I 've been so happy ... Oh , these past two years have just been delightful . '' `` Oh , yes , I know you 've been contented enough . But that is n't the question exactly . You ought to go on with your education . You 've saved enough to put you through one year at Redmond and the money the stock brought in will do for another year ... and there 's scholarships and things you might win . '' `` Yes , but I ca n't go , Marilla . Your eyes are better , of course ; but I ca n't leave you alone with the twins . They need so much looking after . '' `` I wo n't be alone with them . That 's what I meant to discuss with you . I had a long talk with Rachel tonight . Anne , she 's feeling dreadful bad over a good many things . She 's not left very well off . It seems they mortgaged the farm eight years ago to give the youngest boy a start when he went west ; and they 've never been able to pay much more than the interest since . And then of course Thomas ' illness has cost a good deal , one way or another . The farm will have to be sold and Rachel thinks there 'll be hardly anything left after the bills are settled . She says she 'll have to go and live with Eliza and it 's breaking her heart to think of leaving Avonlea . A woman of her age does n't make new friends and interests easy . And , Anne , as she talked about it the thought came to me that I would ask her to come and live with me , but I thought I ought to talk it over with you first before I said anything to her . If I had Rachel living with me you could go to college .
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