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I suppose we all revisit our childhoods from time to time –those memories have a special hold on us. But they are stories thick with varnish, and when analyzed too closely, soon fall apart in our hands like dreams. And yet, handled gently, stories are what we are –they are our names- and that we awaken the same person from day to day is like reading further in the book.
Maybe that's why fairy tales can have such a fascination for children –escaping into an imaginative narrative that is as magical and surprising as their own. A time to believe we can become the story –maybe even are the story. For most of us, it was an enchanting time of fairies, and wishes coming true; of escape from tragedy, or finding a special person in the deep, dark forest; of finding happiness in the midst of sorrow.
Well, at least that's what I thought was happening as I snuggled in the arms of my parents when one of them read to me before I went to sleep each night. But we only know what we are told, I suppose; we only understand the world that is laid out for us. I certainly never suspected an agenda; I never thought to ask if what I heard was only a manifestation of the time of writing. And I certainly neither questioned my mother's world-view, nor my father's integrity –I assumed I was being told the truth about the once-upon-a-time days.
And yet, viewing them through a modern lens, I suppose their faults were obvious. Not my parents' –they, too, were products of their own times. No, I mean the stories that I found so innocent and sweet, had rougher underbellies than I had reason to suspect. In fairness, I think we acclimatize to the things to which we are habitually exposed. Who can smell the garlic on their own breath? And so, the undergarment of sexism in many fairy tales came as a revelation to me. https://www.bustle.com/articles/149098-5-fairy-tale-tropes-that-perpetuate-sexism
And I have to say that on first glance, I suspected this was yet another example of historical revisionism –the reinterpretation of the umwelt of another time through the sensitivities and biases of our own. There is some of that, to be sure –we do not easily appreciate the perils and depravities that were rampant in medieval Europe- but even so, we can no longer blindly accredit tales of infanticide or child abuse, nor turn a blind eye to attitudes like misogyny or tropes like the evil inherent in non-conformity that may have been prevalent and believed in that time. And, indeed, it often seems to be women that are treated unfairly in these tales, when appraised by modern eyes.
The danger is that by ignoring the hidden message, we risk normalizing it. Condoning it by not pointing out that we no longer sanction that kind of behaviour.
Of course, it can also go too far -come too close to serving an agenda that seems more retributive and spiteful than merely corrective. Some of the fairy-tales –Cinderella, or even Sleeping Beauty (despite the apparently more malevolent early versions)- have a sweetness and charm that, at least when examined only superficially -as might be the case by a child- spin a message of hope and rescue for even the poorest among us.
But that said, I have to confess that I never really thought about the main character -in most of the ones I remember, at any rate- being almost always a girl. Think of Goldilocks, Little Red Riding Hood, Rapunzel… Even Gretel in the Hansel and Gretel story. And the frequent portrayal of old and eccentric women as witches, or at least as malicious step-mothers. I suppose that Jack in the Beanstalk was a refreshing exception, but nevertheless, point taken.
Perhaps it's my age, or a comment on my epoch, but have to say that I didn't realize the extent to which these stories were recognized as violating the currently prevalent societal ethos.
A few years ago I remember seeing Ada, a young twenty-something woman for antenatal care. It was her first pregnancy and she was bursting with dreams and bubbling with questions about problems she hoped to avoid in the pregnancy. But one of the things that made her stand out in my memory was her hair. She had incredibly long shiny black hair that hung down to her waist when she didn't try to confine it in a messy bun on top of her head. She was extremely proud of it, and told me she rarely had to work at keeping the sheen that was so striking to everybody in the waiting room. She was used to stares, she would tell me with a big smile on her face.
And yet, as the pregnancy progressed, she found that not only was the length starting to annoy her, but she was also beginning to find clumps of it on her brush each morning. I tried to reassure her that, although not the rule by any means, it is not uncommon to lose some hair in the course of a normal pregnancy. This usually corrects itself three or four months after delivery.
"So I'm not gonna go bald, then?" she said with a twinkle in her eye. I shook my head and smiled. "My husband says it's probably because the long hair weighs so much it's pulling on the roots and weakening them or something." Her expression suddenly changed and instead of twinkling, I found her eyes wandering over my face like robins listening for a worm. "He even jokes about me being a black-haired Rapunzel…" A look of concern appeared, and her eyes immediately flew home. "He says maybe I should cut it shorter while I still have some left. 'Remember the witch' he says.
"We had a big fight about how unfair that was…" She glanced at me for my reaction, and seeing the puzzled expression I was unable to hide, she shrugged. "The story hides behind the idea that long hair not only allowed her captor, but also her rescuer to reach her in the tower." Suddenly her look was a glare. "In medieval times, men were the oppressors –they had the towers- so why make some old woman the villain?"
I wanted to say it was just a story, but she beat me to it. "Ted says it's just a story –a way to allow a prince to rescue her…" Ada turned her eyes into predators and suddenly unleashed them on my face. "I told him it seemed a bit contrived to me. An example of assumed male privilege, and Woman's desire to be rescued. Of course he was a prince, and of course that's what she needed…"
I suppose my face said I still didn't follow her logic, because she immediately softened her expression and touched my arm. "I majored in medieval European literature in university –Ted was messing with the wrong woman…"
She smiled and sighed at her reaction to her husband. "Poor guy. I really gave it to him," she confessed with a chuckle. Then she twinkled her eyes again. "So, doctor, was Ted right? Should I cut my hair shorter?"
I shrugged to indicate that I wasn't at all sure. "Are you certain Ted wouldn't miss it?"
She sighed. "That's the problem with princes, isn't it?"
Tagged antenatal care, fairy tales, hair, hair loss in pregnancy, historical revisionism, male dominance, medieval Europe, medieval literature, Rapunzel, sexism, women as victims, women as villains
For my Pains, a World of Sighs
What does pain look like? An intriguing question to be sure, but one I hadn't even thought to ask until recently. Pain is one of those things that, like St. Augustine's quandary over Time, presents a similar difficulty in defining. The International Association for the Study of Pain made a stab at it: 'Pain is an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with actual or potential tissue damage, or described in terms of such damage,' but somehow, it seems to lack the immediacy of its subject matter –it stands, like an observer, outside the issue. Poets have done a better job, I think. Emily Dickinson, for example: After great pain, a formal feeling comes. The Nerves sit ceremonious, like tombs'; or Kahlil Gibran: 'pain is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self'; or even Oscar Wilde: 'Pain, unlike Pleasure, wears no mask.'
But I was reminded of another of Wilde's observations -'We who live in prison, and in whose lives there is no event but sorrow, have to measure time by throbs of pain, and the record of bitter moments.'- when I read a CBC article from November, 2016 entitled 'Indigenous children, stoic about their pain, are drawn out with art' http://www.cbc.ca/news/health/aboriginal-youth-art-pain-hurt-healing-1.3852646
'"Aboriginal children feel and experience pain just like anyone else. It's just that they express their pain very differently," said John Sylliboy, community research co-ordinator with the Aboriginal Children's Hurt and Healing Initiative.
'"They don't necessarily verbalize their pain, or they don't express it outwardly through crying or through pain grimaces," he told CBC News.'
'These children are socialized to be stoic about their pain, to hold in their pain.'- Margot Latimer, Centre for Pediatric Pain Research, IWK Health Centre in Halifax. '"We noticed we weren't seeing any First Nations youth referred to our pain clinic at the IWK hospital and wondered why that was so."' It didn't make sense, she thought — especially since research shows that chronic illness in First Nations communities is almost three times higher than in the general population. Aboriginal children are especially vulnerable, says Latimer, with higher rates of dental pain, ear infections, and juvenile rheumatoid arthritis.'
I found it very moving, and yet disturbing, that '[…] cultural traditions, and lingering effects from the residential school system, are some of the reasons Indigenous kids pull on their suit of armour against pain and hurt.' But they're children, and perhaps not yet completely shackled to all the subtleties of culture. 'A group of Indigenous children and teenagers from four First Nations communities in the Maritimes were asked to paint their pain, to express their hurt through art. Researchers were hoping to tease out emotions from a population more inclined to show resilience to pain.' But soon after, the children began to depict not just physical pain, but emotional pain as well. As Sylliboy points out, '"These kids told us about loneliness, sadness, darkness, bullying, hopelessness. It's not the typical anxiety [or] depression. It is more complex than that." "To these clinicians who are just asking about physical pain and not looking at emotional pain as well, it is important, because Aboriginal kids are showing us that there is no difference between emotional and physical pain", said Sylliboy. "It's just pain."'
And I learned another thing about pain –or maybe about children – 'It's all about creating a safe space for the children when they come to the hospital, says Latimer. She says it's about learning a bit about them and gaining their trust. "When they come to the health centre, or a physician or a nurse practitioner, they want to tell their story, but we do not train health professionals to assess pain that way."'
It reminded me of a patient I first met in the Emergency Department at the hospital when I was the gynaecologist on call one night. Edie, an aboriginal woman arrived with heavy bleeding –she was apparently in the throes of miscarrying an early pregnancy- and had brought her eight year old son to the hospital because she had no one to take care of him at home. The bleeding settled shortly after her arrival and an ultrasound in the department revealed that there was no further tissue left in the uterus, so fortunately we didn't have to take her to the operating room. But the process of diagnosis and decision was not instantaneous. Although the little boy, Timmy, was clearly frightened, his face stayed neutral. And yet it seemed as if he was peeking through hole in a fence, and I could see his eyes carefully following my every move. One of the nurses volunteered to sit with him in the waiting room while I examined his mother, but I was the last one he stared at before leaving; I was the thing he didn't understand.
I decided to let Edie rest on the stretcher for a while before discharge, and I thought I'd reassure Timmy before I left. He was sitting on the too-big chair as quietly and unmoving as an adult and when I approached, he stared at me like a deer hiding in a forest.
"Your mom's going to be okay, Timmy," I said with a big smile.
But he still seemed just as frightened, and stayed silent for a moment. "There was blood on her pants," he mumbled, perhaps making sure I'd noticed. He allowed his eyes to venture out further into the open and he examined me again. "And she was hurting…"
What do you tell a little boy about his mother's suffering? I knelt down on one knee in front of him so our eyes were on the same level and put a hand on his knee. I couldn't think of anything else to do. "She's not hurting now, Timmy," I said and smiled again.
He looked at my hand and then he finally smiled. "Can she go home now?" When I nodded, he reached out and carefully touched one of my fingers, and then when I didn't pull away, he patted my hand.
I never saw little Timmy again, but a few weeks later, Edie came to my office for a follow-up visit and to thank me for seeing her in the hospital in the middle of the night. "Timmy was really impressed," she said and smiled. She ruffled through her purse and brought out a rumpled piece of paper she'd nonetheless folded carefully. "He drew this for you, doctor," she said proudly, and handed it to me.
When I opened it up, it was a drawing of a hand in red crayon.
"He said it was to thank you…" She seemed embarrassed, and hesitated before continuing. "I asked him why he drew it in red…" she said.
She still seemed embarrassed, so I stayed silent until she felt ready to continue.
Edie studied me for a moment with her big brown eyes, still uncertain. Then her face relaxed and a big smile appeared. "He said maybe you were one of us, now…"
I could have cried.
Tagged aboriginal, aboriginal children, Aboriginal Children's Hurt and Healing Initiative, art, CBC News, Centre for Pediatric Pain Research, Emily Dickinson, emotional pain, First Nations, International Association for the Study of Pain, IWK Hospital, John Sylliboy, Kahlil Gibran, Margot Latimer, Oscar Wilde, Pain, Physical pain, St. Augustine, us and them
Okay, I'll admit I'm intrigued by investigations that attempt to prove things the rest of us simply take for granted. Things that seem so obvious, that I wonder why they ever extracted them from the background for analysis. When you live in a forest, why would you single out a tree?
Do babies do better when they are loved? I can't even imagine the need to ask that question, but I suppose we only see the world through the filter of the prevailing ethos of our society. It was not so very long ago, for example, that the psychologist Harry Harlow devised an experiment that, although cruel to contemporary eyes, was an honest attempt to explore what it is that infants need. He separated infant monkeys from their mothers and placed them in isolation in little cages. He then gave them a choice between a metal dummy holding a bottle of milk, or a soft, fuzzy cloth dummy without milk. And, no surprise, the babies chose the soft cloth dummy so they could cling to it. A mother is more than a source of food –much more.
An article in the BBC news last year caught my eye. It posited '[…]that babies need to feel safe, secure and loved for brain connections to be properly formed to enable them to learn effectively.' http://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-38002105
This was suggested by a study from Cambridge University in England that utilized brain scans. The researchers scanned the brains of babies and their mothers while the two were interacting in learning activities. 'The early indications are that when the brain waves of mothers and babies are out of sync, the babies learn less well. But when the two sets of brainwaves are in tune they seem to learn more effectively. Dr Victoria Leong, who is leading the research, has discovered that babies learn well when their mums speak to them in a soothing sing-song voice which she calls "motherese". Dr Leong's research shows that nursery rhymes are a particularly good way for the mums in her study to get in sync with their babies.'
Fascinating, but taking it even further, '[…] babies respond better when there is prolonged eye contact. Mums who sang nursery rhymes looking directly at their babies held their attention significantly better than those who gazed away, even occasionally.'
I recognize how important it might seem to subject the intuitively obvious to some form of scientific scrutiny –just in case, as it were- and I am all for it. Who would dare question what is plain to see and even easier to hear every day in my waiting room? Certainly not me. But sometimes I am, well, surprised at the venue.
I first met Janice in the delivery suite late one night when I was the obstetrician on call. The midwife was concerned about the progress of labour and had asked me to consult on her client. After examining Janice, I had reassured them both and counselled patience and then, with smiles all around, had left to attend to other matters. The midwife later informed me that she delivered a healthy baby boy only a few minutes after I'd left, and so I assumed I'd probably never see Janice again.
So I was surprised when, a month or so later, Janice showed up in my waiting room. At first I didn't recognize her, but she was singing to her baby and the voice sounded familiar. It's funny how some things seem inextricably linked to people –a mannerism for one, or a facial expression for another… For Janice, it was undoubtedly her voice. As a small, even petite, woman, I suppose my expectation would be for her sound to match –thin, soft, fragile, perhaps- but like the Pacific wren, the volume far exceeded the source. As did the duration and enthusiasm with which she serenaded her infant. In fact I stood, in thrall, just behind the front desk, not wanting to interrupt her song by inviting her into my office.
Eventually, and not without some concern about interfering with the obvious bonding process, but seeing the baby snuggled contentedly in her arms with his eyes closed, I decided to intervene.
"Janice," I said, walking over to where she was sitting, and the baby seemed to stir.
She knifed me with her eyes, and a finger flew to her lips to caution me to be silent. She wound down the nursery rhyme slowly and deliberately, all the while gazing intently at her sleeping baby. She seemed to be assessing his breathing pattern and only when she had decided that it accorded with her expectations did she rise and follow me into my office down the hall. I could tell by her subsequent shrug that she hadn't meant to be rude, or to keep me waiting, but was merely trying to stay in sync with her sleeping infant. That, of course, was fine with me –it's hard to talk with a patient when her baby is crying.
She settled in a chair by my desk almost by brail; she was so intent on her baby, her eyes never left his face. "I've just fed him," she explained with a smile that only caressed the infant, so I'm not sure whether I was supposed to share. "I think he'll sleep now," she added with another misdirected smile.
I decided to respond with a smile of my own, this one directed at Janice, however –a sort of 'teach by example', I suppose.
But before it even reached her, the baby opened his eyes and stared quietly at his mother, contentment written across his face like a tattoo. It immediately galvanized her into action, however, and she began to sing another nursery rhyme and rock him in her arms. He obviously enjoyed it and stared lovingly into her eyes as if there were no other reality. No other world. He seemed to be spellbound by the endlessly repeated 'Baa baa black sheep' song although after a few minutes, I have to say I became more interested in the rhythmic, hypnotic nodding of her head and felt myself occasionally fighting to focus my eyes.
I began to wonder what the end point of her singing would be. The baby seemed content, he wasn't crying, or squirming and yet on and on she sang. I tried a few times, unsuccessfully, to ask her why she had come to visit me in the office; the midwife usually follows her clients post-partum unless there is a problem. But each time I spoke, the baby would open his eyes, and Janice would risk a quick glare at me and resume rocking him with yet another song.
Finally, she stood up and looked at me with an embarrassed smile. "I'm sorry, doctor," she said, heading for the door. "I just can't seem to settle him today… I'll have to make another appointment," she added before launching into 'Three Blind Mice.'
As she disappeared down the hall, and the song faded into the distance, I realized I never did discover why she'd been sent to see me. But I felt grateful for that final smile, however. Sometimes it's the little things that matter…
Tagged baby, BBC news, Cambridge University, cloth monkey experiment, Dr. Victoria Leong, Harry Harlow, infant, mother, mother-baby interaction, nursery rhymes, Pacific wren
April 5, 2017 by gozzter
Grapple them unto thy soul with hoops of steel.
What is a friend? I think I could parallel St. Augustine's answer about Time: 'What then is time? If no one asks me, I know what it is. If I wish to explain it to him who asks, I do not know.' Friendship is such a universal concept, such an acknowledged need, I'm not sure why it is difficult to define. Perhaps it is so much a part of our Umwelt that the only aspect of it that becomes consciously discernible is its absence. It is our air…
But of late, it seems to me that its meaning has been further eroded, further diluted, by its use in social media. It is now a verb as well as a noun –all well and good if we are willing to enrol people as friends much as we might solicit them to join a political party, or consider anybody that smiles at us as worthy of the designation.
Obviously, friendship is a spectrum and simply because we use the same word to designate the entire range does not reveal much about the meaning or the importance of its constituents to us. In a sense, if used generically and without a more descriptive adjective, the word is an empty shell –'Full of sound and fury, signifying nothing' as Macbeth said of Life. And that life is actually not so full of friends -'Which the poor heart would fain deny and dare not.' to quote Macbeth out of context once again. We do not have as many friends as we think –nor is it even possible to sustain the emotional effort necessary to acquire and succour more than five, or so, close friends. http://nyti.ms/2baJQPL
So, I suspect we should be careful how we use the term and in what context –for what purpose. The number of 'friends' we think we have are akin to the denominator of a fraction. It's the numerator –the number of close friends- that determine the size. The value… I would have thought this was so obvious as to be almost trite. Uninteresting. But maybe the idea that a friend is someone requiring at the very least, an ongoing personal, non-virtual, interaction is a generational thing. Am I just having a semantic argument with myself; am I merely a Cassandra unable to understand that it is only my opinion that is being contested, and that its tenets have already been superseded? Food for thought…
And yet, there are consequences. Sometimes it is best to check in the rear-view mirror from time to time.
I've always liked Jennifer. She is a twenty-something year old woman I have known for several years now. I first met her because of a minor abnormality of her pap smear, and have seen her every year or so since then. I think she sits in the same place in the waiting room each time, too; I always associate her with the seat in the corner by the window –the one partially hidden by the Areca palm. She's a small person, and her never-varying outfit of jeans and sweatshirt seem to blend beautifully with the green of the plant. Even her dark, shoulder-length hair sometimes resembles the type of shadow I imagine the plant would cast if it could… I don't know why I think that; maybe because they're both quiet. Both still. Both background.
The other day when I saw her in her usual spot, she was typing away furiously on her cell phone. She looked on edge, and the troubled expression did not disappear even when she saw me smile and walk across the carpet to greet her.
There's often an easy-to-spot anxiety in some patients –the kind I usually can't hide when the dentist ushers me into his chair- but I knew Jennifer, and the referral note just said she was back for a repeat pap smear.
"You look worried today, Jennifer," I said when we were both seated in my office. "Are you concerned about the pap smear?"
She'd put the phone in her pocket and was staring absently at a terra cotta woman sitting on an oak stand with her begging bowl. I'd had it there for years, so Jennifer had certainly seen it before. She shook her head, but left her eyes gently stroking its contours. "She always makes me relax… I'm glad she's still here." I could see her trying to disguise a sigh. "It's nice that some things stay the same…" She was quiet for a moment as she thought about it. "…Stay the way they're supposed to be," she added to herself as she moved her eyes slowly over to my desk like sleeping birds and left them lying there. They didn't see me, I don't think.
I waited for her to continue, but she merely repositioned her attention onto her lap. "What do you mean?" I asked, when it became clear that she needed to talk about it.
Up flew the eyes to the box of tissues on the desk and she grabbed a handful to wipe away some tears. "It's nothing about my pap smears," she said in a hoarse voice. "I don't need to take up your time…"
"The pap smear talk can wait for a bit, Jennifer. Tell me what's upsetting you." I smiled reassuringly, but her eyes never reached my face.
She took a deep and stertorous breath and then decided to send them on a reconnaissance flight in my direction. "Oh, it's just my 'friends'," she said, making sure I understood that there were quote marks around the word. "I invited all 147 of them to like a business website that I'm starting…"
I have to admit that I was a bit confused. "Like? As in Facebook 'like' you mean?" I had no idea what message that sent. A friend had once asked me to 'like' her barbershop on Facebook and I had duly complied –it seemed simple enough… and if it made her feel good, what the heck, eh?
She nodded, although I could tell by her face that perhaps I shouldn't have needed to clarify such an obvious point.
She took a deep breath and shrugged. "And, well I guess I don't really have 147 friends."
I didn't ask her how she knew -I figured that was probably obvious, too. But I must have looked surprised, because she giggled at the notion. "I mean I didn't really think they'd all like the page, but…"
I had to chuckle –I couldn't help myself. "I don't even know that many people, Jennifer. I mean not counting patients…" I quickly corrected, as her face interrogated me in disbelief.
"How many friends do you have on Facebook, doctor?"
I shrugged. "I don't know… I mean, counting my kids and a few close friends… twenty, maybe…?"
She thought about that for a few seconds. "I don't know how I got so many." She glanced at the statue again. "Sort of like collecting tee shirts, I guess. They look so nice in the store, but I hardly ever wear them."
A thought suddenly occurred to me. "Do you know how many 'liked' your… uhmm, page?" I tried to sound knowledgeable about the words, but to tell the truth, I was on slippery ground and I think it showed.
She caught her eyes, before they completed a roll and managed to salvage a serviceable smile out of what I'm sure was headed for a smirk. Then her eyes twinkled without her planning on it, and she giggled with delight at my expression. "Only seven, so far…"
It was my turn to nod, and I sat back in my chair as I did so. "Well maybe you come out the winner, then…"
She tilted her head, as cute as a button, and I could see the adult stirring behind the mirror of her eyes.
"Now you know what 'friend' really means…" I said, smiling.
Her eyes hovered around my face for a moment before they returned to their owner, and I think she blushed.
Tagged 'like', Cassandra, Facebook, Facebook friends, friend, friendship, Macbeth, New York Times article, semantic argument, social media, St. Augustine, Time, Unwelt


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    Node               cloneNode(in boolean deep);
    // Modified in DOM Level 3:
    void               normalize();
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    boolean            isSupported(in DOMString feature,
                                   in DOMString version);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    readonly attribute DOMString       namespaceURI;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
             attribute DOMString       prefix;
                                        // raises(DOMException) on setting

    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    readonly attribute DOMString       localName;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
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    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       baseURI;

    // DocumentPosition
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    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    unsigned short     compareDocumentPosition(in Node other)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
             attribute DOMString       textContent;
                                        // raises(DOMException) on setting
                                        // raises(DOMException) on retrieval

    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    boolean            isSameNode(in Node other);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    DOMString          lookupPrefix(in DOMString namespaceURI);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    boolean            isDefaultNamespace(in DOMString namespaceURI);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    DOMString          lookupNamespaceURI(in DOMString prefix);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    boolean            isEqualNode(in Node arg);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    DOMObject          getFeature(in DOMString feature,
                                  in DOMString version);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    DOMUserData        setUserData(in DOMString key,
                                   in DOMUserData data,
                                   in UserDataHandler handler);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
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  interface NodeList {
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  interface NamedNodeMap {
    Node               getNamedItem(in DOMString name);
    Node               setNamedItem(in Node arg)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    Node               removeNamedItem(in DOMString name)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    Node               item(in unsigned long index);
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    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
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                                        raises(DOMException);
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    Node               removeNamedItemNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
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    void               insertData(in unsigned long offset,
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    void               deleteData(in unsigned long offset,
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    void               replaceData(in unsigned long offset,
                                   in unsigned long count,
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                                        raises(DOMException);
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  interface Attr : Node {
    readonly attribute DOMString       name;
    readonly attribute boolean         specified;
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    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    readonly attribute Element         ownerElement;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute TypeInfo        schemaTypeInfo;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute boolean         isId;
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  interface Element : Node {
    readonly attribute DOMString       tagName;
    DOMString          getAttribute(in DOMString name);
    void               setAttribute(in DOMString name,
                                    in DOMString value)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    void               removeAttribute(in DOMString name)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    Attr               getAttributeNode(in DOMString name);
    Attr               setAttributeNode(in Attr newAttr)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    Attr               removeAttributeNode(in Attr oldAttr)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    NodeList           getElementsByTagName(in DOMString name);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    DOMString          getAttributeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                      in DOMString localName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    void               setAttributeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                      in DOMString qualifiedName,
                                      in DOMString value)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    void               removeAttributeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                         in DOMString localName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    Attr               getAttributeNodeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                          in DOMString localName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    Attr               setAttributeNodeNS(in Attr newAttr)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    NodeList           getElementsByTagNameNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                              in DOMString localName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    boolean            hasAttribute(in DOMString name);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    boolean            hasAttributeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                      in DOMString localName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute TypeInfo        schemaTypeInfo;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    void               setIdAttribute(in DOMString name,
                                      in boolean isId)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    void               setIdAttributeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                        in DOMString localName,
                                        in boolean isId)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    void               setIdAttributeNode(in Attr idAttr,
                                          in boolean isId)
                                        raises(DOMException);
  };

  interface Text : CharacterData {
    Text               splitText(in unsigned long offset)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute boolean         isElementContentWhitespace;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       wholeText;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    Text               replaceWholeText(in DOMString content)
                                        raises(DOMException);
  };

  interface Comment : CharacterData {
  };

  // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
  interface TypeInfo {
    readonly attribute DOMString       typeName;
    readonly attribute DOMString       typeNamespace;

    // DerivationMethods
    const unsigned long       DERIVATION_RESTRICTION         = 0x00000001;
    const unsigned long       DERIVATION_EXTENSION           = 0x00000002;
    const unsigned long       DERIVATION_UNION               = 0x00000004;
    const unsigned long       DERIVATION_LIST                = 0x00000008;

    boolean            isDerivedFrom(in DOMString typeNamespaceArg,
                                     in DOMString typeNameArg,
                                     in unsigned long derivationMethod);
  };

  // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
  interface UserDataHandler {

    // OperationType
    const unsigned short      NODE_CLONED                    = 1;
    const unsigned short      NODE_IMPORTED                  = 2;
    const unsigned short      NODE_DELETED                   = 3;
    const unsigned short      NODE_RENAMED                   = 4;
    const unsigned short      NODE_ADOPTED                   = 5;

    void               handle(in unsigned short operation,
                              in DOMString key,
                              in DOMUserData data,
                              in Node src,
                              in Node dst);
  };

  // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
  interface DOMError {

    // ErrorSeverity
    const unsigned short      SEVERITY_WARNING               = 1;
    const unsigned short      SEVERITY_ERROR                 = 2;
    const unsigned short      SEVERITY_FATAL_ERROR           = 3;

    readonly attribute unsigned short  severity;
    readonly attribute DOMString       message;
    readonly attribute DOMString       type;
    readonly attribute DOMObject       relatedException;
    readonly attribute DOMObject       relatedData;
    readonly attribute DOMLocator      location;
  };

  // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
  interface DOMErrorHandler {
    boolean            handleError(in DOMError error);
  };

  // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
  interface DOMLocator {
    readonly attribute long            lineNumber;
    readonly attribute long            columnNumber;
    readonly attribute long            byteOffset;
    readonly attribute long            utf16Offset;
    readonly attribute Node            relatedNode;
    readonly attribute DOMString       uri;
  };

  // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
  interface DOMConfiguration {
    void               setParameter(in DOMString name,
                                    in DOMUserData value)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    DOMUserData        getParameter(in DOMString name)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    boolean            canSetParameter(in DOMString name,
                                       in DOMUserData value);
    readonly attribute DOMStringList   parameterNames;
  };

  interface CDATASection : Text {
  };

  interface DocumentType : Node {
    readonly attribute DOMString       name;
    readonly attribute NamedNodeMap    entities;
    readonly attribute NamedNodeMap    notations;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    readonly attribute DOMString       publicId;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    readonly attribute DOMString       systemId;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    readonly attribute DOMString       internalSubset;
  };

  interface Notation : Node {
    readonly attribute DOMString       publicId;
    readonly attribute DOMString       systemId;
  };

  interface Entity : Node {
    readonly attribute DOMString       publicId;
    readonly attribute DOMString       systemId;
    readonly attribute DOMString       notationName;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       inputEncoding;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       xmlEncoding;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       xmlVersion;
  };

  interface EntityReference : Node {
  };

  interface ProcessingInstruction : Node {
    readonly attribute DOMString       target;
             attribute DOMString       data;
                                        // raises(DOMException) on setting

  };

  interface DocumentFragment : Node {
  };

  interface Document : Node {
    // Modified in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DocumentType    doctype;
    readonly attribute DOMImplementation implementation;
    readonly attribute Element         documentElement;
    Element            createElement(in DOMString tagName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    DocumentFragment   createDocumentFragment();
    Text               createTextNode(in DOMString data);
    Comment            createComment(in DOMString data);
    CDATASection       createCDATASection(in DOMString data)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    ProcessingInstruction createProcessingInstruction(in DOMString target,
                                                      in DOMString data)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    Attr               createAttribute(in DOMString name)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    EntityReference    createEntityReference(in DOMString name)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    NodeList           getElementsByTagName(in DOMString tagname);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    Node               importNode(in Node importedNode,
                                  in boolean deep)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    Element            createElementNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                       in DOMString qualifiedName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    Attr               createAttributeNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                         in DOMString qualifiedName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    NodeList           getElementsByTagNameNS(in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                              in DOMString localName);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 2:
    Element            getElementById(in DOMString elementId);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       inputEncoding;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMString       xmlEncoding;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
             attribute boolean         xmlStandalone;
                                        // raises(DOMException) on setting

    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
             attribute DOMString       xmlVersion;
                                        // raises(DOMException) on setting

    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
             attribute boolean         strictErrorChecking;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
             attribute DOMString       documentURI;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    Node               adoptNode(in Node source)
                                        raises(DOMException);
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    readonly attribute DOMConfiguration domConfig;
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    void               normalizeDocument();
    // Introduced in DOM Level 3:
    Node               renameNode(in Node n,
                                  in DOMString namespaceURI,
                                  in DOMString qualifiedName)
                                        raises(DOMException);
  };
};

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From The Eagles
Ryan Mathews: Ready To Thrive For Eagles
This feature is a weekly piece on BleedingGreenNation.com titled From The Eagles, featuring Eagles Insider Dave Spadaro. The intention is to provide a perspective directly from the Philadelphia Eagles in this forum for the great fans who visit BGN.
By Brandon Lee Gowton@BrandonGowton Jun 24, 2015, 8:53am EDT
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Ryan Mathews has had more than his share of injuries. Ankle and knee problems limited him to 76 carries in 2014. A collarbone injured ended his 2012 campaign early. A groin injury and a calf injury limited Mathews in 2011 and an ankle injury shorted his 2010 year by four games.
Too many hurts. Too much time on the sidelines. Franchise-type running backs don't miss chunks of seasons with nagging injuries, and that's why San Diego allowed Mathews, a former first-round pick there, to leave via free agency.
The Eagles eagerly scooped up Mathews in free agency. Head coach Chip Kelly traded LeSean McCoy and envisioned Mathews teaming with another back --- could have been Frank Gore and turned out to be DeMarco Murray - and giving this offense the kind of 1-2 running back power punch unlike any in the league.
As the Eagles take time off before the start of the August 2 Training Camp and fans focus on the health of quarterback Sam Bradford and the star power of Murray and a defense that is longer, deeper and faster with its offseason overhaul, the message here is this: Don't sleep on Mathews. He's primed for a huge season here.
At 220-225 pounds, Mathews is a speed back in a power body. He has the bulk to run between the tackles and take on and defeat linebackers. He can get to the edge and run through defensive backs. As much as the Eagles love Murray, and they do, Mathews is the same prototype "downhill" runner who fits the zone running scheme here and who can punish defenders who are lagging as they try to keep up with the Eagles' offensive tempo.
What is Mathews' role? It's just a guess, but does 8-10 carries and a couple of chances in the passing game sound good? The Eagles also want to see Mathews in the kickoff return game, and he gained a lot of reps in the spring training sessions. It could be Mathews returning kickoffs. It could be Josh Huff. It could be Nelson Agholor. The possibilities are many.
Kelly is going to make sure that Mathews gets his work and contributes to the offense. The fit is one that works for both sides: The Eagles want to run the ball early and often in games, using the ground attack to set up the passing game. They want power backs who can also catch the ball and help in pass protection. They want depth, and along with Darren Sproles joining Murray and Mathews the Eagles have the deepest running back trio in the NFL. For Mathews, this situation works perfectly. He can get his touches and play a varied role and not get pounded with 250-plus carries a season (his career high is 285 carries, in 2013). Mathews knew full well the scenario when he visited in free agency. He knew he was part of a revamped backfield package. He knew he would share carries. And he knew that Kelly's coaching record suggests very strongly that the Eagles will emphasize running the football and that they will have success doing so.
Don't sleep on Mathews. He's probably not high on your Fantasy Football rankings, and that's understandable. But he's going to have a big role in the offense and should bring the thunder in the Eagles' ground attack that Chip Kelly will feature prominently.

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Pickus, Benjamin A.
Mills, Aaron (advisor)
Herman, Janet (advisor)
Nitrate Flux
Virginia's Eastern Shore
Water Sheds
Topographic Models and Infiltration Rate Analysis: Evaluating Extent of Potential Groundwater Denitrification of Low-Relief Streams Draining Watersheds of the Atlantic Coastal Plain
Thesis/Dissertation; Online
Mills, Aaron
Herman, Janet
Nitrate flux from agricultural watersheds via streams impairs coastal water quality on the Atlantic shoreline. On Virginia's Eastern Shore, low-relief gaining streams drain 54 small agricultural watersheds (80-1100 ha) that extend from the center of the Delmarva Peninsula to coastal lagoons and the Atlantic Ocean. Microbially mediated denitrification in subsurface water can dramatically reduce the amount of nitrate flowing from watersheds. Stage hydrographs were developed for four streams using continuous measurements of water-surface elevation in stilling wells, and median and maximum stage was identified. Putting together cross sections derived from hand measurements in the field at each stream, a topographic model of the stream bank, floodplain, and highlands was developed using GIS software. Stage record was combined with stream geometry to illustrate the areal extent that stream water inundates the floodplain following rain events. The increases in inundation area between median and high stage varied greatly among the streams, from a high of 1247% to a low of 46%. Some streams had significant reaches of dry channel over the year, and their water-covered areas increased the most with rain events. With new insights into stream access to floodplain areas during high-flow events, the potential for bank infiltration in riparian-zone sediments was explored. Infiltrometer measurements were collected in a manner that supported quantification of the comparative potential of surface-water input to the subsurface under different conditions, including location of stream, type of landscape, and vegetative cover of soil. The average hydraulic conductivity of the soils at each stream differed, but the hydraulic conductivities were on average 60% greater in the floodplain compared to in the stream bank, and vegetation cover had no significant effect. These results suggest that the floodplain, established by the topography, has the highest potential for infiltration and subsequent potential for denitrification.
University of Virginia, Department of Environmental Sciences, BS (Bachelor of Science), 2015
BS (Bachelor of Science)
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As the new year is upon us it makes sense to take some time to think about our goals, dreams, and what were grateful for. It is also the perfect time to look within and release negative emotions, memories, and pain. To do this acknowledge that these negative emotions exist, and identify who or what caused them then from your heart let it go and forgive them. You can also forgive yourself.
Once able to adopt an attitude of forgiveness and acceptance your attitudes and reactions to life circumstance change. You will find yourself happy, and other people will notice. Little things will no longer cause stress and anxiety because you will accept what is and then take the necessary actions. This is called living in the moment.
As you begin this year keep in mind you can right or you can be happy. Which do you choose.
Life contains periods of light and darkness. Mixed in among them are the shadows. Photographers and artists love the shadows as it is the shadows that create contrast, dimension, depth, feeling, and emotion in paintings and photographs. They are key elements to effective story telling.
Shadows have another meaning when thinking about the ego, human behavior, and emotions. In this sense there are feelings, and emotions stored inside, that may affect how you deal with and respond to what is happening in your current life experience. These are hidden emotions which can be the catalyst that promote self doubt, lack of confidence, anger, resentment, poor decision making, e.t.c.. The good news is that if we are aware and living in the moment, shadows serve to help us recognize our emotions stirring.
Recognizing these feelings as they are happening provides us the opportunity to deal with our issues in a positive manner serving the needs of everyone involved. The alternative is to let the emotions inside awaken the ego and allow it to take control. When this happens things are often said and done in reaction without having taken a moment to think things through.
Happiness comes from inside. Think about ice cream, rainbows, your dog, a smiling child and see if you feel happy.
Waiting for something to happen to make you happy might lead to feelings of frustration. You cant control when things happen, or what people will do. But, you can control how you feel. It takes presence and a mindset that life is to be cherished.
Human beings were not created by god to be unhappy. We were manifested to be happy and contribute to the world.
So be happy and let the love and joy shine through you. This will spread to others and the world will be better for it. Remember it all starts with a smile.
Sometimes people that care about you might give you unasked for advice. If you can control your ego and not get upset, you might just learn something valuable. If you can't stay present in the moment, your ego will wake up and you will likely feel rejection, frustration, anxiety, fear, sense of loss, or anger. These emotions will not serve you well.
If your not in the frame of mind to take the advice, just listen and let it come in one ear and go out the other. In this case a response like " is that so" will show that you have listened and is not negative. It shows that you respect the other persons intent but are not into pursuing the topic.
Remember this – only you can control your emotions. Do not give that power away. IF you let others dictate how you feel the result will be pain.
Lastly remember you get more flies with honey……..
Hopefully this unasked for advice will help you live with love and peace.
Try to remember that all things are transient. They come and go. Just as you buy a car and use it for 10 years than get another, emotions and feelings come and go. When you can accept all that occurs and be at one with it, rather than separate from it this is consciousness and who you really are.