You know he has given you hope . If you are careful you wo n't lose your sight altogether ; and if his glasses cure your headaches it will be a great thing . '' `` I do n't call it much hope , '' said Marilla bitterly . `` What am I to live for if I ca n't read or sew or do anything like that ? I might as well be blind -- or dead . And as for crying , I ca n't help that when I get lonesome . But there , it 's no good talking about it . If you 'll get me a cup of tea I 'll be thankful . I 'm about done out . Do n't say anything about this to any one for a spell yet , anyway . I ca n't bear that folks should come here to question and sympathize and talk about it . '' When Marilla had eaten her lunch Anne persuaded her to go to bed . Then Anne went herself to the east gable and sat down by her window in the darkness alone with her tears and her heaviness of heart . How sadly things had changed since she had sat there the night after coming home ! Then she had been full of hope and joy and the future had looked rosy with promise . Anne felt as if she had lived years since then , but before she went to bed there was a smile on her lips and peace in her heart . She had looked her duty courageously in the face and found it a friend -- as duty ever is when we meet it frankly . One afternoon a few days later Marilla came slowly in from the front yard where she had been talking to a caller -- a man whom Anne knew by sight as Sadler from Carmody . Anne wondered what he could have been saying to bring that look to Marilla 's face . `` What did Mr. Sadler want , Marilla ? ''
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