Do you think you 'll be able to cut twenty years of a life out of your heart without any pain ? '' `` Oh , I 'll be homesick , if that is what you mean , '' said Nora petulantly . `` Of course I 'll be that at first . I expect it -- but people get over that . And it is not as if I were going away for good . I 'll be back next summer -- every summer . '' `` It 'll be different , '' said Rob stubbornly , thinking as old Nathan Shelley had thought . `` You 'll be a fine lady -- oh , all the better for that perhaps -- but you 'll not be the same . No , no , the new life will change you ; not all at once , maybe , but in the end . You 'll be one of them , not one of us . But will you be happy ? That 's the question I 'm asking . '' In anyone else Nora would have resented this . But she never felt angry with Rob . `` I think I shall be , '' she said thoughtfully . `` And , anyway , I must go . It does n't seem as if I could help myself if I wanted to . Something -- out beyond there -- is calling me , always has been calling me ever since I was a tiny girl and found out there was a big world far away from Racicot . And it always seemed to me that I would find a way to it some day . That was why I kept going to school long after the other girls stopped .
Mother thought I 'd better stop home ; she XXXXX too much book learning would make me discontented and too different from the people I had to live along .
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