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MOMologues shed a humorous light on the joys, and pains of motherhood
Show runs at Paris Gibson Square Feb 16-18, 24-25
Jake Sorich 2017-02-13
Jake Sorich / February 13, 2017 /	2k
If you've ever been a mom, had a mom, watched someone doing mom-like things, or simply wish you were a mom, there's something in the Paris Gibson Square's production of "MOMologues" for you to enjoy.
The production, starring Trish Roberts, Tiffany Waldren, Eva Hribikova Maydole and Alison Palmiotto, was written by Lisa Rafferty, Sheila Eppolito and Stefanie Cloutier. It's billed as, "An original comedy about motherhood (that) rips away the gauzy mask of parenthood to reveal what all mothers know but don't always talk about: it's overwhelming and exhausting, but also very, very funny."
The show runs Feb 16-18 and again Feb. 24-25. The Feb. 16-17 shows are at 7 p.m., there's two shows on Feb. 18, one at 1 p.m. and another at 4 p.m., and the show on Feb. 24 is at 7 p.m. and the show on Feb. 25 starts at 12:30 and 3:30 p.m. Tickets to the 7 p.m. performances are $12 and tickets to the afternoon shows that include brunch are $20 per person.
Before getting any further along in this review, I should include this disclosure — I have never had any children of my own. That may have taken away a little from my understanding of certain things these women described, but, only on the surface level. When you go see Titanic, for instance, you didn't think "Well, I've never been on a ship that's struck by an iceberg, so I can't relate to THAT."
No. But, what a story like this does do for people who HAVE lived through motherhood, is give a knowing nod, a self-recognizing chuckle to anyone who's been in these situations.
The cast of MOMologues at Paris Gibson Square perform on Sunday.
The show starts before all four women are expecting and talk about how some people, such as Waldren's character, had no problem conceiving their first child, while others, such as Roberts' character, tried everything they could possibly think of and still had trouble making it happen.
The show progresses into pregnancy and the struggles, along with the lighter moments, that that entails. Each mom wore a baby bump to add to the immersion, and not only that but they were able to wear outfits that looked as natural with the baby-bumps as they did without them. Plus, they were able to change into, and out of them, during the program with no problems whatsoever.
After the giving birth portion, each woman talks about the truths involved with newborns and how sometimes all they really want is two whole minutes without any screaming, feeding or changing.
One of the more memorable bits involved one of the characters talking about how long she planned on breast feeding her son, which from my non-breast-feeding experience seemed really long, which added some cheeky humor in that when you think about it, these are the types of things nobody tells you when you're a new mom. How long DO you breast feed for? When does it start getting weird? How are you supposed to know?
Trish Roberts, Tiffany Waldren, Alison Palmiotto and Eva Hribikova Maydole star in MOMologues at Paris Gibson Square.
With shows like this one, it helps to have distinct characters because when you're all talking about similar things, you hate to get them all mashed together. Here, it was done with ease thanks to the various accents, looks, backstories, temperament and overall style. Waldren was the slightly anal-retentive "everything will be organized in my day planner and nothing is going wrong" mother. Roberts was the "What the fuck is this shit? I NEED some coffee right now or I'm going to blow my lid," mother. Maydole was the regularly talking-on-the-phone-with-her-mother, mother, and finally Palmiotto was the "boys will be boys, he's OK, when I was his age, I was driving a truck and eating mud and getting into things I probably shouldn't have and I turned out OK" mother.
Those are narrow generalizations, but they give you the idea of their characters, at least. They do change slightly as the show goes on, too, but you'll have to go see how exactly yourself.
You can tell that the story was written by real mothers because, as the show description says, they do not gloss over anything that might seem "unpleasant." Things such as wanting more sex when you're pregnant to then not having any desire at all after the children are born, to losing your child in a department store, to how things change when you have your second, and/or third child, to a marathon of "things your mother told you" that likely, to me, was the highlight of the whole performance.
Each of the moms yelling the old favorites such as "tie your shoes!, Eat your vegetables! Because I said so! You'll understand when you're older," and other classics. Another favorite part was when Roberts talks about her little one saying his first swear word and saying, without any irony, "where the fuck did he learn that?"
Finally, at the performance on Sunday there was also brunch served during intermission, and wine/lemonade/water served throughout the show. The brunch was light, but tasted good, and the white wine/sparking wine, was a nice complement to the food.
If I were to pick any criticisms of the show, I'd say that there were a few brief moments where one of the ladies would trip over a line, or need a few moments to remember one, but, they were VERY slight and did not take away from the performances at all. They had a lot of lines to learn and in a short amount of time, at that. They each did a marvelous job in that regard.
It maybe would have been nice to see some babies in the show, either dolls or real children, to add to the immersion a bit, but, it wasn't something that was a glaring omission. Also, as I mentioned at the top of the review, several of the jokes seemed to be designed specifically for mothers, so if you weren't one you might not find it AS funny.
In the end, though, I'd recommend everyone see "MOMologues" at Paris Gibson Square. It'd make for a great Valentine's Day week outing, or simply a nice break from the stresses of real, actual parenting by laughing at, and relating with, what some of the things parents go through each day.
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NOSTALGIA, JUST LIKE SONGS OF LONG AGO, ARE HELPING TO REJIG THE PAST AND GIVE IT A SENSE OF MEANING.
MEANS TO AN END: NOSTALGIA HAS BEEN FOUND TO CONNECT WITH THE PAST. Below: GET INVOLVED WITH A TASK THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. YOU WILL LOOK BACK ON IT WITH RICH MEMORIES LATER.
The word is 'nostalgia'. People know what it is. They know what a disturbance it can cause the mind. Nearly everybody's got a touch of it.
To explain 'anticipatory nostalgia' means later you will be able to look on it with rich memories.
The writer of this interesting article has many fine things to say about this flashback. He points out that nostalgia therapy has done a lot of "good" for aged care.
"There are things which academics have discovered when studying the concept of nostalgia and its effect on our emotional responses to different forms of memory-triggering stimuli. The feelings that nostalgia creates will also be familiar to you.
"Deliberately thinking of a happy memory, or listening to some songs from your past, is something you can consciously do to give yourself an occasional pick-me-up.
"Nostalgia has also been found to have a different level of effect on different people. Also, for some – especially through middle age – it can make them more acutely aware of their real age if they haven't already come to terms with that thought.
That politicians can trigger certain memories to provoke social and cultural anxieties, and thereby use it a tool of persuasion to get your vote. Therefore, be smart enough to realise they are rarely appealing to the intelligence of the public.
They are instead appealing only to your emotional responses. And you shouldn't let them con you that way.
<< Background for the article can be found in Fairfax Community Newspapers.
MUSICAL: Charlie and the Chocolate Factory – It's inside Roald Dahl's magical world!
CHARLIE BUCKET IS NOW IN HIS ELEMENT. WHEN HE STEPS INTO THIS CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY THE SONGS AND THE MAGIC ARE STILL THE SAME. THOSE WHO SEE CHARLIE IN ACTION, WILL DELIGHT. LET'S TAKE A PEEK.
Like children everywhere, Charlie Bucket adores chocolate but, sadly, his family is so poor that they can only afford to buy him one bar a year; on his birthday. What make poor Charlie's longing even worse? He has to walk near the best chocolate factory in the world -- the secretive Willy Wonka's, every day.
When Charlie's father loses his job, things go from bad and worse.
One day, Willy Wonka announces that he has hidden golden tickets in five Wonka Bars, with the prize of a tour of the factory for the five lucky winners. The sales of Wonka Bars rockets, Wonka-mania encircles the globe.
And one by one the tickets are found: But there is still one golden ticket to find. Charlie's desperation to be able to buy Wonka Bar and hopefully find the final golden ticket is a feeling that all children (and their parents) know.
The interior of the chocolate factory is magical. It's themed rooms, amazing chocolates and sweets, the Oompa-Loompas and, of course, Willy Works himself. Oompa-Loompas are like some surreal Greek chorus as they regularly break into verse to comment on the children's misbehaviour.
Roald Dahl shows a deep understanding of how children feel and think. The moral message is strong; it is beyond any child's wildest dreams.
<< Adapted from 501 Must-read Books; 2006; Octopus Publication Limited, London.
FEBRUARY: It's our start of the year. There are many features in store for you! The brand new Blackie's Adventures. Blackie falls into of a lair of 16th century pirates, headed by Captain Flapdoddle of the good ship The Flying Trap. The 'good ship' is a bit of a mystery. Next to Flapdoddle, the scariest pirate in the Kingdom, comes a lot new friends we encounter along the way.
FILM GREATS: Jedda was classified as one of the greatest Australian movies ever made!
ONLY THE FEET TELL THE STORY: THE CRINKLING OF SAND AND GRAVEL UNDER HIS FEET TOLD THE OUTCOME OF THIS LEGENDARY MYTH. THE GIRL REMAINED CALM. Below: GOOD JOB, SAYS ELSA CHAUVEL.
Jedda was Charles Chauval's last film. After Jedda, Chauvel made thirteen episodes of an outback series called Australian Walkabout for the BBC. He died in Sydney in 1959. He was 88. There are other film-makers which operate in his territory but none can take his place.
When it was released, Jedda was the first feature to be made in colour; and it was a highly interesting film indeed.
Jedda, an Aboriginal girl, is played by Ngarla Kunoth. She is brought up as the daughter of a highly-strung, strictly conventional wife of a Northern Territory station owner. Jedda leaves her cosy place of safe existence and heads for the comfortable arms of her stockman boyfriend.
Unfortunately, Jedda never arrives. She is kidnapped by an older stranger passing through the station, Robert Tudawali. The story on one level is a simple adventure where the main characters are Aborigines.
On another level, from the moment the screen explodes in fire and shouting and galloping horses, that the girl is hurried away. It becomes ominous that the patternb is shifting.
The circumscribed "respectable" life she was leading was indeed being presented critically; that all the magnificent settings and colour and action, and Tudawali's stunning personality, are adding up to a film about living fully and taking the consequences.
Probably, there is none of his other films that shows quite clearly Chauvel's sheer film-making ability; the quality which informed the bare outlines of a plot with a meaning that the audience instinctively responds to.
Jedda was released in 1955.
<< Adapted from Judith Adamson's Australian Film Poster 1906-1960.
Frank Morris comments: Film historian, Judy Adamson, passed away on August 2. 2013. Ms Adamson was 80 years old. Ms Adamson won several distinctive awards, including the Ken G. Hall Preservation Awards in 2002. Ms Adamson was a unique, uncompromising woman whose dry humour and passionate commitment made people instantly warm to her.
Street photography: Walking or standing still you'll probably come to a street snapper!
A FLASHBACK TO 1930-1950 – PHOTO SNAPPERS WERE ON EVERY STREET CORNER. THEY CREATED A VAST ARCHIVE OF BLACK-AND-WHITE CANDID, POSTCARD-SIZE IMAGES. THE MUSEUM OF SYDNEY PRESENTS "STREET PHOTOGRAPHY" AS AN EXHIBITION EXPLORING THE HEYDAY OF THIS ONCE POPULAR GENRE OF PHOTOGRAPHY.
STREET SNAPPERS: THE POPULARITY OF STREET PHOTOGRAPERS AT THEIR HEIGHT PRODUCED OVER 10,000 PEOPLE WHO BOUGHT THEIR SNAPS.
This day, as I remember, I am perched up in bed reading a Biggles book. The door suddenly burst open and Aunty Leah rolled in. I jump to attention by surprise, not by fear.
"There are you, happy!" said Aunty Leah. "I'll pick up the picture next week." She did just that. The pictures were beautiful to look at." I did, just looked.
That was the third time I had a 'picture' taken by 'a street photographer'; the other occasion was when I saw a show at Mark Foys department store.
There were people from all walks of life -- the Depression, WW11 and the postwar years. More the 1500 images have been contributed.
"A total of 250 images from people's family albums form the basis of the exhibition," said the curator. "Armed with small portable cameras and positioned in key places around the city, the photographers caught pedestrians unaware.
The street photographers gave a fleeting moment of what it was like to spend a day in the city.
<< Museum of Sydney, cnr Phillip and Bridge Street. Open daily 10am-5pm.
SHIP AHOY: HMS ENDEAVOUR TO TAKE PART IN AN A EPIC VOYGE OF THE PACIFIC.
This year is 1952. Darcy Dugan was brought from Grafton Gaol to Long Bay and lodged in that gaol hospital. Dugan has made more escapes from gaol and lock-ups than any NSW prisoner.
He has been on a hunger strike since last November. He is serving a life sentence for an armed hold-up. Should officials find that his life is endangered then a doctor would have him fed forcibly?
<< Background from the SMH.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL. KEEP SMILING. KEEP HOPING. YOU MAY BE SURPRISED!


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Archive for the 'Emotions' Category
A Gift from the Heavens
Our ever-watchful Chief Asteroid Officer has noticed that 45 minutes before the 22-23 January 2023 Station (Prominence) of Uranus (Our Soul), Venus (Our Values) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Convene and Initiate a New Cycle. The Venus-Saturn Cycle should Obviously be ranked among our Most Critical Cycles. At the times when our Values are NOT The Most Important Thing to Us, we Betray Ourself. While such Self-Sabotage is a result of our Programming, our Programming is a Mirror for our Karma, since Programming is how much of our Karma was installed into the Current Lifetime.
If you're reading this, one of your Most Important Values is Enlightenment, aka Ascension or 5D. A primary prerequisite for Enlightenment is to Clear our Karma. That's more Difficult while our Karma remains Unconscious, so Noticing our Karmic Patterns becomes Bottom Line. We get this Opportunity every time our Karma is Triggered, which includes every time we React from our Programming rather than Responding from our Values. Enlightenment means that our Ego and our Soul are Merging, and that can't happen as long as Karma has a Leghold Trap on our Ego, which is exactly what Karma does for a Living.
This is a particularly Important Window for those of us who were Programmed to favor Thinking over Feeling, because as Jung said, People who Prioritize Thinking are Irrational, because they're not in Touch with their own Emotions and therefore not in Touch with their own Values, since Values arise from the Heart, not the Mind. Many of us are much more Aware of Our Thoughts About Our Feelings than we are of Our Feelings themselves. Too many of us haven't yet Learned to tell the difference.
Many of us first need to Learn to Find our Emotions, buried under the Thoughtstorm that they evoke. It can help to Focus on the Sensations that arise with Emotion. When we're trying to Think Through a particularly difficult Conundrum, we can Ask ourself, What Is my Body Telling me through its Sensations? rather than What is my Mind Telling me through its Thoughts? Emotions (Water) and Sensations (Earth) share the same Style (Magnetic), as we explained in the previous post, so they tend to Collaborate.
Emotions and Thoughts (Air) have Opposite Styles, so they tend to Conflict. So Emotions and Thoughts are in Competition with one another before we even Feel or Think. And thanks to Western Medicine, with its ban on Intuition and its Intense Advertising Campaigns, we also have to Struggle with and get beyond our Thoughts about our Sensations ("O My Goddess, is that Cancer?"). We have to Focus on Where our Sensation Resides in the Body and What It Feels Like there, while Rejecting Thoughts the same way we do when they Intrude on our Meditations – "Oh, there's Thinking Again. Thanks for Contributing, but we're Doing Something Else now. Where was I?"
Venus-Saturn Value-Priority Cycles last about a year. The Cycle that's Ending spanned 10 months, but the New Cycle will last 14 months, till the Aries Equinox of 2024, because Venus slows down and turns Retrograde in the Northern Summer and Southern Winter. Angles between Retrograde planets are called Expositions because they Expose the internal workings of a planetary Relationship. Consequently, they're more educational. In this Retrograde part of the Cycle1 we may be more Alone than we usually prefer, because we'll be Learning to Appreciate our own Unique Strengths, some of which we've theretofore never Appreciated or even Noticed.2 Knowing Ourself – our Natural Strengths and the situations where we're better off Delegating to Others or to Spirit – is an Essential Foundation for Enlightenment.
The New Cycle Begins in 25 Aquarius (Honing the Inner Witness in order to Rebirth Intelligence). Without Realizing the Connection to Lonsdale's interpretation for the Degree, in note 1 below we've already written a lot about the Inner Witness! An Initiation is the Birth or a New Cycle, so it's chart is a Birth Chart. So we shouldn't be surprised when a Retrograde Period in the Cycle reiterates the Birth Reading for the Cycle. But the Cycle and the Degree are Independent of one another, so the "Coincidence" is still Remarkable.
We'll look at the chart tomorrow. "Chrysanthemum Stone" is a good Rock to Contemplate for bringing forth the Inner Witness. The mineral composition can vary quite a bit. The Stone is so unusual that it's known more by its Morphology and Mythology (of Immortal Love between Stones and Flowers) than for its chemistry. The fact that it appears in only a few places in the World, and appears with a mix of Chemistries when it does, speaks loudly that it's Meaning lies in its Mythology. It's also a Metaphor for the Bright and Focused Soul breaking through the Dark and Amorphous Matrix of the Ego and Karma.
1 Venus is actually Retrograde from 24 July to 4 September 2023 and 29 to 13 Leo, but the Shadow Period spans 19 June through 7 October. A Retrogradation is like a Remedial Course – we have to take it three times to pass, and sometimes we don't. That's the case when we don't Learn from an astroevent. When we do Learn, it's not Remedial at all. A Retrograde Shadow Period has three stages. The Retrograde period, here 24/7-4/9 and 29-13 Leo, is stage 2. Stage 1 is when the planet crosses this Degree Zone the first time, while Direct. That will be 19 June to 23 July and 13 to 29 Leo. Stage 1, called the Can-Opener, is when we get Blindsided by the Lesson Plan, often quite Stressfully. So we may hit Loneliness and Self-Doubt during the Can-Opener.
Stage 2 is the Exposition, where since the planet is Retrograde, the Curriculum is Repeated, more Slowly this time, Step by Step, allowing us to Learn the Lesson. If we're Paying Attention. If we aren't Paying Attention, we'll Re-Experience the Stress of the Can-Opener, and remain its Victim. Stage 3 is the Confidence-Builder, where the Curriculum is Repeated Again, and this time we Sail Right Through it, because we've Learned How! If we noticed the Correlation between the Can-Opener and the Exposition. It not, we could have a third Stressful Victim Episode.
Karma and Unconscious Limitations are Created when we Remain in Blame, making our Stress Someone or Something Else's Fault rather than our own Curriculum, and make a Decision or Vow or Oath or Promise that we'll Never Put Ourself in that Position again. Of course, it's unlikely we'll have a strong Negative Reaction unless it's already Karmic for us. So we don't Create New Karma nearly as often as we "just" add Fresh Cement to our Old Karma. If we are Accountable for our Reaction to the original Stressful event rather than Blaming or Projecting it onto Something Else, or if we Notice the Repetition and Become Accountable, we can Learn and Practice Changing our Original Reaction to a Different Response. Then we really do Gain Confidence in the third Stage. Our Skills don't mean much without our Confidence in them!
Many people misunderstand this Process as Blaming the Victim, which it's not. We're Expecting the Victim to take Ownership of their own Reactions to Repeating Stimuli. We can all be Blindsided by New Can-Openers, and since our Karma is many-dimensional, we often have to Re-Experience it in many different Arenas before we Let It Go Completely. We may React with Blame to a Relationship Hassle once, and then React with Blame to a Job Hassle another time, without Realizing that our Reactions are Repeating. That happens to all of us all the time, as we have many Karmic Patterns happening in many different Arenas. But if we're Alert to Noticing the Similarities between two Reactions, we can Become Conscious that it's Karma and Choose to Change it.
2 The Angles made between Venus and Saturn while they're Retrograde are closest to four ninths and five elevenths of the Zodiac (the Quadrinovile and Quinelvile, 160 and 164 Degrees), which are about Mastering (4) Contemplation and Introspection (9) and Learning (5) to Appreciate our own Gifts and Talents (11). We derive the meaning of odd (indeed, all ) astrological Angles through the Correlation between the Tarot Major Arcana (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook) to the Harmonics of the Angles. For instance, the Quadrinovile is four ninths, or a combination of the 4th and 9th Harmonics (360/4=90° and 360/9=40°), equated to the 4th and 9th members of the Major Arcana (Emperor = Dominion and Hermit = Meditation). So the Quadrinovile implies Healthy Control over Meditation).
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Denying Nature, Transmuting Abuse
Pan, Nature's Head Dude, represented by the asteroid that bears His name, is Lit Up Bigtime today,1 and has been for several days. It'll also hang around for a week or so, but the Peak of the Energy was today. Unless we made an important Self-Protecting Decision, in which case it can become Karma and Hang Around till we Let It Go.2
The most important thing to know about this, is that Pan is Merged with both Our Soul and Our Mission.3 That's a Powerful combination. The second-most important thing to know is that Pan and Our Soul and Our Mission have been ganging up on our Held Emotions, trying to talk them into Emerging from Hiding and Liberating us into Enlightenment.4 Held Emotions are the ones that we'd Rather Die Than Feel, and they're usually Unconscious. Held Emotions are always Karmic, and Karma is never Present Moment until we make it so through Belief, so it's not Physical Death that we Unconsciously Fear, it's Ego Death.
And Rightly So, because the Ego is the part of our Psyche that's in charge of Keeping us Alive! Crabs wear their Skeleton on the Outside, so they have to Molt in order to Grow, and once they Molt it takes them a week or so to harden their new larger Shell, during which time they're extremely vulnerable to being eaten, nutcracker not required. While we probably aren't direct descendants of Crabs, we may still have that Genetic Memory in our Karma, and for sure, when we Molt our Egos – Shell is actually a good synonym for Ego – we're quite Defenseless until we Learn to Explain and Justify our new Ego, so there's more than one parallel between us and Crabs.
We have to Accept Ego Death if we're Committed to Ascension, and once we do we realize how many Ego Deaths we've already Lived Through Successfully – the Proof is in the Pudding. We Learn to Recognize the signs and Embrace the Fear that arises, and Learn to sail through them with Ease. The Held Emotions are always harder to Embrace, because they're often Karma cemented by Vows we made to ourself while we were Physically Dying in another Lifetime – "I'll Never do that again!" Those stick like Glue #10.
The third-most important thing abut Pan's visit, is that we're being Asked to Let Go of our Patterns around Abuse and Privilege.5 While we've had a lot of Practice over the last few years, especially when Abuse and Privilege was traveling hand in hand with Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) during 2015 and 2016. Revisiting Childhood Abuse is never Fun, and Dealing with Ancestral Abuse is always Tortuous and Confusing. And while Privilege seems like it should be a Privilege, it has its own Karma.
I'm always reminded of Stephen Levine's story about a Meditation Retreat where in one session he was Reliving an Auschwitz Experience and Feeling Relieved that his Sense of Victimization was Justified. Then when he went back into Meditation after a Break, he was the one wearing the Jackboots. Wise men have said it before, but Doing Unto Creates the same Karma as Being Done Unto. That's why Karma, which is the Inertia of Habit, is easily Confused with Retribution. When you Accept the Traditional Wisdom that We Are All One, that becomes Obvious.
Today in Florida and Texas they're only Burning Books and The Mouse, and in Florida and Georgia and Colorado they're trying to Burn Down Democracy, so the Oligarchy can Take All. They aren't Burning and Drowning Witches again yet. Everyone's Cutting Down and Burning Down the Sacred Groves again, as if they ever stopped. And some Races are undergoing Genocide as we speak. Abuse and Privilege stretches far beyond the Sexual.
The fourth-most important thing about Pan's Illuminations, is that we're also being Invited to Revisit and Let Go Of our Karma around the times when our Cultures Expanded so far Beyond our Values, or Beyond Values that would have Permitted our Survival, that our Civilization Collapsed.6
1 Asteroid Pan Stationary 10 January 2023 (PST 4:20 am, GMT 12:20 pm 10th, IST 5:40 pm 10th, AEDT Qld 10:20 pm) in 13 Taurus, "What we carry around with us is whatever we can believe in and partake in with fantasy, speculation, wonderings, and with every tool of our soul. Whichever world we dream up we can enter, ensoul, and become entirely absorbed in. It is up to us whether it is life-giving or sterile, theoretical or practical, isolating or connecting us with something vast, more universal, more archetypal." —Ellias Lonsdale, 360 Degrees of Your Soul Destiny, p.77.
2 Life-or-Death Decisions often become Karma because we either already Believe, or have to Make ourself Believe, that our Choice was the only way out. Once we convince ourself of that, it becomes an Unconscious Limitation that's an integral part of our Worldview as if it was a "law of Physics" (which are actually Cultural Karmic Limitations). Worse, it could have been a distant ancestor that made such a Decision (like avoiding Pork in the Middle East in the Olde Days), and the Limitation was passed down to us through Programming. Since we have no way of remembering the origin of such Karma, and since we're Ridiculed or Shamed for Ignoring it, Letting Go of that sort of Karma has its own Difficulties. We have to lean on our natal Ixion (Psychopathic Ignorer of Traditions) to Transcend it.
3 Conjunct Uranus and North Node.
4 Pan-Uranus-North Node Opposite Ka'epaoka'awela (Transmutation), South Node (Held Emotions), and Zhulong (Enlightenment).
5 Naked (by its lonesome, without Squares) Opposition between Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) in Pisces (Emotional Baggage) and Orcus (Pattern-Breaking) in Virgo (Ego Death).
6 The Pan-Uranus-North Node (Soul-Mission-Nature) Opposition to Ka'epaoka'awela-South Node-Zhulong (Transmutation-Held Emotions-Enlightenment) is T-Squared by the Merger of Venus (Values), Icarus (Dangerous Ambitions), and Atlantis (Civilization Collapse).
Amethyst, Clear Quartz turned purple by Radiation, is the Classical Aid to Ego Death. Its Crown–Chakra Color reminds us nonverbally that we are Spiritual Beings having a Physical Experience, and that Emotional Drama is part of Physical Experience for Hupers, so it Behooves us to Activate our Observer Self, make some Popcorn, and Enjoy the Movie, rather than Empathizing ourselves into the Drama.
Of course, if we Detach like this before we Explore and Embrace the Experience, we can drive our Resisted Emotions further into the dark corners of the Dungeon, especially when we're Dealing with Held Emotions. So we don't want to Skip that Explore-and-Embrace Step. We can Explore Emotion through Sensation, for instance, since Sensation involves less Drama, as long as we Avoid Indulging our Thoughts about our Sensations. If we do, we just withdraw our Attention from the Thoughts and Re-Invest It into the Body. To Embrace, we only need to remember that Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.
When we Ask ourself Where in my Body am I Feeling this? and Focus our Attention Deeply into that Place and Hold it there, persistently Returning our Attention when it Wanders, our Judgment-Free Laser Attention can Heal without time-consuming distractions to Story, which is just Metaphor anyway. When we're Working with Karma, there's no one Story, there are probably at least hundreds, so Story really is a Diversion. Story is good for Invoking the Occulted Emotion, but beyond that it can become the Ego's attempt to Avoid Change by monopolizing the Conversation.
Once the Discomfort or Intensity in our Body Moves, we're Done, we can Detach, though we may need to Return later for a Booster or several. This all sounds Mechanical and Unfeeling, and Held Emotions often involve Horrific Terrors. They're best just Touched in the Emotional Realm, then Explored and Embraced in the Sensation Realm. Then when we Return to Touch them again, the Intensity may be Less. If it's not, Gary Craig, who developed EFT or Tapping, has a series of videos demonstrating the use of EFT on PTSD. PTSD and Karma are not the same thing, but PTSD is probably usually Karmic.
Amethyst from the Thunder Bay area of Lake Superior in North Ontario Canada, is often speckled with dots of Rust or Hematite, Iron Oxide. These are red, the color of the Root Chakra, so they can help us Stay Grounded while we're Exploring out Beyond our Crown Chakra and Deep Inside our Skin. As Angie Arrien liked to say, it will help us Walk the Spiritual Path with Practical Feet.
One of my first Rock photos. Most of these were taken with a very early digital camera, before they had large "viewfinder" screens. Using that camera was very much point and shoot, as the screen was too small to really see what I was photographing. I used to call it my Magic Camera, as many of its photos were just that. I suppose I could claim some credit via my Intuition or Instincts, as my Intellect was pretty much blinded by the small screen. Sometimes I imagine how it would be to Live like that, watching Crystals spontaneously and Magically sprouting Flames. I expect 5D to be as full of Delightful Surprises. Hopefully some day I'll Deprogram my "left brain" enough to approach it.
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Manifestation Full Moon
Well, we don't need to write more about the 2 January 2023 Amplification of asteroid Sisyphus, as the asteroid has been renamed Kevin and has crashed into the US House of Non-Representatives. For all his Effort, does Sisyphus ever win at least a consolation prize? No, he's still Pushing his Rock several Millennia later! Never Forget that Sisyphus Reminds us to Enjoy the Journey – the Destination is Meaningless, it's the Journey that brings us Wisdom and Enlightenment.
The 6-7 January Out of Bounds Full Moon (PST 3:07 pm 6th, GMT 11:07 pm 6th, IST 4:37 am 7th, AEDT Qld 9:07 am 7th) in 17 Cancer (A Strong Sense of Self Overcoming the Temptation to go against the Self and mimic someone else) has a pretty Clear Message for us though – We can Hope with all our Might that the Exaggerated Karma that's Staring us in the Face will go away on its own, but there's no such Luck until we Invest our Passion into Building Strong Protections around the Facts.1
1 Out of Bounds means Stronger than Usual. Sun Merged with Mercury, Pandora Out Of Bounds, and Karma OOB, Debating with Moon OOB Merged with Pallas OOB and Veritas – We can Hope with all our Might (Pandora OOB) that the Exaggerated Karma (Karma OOB) that's Staring us in the Face (Sun-Mercury) will go away on its own, but there's no such Luck until we Invest our Passion (Moon OOB) into Building Strong Protections (Pallas OOB) around the Facts (Veritas). There are no Squares, as Aries and Libra are Vacant, leaving just the naked Full Moon Opposition.
While our Comfort-Seeking Ego is Horrified at this TraumaDrama, we're Reminded of Bruce Lipton's comment that Western Civilization must Collapse if we are ever to have any Hope for Healing Huperity's Relationship with Nature and the Planet. And the Full Moon is Defending the Facts, without considering that Facts are always dependent on Perspective and always Debatable.
Unfortunately, the Struggle in the House is about people who are Defending not the Truth of their Mind, but the Truth of their Heart, and the Winner-Take-All US political system has no provisions for differences of the Heart. It's all about the Patriarchy and Rule by Intimidation.
The positions of these people in the House sound so Ridiculous because the Patriarchy has no Legitimate Language for the Heart. So Libertarians aren't Content to just Do Their Own Thing and let others do the same, they don't Feel Safe until they've torn down the Comfortable Boundaries for everyone else, lest they end up Fried like Sam Bankman-Fraud.
The Full Moon chart also includes two Cycles of Self-Resolving Hassles (Grand Crosses). In the Fixed Signs, our Soul may be Hassled by Entrenched Ego or the Appearance of the End of Healing. The key is Trust, as so many things are Changing and they are Out of Our Hands. We will need to Surrender our Need for Control (Uranus Square Hybris Square Eurydike Square Panacea-Atropos Square Uranus).
In the Mutable Signs, the Field that Makes Life Possible (Altjira OOB) is Hassled by Our Unconscious Shame about our Technologized Abuse of the Planet (Vesta-Phaedra-Nessus-Atlantis), by Our Need to Deny What We Most Desire (Pinocchio-Tantalus), and by the Difficulty of Changing All of Our Karmic Patterns at Once (Theseus-Orcus).
The Full Moon Potentiates the 7-8 January Fully Self-Resolving Makemake Station (PST 3:00 pm 7th, GMT 11:00 pm 7th, IST 4:30 am 8th, AEDT Qld 9:00 am 8th). A Station means that the planet is Standing Still in the Sky, making its Impact on us Strongest. The dwarf planet Makemake, which Lives out beyond Pluto, symbolizes Manifestation. The Full Moon and the Makemake Station are linked by Time.
The Station features two Fully Self-Resolving Major Challenges and one Self-Resolving Cycle of Hassles. When astrological Configurations are Self-Resolving it's better to leave well enough alone and not try to Influence events or Change their Impact. Our Observer Self would be good at driving here. We're still partly to mostly in 3D, and our Minds in 2D, while these astroevents occur in 5D or higher, so we won't Grok most of what's going down, and our Interventions may be misguided. If we're Operating from our Intuition or Guidance, we can Go For It.
The Makemake Station itself is Merged with Kassandra, symbolizing Disbelief. We're used to Believing that if it's Too Good To Be True, it probably ain't, but we may find Exceptions to this standard here, and we may find ourselves hitting Upper Limits (see Gay Hendricks, The Big Leap, chapters 1-3; that's a lot to Ask, but you won't Regret doing it!). The Full Moon stretches the Impact of a Station over the following several weeks. The next few weeks should be a Powerful time to Challenge your Disbelief about your Power to Manifest What You Want.
A good time to throw a few bucks at the Mega Millions Lottery. Everyone else will be in the same boat around their Disbelief in their "Luck," but check your natal chart to see what you have going in 10 Libra (Reaching Bottom). Nowhere to go but Up from There, it may be your turn. My 10-Libra natal planet is Ixion – Goddess Knows what will turn up from my Ticket tomorrow! If what you find is Fairy Gold, which disappears when you try to use it, no worries! It's a feint, but a sign of what's to follow. Believing is what counts, and we may have to Fake it till we Make it.
Stationary Makemake-Kassandra is Debating with Chiron-Salacia – Despair over the Enlightenment Challenge or Enjoying the Miracle of Enlightenment. At the Risk of Intervening Shallowly, Choose the latter. If you find yourself Stuck in the former, set an alarm for fifteen minutes, and Deeply Explore your Despair. Not your Thoughts about Despair or your Despairing Thoughts, but the Emotion of Despair.
Locate Despair as a Sensation in your Body. Where does it Reside? Belly? Neck? Knee? If it's in several places, pick one where it's Strong. What Sensation do you Feel there? Is it Tight? Loose? Painful? Twisted? Orange? Focus All of your Attention on this Place, and Keep it there till the bell rings. If the Sensation in your Body Moves, follow it. No Thought, just Attention. If you can Control your Thoughts long enough to do this, you're Out of 2D and into Higher Dimensions, so your odds of Collaborating with the Self-Resolution rise.
If your Thoughts win, Persevere. "Oh, there's Thinking again. Thanks for Contributing, but we're doing something else right now, K?" just like when you're Meditating (which is what you're doing). Even if you can only Hold your Thoughts Off for a few minutes at a time, it's very valuable Practice and hints at what you can Train yourself to Do. Once you Feel the Sensation in your Body Move, you've found pure E-Motion, EnergyinMotion. Follow it for the whole fifteen minutes, just as Practice.
Then Poor-Sweetheart yourself. Say to yourself, "You Poor Sweetheart, you were Feeling Despair, weren't you." Notice that your Feelings have Changed. Even if you didn't Feel Successful at Holding your Attention on your Sensations, if you were Serious with your Poor-Sweetheart, you'll be Feeling more Compassion for yourself. Now you have to Change the Subject. Put your Mind on something completely different, and fairly absorbing. Watch something intense on TV or the Internet.
If you don't get your Mind to Change the Subject, your Mind will go right back to Despair. If you can Change the Subject, you will have made a Life-Long Change in yourself. Not that you won't have to Practice this Skill, but even without more Practice, you've Broken the Karmic Pattern. Every time you Practice, more grout falls out of the Pattern. You'll be Amazed at how quickly you can Shatter the most Persistent Karma this way.
Even if you're halfway down Karma Road when you Notice that you're on Autopilot ("Self-Driving Mode" as Tesla so casually and dangerously calls it), once you Notice, you can Abort the Pattern. Karma is like a Hex or Curse someone put on you. It wouldn't hurt to say out loud, Revert! as you Notice and Change Course. When you say Revert! you may Remember your Lifetimes as a Wizard or Witch, and many other Personal Powers may come flooding back. The sooner you Change Course, the Easier it is to Notice next time, and the Earlier you Notice, the Easier it will be to Change Course.
It may well have been an Earlier Self that put that Hex on you. We're flirting with Karma every time we make a Decision. Forgive yourself for that. Habits are very useful. If you drive a car, you Remember how you had to Develop those Habits so you didn't have to Think, Let's See now, where are those Brakes? when you need them. Habits only get troublesome when they get Stuck, like they do in PTSD. If we're Programmed to be Codependent as a Child, it's hard work to Develop Assertiveness as an Adult, and if we were Programmed to be anything as a Child, you can bet it's Karmic.
Any Karmic Pattern takes Work to Change, but using that Virtuous Spiral of Noticing and Changing Course, and Reverting any Habits of Self-Judgment that arise, it's Shocking how quickly we can Change. Since we're Working with the Unconscious. PIAVAing can help. Visualize yourself Behaving the way you'd Rather, such as Being Assertive rather than Submissive, Feeling Abundance rather than Scarcity, Warm rather than Cool. Imagine how that will Feel and Notice how your Posture Changes. Take Notes, so you can Practice using that Posture to Remember how you want to Feel and Be.
You're now Working Multidimensionally – Notice how that Feels. You're moving closer to 5D and Beyond.
Datolite is useful for Inviting Creative Cooperation to come forth from the Unconscious. It's a Calcium Hydroxide Nesoborosilicate. There's that Boron again, like in Tourmaline, a Powerful Healing Element. Angels can Fly because they Take Themselves Lightly, and Boron is lighter than all but four other elements – Hydrogen, Helium, Lithium, Beryllium, then Boron. A few pellets of Boiron homeopathic Borax (Hydrated Sodium Borate) will triple the healing of any wounded Mucus Membrane. Remember Boraxo heavy-duty hand soap in the black-and-white can with the red lid? Haven't seen that in Forever! Dense and hard, Nesosilicates make good Gems, often without even cutting. Zircon, Topaz, the many Garnets, Nesosilicates often make me Swoon! In the Nesosilicates, the Silicate units are not joined together Chemically, but rather by the mineral's innate Crystallization Pattern. Whoever said Crystals aren't Conscious?
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Moon Over Mars
Below is a screen grab from https://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=06&month=12&year=2022 that's a frame from a movie simulating the Moon Putting Mars in its Place. Spaceweather says that since Mars is very close to the Earth and therefore very large (peaking at about 9:30 pm PST 7 December 2022), we should be able to see a "red glow" peeking out from behind the Moon even while Mars is fully Eclipsed. If you're Northwest of a line drawn from Austin TX to Albany NY you should be able to watch it, as long as you're Southeast of a line from Valdez AK to the North Pole. Or, if you're Northwest of another line from Marrakesh to Moscow, you should also be in the Zone of Totality.
It will be happening in "Real Life" soon… "Till 7-8 December, Moon Out of Bounds Eclipses Mars Out of Bounds – Amplified Instinctual Anger or Shame. Pay Close Attention to This, and Do Not Project It on Anyone Else. Instead, Ask Yourself "What's the Original Ancient Source of This Anger or Shame?" Then Change the Subject. The Answers Will Arrive Soon, from Unexpected Directions (peaking PST 8:18 pm 7th, GMT 4:18 am 8th, IST 9:48 am 8th, AEDT Qld 2:18 pm 8th)." [Adapted from previous post.]
There's lots more information about it, and illustrations, in https://scitechdaily.com/dont-miss-lunar-occultation-mars-disappears/, https://earthsky.org/tonight/moon-occults-mars-on-december-7-and-8-2022/, https://www.shadowandsubstance.com/, and https://in-the-sky.org/. By the way, an Eclipse that hides anything but the Sun and Moon is called an "Occultation." The word Occulted just means Hidden.
In NathaJay's blog post for today, https://walkinginbothworlds.com/2022/12/06/breathe-as-the-divine/, she describes a great exercise for Capturing Good Vibes and saving them for Working with whatever Emotions arise from this or any other astroevent. I've already found it to be very useful!
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Shame and Healing
The Moon is back In Bounds now (less Excitability), till it goes Out of Bounds again (to the South) 4:42 am PDT 3 September 2022. Our next big astroevent should be Feelable already, as Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna Stationary) is prominent till at least 11:33 pm 30 August. More about that soon.
Shame is one of, if not The, hardest Emotion to hide, and the hardest to Heal, and it has a prominent role in the 1:17 am PDT 27 August 2022 New Moon. While it may be hard, it's surrounded astrologically in the New Moon chart by Supportive Friends.1 The Guardian recently published a timely article about Exploring the Extremes of Shame…
.https://www.theguardian.com/music/2022/aug/24/oliver-sim-the-way-i-dealt-with-shame-in-the-past-hasnt-worked-at-all.
The other Prominence in the New Moon, which influences the next few weeks, is a Doubly Self-Resolving Superpower Transmutation to Enlightenment.2 Can you beat that? Since it's Doubly Self-Resolving, it'll probably be a serious Challenge only if you have Afflictions to early Scorpio. On the other hand, many folks see Scorpio itself as an Affliction! Seen from Inside (from a Scorpio's Perspective), Scorpio just means Fearlessness.
When Scorpio's doing a Fearless and Searching Inventory of you, however, it can be a serious affront to your Boundaries. So folks with Vulnerable planets like Sappho (Self-Love) or an Afflicted Eurydike (Distrust ), or even Phaedra (Shame), in early Scorpio may be targets for Perp Instincts. If they Attack you, hold up your Garlic and Cross, keep your Head Up, and Back Away without losing eye contact, like you would from a snarling Dog. With a drooling Person, though, don't look them directly in the eye, but keep a Diffuse gaze on their face, in case they lunge and you need to use your Cross as a Sword. People with Perp Instincts, even Strangers, can Attack without provocation or warning, so keep your Garlic handy.
Better yet, Protect yourself. While Vulnerability is the Ultimate in Protection, you may need something more Disinviting with Perpetual Perps, because they'll Test your Vulnerability repeatedly until you Stand Up for Yourself. Today's Perp may be one you know well Personally, or a Total Stranger that through their own Programming knows Instinctively where your Psychic Wound is, and How it Works. You could be just passing each other on the street. My First Teacher used to say, No One Can Invade Your Space When It's Filled with Your Own Energy. If you know how to do it, "Running Your Energy" is an Important practice,3 as is "Using your Mirrors."4
1 In 5 Virgo (The Edge between Fear and Ego Death). That's 9:17 am BST in Nottingham and 6:17 pm AEST in Eastern Oz. The New Moon Opposes minor planet Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and asteroid Phaedra (Shame), both in 5 Pisces (Deep Deep Mystical Awareness Sheltered from Ego by Lack of a Need for Certainty). While the New Moon Chandra Degree Symbol suggests we'll have work to do, the Gonggong-Phaedra Karmic Shame Chandra Symbol suggests we'll plow right through it without great difficulty. The latter is also the home of Fixed Star Sadalmelek (Lucky One of the King). The Opposition is part of a Grand Cross, which implies helpful Balance. The other two partygoers are Mars (Action) in Gemini (Flexibility) Opposite Pandora (Hope) and Atropos (Natural Expiry of Karma) in Sagittarius (Letting Go) – more Boons.
2 Minor planet Zhulong (Enlightenment ) in 6 Scorpio (The Edge between Self-Importance and Selflessness) and asteroid Ka'epaoka'awela (Transmutation) at 3 Scorpio (Addiction to Karma Till the New Energy Makes us Realize How Empty It Is) are at the Focus of a T-Square (Challenge or SuperPower) over Ceres (Sustainability) in 6 Aquarius (Learning to Surrender to the Mystery) and Lachesis (Karma that can be Consciously Let Go) in 5 Aquarius (Surrender to Merging the Chthonic with the Cosmic) Opposite the Stellium of Samadhi (Enlightenment ) in 4 Leo (Dedicated to Shadow Work and Breaking Through to Discovery), Cyllarus Out of Bounds (Focus on Death/Ego Death) in 3 Leo (Larger than Life, but sometimes Missing Important Details), Sisyphus Out of Bounds (Perpetually Perpetual Tasks) in 5 Leo (An Old Soul Who Discovers that the Old Rules No Longer Apply), and Varuna Out of Bounds (The Life Force Unchained ) in 7 Leo (Ready for Enlightenment ).
Zhulong-Ka'epa are also the Focus of a Finger of the Goddess (first order Self-Resolution) from Mars (Action) in 5 Gemini (Expanding into Limitlessness) to Jupiter (Expansion) in 8 Aries (Acceptance of All without Judgment ). Mars in Gemini would work better with a Diversion than a Frontal Counterattack. Jupiter in Aries should provide plenty of Creativity for your Diversions.
Second-order Self-Resolution is provided by a Zhulong-Ka'epa Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) to Veritas (Truth of the Mind ) in 7 Cancer (Returning to Source) and Gonggong-Phaedra (see note 1).
3 Something on the order of Moving Your Attention to the Center of the Earth, Picking Up Earth Energy like wrapping Spaghetti around a fork, Drawing that Energy as if through a Straw or Firehose Up through the Body of the Earth and into your Legs, and pouring it into the Vessel that is your Pelvis; Moving your Attention Up through the Top of your Head and Up through the Sky into Source, Collecting Source Energy as if Filling your Lungs with Air, Drawing that Energy Down into your Head, Neck, Torso, Belly, and Pouring it into your Pelvis and Churning it with the Earth Energy; Then Drawing that Combined and Mixed Energy Up the front of your Body and Back through each Chakra, Up to Chakra Six, Seven, Eight, Nine, however High you're accustomed to go. There are a zillion variations, and none are right or wrong. You can make up your own version, in fact, you need to, so it Fits your own Energy Body like a glove, and so you can do the whole process rapidly. Practice till you can do it Instantaneously using only Intention.
4 When Confronted with Energy you don't like, hold a Wardrobe Mirror up in front of you, facing outward toward the Source of the Energy, so that the Energy is Focused Back to its Source. If you aren't sure of the Source, make a Guess and Test it by Holding the Mirror for several minutes to see if your Feelings Change. If they don't, Guess and Test again. When they do, Hold the Mirror there till you Feel Safe. Your current Boss may be using the same Ports that your Uncle installed when you were a Child.
This is not just a Protection, this is a Healing. Our Programmers left Holes in the Back of our Aura, where we couldn't see them, so they could reach in Energetically and Manipulate us like a Puppet. Our Boundaries and Ego are Overwhelmed when a Perp Intuits these Ports and uses them for their own Purposes. This is Karmic, and the more you Allow yourself to be Manipulated, the more you Cement the Karma in place. The more you "Use your Mirrors," the more you Strengthen New Habits and the more you Weaken the Old Karma. Eventually, Using your Mirrors will Seal Up the Holes in your Aura, so you can really Fill Your Body with Your Own Energy, without Leaks. Then you will seldom Encounter Energy you don't like, because you'll no longer be a Magnet for it. If you do Feel it again after that, just Use your Mirrors on it.
We were Programmed to Feel Guilty when we Discovered these Holes and tried to Plug them. So we have to Expect to Feel Guilt when we Use our Mirrors. That's the sign that you're Healing your Energy Body. Embrace the Guilt, and Recognize that it Identifies what needs Healing and what's Getting Healed. That Guilt is the Proof that you're Catching the Embodiment or Generalization of "your" Perp In The Act, and Setting Firm Boundaries Against their Manipulation. As your Psychic Wounds Heal, you'll Feel less Guilt, till you Feel Strong and Whole instead.
Our Codependence is often based on Holes in our Aura which aren't Odious to us. We may have been Programmed to Keep Our House Clean, or to be Morally Outraged by certain Characteristics or Behaviors of other people. We may even base our Relationships on having our Programs Matched. Even though you may have very well-developed Justifications for these Obsessions and Reactions to Other People, they'll still Stand Between you and Enlightenment. When you Begin to Notice these Codependencies and are Inspired to Work on them, you can also Use your Mirrors on them.
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Ego Edges
We're still trying to satisfy two Goals with one Blog – describing what's going on on the Planet while gradually teaching astrology, since anything you Learn about astrology will greatly deepen your Experience of Life on Earth and your Adeptness with it. In this post, read through it first while Suspending Disbelief and ignoring the footnotes. Then go back and reread the whole post, exploring the footnotes as you go. Even if you have no interest in Learning anything about astrology, there is much to gain by simply skimming the footnotes to see if anything catches your eye. Skimming may not get us a PhD, but when we've skimmed the same or similar material many times, a lot more has sunk in than we Realize.
One of the greatest Toxins that we Encounter is Certainty. My training as a Psychic was rudimentary. I had fabulous Teachers, I just didn't pursue it very far because there were too many other Threads going on at the time, but one of the first things I learned was that an easy way to access our Intuition is to Ask ourself, What If I Did Know?
It's a great technique, and it almost always serves us, but without additional Discernment Skills, it serves our Heart's Truth, not necessarily the Etheric Truth, and not necessarily Someone Else's Heart's Truth. Our Heart's Truth is a Reliable Guide for Avoiding Self-Sabotage, but it doesn't Clear our Limitations. Of course, for most everyone reading this, your Heart's Truth will include a Life Mission of Clearing your Limitations, but that can't help but compete with other, more trivial matters, such as Survival, or Getting Bald and High…
We've just been through a couple of weeks of Fear and Anger,1 and we're already diving into another week that isn't per se about Fear and Anger, but is by its nature heavily encumbered with Fear and Anger.2 We'll talk more about this Forbidden Genius of ours soon, but I want to introduce Them through a prominent (though subtle) feature of the 22 August Full Moon…3
1 The 30 August 2021 Station of Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] in 30 Taurus, stretched out by the 30 August-3 September Out-of-Bounds Moon [Excess Emotionality Covered by Deep and Wide Culturally-Supported Justification, AKA Focusing on our Thoughts about our Emotions rather than on how and where we Feel the Emotions in our Body]. Can we tell the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts about them?
Our Thoughts about our Emotions are Mental Gibberish serving only to prop up our Old Ego, Prevent Rebirth, and Maintain our Karmic Limitations. Emotion Itself on the other hand, is the Portal to our Sacred Intuition, to our Future, and potentially to our Liberation from Karmic Limitation (if we have the Fortitude to tackle our Thoughts about the Emotions that We'd Rather Die Than Feel ).
If we can Learn this Discernment1a in this Lifetime, it will be the Pinnacle of Cosmic Success that will Change our Karma forever. Our fellow Gronabixoleans won't recognize us when we return to our Home Galaxy. Discerning our Emotions (Pisces) from our Thoughts about them (Aquarius) is the Central Lesson of the Pisces-Aquarius Cusp, and if we don't Learn it here we could be Stuck in Piscean Victimhood for possibly another 25 thousand years, till the next Progressed Pisces-Aquarius Cusp rolls around. Won't that be Fun. Thank the Goddess that Linear Time is an Illusion.
1a We also have to Learn that Emotions aren't Ours or Theirs, any more than the Weather is. Emotions are Independent Energies that Visit us, and can Attach to our Egos like Leeches and Suck Away our Life Force. But they also Serve us as a Portal to our Sacred Intuition. We Feel and Dismiss them in a flash, till we get Stuck on Our Thoughts about Them. If we make Decisions based on our Thoughts about Them, we Create sticky new Karma that can follow us around the Multiverse like a hungry Coyote, just Out of Sight. But we know they're There, don't we.
2 The 12 September (5:07 am PDT) Station of Ixion [Our Forbidden Genius] in 30 Sagittarius, the same Degree (in different Signs) as the Sedna Station and the Full Moon. When planets are in the same or nearby Degrees, the Interactions between their Domains of Impact are much more Intense. The Full Moon, the Sedna Station, and the Ixion Station span three weeks, but the Unconscious doesn't Live in Linear Time. There in the Universe beyond the Bounds of our Ego (which Universe, if you haven't noticed, is usually very much Larger than we are), everything is Simultaneous. Natives of North America (nee Turtle Island) Believe that everything that ever happened in a place is still going on there. If you bother to Look for it, you can Feel it.
3 In 30 Aquarius. The New and Full Moons primarily impact the 2-4 weeks following them. Find the complete chart for the 22 August Full Moon in the Expanding into Fear II post.
…namely, we have a Challenge between a double symbol of Rebirth and a double symbol of Death.4 This is not a Duel, but a more nuanced Conflict with many combatants and collaborators and involved spectators who have Skin in the Game.5 Our Self-Confidence is deeply Involved,6 as is The Integration of Feminine Power into our Life.7
4 Asteroid Klotho [Beginning New Fateful Adventures] Conjunct [Merged With] dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth in an Unformed Molten State] on the Birth side, Square to [Challenged by – drawn as the shorter red line] two Strangers we've added to fill Vacancies, asteroid Requiem [Respect for Death] Merged With dwarf planet Cyllarus [Death in Combat] on the Death side. Centaur Cyllarus was Killed in the battle that Wounded Chiron.
5 The Square is part of a Grand Cross [Difficult and Complex Process involving many Related Issues – four planets equally spaced 'round the Zodiac, shown by the red square with a cross in the middle].
6 The other two corners of the Grand Cross are dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt ] – Chiron's wife, and…
7 Two Fixed Stars, Al Rescha [Bringing two disparate Concept Sets together to Create Deeper Understanding] and Mirach [Harmony, Receptivity, Intuition, Magnetism, Collaboration].
Remember our first sentence? When we're in a Life-and-Death Struggle, Certainty is the Order of the Day. We're Certain that the Oxymoronavirus will kill us if we Let It. Or Wait! No, the Vaccine will Certainly Kill us! Meanwhile, Global Warming is Killing us, drowning some of us while we sleep. The Emperor has no Clouds. What is it that the Howlers Fear Most? Loss of Freedom, all seem to say.
Freedom to continue Life As It Was Known. Freedom to Blame the Threat to Survival on Viruses, Vaccines, Abortions, Masks, Political Opponents, anything which will Focus Attention on those Thoughts about the Fear that Life will Change drastically, because if the Caterwauling is loud enough, Influencing the Outcome of those Issues may be Possible. Won't it be a shock when it's discovered that Stopping Abortions and Vaccines and Viruses and Political Opponents doesn't Stop Floods and Wildfires and Freezeouts. Won't it be a shock when parents who risked their Children's Lives sending them back to School discover that the Schooling that the Surviving kids received is worthless because it was only Relevant to Destroying the Earth.
In any four-cornered astrological Configuration, the Diagonals between the corners provide useful information. In this Death-Rebirth Configuration the Diagonals are Oppositions, usually signifying that two Concepts are Arguing, or if we aren't in Resistance, that they're willing to Cooperate.
The Rebirth corner Dances with the Integration of Feminine Power corner.8 If we're indeed on the Cusp of Letting the Patriarchy Burn Itself Out, this will be a Delightful Dance. If we're Terrified that our Investments in the Patriarchy are Bankrupt, then we're likely to be Screaming into our Zoom Meetings that it's Imperative to Bring Back Business-As-Usual, because that's More Important (to them) than how many people are Dying.
The Death corner Dances with Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt.9 If we're Confident we're on our Path, then we'll Embrace the Ego Death. If we're in Self-Doubt, our Fear of Death will probably be Lit Up, and we might even be contemplating Physical Death.
But it's not that simple. If we look closely we can see that both of these Oppositions are Mystery Schools.10 In a Mystery School we Learn something completely Surprising and Unexpected from the Dance, something that's not accessible to the two-dimensional mind. If we're Open to it, that is, and if we Avoid trying to "Figure It Out." The Insights available are not accessible by the Mind, as they're more multidimensional that the Mind is able to Grok. We have to be Mindful of the Presence of Thinking, Thank it and Bless It, and Open our Intuition instead.
There is something Profound to Learn, available to us over the coming week, about the Relationship between (Ego) Death and Confidence or Doubt, and something Profound for us to Learn about the Relationship between our Rebirth and our Integration of Feminine Power. Astrology does give hints about where to look for these Insights.11 Death and Confidence-Doubt are somehow tied up in this Adventure with Being More Open to Embracing our Hidden Genius and Acknowledging How We Were Punished For It in our Youth. Rebirth and Feminine Power are somehow bound up in this Workshop with Acknowledging our Guilt and Tapping It Out.
8 Klotho-Haumea Opposite Mirach-Al Rescha.
9 Requiem-Cyllarus Opposite Chariklo.
10 These Oppositions are both Yin Gates. The Klotho-Haumea to Mirach-Al Rescha Opposition is surrounded by a big blue "Golden" Rectangle, Golden because the ratio between the length of the sides and the length of the ends is the "Golden Angle" of Sacred Geometry fame, an Angle that is Replete in Nature. Its corners are Karma, Nemesis [Guilt], the Fixed Star Scheat [Creative Freedom from Conventional Thinking], and Sedna.
The Chariklo to Requiem-Cyllarus Opposition is also enclosed in a Golden Rectangle, but it's drawn in thinner blue lines. It connects Ixion et al, Moon-Jupiter [Expanding our Instincts], Chaos-Asbolus [Intuitive Insight into our Unlimited Potential], and Sun-Thereus [The Places in our Essence where we're Willing to Wrestle with Bears].
11 In the six diagonals embedded in each of the bisected Golden Rectangles…
For Rebirth-Feminine Power they're the Karma-Scheat and Nemesis-Sedna Oppositions, Klotho-Haumea's Quincunxes to Scheat and to Sedna, and Mirach-Al Rescha's Quincunxes to Nemesis and Karma. Quincunxes are 5-Sign Angles, drawn in green lines.
For Death-Confidence they're Chaos-Asbolus's Opposition to Ixion-Pholus-GC, the Sun-Thereus Opposition to Moon-Jupiter, Chariklo's Quincunxes to Chaos-Asbolus and Sun-Thereus, and Requiem-Cyllarus's Quincunxes to Jupiter-Moon and Ixion-Pholus-GC.
These many Relationships are for Meditation, not Analysis – that's 12 Meditations. If you're up for that, more Power to you! Remember that Quincunxes represent Questions, not Answers or Statements. And Remember that in a Yin Gate, Oppositions will not be Arguments or Collaborations, but Paradoxes, like Zen Koans. What's the Sound of One Bear Wrestling while Expanding? might be an example (Thereus Opposite Jupiter). The Insights in these Gordian Knots will be Personal, not Global. If you have any natal planets on Cusps, the Rewards from this Exploration may be Immense.
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Fear of Liberation
If you don't know Zach Bush, MD, there's no better time to start than the Eternal Now…
The Heart: Understanding the vascular system, resilience & repair
https://zachbushmd.com/heart-page-1/
Via Zoom at noon PDT 29 July 2021.
With Fate and Choice Exaggerated for the last several days (asteroid Moira Stationary 22 July) in the last few Degrees of Pisces (Letting Go of Excess Emotional Baggage), I imagine most of us have been doing significant Pruning in our Karmic Garden. The bottom line for asteroid Moira is that our Karma remains our Fate as long as it's Unconscious, and it becomes Choice, Potentially, as soon as we bring it into our Awareness. That's "Potentially" because even after we've Let Go of our Karma, we're still surrounded by the Habit Patterns that we developed over the years, and Lifetimes, to Accommodate the Karma.
For instance, suppose we always wanted to Travel, but our Fear of the Abandoning the Comfort we Know always stopped us. The Stories we heard about the Pickpockets in Rome and the heavy Rains in India and the Vampires in Transylvania, didn't help a bit. Well, we may have Let Go of our Resistance to Travel last week, but our Habitual Thoughts about those Pickpockets and Rains and Vampires may still be a Deep-Seated Pattern – the more reps we have Believing them, the sturdier they are.
We have elaborately-constructed Justifications for every Resistance we've ever had, and some of them aren't even our own. Somebody's Grandmother caught a nasty Flu and died once, generations ago, after she went out in the Rain, and ever after whole generations of people have been told that going out in the Rain "will be the Death of you." Even after we've Let Go of our Flu Karma, we still may Fear going out in the Rain – we may never make the Connection.
This is why Consciousness is so Helpful. Karma has its own Timeline, including its own natural Expiry Date, and those Expiry Dates can pass without our ever noticing them. Without being Aware that we've left our Flu Karma at the train station on the way Home from work yesterday, our Chances of Connecting Fear of Flu with Going Out in the Rain diminish, and our Opportunities to Let Go of Obsolete Limiting Beliefs can pass us by. This is also why it is Critical to Recognize Confusion as a Valid and Important Emotion, and Avoid trying to Intellectualize it away. Confusion means that our Habitual Mental Cage of Limiting Unconscious Beliefs – the Justifications for our Fears and Limiting Beliefs that we've Memorized to Keep Us Safe, is losing Strength.
What's left behind is usually Fear – Fear that Granny has left the Cage door open and Sylvester will be home any minute from work at the Mousery. Fear is another Valid and Important Emotion that we need to Avoid Intellectualizing away. If you really were facing a Sabre-Toothed Tiger in your kitchen, you'd Know it, you wouldn't have to Intellectualize it. Even before we've Let It Go, Karma is always a "Paper Tiger" (a residual Symbol of Fear, not a Current-Moment Object to be Feared). Once we've Let It Go, Consciously or not, it becomes a Diaphanous Paper Tiger. We don't have to Think about it, we just have to Look Through It.
Which is why we need to Work Hard to Distinguish our Emotions from our Thoughts about our Emotions. It's not at all as Easy as it sounds. Any time you add an Object or a Cause or a Prepositional Phrase to an Emotion, you've Abandoned your all-important Emotion (the Original Intuition), and walked into the Fantasy World of Thought. Nothing wrong with Fantasy, but use it to your Advantage, not to Sabotage yourself. "I am Angry at…" is a Thought, as is "I am Angry about…" and "I Fear Vampires." The Thoughts are just part of the Mental Cage we use to Create the Illusion of Safety. When we are Truly Safe, which many of us are a good deal of the Time (any time we aren't Thinking about whether or not we're Safe), we have no need for Thoughts to keep out the Dangerous Windstorms.
Even "I am Angry," without the Grammatical Embellishments, is Misleading. "I am Angry" is a statement of Identity, an Ego-Identification, not a description of Emotions. When we really want to Clarify our Emotions, it would be "I Feel Anger" or "I Feel Scared" or "I Feel Pain" or "I Feel Safe" or "I Feel Ecstatic," no more, no less. Rather than Embellishing your Emotional Clarity with Dysfunctional Thoughts, Go Inside, Locate the Feeling in your Body, and spend time Sitting With It. There's so much to Learn from that process, and it's not Intellectual. If it's difficult to Locate, Ask yourself, "What If I Did Know?" and if the Answer isn't Immediately Forthcoming, Wait for It. While you're Waiting, take Inventory to see if you've already gotten the Answer but Dismissed it Out of Hand because it wasn't Politically Correct to your Ego-of-the-Moment.
The 23 July (7:37 pm PDT, in 2 Aquarius) Full Moon, and the two weeks which follow, is about our Confidence in our Instincts (dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt ] Conjunct Moon), and our Lust to Reconnect with our Soul (asteroid Psyche [Goddess of the Soul ] Conjunct Sun). It's Challenged by the Red Dragon of Enlightenment (T-Squared by minor planet Zhulong)…
Just as Unexamined Thought Separates us from our Emotions, Unexamined Thought also Separates us from our Soul. Our Concepts about Enlightenment will stand between us and Reunion with our Soul. Brenda Hoffman's recent Channeling at https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2021/07/25/this-isnt-who-i-am-is-it/ reminds us…
"This is a confusing time. Your new world is no longer linear. Circular is your new action word – and soon-to-be, belief. Even though that which was is no more, this new is different than you expected…
"Your new world has very few clear divisions. The deciding factors of yesterday are no more. Your actions and beliefs change daily. So it is, you are flitting from belief to belief, action to action, and thought to thought. In 3D, clear-cut delineations were necessary to promote community thought. You are in a new place in a new time, discovering that nothing is clear regarding who you are or what you believe.
"That last concept is frightening because you are not used to the freedom of thought and action while of the earth. You are now exploring new frequencies, dimensions, beliefs, and actions in Universal terms – as has been true since you were conceived eons ago. But when you were of 3D earth, you limited your thoughts and actions to fit within the accepted parameters established by others to create a 3D cohesiveness.
"That 3D cohesiveness no longer exists."
This Full Moon Challenges our Existing Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta [Unconscious Limiting Beliefs] T-Squares the Opposition between dwarf planet Chaos [Unlimited Potential ] and the Conjunction between dwarf planets Pholus and Quaoar [Global Change]). We need to parse this furthur. Quaoar symbolizes our Survival Instincts, and Pholus represents That Which We Haven't Prepared For, but which is Essential. And Chaos is about The Zero Point Field, or the Vacuum of Space, which in the Quantum World is a version of the Infinite Improbability Drive that Zaphrod Beeblebrox pilfered (Douglas Adams, Hitchhiker's Guide to the Universe, pp.76ff). You haven't read that yet? That's as Unprepared as not having bothered to see the definitive documentary Men In Black. The Centaur Pholus got himself dead by Failing to be Prepared.
Seriously, any Limiting Belief is Risky these days. We have to continue to PIAVA What We Want, NOT What We Think We Can Manifest. Ice Cream for Breakfast? The Antichrist for Ambassador to Xinjiang? World Peace? Environmental Justice? Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding? What Is It That You Want? Don't Hold Back. You're In Charge of Your Piece of the Pie. Clotted Cream, or Ice Cream? Which Is It You Want? It's Not a Time to Think Small.
It's None of Your Business What Others Want for Their Piece, unless you're Negotiating Win-Win with them and Helping each other Out. Competition and Scarcity are Obsolete; revise your Thinking toward Cooperation and Sharing instead. You don't want to Know how What You Want might be Delivered – you're not In Charge of that. It's not about the Mechanisms which might Create it; many of those aren't invented yet. It's about What You Want Created. That and That Alone is Your Assignment.
We've made it through our six Cuspal July Self-Love Challenges (Stations). We have some Sign Changes in the next few weeks. Venus and Mars enter Virgo on 22 and 29 July respectively. That will be Challenging, as our Values, our Actions, and our Relationships will all seek reorientation through Ego Deaths. Mercury moves into Leo 27 July, so the Mind should Sparkle, as long as we keep it out of places where it's way out of its League – Emotions and Enlightenment for instance. Jupiter backs into Aquarius 28 July, and Ceres moves into Gemini 31 July. Our Emotions should calm a little, and our Notions of what Sustainability means will Expand as much as our Limiting Beliefs are, if we let them.
We start August with Atropos moving into Virgo on the first – more Ego-Death-like Adjustments to Replace Expired Karma with something more Constructive. Till 2 August (4:23 pm PDT) we'll be Feeling our Consciousness continuing to Expand (asteroid Juno Stationary in 9 Sagittarius) to fill the Voids Created by the July Demise of our Self-Judgments. Then we pretty much Get A Break till the Ides of August, though the subsequent Exaggerations of The Truth of the Mind and Descent of Soul (Stations of asteroid Veritas and Uranus 19-20 August) are likely to Expand to fill the empty space.
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New Project Week II
As we move into our New Self (asteroid Klotho Stationary 4:30 am PDT 7 June 2021 in 18 Libra), it will behoove us to Attend to our Relationships with Abuse and with Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus Stationary 9:24 am PDT 14 June in 16 Pisces). Though it's only one of many Challenges that will Confront our Newbie shortly after our Rebirth, Unconscious and Conscious Changes in our Relationship with Abuse and Privilege is probably the biggest one. The intervening Challenges…
Emotional Intensity (Moon moving Out of Bounds for four days starting 10:57 pm PDT 9 June in 18 Gemini). This hits a peak on 11 June (Moon Stationary in North Declination 25:39 and Longitude 11 Cancer at 9:08 pm PDT), and fades on 13 June (Moon moving back In Bounds at 6:19 pm PDT in 4 Leo).
Ego Death(s) Required to Let Go of Karma (asteroid Karma moves into Virgo 2:34 pm 9 June). If you have a Journal, Karma was previously in the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo) between 1 December 2020 and 23 January 2021), before it backed back into Leo till 2 April. It's been moving forward in its third Dance over the last five Duads (2½ Degrees) of Leo since then. This deserves a post of its own.
💥 For now we'll just say that Virgo is what happens between the Cyclic Culmination of our Individual Identity (Leo) and Meeting Not-Us or Other (Libra). Just as Pisces is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage so we don't have to drag it with us into our next Adventure, Virgo is about Letting Go of Obsolete Identities so we don't mess up our Relationships with Others by "Pretending" (usually Unconsciously) to be someone we ain't. "Others" includes not just People, but since Everything in the Universe is Conscious, it also includes Everything that we aren't Being or Owning in the Moment. For example, if you Identify with Loving Nature, prove it to yourself by Inviting a Bird to perch on your finger, without pooping on your hand or giving you Salmonella.
💥 We also need to say that our most troubling Karma is where We Would Rather Die than Feel That Again, aka our "Held Emotions" (South Node). Because most Hupers Believe that we're Once-Born or Twice-Born, we misinterpret "I'd Rather Die Than Feel That" as "I'd Rather Die Than Feel That," while it's really "I'd Rather Die Than Feel That" – Ego Death. We're just sawing through one of the legs of the three-legged stool we usually sit on. If we Want to minimize Pain, we'd stand up before we did that. But if you know what it means to Go Without an Identity (ie, stepping out of your Identity) for a few minutes, I'd love to know. The Emotion of Confusion is the closest we can come, and we regard Confusion as one of the best Emotions because it's the Doorway to Evolution. We usually try to suppress it by Figuring Out What's "Wrong," which is one of our most Self-Destructive Habits.
Illuminations about the State of our Planet and the Likelihood of our Survival if we continue on our Current Trajectory (Annular Eclipse of the Sun 3:52 am PDT 10 June in 20 Gemini [Sabian Symbol "A modern cafeteria displays an abundance of food, products of various regions"], primarily impacting the several weeks following it). It will be visible if you happen to be crossing the North Pole (bring a Boat, that's cold Water). An Annular Eclipse is one where the moon is far enough from the Earth that it doesn't quite appear to cover the face of the Sun – an Almost-Total Eclipse. Consciousness Grows by Discovery, not by Invention, and under Eclipses we Discover what's now missing, that we hadn't noticed previously. For more details, see https://svs.gsfc.nasa.gov/4910.
An Increase in Selfishness (Mars enters Leo 6:33 am PDT 11 June). Which is not always a Negative thing. We can't Love Other Fully until we Love Ourself Fully. Given our Illuminations about the State of the Planet and its Huper inhabitants, though, the Greedheads will probably be making another Power Grab. If we Pray enough for it, they might Betray their Heartlessness and be met with Rotten Tomatoes, or better yet new laws about, say, voting, taxing, and legal theft, and new Cultural Norms about Worshiping Wealth. The few Greedheads who aren't Sociopaths might even have Epiphanies about their own antisocial Greed. Mars will stay in Leo till the end of July.
While we usually just dwell on the Back-of-Hand/Palm dynamics of Abuse and Privilege, we should actually look at the Pros and Cons of each. For instance, having Privilege can make so many things so much Easier. Rather than Gloating about our supposed Superiority as the source of our Privilege, or arming ourself to the hilt to keep the Rabble from "stealing" back what we've stolen from them, or Resisting Privilege because we're Conscious of the Abuse that results and Guilty about it, we might instead find our Gratitude for our Privilege. In 5D where Collaboration outduels Competition, we'll no long be in a Zero-Sum World, but back in a Natural World where the Sum is Much Greater than its Parts. From a place of Gratitude for our historical Privilege we may be able to Share it or Teach Others how to Enjoy it without creating more Abuse – not like the Missionaries that enabled the Conquistadors, however. How would we avoid that?
As for Abuse, until enough people Unite against the Psychopaths and Sociopaths and Missionaries (which will require that we no longer Worship Wealth and Greed) and enforce a meaningful Equality, the most positive feature I can envision for Abuse, is for it to Inspire us to Delete our Abuse Karma. History of course was written by the Abusers, who were by and large proud of their Conquists, so the Horrors of our Karmic History may be Exaggerated by their Pride, though I'm not naive enough about the Cruelty and Sadism of our Species, or the extreme Privilege of the Abusers, to Believe that any such Exaggeration has been more than slight.
"Trust but Verify" is good advice. During the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio and Recovery was all the rage, I Learned to Ask, "What color is the wallpaper?" to remind myself that most PTSD episodes are Flashbacks and not Present-Moment. The Jungle "wallpaper" of Vietnam, and the Bare Metal "wallpaper" of the Ships, contrasts with even unadorned wallboard, so we could distinguish hallucinations from real napalm, torture, anal probes, and implants. Grounding is always a helpmate (running an imaginary cable from the base of your spine to the center of the Earth), Eating, and Orgasm are reliable Grounders.
Mirrors are always useful, especially when you're trying to Heal Feelings that aren't yours, which is not possible. Mirrors are even useful as a first response – when you're Feeling awful without obvious Triggers, take the first person who comes to mind, and for five to ten seconds hold a wardrobe Mirror between you and them, facing them. If your Feelings become more acceptable, you know you're trying to run their Emotions through your Body – or, they're Manipulating you. If you're being Manipulated, even with the best Intentions, it's never fun. Most folks are totally Unconscious that they're Manipulating. Mirrors are a good strategy for dealing with Climate Deniers, Mask Objectors, Gun Freaks, folks who want to Deny your Vote and Control your Body, and other Antichrist Lovers. You won't need to get into a hopeless morass of Conversation with them, and if you position your Mirror so it Reflects their Energy back at them, they'll get a bit of their own toxic "Medicine."
The Big Advantage of using "Then versus Now" tricks, Grounding, and Mirrors, is that they're Habit-forming. When we're Vulnerable to Manipulation by Other People's Energy, it's because our Programmers "Intentionally" (though probably Unconsciously) carved a Hole in the back of our Aura, so they could reach in and pull our strings whenever they wanted or needed to. It often looks and feels like Shaming. Habitual Manipulators "see" those Holes, usually Unconsciously, so we can be Manipulated by strangers we pass on the street. Our Programmers just thought it was good parenting, and you may do it yourself when your own kids threaten to drive you Batty. As these "tricks" become a Habit, the hole in our Aura actually Seals Up, so not only do the "tricks" become second-nature, they also Heal the Source of our Dis-Ease. When our Will is Healthily Self-Serving, Habitual Manipulators pass us by without a second glance, because we're useless as an Object for their Power Games.
Issues such as these may Confront our Experiential Infant this coming week. It never hurts to recall that we're actually an Eternal Energy Nexus (often called an "Immortal Soul") borrowing a Material Body. Energy can never be Destroyed, only Transformed. Revelation of Denial (dwarf planet Eris) remains Out of Bounds through all of this (until 4:12 am PDT 18 July in 20 Cancer), so don't be Surprised if New Information about your Personal or Karmic History or Herstory comes into your Consciousness during these Adventures. If you've noticed that almost everything above occurs in 16-20 Degrees of one Sign or another, you'll be checking your natal chart to see what will be Lit Up for you, as your own Energy System meshes with the Planet's.
All of this is Important, because as we get past the 14 June Exaggeration of Abuse and Privilege (Nessus Station), we drop into a week of very Intense Manifestation Energy, as three Big Energies are simultaneously Emphasized. When Energies Conjoin in Time, it's as if they're Conjoining in Longitude – and these Big Fellas are also actually in neighboring Degrees of their respective Signs. The three Energies are Manifestation Itself (dwarf planet Makemake Stationary 6:42 pm PDT 19 June in 6 Libra), Expansion (Jupiter Stationary 8:04 am PDT 20 June in 3 Pisces, and The Opportunity to Jettison Karma Early (asteroid Lachesis Stationary 2:42 pm PDT 20 June in 6 Scorpio).
If as is the case hereabouts, you're Wondering why the Foundations of your Personal Infrastructure seems to be Falling Apart, each Failure is a Big Clue about the Unconscious Energies "you" are running but not Owning, that Block what you're trying to Manifest. Take time to Sit with each Failure of Intention or Function, and Merge with it Energetically. The Objective is to Meet each of your Unconscious Blocks as Energy Clusters in the Unconscious, Meet them in Neutral territory without Bias or Judgment on your part, and with an Open Mind Ask the Question, "Is this Energy really My Own, but I've been Denying it?"
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Emotional Oxymoron
This is a relatively quiet week, compared to recent events. We probably wouldn't be too far off to call it the Eye of the Hurricane, though I'm not sure that should he singular. The Moon is In Bounds all week, so we may be less Emotional than recently. On 9 November 2020 (6:30 am PST) dwarf planet Ceres (Sustainability) entered Pisces (Cleaning Up Emotional Baggage), so it will be nice to have Sustainable Emotions for once, since like the Moon Emotions don't Stand Still for anybody for long. Except that Sustainable Emotions is an Oxymoron.
Trying to Sustain Emotions by Damping them is a lot like stepping on a Water Balloon. Trying to Sustain Emotions by Expressing them as they Arise works, but you'll probably need Heroic friends. We've been trying to Sustain Emotions by "Holding" them since forever, and like trying to sew our Sphincter shut, what that buys us is Karmic and seemingly Permanent Limitations, where we'd Rather Die than Feel that again. Ultimately, we only have one Choice. To Embrace All of our Emotions, even – nay, Especially – the ones we'd Rather Die than Feel.
Fortunately, Emotions don't exist in a Vacuum. We're programmed to think of them as distinct from Thoughts, Physical Sensations, and Spiritual Adventures, but they definitely are Not. So one way to make our Emotions Sustainable is to train ourselves to Coordinate them with our Mental, Physical, and Spiritual Processes. We can Ask ourself where a Difficult Emotion sits in our Body, and be Loving and Gentle (Soft and Warm) with its Physical Echo there. We can train ourself to Recognize the Difference between Thoughts and Emotions, and short-circuit the Vicious Spiral that they Enjoy when Dancing together.
Try this on… Emotions exist outside of the rules of Cause and Effect.
We never Feel such-and-such Because of anything. We just Feel Emotions, the way we Feel the Wind. It's impossible to Think our way out of an Emotion, and trying to do so will only make us Feel "worse." Guaranteed.
It does help to Identify them, as in "I Feel Angry." But "I Feel Angry about…" and "I Feel Angry at…" are always Bullshit, simply because we spend so little time in the Present Moment that we almost always have no idea whether our Emotions have Arisen as a result of some Recent Experience, or because the Recent Past Reminded us in some vague way of some Experience we had 47 Lifetimes ago, or some Experience that our Great Grandmother had in her Youth. She doesn't even need to ever have told you about it – it's encoded in your Genes.
Our Best Bet for making our Emotions Sustainable is probably to Cultivate Curiosity about them. "Isn't that Curious – I seem to be Feeling Angry." Then you can Ask Where and How you Experience that in your Body. You can be Curious about that. You can be Curious about what preceded your Emotion, but if you do, you'll also have to be Curious about how Difficult it is to Avoid trying to Attribute Cause or Blame for your Emotions. Better yet, consider Curious to be an Emotion, and Avoid Thinking about Why you're Curious. "Why" is a Poison Question, because it sticks you in your "Left Brain" and shuts down your Intuition and your Instincts, your two Best Guides.
That's a tall order, and everyone around you will think you're Really Weird. So Be it. Ceres will be in Pisces till late February. This isn't new; Ceres entered Pisces in late April, but then turned Retrograde and backed into Aquarius in late September. Think about how much of our Life we all Wasted on Why between May 1 and October 1. Imagine what it would have been like if nobody had Bothered to get tied up in Blame during that time. Imagine thousands of people just Looking at the cops, instead of Shouting at them. Or at the boneheads.
It's not What It Is Because of anything. Hupers don't have the bandwidth to get beyond that, so it's counterproductive to even try. The rest is just Mental Masturbation. You'd have more Fun, better Health, and more time to actually Enjoy Life, with a different kind of Masturbation, even if you do go blind.
That was yesterday.
On 10 November (4pm PST), asteroid Eurydike (Trust) also Changed Signs, moving into Leo (Confidence). Since late July, we've been Trusting our Compassion. Well, at least those of us who are able to Feel Compassion have been Trusting it. Now we'll be Trusting our Confidence instead, though if we're in the Habit of Doubt, that's what we'll be Trusting. Doubt is Crippling, but it's the flip side of Confidence. Of course, with Ceres in Pisces, we won't be thinking about what we're Confident or Doubting about, Right?
This won't last long, as Eurydike turns Retrograde 18 November (1am PST) and revisits Cancer on 25 November (8am PST), till the end of May. The 18 November Eurydike Station is our next Station, so we can count on wrestling with our Doubt till then. But let's talk about that in the next post.
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Charts of the Portals X
From Charts of the Portals VIII…
"A Caveat though – we've also entered the Province (in Time) of Exaggerated Dependence or Exaggerated Independence (Hylonome Stationary till 5pm 23 September 2020 in 5 Capricorn). That'll put a very different twist on our Debriefing of what we've Learned this year about Self-Love and Consciousness around Relationship (Sappho and Juno in Libra). For instance, if you've considered or experienced Big Changes in a Relationship, it may well Evolve Rapidly in the next few days.
"By all means Take Advantage of what you've Learned about yourself and Others, and especially Act to Expand your Consciousness and your Self-Love, but recognize that this 'Crisis' stage will probably be Temporary. If you're on the verge of Life-Scale Relationship Changes, you may want to 'sleep on it' for several days first. It's a great time to make such Changes, but if they're done 'in the heat of the moment' you may regret it later."
This astroevent is in our Jupiter Station chart…
Of course, all three of these charts are active all of the time this month, but this one is front and center this week.
Before we get there though, starting at 7:30 am PDT 23 September, the Moon goes Out of Bounds again, meaning we'll be more Emotional than usual. That also means that Our Instincts will be Sharper than they usually are. Which can make trouble – we could misinterpret our Instincts to think that they mean we must be "right," and let our Strong Emotions take over. Don't be surprised by an uptick in assaults and worse – but stay out of one yourself, K? This lasts till 5:40 am PDT 25 September.
Dubya could have his invasion and destruction of the cultural history of Iraq (to erase all that evidence about his benefactors the Anunnaki) under cover of this Confusion between Instincts and Emotions, in his followup to the previous Moon OOB period and the WTC. Don't let the Antichrist pull off the same kind of tricks.
Meanwhile, till 6:10 am PDT 25 September, our Intuition is Exaggerated – or our ability to Ignore it! (Asbolus Stationary in 26 Gemini). It's a fabulous time to Notice that we're Ignoring it, and correct that Habit. The Difference between our Intuition and our Instincts is subtle. It would be useful for us to Explore that Difference here where they're in sharp contrast. Our Strong Intuition Lights Up the same Energy (chart) that we Experienced early in the month when our Creative Genius was Standing Out (Ixion Stationary, 10 September) …
Which happens to be an Energy we'll be Suffering Under – Wait! I mean, Living With a lot for the next while, as it's the major Energy in all of the following…
Focus on The Most Important Thing (Saturn Stationary in 26 Capricorn) until 10pm PDT 28 September.
Which is likely to be Our Unlimited Potential (Chaos Stationary in 29 Gemini) until 2:30 am PDT 29 September.
Remember that we likely just had a Big Breakthrough on this…
"So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts, which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love, [which in turn] Allows our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential so it Changes our Emotional History and Creates a [New] Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart."
Changing our Emotional History isn't as hard as it sounds – we do it every time we have a significant Change of Perspective on some Profound past event, or Forgive someone at whom we got very Angry when we Realize that it wasn't their Fault, or See the World through New Eyes for any of a number of other reasons.
Also notice that these two Stations (Saturn and Chaos) Relate to one another through Curiosity (Quincunx). The Most Important Thing is likely to be Our Unconstrained Potential, but we need to Grok the fact that Our Potential is far more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can ever Understand and Utilize Effectively. The only way we can work with our Unlimited Potential is via a Tool that is as Unlimited, namely our Intuition. The thick plottens, doesn't it.
The Saturn Station is of course the second step in our Initiation into the Digital Age, the first being the 12 September Station of Jupiter, as the two prepare to Merge at the Capricorn Solstice. Opening to our Unlimited Potential will be a very valuable part of Creating Our Own Reality in the Digital Age, which may entail a lot of Suffering for those who Don't Have This Luxury.
A Huge Teaching about our Confidence (Chariklo Stationary in 25 Capricorn) till 1:20 pm PDT 3 October. If we're Open to it, the Teaching is likely to be that Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt are not Created by External Processes – they are products of our own Internal Decision Process. The Teaching is Huge because it's Merged with (Conjunct) and nearly simultaneous with…
A Big Shift in the Underlying Trance through which We See the World (Pluto Stationary in 23 Capricorn) through at least 6:30 am PDT 4 October.
It's going to be a very busy couple of weeks.
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