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Q: Parsing json in csv in pandas not working I have this data:
#my.csv
"accountid","configuration"
"797847293","{'dBInstanceIdentifier': 'grafanadb', 'dBInstanceClass': 'db.t3.micro', 'engine': 'postgres', 'dBInstanceStatus': 'available'}"

How can I bring into format like:
# result.csv
accountid,dBInstanceIdentifier,dbInstanceClass,engine
797847293,grafanadb,db.t3.micro,engine

I tried it with python pandas, but not result so far respectively errors.
Any ideas?

A: Assuming you've gotten this csv file from some data source, it shouldn't be this inconsistent in its formatting and should have a double quote " at the end of the second line which I believe you've missed out when copying over. Like this:
#my.csv
"accountid","configuration"
"797847293","{'dBInstanceIdentifier': 'grafanadb', 'dBInstanceClass': 'db.t3.micro', 'engine': 'postgres', 'dBInstanceStatus': 'available'}"

If that is the case, you can simply specify the quotechar argument in pd.read_csv to tell it to ignore delimiters inside the double quotes "
df = pd.read_csv('a.csv', quotechar='"')

You can then do your processing in pandas before writing back into csv from here.

A: You can read the csv to dataframe and convert configuration to dict with ast.literal_eval. Then use pd.json_normalize to convert a column of dictionary into columns.
import ast

df = pd.read_csv('data.csv', quotechar='"')

out = pd.concat([df['accountid'], pd.json_normalize(df['configuration'].apply(ast.literal_eval))], axis=1)

print(out)

   accountid dBInstanceIdentifier dBInstanceClass    engine dBInstanceStatus
0  797847293            grafanadb     db.t3.micro  postgres        available

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But let's return to Nikisch whose June 1913 recording of the Fifth triumphantly survives the relatively primitive sonics as one of the greatest examples of malleable, expressive romanticism in action. Trenchant and powerful it reflects the arch-hypnotist's art and cogently and one assumes faithfully reflects its conductor's spirited, rich impulses in the canon. So too the moulded, flexible approach to the Egmont overture. His Berlin orchestra – a reduced component to sit in the acoustic studio - is reliable and solid. The two Weber overtures were made in London just before the outbreak of the First World War. Der Freischütz is properly buoyant whilst Oberon is tense, and tension filled. At the same time that he recorded the overture to Egmont he recorded Liszt's Hungarian Rhapsody No.1. Being born in Hungary - and therefore a subject of the Dual Monarchy - may be seen to give him an advantage in terms of vitality and colour. But the recording still manages to preserve a reading of power, vitality, verve and true commitment.
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NBC, NSA and Amanpour
By Roger L. Simon 11:06 AM on January 06, 2006
From CNN: A senior U.S. intelligence official told CNN on Thursday that the National Security Agency did not target CNN's chief international correspondent Christiane Amanpour or any other CNN journalist for surveillance.
NBC raised the question in an interview with The New York Times reporter James Risen, asking him whether he knew anything about possible surveillance of Amanpour by the NSA. Risen, author of a new book, "State of War: the Secret History of the CIA and the Bush Administration," said he had not heard anything about it.
NBC posted a transcript of the interview on the MSNBC.com Web site Wednesday, then quickly removed the page. In a statement posted on the industry weblog TVNewser, the network said the transcript was "released prematurely," and that reporting would continue.
All things considered, it wouldn't be entirely amazing that the NSA targeted Amanpour, considering the inaccurate things a key CNN executive said about our troops and the network's coddling of dictators to gain access, although it would also be entirely wrong of the NSA to have done it (short of probable cause for espionage, etc.). But the interesting thing here is not just CNN or the NSA but also NBC. Where did this story come from and why was it so quickly withdrawn? Joe Gandleman has more.
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Creature Comfort To Release Anti-Trump Single
Article Contributed by Echo Ave | Published on Tuesday, May 23, 2017
East Nashville's four-piece indie space rock band Creature Comfort will celebrate the June 9th release of "Common John (Southern Shame)" as the band debuts at Bonnaroo on June 10th following their Road To Roo championship. View Bonnaroo details HERE
Known for creating thought provoking art, "Common John (Southern Shame)" delivers an outcry for southerners fighting for resistance in our current political moment. The Tullahoma, TN native breatheran penned the track as a cultural observation of Donald Trump support in the South. They recorded it immediately following the funeral of guitarist Nick Rose's mother who fought cancer to the very end.
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Lead singer / songwriter / rhythm guitarist Jessey Clark describes it as "...a culmination of emotions that I've had in my adult life regarding my southern heritage and its clash with my liberal social/political views." Trump's values seemed to be the polar opposite of his surrounding family's views, yet they voted for the controversial candidate. The song was written as a coping mechanism to Clark's internal struggle.
He asks, "How can it be that someone I love so much can support someone who has so much hate in their heart?" Clark's perspective is not only as a southern artist but as an educated pharmacist with a Belmont Doctorate of Pharmacy, an intriguing and rare combination to write from.
In June, Creature Comfort will be featured in Nashville's NATIVE magazine as they prepare to celebrate how their blood, sweat, tears, talent and statewide Road To Roo championship has earned them their Bonnaroo debut, a lifetime dream growing up on the outskirts of the festival.
The new track is a taste of what is to come and the band's best song to date as they prepare writing for a full album premiere.
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"Americans and the Holocaust": Libraries Keeping the Lights On
Posted byhebdo_readings March 16, 2022 March 18, 2022 Posted inSilbigerTags:Access to Ideas, Access to Justice, Librarians, Libraries, Racist Laws, Reflection, US Holocaust Memorial Museum
By Jenny Silbiger
The Americans and the Holocaust (AATH) traveling exhibit arrived to our island home of Oʻahu on January 28, 2022, and left a couple of days ago, on March 9th. The traveling version of AATH was sponsored by the US Holocaust Memorial Museum and the American Library Association, and my amazing colleagues at the UH West Oʻahu James and Abigail Campbell Library received the award to host AATH in our state. You can also tour the full AATH exhibit online.
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The closing event of the AATH activities series in Hawaiʻi, held on March 5th, was a concert featuring a quartet from Chamber Music Hawaii playing Messiaen's Quatour pour la fin du temp (Quartet for the end of time). Messiaen had joined the French Army in 1939 to fight alongside the Allies during WWII. In May 1940 he was captured at Verdun by the Germans, and became a prisoner-of-war in Stalag VIII-A, a German camp, where he composed this piece. During the closing event, I was invited to share words on the importance of libraries in our communities (as the President of the Hawaii Library Association). I was part of a line up of speakers, including Hawaiʻi Lt Governor Josh Green's heartfelt, personal remarks, Professor Magnussen sharing about the music, and the reading of Lemkin's poem Genocide in Hebrew and English.
I still get a little bit of the ʻshiversʻ thinking about this evening. The event was a shared memory with 122 attendees, and the first time I was able to hear live music in over two years. I could feel the notes as a physical sensation. My librarian colleagues at UH West Oʻahu said it was the largest in person event they had since graduation. I love that people in our community braved it out to show up, especially given the context of what is happening in the world right now. After the concert, folks came up to share with me how they felt the same, that we all have to keep the lights on, and that made my heart so happy.
Below are my remarks paraphrased:
When I walked through the Americans and the Holocaust traveling exhibit last month, I learned that its fundamental goals were to ask us two questions: What did Americans Know? And what more could have been done?
So I was equally horrified, and at the same time strangely understanding, that yes, Americans did know what was happening abroad, news coverage was reported nationally and regionally, and yet, there was a general resistance to changing the circumstances based on that knowledge. That while in one Gallup poll, 94% of Americans disapproved the treatment of Jews at the hands of Nazis, especially in the aftermath of Kristallnacht, a week later, 71% of Americans said no, we should not let refugees come into our country; no, we do not accept people escaping persecution into our borders.
And this is where I am so thankful to the exhibit curators and librarians and archivists who did this work. The fact is—the knowledge was there, and Americans did know. Now, there was no way that the 1930s Americans could have predicted that the hatred they were witnessing abroad would transform into the systemic genocide of over 6 million people, but the 2020s Americans can look back and see this is the case.
In our libraries and archives, we have the written records, official government letters and memos; mementos from brave protestors taking a stand against such treatment, also artifacts from anti-semitic, anti-refugee words of hatred. These include memorabilia from resistance rallies and marches from Cleveland, Philadelphia, Boston, to New York on the one hand, and also recordings of a senator in Texas testifying that there were 16,500,000 immigrants taking American jobs away from Americans, or Charles Lindbergh publicly stating anti-semitic rhetoric (and a famous children's book author publishing political critical cartoons in response to these negative and hurtful statements), as well as systemic federal governmental blocks put in place against the refugees fleeing persecution, and the records of hundreds of thousands who languished in US immigration waiting lists to escape. Hitler was on the covers of Time Magazine and Vanity Fair, and all together, these artifacts tell the story, in part, in this traveling exhibit.
Our role as libraries is to work with our communities, and at times, tackle these difficult truths that are part of our past, because they open doors into our present and our future. Libraries are not just books and journals and computers and chairs—not saying those aren't wonderful things, because they are. But what truly comes to life in libraries are ideas, truths, stories from the past and the present, and making the invisible, visible.
Even today, there are holocaust deniers in the world, and other folks who look back in time and say, well, if only Americans really knew what was happening, they would have taken action. Including myself, or maybe a younger version of myself (way more cynical in my middle age)—thinking, wow, America was a first world power, surely, they would have done something, if they'd only known, they would have intervened earlier!
But…what if I told you, or maybe you already know, that the very laws that the Nazis used to base their discriminatory and racist demagoguery, to strip Jewish citizens of their civil rights and humanity, were actually based on the laws found in the the United States, specifically to codes authored in the southern states? Remember, this was the era of Jim Crow, where segregation and the intermingling of white and Black were not only reviled, but illegal. Racist murders were carried out regularly and not only were the perpetrators getting away with it, but pictures of the atrocities were printed on postcards and circulated as souvenirs through the US Postal Service. And as a good librarian, I will share my source, Pulitzer prize winning author, Isabel Wilkerson, who published her book, Caste: the Origins of our Discontents, in 2020 (available at your public library, I borrowed the e-book version), has an extensive bibliography around these facts. Including this observation: that when Nazi Germany put forward their Nuremberg Laws, they themselves recognized that they did not go as extreme as the racist laws in the United States.
So let me circle back to the importance of libraries and our role in access to ideas and access to justice. Your friendly neighborhood library is more than the books and journals and computers and chairs. They are safe spaces where we can celebrate story time with our children, and also research and examine very difficult truths about our lives, our country, and where we can support each other in the pursuit of knowledge for just about anything we're humanly interested in.
The United States still grapples with internal conflict—some say our daily life is more polarized than ever before. But when you walk through AATH and see the slogans such as "America First," maybe it's not more than ever, maybe it's that we continue to grapple with the difficulties and challenges, the darkness and the light, of what it means to be human. We do not shy away from these conversations, in the library. Instead, we turn the lights on. We look into our archives, and at the call of the U.S. Holocaust Memorial Museum's project, libraries across the nation respond with over 15,000 articles of news artifacts—non-digital news coverage, to help shed light on what did Americans know.
So what can we do today, what more can we do? What can librarians and library guests and library users do? We can keep the lights on. We can keep our eyes on the truth. We can keep stories alive. We can keep making the invisible-visible.
Let me close with a quick story. It is spring 2015, Baltimore, Maryland. Baltimore is engulfed in smoke and glass shattered in the streets. Protests had erupted at the result of the unexplained death of Freddy Gray in police custody, later ruled a homicide. Protests that began peacefully, but devolved into violence and destruction, raging against police brutality for weeks. One woman, named Carla Hayden, who was serving as the director of the public library system at the time, made the decision to keep her libraries open, specifically, the branch library that was in the epicenter of the violence. She kept the lights on, serving her community, for her community. The libraries were beacons and safe spaces, even amidst the turmoil in the city all around them.
Carla Hayden is now serving as the Librarian of Congress, and I couldn't be happier that the leader of librarians, the leader of libraries, is someone who chose to keep the lights on.
I'm thankful for the UH-West Oahu James and Abigail Campbell Library for doing the same, for bringing AATH to our state of Hawai'i, to shed light on these stories. To remind us, to help us remember: we are more than the misdeeds of the past, and that if we keep our minds and our hearts open, we can make and create a better present, a better future.
Please join me in keeping the lights on.
Author with Carina Chernisky, and Alphie Garcia, UH West Oahu Librarians
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Man gets 10-year road ban after admitting dangerous driving
Mike Dwane
A 23-YEAR-OLD man has been banned from driving for 10 years after admitting to two counts of dangerous driving and other motoring offences.
Jamie Marshall, of Altamira Terrace, Thomondgate, was already disqualified from driving when he committed the offences on October 20, 2011, Judge Eugene O'Kelly was told at Limerick District Court.
Sgt Donal Cronin said that Marshall was the driver of a motorcycle that had failed to stop for gardai, resulting in a "short pursuit in a built-up urban area" around Thomondgate and Kileely.
The accused also pleaded guilty to the theft of a scooter from Shelbourne Avenue on May 5, 2012.
His solicitor John Herbert explained that Marshall had made admissions to gardai after his fingerprints were found on the discarded cowling of the vehicle in a nearby garden.
Sgt Cronin said the property, which was worth around €2,000, had never been recovered.
Among Marshall's 54 previous convictions were several for driving without insurance and dangerous driving. He had been disqualified from driving for five years after for driving with no insurance in May 2010. And he had been jailed for six months in April 2009 for dangerous driving.
Mr Herbert said that custodial sentence had arisen from a road traffic incident in 2008 "in which he was seriously injured and acquired a brain injury". He had spent time in the National Rehabilitation Hospital as a consequence.
Judge O'Kelly noted correspondence from Marshall's GP "indicating that he is almost completely recovered".
For driving without insurance on October 20, 2011, Judge O'Kelly disqualified Marshall from driving for 10 years. Two bans of two years each were imposed for dangerous driving at Kenyon Avenue and at Quarry Road on the same date.
Marshall was remanded on continuing bail to appear before the court again on June 27 for payment of compensation to the owner of the scooter stolen in May 2012.
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It was girls day out for popular TV girls who traveled to the Coast to enjoy themselves. Terryanne Chebet decided to treat her family and friends to a to a memorable birthday party in Mombasa.
The former Citizen TV anchor turned a year older on May 25. She traveled to Mombasa alongside her daughters Imani and Talaa and friends Jacque Maribe, Kirigo Ng'arua, Monica Kiragu and Shix Kapienga.


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Q: Nested do.call within a foreach %dopar% environment can't find function passed with .export I am nesting multiple levels of do.call (each themselves using functions named in the parameters, not hard-coded) within a %dopar% parallelized environment, and a function from my outside environment can't be found by the innermost function. I know about the .export parameter on foreach and am using it, but somehow the named function isn't propagating down the entire chain.
I reduced my issue to the following test case, which does exhibit this problem:
library(doParallel)
cl <- makeCluster(4)
registerDoParallel(cl)

simple.func <- function(a, b) {
  return(a+b)
}

inner.func <- function(a, b) {
  return(do.call(simple.func, list(a=a, b=b)))
}

outer.func <- function(a, b, my.func=inner.func) {
  return(do.call(my.func, list(a=a, b=b)))
}

main.func <- function(my.list=1:10, my.func=outer.func,
                      my.args=list(my.func=inner.func)) {
  results <- foreach(i=my.list, .multicombine=TRUE, .inorder=FALSE,
                     .export="simple.func") %dopar% {
    return(do.call(my.func, c(list(a=i, b=i+1), my.args)))
  }
  return(results)
}

Rather than giving the correct answer (a list with some numbers), I get:
Error in { : task 1 failed - "object 'simple.func' not found"

Adding if (!exists("simple.func")) stop("Could not find parse.data in scope main.func") to the start of each function (changing the name of the scope as appropriate) reveals that it's inner.func which doesn't see simple.func -- even though outer.func does see it.
I also tested a couple of variations of the above, with either main.func or outer.func having the next-level function hard-coded, rather than using it from a parameter. Both of these variations do work (e.g., give the expected result), but for the real-world case I want to retain the generalizability of taking the sub-functions as parameters.
# Variation number one: Replace main.func() with this version
main.func <- function(my.list=1:10, my.func=outer.func,
                      my.args=list(my.func=inner.func)) {
  results <- foreach(i=my.list, .multicombine=TRUE, .inorder=FALSE,
                     .export=c("simple.func", "outer.func", "inner.func")) %dopar% {
    return(do.call(outer.func, list(a=i, b=i+1, my.func=inner.func)))
  }
  return(results)
}

# Variation number two: Replace outer.func() and main.func() with these versions
outer.func <- function(a, b, my.func=inner.func) {
  return(do.call(inner.func, list(a=a, b=b)))
}

main.func <- function(my.list=1:10, my.func=outer.func,
                      my.args=list(my.func=inner.func)) {
  results <- foreach(i=my.list, .multicombine=TRUE, .inorder=FALSE,
                     .export=c("simple.func", "inner.func")) %dopar% {
    return(do.call(my.func, c(list(a=i, b=i+1), my.args)))
  }
  return(results)
}

I could also pass simple.func down the chain manually, by including it as an extra parameter, but this looks extra messy, and why should it be necessary when simple.func should just be passed along as part of the environment?
# Variation number three: Replace inner.func(), outer.func(), and main.func()
# with these versions
inner.func <- function(a, b, innermost.func=simple.func) {
  return(do.call(innermost.func, list(a=a, b=b)))
}

outer.func <- function(a, b, my.func=inner.func,
                       innermost.args=list(innermost.func=simple.func)) {
  return(do.call(my.func, c(list(a=a, b=b), innermost.args)))
}

main.func <- function(my.list=1:10, my.func=outer.func,
                      my.args=list(my.func=inner.func,
                      innermost.args=list(innermost.func=simple.func))) {
  results <- foreach(i=my.list, .multicombine=TRUE, .inorder=FALSE,
                     .export="simple.func") %dopar% {
    return(do.call(my.func, c(list(a=i, b=i+1), my.args)))
  }
  return(results)
}

Does anyone have ideas for less-kludgy solutions, or the underlying cause of this problem?

A: For doParallel, and any other doNnn adaptor that doesn't fork the current process, I think the following hack would do it:
main.func <- function(my.list = 1:10, my.func=outer.func,
                      my.args = list(my.func=inner.func)) {
  results <- foreach(i = my.list, .multicombine = TRUE, .inorder = FALSE,
                     .export="simple.func") %dopar% {
    environment(my.args$my.func) <- environment()  ## <= HACK
    return(do.call(my.func, args = c(list(a=i, b=i+1), my.args)))
  }
  return(results)
}

Alternatively, you can use the doFuture adaptor (I'm the author).  Then you don't have to worry about global objects because they are automatically identified and exported.  That is, there is no need for specifying .export (or .packages).  For example, in your case the following works:
library("doFuture")
registerDoFuture()
plan(multisession, workers = 4)

main.func <- function(my.list = 1:10, my.func = outer.func,
                      my.args = list(my.func = inner.func)) {
  foreach(i = my.list, .multicombine = TRUE, .inorder = FALSE) %dopar% {
    do.call(my.func, args = c(list(a = i, b = i+1), my.args))
  }
}

res <- main.func(1:3)
str(res)
## List of 10
##  $ : num 3
##  $ : num 5
##  $ : num 7

You can also skip foreach() all along and do:
library("future")
plan(multisession, workers = 4)

main <- function(my.list = 1:10, my.func = outer.func,
                 my.args = list(my.func = inner.func)) {
  future_lapply(my.list, FUN = function(i) {
    do.call(my.func, args = c(list(a = i, b = i+1), my.args))
  })
}

PS. There are lots of different plan() backends to choose from.  The only one that is not covered is if you use doRedis.


Farm co-ops can provide the world with an "alternative vision" to government or international agriculture policies that place too much emphasis on profits, protecting certain markets or employing new technology that could prove dangerous, Pope Benedict XVI said.
The pope made his comments in a message marking Tuesday's celebration of World Food Day, a commemoration sponsored by the U.N. Food and Agriculture Organization to highlight the global fight against hunger and the need to help farmers and farm workers.
The theme of the 2012 celebration was: "Agricultural Cooperatives: Key to feeding the world."
The cooperatives, Pope Benedict said, are an alternative to policies that "seem to have as their sole objective profit, the defense of markets, the non-food use of agricultural products (and) the introduction of new production techniques without the necessary precaution."
The U.N. Food and Agriculture Organization's goal of eradicating poverty, Pope Benedict said, requires a commitment from the international community, individual governments and men and women inspired by solidarity and a desire to increase people's participation in decisions that have an impact on how food is grown and distributed.
"Agricultural cooperatives are a concrete example because they are called to create not only adequate levels of production and distribution, but also a more general growth of rural areas and the people who live there," the pope said.
Pope Benedict said cooperatives also are a practical example of what Catholic social teaching means when it encourages "subsidiarity": making decisions at the simplest, most decentralized and most local level possible.
The pope also used his message to offer a special greeting to those living in situations "where conflicts or natural disasters" have destroyed agricultural production and where, in many cases, "women are called to direct the activity of the cooperatives, maintain family ties and safeguard the precious elements of rural know-how and methods."


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CardioBrief: TV Ads Pushed Inappropriate Use of Testosterone
Study: prescriptions spiked in direct response to blizzard of 'Low T' ads
by Larry Husten, CardioBrief March 21, 2017
Television ads for testosterone products were highly successful, leading to dramatic increases in the number of men taking testosterone drugs, according to a new study published in the Journal of the American Medical Association.
J. Bradley Layton (University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill) and colleagues analyzed the relationship between ratings in 75 television markets and data on testosterone initiation and use based on commercial insurance claims. Within the study area, which contained more than 17 million commercially insured men, more than 1 million had a new serum test and more than a quarter million initiated testosterone treatment during the study period between 2009 and 2013.
Although testosterone is approved only for men with pathological hypogonadism, the pharmaceutical industry spent years promoting its much broader use as a "lifestyle" drug in men despite an absence of evidence for either safety or efficacy. The authors wrote that existing studies "offer little support for widespread use of testosterone outside the narrow approved indications."
Testosterone uptake correlated closely with advertising intensity. The authors calculated that each commercial resulted in an increase in new testosterone testing, new initiation of treatment, and even new initiation of treatment without a recent test. Each individual television ad was associated with an increase in 0.14 tests, 0.05 new initiations, and 0.02 initiations without a recent test per 10,000 men exposed to the ad.
Although the increase associated with each individual advertisement was small, the cumulative effect was quite large, since "advertisements were widespread and frequent during the study period; with cumulative ad exposures of close to 200" in some markets, the researchers said.
"This study confirms both the pros and cons of direct-to-consumer advertising of pharmaceutical products, a practice allowed only by the U.S. and New Zealand among high-income economies," commented Joe Ross (Yale University). "On the pro side, DTCA works – men who were exposed to the ads were more likely to seek out testing and treatment. But on the con side, DTCA likely motivates overuse of a treatment that has been associated with increased risk and without strong evidence of benefit."
Ross continued, "Many men who were exposed to ads received treatment without being appropriately tested, and thus may not have even had the disease for which the treatment is indicated. DTCA can play an important role in disease awareness for less common or stigmatized conditions, but there are accompanying risks in over-testing and over-treatment, potentially leading many patients to receive treatment who are unlikely to benefit, exposing them only to the risks of therapy."
In an accompanying editorial, Richard Kravitz (University of California, Davis) wrote that the industry's campaign was "startlingly effective" and that "physicians were ill prepared to respond, as practice guidelines at the time were ambiguous."
Kravitz continued: "As learned intermediaries, physicians are supposed to protect consumers from the potential adverse effects of drug advertisements. However, when clinical indications are weak or uncertain, signals of harm are suggestive but unproven, and patient demand is strong, physicians may not be able to provide that protection."
It is worth mentioning here that there are some physicians who played, and continue to play, an active role in promoting the benefits of testosterone (and other unproven products and tests) to enhance lifestyle.
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A more pertinent question might be: why weren't we talking about them earlier? The treasurer, Josh Frydenberg, tried to start a discussion in January 2018, when he was responsible for environment and energy, comparing the expected trajectory of EVs to that of the iPhone. He said changes in battery technology and recharging infrastructure were gaining momentum in Europe, Asia and North America that would inevitably be replicated in Australia, and predicted people that who mocked EVs would one day be driving them.
After a relatively quiet year, including a couple of relatively low-key funding announcements, the issue was thrust back into the spotlight last week when Labor led its climate policy announcement with a target of 50% of new cars being electric by 2030.
What else is Labor promising?
Arguably, just as significant is that the ALP says half the cars in government fleets should be EVs by 2025. The 2030 target is mostly intended to send a signal to carmakers and the public, but analysts say the fleet policy would quickly drive change, including ensuring some long-promised recharging infrastructure would be built and creating a second-hand EV market.
Labor wants to introduce vehicle emissions standards requiring light cars to on average emit 105 grams of CO2 per kilometre, based on a US example and less than most cars on Australian roads. It would allow businesses to claim a 20% deduction on EVs that cost more than $20,000, kick in $100m for charging infrastructure and require federally funded roads and developments to include EV tech.
Though it has been highly critical of Labor's stance, the Coalition promised its own national electric vehicle strategy as part of its "climate solutions" package in February. Few details have been released but the policy document says it would deliver cleaner air, better health, smarter cities and lower transport costs and emissions for all Australians.
It considered introducing the same vehicle emissions standard proposed by Labor, receiving advice it would result in a net economic benefit, but balked.
The government and its media supporters have been scathing of Labor's approach. Scott Morrison accused Bill Shorten of wanting to "end the weekend" by forcing people out of four-wheel drives, denying people a choice on what they drove and ending the Australian love affair with cars "with a bit of grunt".
Sounds like everyone's on roughly the same page?
Not exactly. Other claims: critics say EVs are expensive; that a rapid expansion would just mean more greenhouse gas emissions given Australia's reliance on coal to generate electricity; supporting EVs would deny the government billions in fuel excise; Shorten had incorrectly claimed that an EV could be charged in 10 minutes when they in reality take much longer.
Was Shorten wrong about the charging times?
The Labor leader arguably misstepped in not properly qualifying his 10-minute claim but he was not wrong. The cheapest EV available in Australia, the Hyundai Ioniq, takes about four hours to charge when plugged in at home. But the Coalition last year announced it was spending $6m on an ultra-rapid charging network. In a statement at the time, the energy minister, Angus Taylor – one of the most vocal critics of Labor's policy – said the network would provide up to 400km driving after just 15 minutes of charging time, and it was expected there would be a charging point every 200km.
Tim Washington, a co-founder of Chargefox, the company that won the contract to roll out the network, responded to Taylor's attack on Labor last week by tweeting a photo of a charger funded by the government that can provide 200km charge in eight minutes. The energy boss Trevor St Baker, a strong supporter of coal and the Coalition, told the Australian that his company, Tritium, could charge for a 350km trip in 10 minutes and was building 200 plug-in stations across Europe.
Would EVs cost the Treasury in lost petrol excise?
Quite possibly. A Bloomberg New Energy Finance put the cost to the budget at more than $1bn by 2030. There have been suggestions that stamp duty and car registration should also be waived and that some of the lost revenue could be offset through new road-user charges, but these debates are just beginning. It is worth noting this is an argument about the loss of a fraction of the income tax cuts proposed by both major parties.
Won't charging EVs mean more emissions from coal-fired power plants?
The point about emissions from coal might carry slight weight if Australia were to maintain its current level of reliance on coal, but no analyst or political leader believes that will happen. Labor has a target of 50% renewable energy by 2030. The Coalition is not as ambitious but the Australian Energy Market Operator last year projected the country would reach nearly 50% within 11 years under current settings alone. Some studies suggest EVs are already less greenhouse-intensive than petrol cars in all states except Victoria, which still largely runs on brown coal.
Will EVs destabilise the power grid?
Despite some headlines suggesting it could lead to electricity network armageddon, most studies have suggested the introduction of EVs could help stabilise the evolving system – if properly managed. Scheduling home charging for off-peak times, such as the early hours of the morning, could even out demand across the day and help with stability and prices, according to a report by the EV software company Evenergi. EVs are also expected to be able to store excess energy and feed it into the grid when necessary. In 2016 the energy market operator found the arrival of EVs should have relatively little impact on total electricity consumption.
It's true that EVs are costly: the Electric Vehicle Council says there are only four models in Australia cheaper than $60,000, with three more promised this year. Not surprisingly, more developed markets have more options – Britain has 27 in this price bracket. Bloomberg New Energy Finance projects a rapid fall in the cost of lithium ion batteries will lead to EVs being as cheap as petrol equivalents by 2025.
Will they lack 'a bit of grunt'?
Morrison warned that the Toyota HiLux, beloved by tradies, would be "out under Bill Shorten". He didn't mention that Toyota has a goal of making a hybrid, hydrogen fuel cell or EV version of every car it sells by 2025.
Most manufacturers are taking similar steps. Already on the market is Tesla's Model X, an expensive mid-sized SUV marketed as being able to go from zero to 100km in less than three seconds.
How does Australia compare with the rest of the world?
Remember what Frydenberg said about Europe, Asia and North America being more advanced than Australia? He was right.
Norway is the most commonly cited example and world leader: 58.4% of cars sold in March were EVs. In the US 2% of cars sold last year were EVs or plug-in hybrids. In China it was 4%, but the country still accounted for more than half of global sales, up 62% on 2017.
In Australia the proportion of new sales is just 0.2%. But Senate estimates last week heard that department modelling found that would rise to between 25% and 50% by 2030 under the Coalition's commitment to use clean cars to cut emissions by 10m tonnes. It suggests that, beyond the hyperbole and electioneering, the major parties' goals on EVs are not as far apart as you might think.


I love to dream. Day-dreams, night-dreams – they have always been an escape. Sleep without dreams, or at least, without recollection of dreaming, feels unsatisfying. When I have vivid dreams, I feel as though I have had a refreshing, deep sleep – although in reality, the most vivid dreams tend to occur in the last part of the sleep cycle, when one has already come out of the deepest sleep phases. Perhaps it is simply the fact that when it comes to vivid dreams, I feel 'fully immersed' – deep in the dreaming world, if not in deep sleep.
I have always found it difficult to live in the present. My waking thoughts are constantly full of situations and conversations past, or more likely, imagined future conversations and role-plays. Often, those conversations provide a way of escaping the sense of helplessness and lack of control in the face of whatever is hurting me at the time.
Much like the daydreams, night time dreams have also provided a means of escape from whatever has been going on in my life. Dreams, of course, often replay the themes of 'real life', but the settings are often different. But even when I feel no need of escape, I still look forward to dreaming in order to try and satisfy that great craving for the one drug that so many with BPD feel they cannot do without – the drug of intensity. Vivid dreams have always been a powerful source of intensity for me. In the strength of their emotion, they feel far more 'real' than real life. They have more colour, more depth, more connection, than most day to day events. Intense emotion feels like the 'gold standard' that all other emotions aspire to.
It's not surprising, then, that I should court those dreams and those emotions. I feel extremely fortunate that, unlike many with mental health difficulties, I am not afraid to go to sleep, and my sleep is not besieged by nightmares. I have had some extremely distressing dreams, in which I have felt overwhelming sadness and have woken up crying and afraid. Dreams of illness, of loss, of death. Dreams that made me resolve, in the middle of the night, to try and live in the present, to stop being self-destructive, to try and live a long and healthy life. But for whatever reason, by morning, the impact of those dreams has severely diminished, as has my resolve. The only thing that stays with me, is the afterglow of intensity, and the sense of having felt alive. The emotions may have been intensely negative, but the imprint of intensity outlives the memory of the felt pain.
For me, my nightmares have not been of the sleeping kind – they have been waking nightmares in the middle of the night. The real-life fear of dying or of going mad. The terror of one's brain forcing the mind to get to grips with its own non-existence. This terror plagued me as a teenager, and when I left home and went to university it transmuted itself into Panic Disorder. In those middle of the night episodes, the fear of death was not so much about existential angst, as about the seemingly inevitable consequence of the terrifying physical symptoms of panic, including tightness of the chest, shivering, and sweating. If that is what sleeping nightmares feel like to so many, no wonder dreaming can be dreaded, and can be the very opposite of refuge.
More recently, my desire to dream has been driven not just by a need to feel, but by a need to know. I have never been convinced by 'formula-driven' dream interpretation where dreaming about 'X' always means 'Y'. But it's becoming ever clearer to me that dream interpretation can be a legitimate and valuable part of therapy. That being said, I think it's important to remember that there is never one 'objectively correct' interpretation of a dream – there can be several different interpretations, working at different layers and from different perspectives, none of which can make sole claim to the truth, but all of which can have something valuable to add by way of understanding oneself or a situation, better.
I have just finished reading Irvin Yalom's 'Love's Executioner and other tales of psychotherapy'. I can highly recommend it, particularly if you have an interest in the process of therapy; but one of the things that struck me most, was the use that Yalom made of dreams, to better understand and get to the core of his patient's difficulties. One client in particular, though distant and closed-off in sessions, nevertheless had another identity, 'the dreamer', who spoke to the psychiatrist about the patient's deepest needs, through his dream life. The work of therapy was eventually concluded when the patient had integrated the part of himself represented by the dreamer, and the two spoke with one voice.
For years, when growing up, all of my dreams (or at least the ones I could remember) involved being chased. I was always 'running away' from someone, though most commonly, in my dreams, running away involved flying, in order to escape. Flying is often associated with lucid dreaming, and it's certainly the case that I have a number of dreams (not all of which involve flying) in which I am aware that I am dreaming, and can control my environment. Although I cannot choose which of my dreams are lucid, it is perhaps one of the reasons why nightmares are less frequent for me, and why my dreaming holds fewer fears.
More recently my dreams have been not so much about being chased, but about trying to escape. A couple of nights ago, having escaped a 'prison' made of glass, I found myself on the roof of a very tall building, unable to climb down to safety. A group of my old school friends stood below, and one of them started to climb up the outside of the building to try and help me down. Half-way up she lost her footing and tumbled to her death, slamming down on her back on to the hard concrete. She was a friend I had not been particularly close to – but she was also a friend who looked (physically) more like me, than the others.
I wonder what my therapist would make of that dream. I wonder if she would think it was about therapy, and about her. The truth is, when it comes to her, I feel locked in an endless idealization/devaluation cycle: one minute feeling trapped and rendered helpless and vulnerable by my efforts at transparency, another minute feeling free and on top of the world, yet all dependent on how I think and feel about her at the time. Is anyone who tries to help me, doomed to fall, metaphorically, to their death? My therapist said she had a hunch this week, that she would be 'in the naughty corner', due to a mistake (albeit an innocent one) that she had made. But little does she know that she is not in the 'naughty corner', but 'in the dock', and I feel as though I am putting her on trial almost every week. Will she ever be able to demonstrate sufficient proof of her caring? Will she ever be able to climb up the high walls of my defences and reach me, even rescue me? Alternatively, is that brave and foolish climber, me, or another part of me? I have felt, for the last few years, that in order to recover and be 'rescued', I need to become someone else, and thus put part of me to death. But in my dream, one part of me died, but the rescue was ultimately unsuccessful. What conclusion can I draw from that?
To quote and misinterpret a mis-quote of a famous quote: "we are such stuff as dreams are made of". Literally, we are the stuff of our dreams, and the more I think on it, the more I am convinced that there is a role for our dreams, in helping the fractured parts of ourselves communicate with each other and express themselves, until one day, they can speak in unison, with a single voice. I have always loved to dream – but now I hope my inner dreamers will love me back, and help me heal.
Categories: Therapy | Tags: borderline personality disorder, BPD, dreams, mental health, therapy | Permalink.
This is a very interesting post. I was listening to a dream expert the other day who say there's no such thing as a bad dream, they're all messages from our subconscious. I would agree, I tend not to put too much emphasis on generalised interpretations, but there must be some basis if Psychotherapists can use them with such positive results. I will look on kindle for the Yalom book.
I had a thought at the end of your post and this is something we talked about before. If my Therapist was in the dock, I'm afraid he may already be sitting on death row. I wondered if part of your dream was saying that you had to either rescue yourself or allow someone to help in that rescue.
Thank you for your comments Cat 🙂 Oh, and thank you SOOOO much for your wonderful email, which I will reply to soon. This last couple of weeks have been difficult (having just replied to another of your comments about intense feelings for therapists, I feel like I've really been through the mill with those in the last ten days or so….). Like you, I look forward to sleeping and just wish I could remember more of my dreams. I know that I find them interesting and amazing but can almost never remember them! And glad you can relate to the flying dreams – they're great, aren't they 🙂 Though I used to use them to escape from being chased, which wasn't so great, but never mind…!
It's such a fascinating area – I think my next session with my therapist will all around dreams – I've had three or four others within the last two weeks, and I remember only snippets of each, but again, they seem to be related somehow…..
Thank you so much for reading, and for your comment. During the course of therapy, I have come to believe dreams can be really powerful tools for understanding ourselves better. I agree that dreams can be indicators towards things we have repressed or forgotten, from the past. I am amazed sometimes at the way my brain takes ordinary life events in the here and now and makes completely new use of them in the context of a dream, that helps me to understand a bigger picture, including how events and patterns from the past are repeated in the present. I definitely agree with your last sentence – my therapist talks about past situations being recreated in therapy, but I think 'recreation' happens all the time! Past difficulties can set up patterns of behaviour and responding, that can go on for a long time unless self-awareness and other strategies intervene to halt the pattern. Are you in therapy? I hope that you are able to talk through these dreams with someone and try and figure out what they mean for you. I don't think there's any one wrong or right interpretation of any dream – in many ways, the crucial thing is the impetus to further thought that they provide. What you make of them and what you take from them, is up to you, but I don't think that makes them any less useful. And quite often they work on several layers and could be interpreted in different ways, all of which may be useful to understanding different aspects of our experience…..I also wish there was more out there on dreams and how they can be used to resolve pain both in the past and in the present….