Orlando and pick me up!!:)
Sunshine - Oh I'd love to see that!!!! I've been to Florida, but never that far South. I actually didn't know about that museum until you mentioned it in the comment!
I'll bet there are tour guides all over Europe that mention something or another Like, "and here is where American writer Ernest Hemingway....had wine and would sit, flirt, and write during the Summer of 19...."
Thanks Chris!!!!!!
I sure think he did a lot of amazing things - I surely can't compare anything I've done to the things he'd already done by the time he was 20. I couldn't list the half of it in here...but he should have been dead a hundred times over, and it was truly fortunate that he lived as long as he did.
I really like the four of his novels I've read - the four most famous ones, and I like a lot of his short stories too. I especially like his style, which is definitely unique.
uzma shaheen - Thanks very much!
I think you would also enjoy "A Farewell To Arms," and "For Whom The Bell Tolls" then.
I think Ernest had some strange ideas of what masculinity was supposed to be - but the thing about it is, those notions of his are what made him who he was, so I can hardly complain about his suicide. I'm certain he thought that his health and alcoholism were preventing him from being " a man," and so he thought the noble thing to do was to ...not fade away.
Mr. Hemingway is a man of many words that keep on giving. I've been to the Hemingway Musuem in Key West. It was a memorable visit. Wonderful tribute to Ernest Hemingway. Well done Wes!
Christopher Antony Meade from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom on May 01, 2012:
What a man! What a life! Just to have been a louse in his bed would have been a privilege.
Thanks for that Wesman.
Uzma Shaheen from Lahore,Pakistan on May 01, 2012:
A beautiful short biography of a great writer. I happened to read Hemingway's work "The old man and the sea" it was amazing.A brave man, earning bravery awards, then commiting suicide is so ionic.
wesman thank you for sharing this valuable information,there were many things which I did not know before.voting up and sharing.
Wesman Todd Shaw (author) from Kaufman, Texas on April 30, 2012:
M A Williams - Thanks so much!!!!!!!!!!
Yes I'd read about that a bit on the Wiki page. I can't help but wonder why the Mayo clinic and the other hospitals he'd been in for all of his injuries hadn't caught that if it were true.
I also wonder if there was more going on within their family than we know - other factors that might have led to that totally outrageous and horrific rate of suicide.
Acid Rahne - I'm always so very proud when you come to read my stuff here. You couldn't know how much that pleases me!!!!!!!!!!!!
dahoglund - you can't go wrong with his style!!!!!!!!!
I've very intentionally tried to create some things that were entirely based on the Hemingway style...but they aren't the kind of things that succeed on this sort of website, you know how it goes.
Mike from New Hampshire on April 30, 2012:
What a great hub on Hemingway!
I haven't read any of his work, but I recently became interested in him as a person after seeing a depiction of him in the Woody Allen movie 'Midnight in Paris'. Have you seen that?
I was reading on wiki the other day about his death likely being from hemochromatosis,a genetic disease where you can't metabolize iron and leads to deterioration in your mental and physical condition. His father had it and also committed suicide.
I was shocked to read that as well as him and his father, his sister and brother and granddaughter all committed suicide. Tragic
Acid Rahne on April 30, 2012:
A very complete and excellent short bio!
Don A. Hoglund from Wisconsin Rapids on April 30, 2012:
Hemingway was popular in my college years and probably had some influence on my own style.
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Lisa Corduff: Some would even say you're a quack.
Ali Young: Yes, they would. I know.
Lisa Corduff: I'm actually so glad to be talking to you because we've known of each other, and then you interviewed me on your podcast, which was so super fun. And then when I was doing the call out for people, who wants to talk about how things have really shifted for them. you're like, "Me, me. Ask me."
Ali Young: Yep. Pick me. That's me in the background.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah. So I'm so glad we've had this and you are not feeling a hundred percent. I haven't been feeling a hundred percent, but here we are because-
Ali Young: Here we are.
Lisa Corduff: I think there's just a bit of mutual love, and love for the mic. Let's be honest.
Ali Young: Yeah. Look, I did just record a whole podcast episode, even though I sound like this for my own podcast, before I was like, "Let's just do this Ali. Let's just get it done."
Lisa Corduff: You actually sound amazing. Okay. So let's go back to 2019. When did you do Ready for Change?
Ali Young: I did Ready for Change before COVID. That intake you had, was it like February 2020?
Lisa Corduff: Oh yeah.
Ali Young: Would that be right?
Lisa Corduff: Right. Yeah. Before. BC.
Ali Young: Free time.
Lisa Corduff: Free time, when the world kind of made sense.
Ali Young: There was elements of normality.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah.
Ali Young: Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Okay. So where were you at before then? What was happening in the life of Dr. Ali? [inaudible] saying it.
Ali Young: Thanks. So I had a really thriving practise and I'd worked really, really hard. We'd moved back from overseas. I'd lived expat with husband and kids on and off for five years. And then come back to central Queensland, opened the doors to my practise. And it went gangbusters. I'm a chiro who works with kids and moms. So it's always needed and wanted. I'd got that going really well. But then I started realising I was hitting burnout mode, and I had this huge dichotomy within myself that I was espousing these vitalistic health principles and everything within my world was in this vitality model, yet I wasn't obviously listening to what I needed to hear internally because my body was giving me signs that I wasn't.
So my burnout had shown up when my son headbutted my chin and it gave me a weird, facial tingling that we couldn't get rid of. I gained 10 kilos in three months. So I would've done Ready for Change probably six to seven weeks into this real symptomatic burnout. Obviously that had been building up for a while. I was trying to navigate, so how can I listen to what I need inside me? Because obviously I'd grabbed some story of what my life should look like and I was trying so hard to make that a reality, and maybe that wasn't what I needed. That's how I sort of navigated through that pathway.
Lisa Corduff: So what did you realise that you had been telling yourself? What was your truth at that time? I am a successful practise operate. I'm the most successful chiropractor in Gladstone. I can manage working and kids and like-
Ali Young: I've got it all and I can do all the things. I think that the biggest story I told myself was that yes, sleep it's important for everyone else. It was summertime. So I am a fan of a Negroni, but in the summertime, I maybe imbibe a little too much because friends drop over and we all just have a Negroni together. That's what we did. It got to a point where I think my system was trying to tell me, "That's not your story. That's not where you need to be living right now and you can't keep doing it that way."
So I told myself that I could have it all, but the having it all wasn't actually what I inherently wanted within me. I wanted that have-it-all that the 90s power chiro guys told me I should have been having, which was a super busy practise and being in work for huge hours and the kids will be fine and all that kind of stuff. I realised that actually I don't want to work that much and I want it to be calmer and I want it to be on my terms. And so that was the big shift in change.
Lisa Corduff: Is it hard when you are in that caring, service, delivery and other people start to rely on you? You literally have patience and people who are booking in and needing you and starting to rely on your care, for you to create new boundaries around that, was that hard?
Ali Young: Yeah, definitely. Also being in a small town, not tiny, but small enough that I would at least run into two or three patients on every trip to the shops. I love the community vibe, but sometimes you do have to really delineate that boundary of work time and outside of the office time, for sure. But also, there was a few people where I explained I'm having to do this for my health and they would get that, because I'm showing up for myself how I expect them to show up for themselves. I think that was one of the biggest learnings, was that, well, if I do this for me…
So I lost a heap of weight. I was really focused on being healthy. I told all of my practice, they would be like, "Oh, you look great." And I said, "Well, I'm looking great because I was in burnout mode." So I'd actually have an open conversation, rather than just pretending I just did this because I didn't feel great within myself. No. Because my health was suffering because I'd let myself spiral into sympathetic dominance.
Lisa Corduff: Every single time I say, "Oh, I'm fucked. I'm really overwhelmed or this has gotten on top of me." I'm a person who has, and you have the knowledge of how to take care of yourself or do all those sorts of things. It's such a relief when… And I'm like, when people like you, but I know people are pointing to me and saying, "When people like you, Lisa, share that, you're not all thriving." Like we just…
Ali Young: We're human.
Lisa Corduff: Can you tell everyone what the name of your podcast is?
Ali Young: So it's called Motherhood UnFcked, because… Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Because you just take away all the bullshit and all of the high standards. I think this is the thing though. So when did you launch that podcast? Did you have to go through-
Ali Young: I went through it and then I launched it. So that's what propelled me into working in the online space because I suddenly went, "I love working one-to-one with people, but I feel like there's all these other women that don't live in my 50,000 stuff that could get supported. And I don't want anyone else to go through that." I know people are going to go through that because it's going to be whatever the universe gives them for their life journey. But if I can help support them in any way, that's how I ended up there.
Lisa Corduff: Right. So you went through Ready for Change. You're like, "Oh, maybe I don't have to be all of this thing that I'm telling myself." So what sort of story did you specifically change to and how did that end up seeing you where you are now, which is a published author, successful podcast, doing online for programmes. Wow, it's been a really big transformation that actually suits your life.
Ali Young: It really does. Yeah. I think the story I had to let go of was that the only way to be successful as a female chiropractor was to be in practise for huge amounts of time, hands-on people, which, in my 20s, I had all the energy for, because I had no kids and I was just living for that. Whereas once I've become a mom, I realised that my energy is guided in different directions now. So I was trying to live out my 20s life in my 40s and it just didn't work. It just didn't work. But it took a lot to get there. And my story was that, oh, I can do that. Well, I can do that. Yeah. But I don't want to do that. And it was realising that the choice was that I didn't actually have to do that either.
Lisa Corduff: And so was that your new story? I get to-
Ali Young: I get to choose.
Ali Young: Choose my own adventure. So my new story was, choose my own adventure. So how can I bring health back in? Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Just like had full body tingles.
Ali Young: I talk about it all the time.
Lisa Corduff: Really, choose my own [inaudible]. I think the thing is, is that for sure, when I talk about choice, or when any of us talks about choice, it's hard because there's obligations that we've got in our lives. There's absolutely things that don't feel like a choice and probably aren't a choice.
Lisa Corduff: But there's a deeper part of the whole conversation and I think we are not even aware of how blessed people like you and I are, and we trap ourselves unknowingly in lives that feel totally shit.
Lisa Corduff: When there are actually other options.
Ali Young: There's other ways. Yeah.
Ali Young: Absolutely right. And so from Ready for Change, I realised I needed another chiro because I was committed to serving the community, but I didn't want to necessarily do it. I took a year to find one but I got there. Yeah. Because we're so far out of capital cities, so not everyone wants to work here. And that has been amazing. But the blessing that came out of COVID was I dropped a day because it was too hard with lockdowns and school and stuff. And I just never put that back on. So I went from being four days a week to three days a week in practise. And I haven't ever upped that back again, because I was like, "No, I just don't want to."
Lisa Corduff: So that was always available to you but-
Ali Young: Yeah, I just never saw it. I just never saw it. Yeah. So, yeah.
Lisa Corduff: It's just so cool. It's like, I guess, creating a life by design. When you did the values stuff, were you always kind of aware of what your core values were?
Ali Young: I've done a lot of values work over the years. In chiropractic, I think we're pretty lucky because we've got a super philosophical concept behind why we do what we do. So values form a huge part of that. So I've always done values work, but it was really refreshing to do it again because I think I hadn't probably done it again since kids. And my kids, at this stage, would've been seven and five. So I was still clinging onto those values that I had pre kids and then all of a sudden I'm post kids seven years and I hadn't thought about them again. So they changed.
Lisa Corduff: Funny how that happens.
Ali Young: Yeah, I know, right. You're sort of like, "Oh yes, no, these are my values." So the core ones, for me, integrity is like my number one, and health is always there. But it definitely isn't always at the top. It shifts and changes. But the one thing that I think Ready for Change really helped cement for me is that I always told myself that fun and joy were rubbish values because they weren't seen as success values. You know what I mean? You're not going to get Tony Robbins saying fun and joy as his bloody favourite value. Whereas for me, my brain works best when I'm living with fun and joy continuously in my life. So that has been something I've consciously infused back in again as well.
Lisa Corduff: Watching you online, you look fun. I want to hang out with you because you seem like a fun person. And how hilarious to compare your values to Tony Robbins.
Ali Young: Yeah. Like we're totally the same person.
Lisa Corduff: It's just taking a really woo.
Ali Young: He was the only name I could think of that was a values person who wasn't a weird chiropractor that I would be the only person listening to the podcast would know.
Lisa Corduff: That is so funny. Okay. So tell us about your book, because now I just want to talk about you, and what this has also created space for, to birth in the world. The world is better off because you decided to go, "Actually not this model. I can't do it. I need to find a new story. I need to actually craft something that works for me and my family." And now there's going to be a book on the shelves in a matter of-
Ali Young: Weeks.
Lisa Corduff: … what, weeks? Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: That people can go on pre-order now. So tell me what that book is about. I want to know.
Ali Young: Yeah. So it's basically my love story for working moms. And it's the stuff that I wish I knew when I was going through my tough patch. So it's in three sections. It's called Work. Mama. Life. And the first section is about working motherhood, you, society, the patriarchy. It sounds heavy, but it's not super heavy. And the intergenerational ways that we bring a story from our past and society's stories into what we think our motherhood should look like and our work experience.
Then I've crafted this concept called the five pillars of healthy motherhood. So the middle section of the book is exploring how moms can choose to be healthy. So it's nourishment, movement, thoughtfulness, sleep, and connection. And those are the five things that I think just if we can get some… And no one has balance in all five perfectly, but understanding where we're sitting and where we're fluxing to and fro. And I think that that's really important.
Then the last section is how we can actually fit that into our life, why it's called Life. So without it being overwhelming. So the things that I did in my burnout recovery have basically morphed into this book.
Lisa Corduff: How amazing.
Ali Young: Yeah. It's pretty cool.
Lisa Corduff: I love that final section as well, because I think that's something that I've seen over the years, helping women with food and all of that sort of stuff. It feels like you almost have to put everything aside to do the things that you need to do. And no woman, mom wants to do that because there's too many balls that she's carrying over here. So how do-
Ali Young: How do you do that?
Lisa Corduff: Yes. I love that.
Ali Young: In the book I've got pause moments everywhere. So there are moments where we actually, okay, we've read this. Let's pause and think. And there's some reflection questions where people can journal about it or just think about it. Okay, what does this mean for me? Maybe it means nothing. Maybe, yeah, that is something I want to go onto.
So the goal is that by the end you have that. And then at the very end, I actually have recipes, not mine. There's two of mine and then links to people's recipes, just for that nourishment section. Because that's a question… I've got ask that. You would, all the time, from your [inaudible].
Lisa Corduff: All the time.
Ali Young: Hence your ebook, which I love. But yeah, the small steps days. I'm forever sharing recipes with people. They're like, "Well, how do you do that?" And I'm like, "Well, you just do that." And that's okay. Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah. I know. Sometimes I used to get a bit like, "This isn't really cooking. It's more like assemblage of things on a plate."
Ali Young: One of my kids literally has salad for breakfast every day. She goes to the fridge. I'm like, "What do you want for breakfast?" thinking she might say a crumpet. "No, I'll just have a salad plate, please, mom." And it'll be a bit of roast chicken, a cucumber, a carrot, an apple. So literally we assemble her breakfast every day.
Lisa Corduff: That's amazing. What a legend.
Ali Young: Yep. Other kid is like toast and Vegemite.
Lisa Corduff: They're so different kids. My son now, he's in Grade 6, and he is making his own egg every morning. It's like a whole new level of motherhood joy, coming downstairs, smelling that eggs are cooking. Yeah. And he's just on his own.
Ali Young: That is amazing. Yes. I love that. Yeah. Well George, he's seven, and he'll scramble eggs with me, but he is not old enough to do it-
Lisa Corduff: Yes. No. No, they have to be older. We've got a gas stove. That's [inaudible].
Ali Young: Yeah, right. No.
Lisa Corduff: Can I ask you, just because before we started this, we were having a conversation about the last two years, and I was sharing with you that I just asked my community if they could just fill out a little survey, just sharing a bit about where they're at right now. It's actually been really confronting to read through where people are at. I was starting to feel like, I've actually handled a lot in my life. I got used to living with uncertainty, being married to an alcoholic, in recovery, there were periods of sobriety and then there was periods of relapse and it was hard to plan. It hard to feel secure. It was hard just in loads of different reasons. I'd have to keep the household moving, the kids okay, amongst periods in and out of rehab. That first year of COVID, I was like, "This sucks, but I feel like I've been in training for this." It's also, I've got-
Ali Young: [inaudible] had already been expanded.
Lisa Corduff: Yes. I've got skills for this. I know life has felt uncertain for a very long time. Then into the second year, it was sort of a real bummer. But then I felt like, yeah, that last lockdown, we called it lockdown of fun and really trying to hold my attention any ways and got through, but was pretty not great by the end. Then it was Christmas. It was straight into all of that. Then a summer that felt magical in lots of ways, and then getting them back into school. It's all just been really a matter of a very short period of time.
I had COVID and then I've just been really sick as well. I'm like, "Is it just me? Is it just me who is feeling like the smallest things are tipping me over the edge right now? Is it just me who feels like I've kind of got a new equilibrium?" Like there's a new max setting on my own personal system is what it feels like, and I reach it faster. When I share that sort of stuff, the response back seems to be like, "Fuck, yes."
Ali Young: Yeah. Insane.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah. So then you started on some neurological explanation for this that made me feel like, okay, explain to me what has happened to us.
Ali Young: I'm going to preface this by, I am not a trauma specialist, but I read a lot about it and there's lots more people out there with way more in-depth theory. But basically, we've been living in such a state of uncertainty and on edge, like that feeling that you're just like, well, what's going to happen today? What new cycle is going to come up? And I think this last two weeks with all of the crazy has really amplified that. Could you think of anything else going… Anyway. Is that we've created altered trauma responses in our brain. So it becomes a trauma when you have a prolonged sense of stress and fear going on in your life. So post traumatic stress disorder can come from really big events or continual small stuff. So surely two years has to be continual small stuff, right?
So then that's creating a lower threshold because our ability to resiliently bounce back from stress is altered. So we would have a normal neurological stress response, but our brain has now learnt that when we're stressed, we behave in this way. It perceives that stress earlier because its indicators for stress have lowered because of the last two years of continuous stress [inaudible]. So we just are responding in bigger ways to smaller things because our brain muscle hasn't been able to adapt in the way it's designed to.
Lisa Corduff: Shit.
Ali Young: I know, I know.
Lisa Corduff: It makes total sense when you talk about it like that. And I'm just thinking about the people that I know, even just the moms that I talk to at school.
Lisa Corduff: I'm thinking about how I need to… High school next year for [Kia], this involves a move for me, and just all the stuff that needs to get done that feels…
Ali Young: Big.
Lisa Corduff: … just so big.
Lisa Corduff: But almost not even penetrable, like…
Ali Young: Like how can I navigate this thing which five years ago, you've moved to Sydney and Brisbane [inaudible].
Lisa Corduff: My eldest son lived in seven houses. And yet suddenly I feel like it's just way too big. Yes.
Ali Young: Yeah, exactly. And that's because our ability to navigate change is so decreased because our bandwidth has just shrunk. So we need to learn how to get our brains back into feeling safe. So one of the easiest ways to signal safety is to get our vagus in a beautiful state. And so that's your singing, your humming, your cold showers, your connection with people, like all that beautiful stuff that just helps your body go, "Oh, I'm okay. I'm nice and safe."
Those things that we do for our kids when they hurt themselves, we give them our firm hug, because that signals, I'm okay. I'm not running. We straighten up our posture because that tells our brain that we're safe. When we're hunched and looking forward, it tells us we're hiding. We're scary. So neurologically, we're thinking, I've got to get ready to run away. So all that time we spend on our phone looking for case numbers and stuck in our house. So what else we going to do all day long? It's actually shifting posture, which can change that too.
Lisa Corduff: I know. Everyone needs to be following Dr. Ali, always and forever known in my head as Dr. Ali, because are you sharing all this stuff?
Ali Young: Yeah, I do share it. Probably not as much as I should, because I don't know why, but yeah, I do share it. And it's all in my book as well.
Lisa Corduff: Buy the book.
Ali Young: Buy the book. But yeah, I think that the way that we recover as mothers from this next two years, and I am big on vagus, I talk about that all the time. I have challenges just on how we can reset our vagus nerve.
Lisa Corduff: Wow.
Ali Young: And people still, six months later and messaging me going, "I am still doing this thing. Thank you." Because it has become part of their ability to create calm back in their soul again. And that's, I think where we need to, like you said, getting that calm, centred self back. Not anything big. We don't need to necessarily change the world. We just need to change ourselves on the inside again and signal that we're okay.
Lisa Corduff: So just give our bodies the clue that we're safe.
Ali Young: Yes. That we're safe. Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah. Then some people might be listening to this and thinking, but we're not. But Putin is bombing Ukrainian nuclear spaces and it does not feel safe. The climate is changing at such a rapid pace and people are dying and I don't feel safe.
I was actually talking to a friend about this when I was through all the stuff with Nick and there was just this huge level of uncertainty, and I'm pretty sure that life events were happening during that time and I paid no attention. No attention at all. I couldn't have even told you… If there was an election, I just [inaudible].
Lisa Corduff: Because I had no capacity because what I was solely focused on was what was going on in my little world. It was definitely more than enough for me to manage myself, Nick, the kids, and my business. I feel like we get called into needing to care.
Ali Young: I a hundred percent agree.
Lisa Corduff: And sometimes we have to say, "I want to be a good global citizen," or, "I want to be an aware and tuned-in current affairs person. I want to be able to have good conversations. I want to be able to meet with you about the things that are important with you." But that as women and moms, we also get to choose when we kind of need to pull the pin at home.
Ali Young: Sometimes we just need to not listen for a little while.
Lisa Corduff: Yep.
Ali Young: That's hard. I feel for people who have family over in Europe, who particularly it's probably even more pertinent to. But I think one of the biggest things is that we can still choose what goes into our brain. We have an ability to go, "I don't want that in there right now and I'm going to get rid of that." You can consciously meditate on it. Maybe you need to have that one friend that you call and you get all your fears and concerns out with, and then it's gone and then you go, "Okay, now I'm going to honour myself. I need to give myself some calm moments today because I need to get that back."
We owe it to ourselves because we're going to end up with an entire generation of burnout, unhealthy, really sick moms because we're living in that state of worry for the whole world around us. But we've got to learn to honour ourselves first. It sounds so selfish and it goes against all the mom guilt stuff, but we really need to realise that we are number one and that if we can look after us, the ripple effect, if we feel calm, our kids will feel more calm, and then they'll go and infuse that calm out. So that's why it starts with us being able to acknowledge that.
So yes, we definitely have lack of safety in our environment, but we can't control that. What we can control is ourselves. And that's my big messages.
Lisa Corduff: Oh, I mean, we're singing from the same hymn sheet.
Ali Young: Yeah. Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Are we. I don't think that moms can hear that message enough.
Ali Young: I agree.
Lisa Corduff: I know, especially even with something like Ready for Change, I'm always just shocked at how surprised the participants are when they start to feel a different level of calm or positivity or something like that, how then that's filtering out to their families.
Ali Young: Their environment. Absolutely.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah. And it's that whole like, well, you know what? We can just sit there and just wait for everything to get calm around us or-
Ali Young: We can use it.
Lisa Corduff: Or we can build it inside us and then have that ripple out. For me, that was never more obvious than when Nick and I separated and he left the house. I was like, "Oh, now it's solely on me. I get to create the vibe here." That vibe, I'm the anchor point. The kids are always going to be having a something or doing this or doing that. And I can be just…
Ali Young: The person that sets the tone.
Lisa Corduff: I can set the tone.
Lisa Corduff: And-
Ali Young: Yeah. That's where the chiropracticness, because that tone of your body sets so much tone in your outside world. And that's the beautiful interaction I see is that hands-on, I get to help people with tone, but then we're also energetically helping people with tone with the kind of work that we do too. Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: I'm really pleased that your voice is out there and it's not just your patients in Gladstone who are benefiting from your wisdom and vibe, really. I'm really glad that you went on this path.
Ali Young: Yeah. I feel so connected to myself whilst I do it, if that makes sense. I feel really anchored within myself when I'm doing these things. I think Ready for Change was part of that recognition that I needed to find the thing that lit me on fire again. And that was this. Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Born for it.
Ali Young: Ringer.
Lisa Corduff: Born for it. Anyone who puts a podcast out there called Motherhood UnFcked has just been waiting for the mic. It's just like give this woman the microphone. She has things to say, she's not afraid to say it, and she's going to cause ripple effects. And that is a very, very good thing. So thank you for sharing not only just your story, but also just some really, really awesome reflections that I hope help women feel a little less alone in where they're at right now. Because it's an unusual time, and I think we can be so hard on ourselves. We can have such high expectations. We can be wondering why we're not doing the things that we know we should be doing or that we were doing a little while ago, and we're just not now.
Lisa Corduff: Dropping the expectations is something that…
Ali Young: Massive. Yeah.
Lisa Corduff: Such a gift. That is a gift. That is a gift for your family. That is a gift for you. That is a gift for the universe.
Ali Young: A gift for everybody.
Lisa Corduff: Yeah. Because we don't need to be operating at unsustainable levels. We might have been able to fool ourselves that we could do it before, but now our bodies are just like uh-uh (negative), no way.
Ali Young: It's you. Yeah. Yeah. Absolutely.
Lisa Corduff: Which is, I think, probably the gift of COVID. The gift of this last two years has been like, see, we were trying to tell you before. We kept giving you things and you thought it was just you and now we're, as a generation going, "Oh, it was really all unsustainable. Oh yeah. All those ideas that we had about how to do things."
Ali Young: Not going to happen.
Lisa Corduff: So I'll be getting your book.
Ali Young: Ah, thanks.
Lisa Corduff: I think everybody should be getting your book because it's just ridiculous, but also not, that we need constant practical reminders of the basics Of what makes life good. And getting ourselves to a point where we get to enjoy this one precious life is-
Ali Young: So important.
Lisa Corduff: … so important. So thanks for sharing your gifts with the world.
Ali Young: Oh, thank you for having me on and for helping be part of that spark of making it happen. So important. I love your programme. I've told so many of my patients to do your programme.
Lisa Corduff: Have you really?
Lisa Corduff: I do love it. I think there's a power in a woman owning her bullshit and then just crafting a new story.
Ali Young: Exactly.
Lisa Corduff: And it's something that… I love these conversations because I love seeing where it's led. Tiny little moment. Yeah. But yes, you were ready as well. You were ready for something to shift.
Ali Young: I was ready.
Lisa Corduff: Yes. Which I think makes a difference too. But chiropractors rule. Our chiropractor is our primary healthcare provider. She's my go-to. Absolutely couldn't have done the last few years without her. So I think you guys do really important work in the world, but I love the bigger conversation that you're a part of. I think this is really just a start for you. I think we're going to be seeing you. I can see you on like morning TV shows, being interviewed and stuff. You are that person.
Ali Young: Oh, you know what's ironic, is one of my best friends is a Channel Nine newsreader in Melbourne, Alicia Loxley, and she used to be on the Today show. And I know-
Lisa Corduff: She's got all the contacts.
Ali Young: She's always been like, "You're the talker." That is true.
Lisa Corduff: That is true. I see a book tour. I see all of the interviews. Go get it.
Ali Young: Yeah. Coming at you.
Lisa Corduff: Thank you for sharing today.
Ali Young: Thank you. Thank you for having me. I appreciate it.
Lisa Corduff: Hey, if you want to learn exactly how to start moving through the stories that are keeping you stuck, and you want to delve into these self-defeating thinking patterns that so many of us have, then I've got a free workshop that you can go and watch right now. In it, I highlight some of the main stories that I see women telling themselves that often lead women into a spiral of self-sabotage. You also learn how to let yourself off the hook a little bit more, because when you understand how your brain is actually working to create this, then you feel a lot breezier about your life. Trust me.
In this workshop, you'll also start moving towards the things that you want by the end. I absolutely promise you'll have a new perspective on your next step forward. And that can be in any area of your life where you feel stuck. I can't wait for you to go and check it out. It's totally free. The link is in the show notes. Enjoy.
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