I vexed Cecil by flirting with another man '' -- was n't I coming on ! -- `` and he was jealous and angry . He went out West and never came back . I have never seen him since , and I do not even know if he is alive . But -- but -- I could never care for any other man . '' `` Oh , how interesting ! '' sighed Wilhelmina . `` I do so love sad love stories . But perhaps he will come back some day yet , Miss Holmes . '' `` Oh , no , never now , '' I said , shaking my head . `` He has forgotten all about me , I dare say . Or if he has n't , he has never forgiven me . '' Mary Gillespie 's Susan Jane announced tea at this moment , and I was thankful , for my imagination was giving out , and I did n't know what question those girls would ask next . But I felt already a change in the mental atmosphere surrounding me , and all through supper I was thrilled with a secret exultation . Repentant ? Ashamed ? Not a bit of it ! I 'd have done the same thing over again , and all I felt sorry for was that I had n't done it long ago . When I got home that night Nancy looked at me wonderingly , and said : `` You look like a girl to-night , Miss Charlotte . '' `` I feel like one , '' I said laughing ; and I ran to my room and did what I had never done before -- wrote a second poem in the same day .
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