I suppose I had a soul then , Miss Oliver -- but I did n't know it . I know it now -- and that is worth a great deal -- worth all the suffering of the past two years . And still '' -- Rilla gave a little apologetic laugh , `` I do n't want to suffer any more -- not even for the sake of more soul growth . At the end of two more years I might look back and be thankful for the development they had brought me , too ; but I do n't want it now . '' `` We never do , '' said Miss Oliver . `` That is why we are not left to choose our own means and measure of development , I suppose . No matter how much we value what our lessons have brought us we do n't want to go on with the bitter schooling . Well , let us hope for the best , as Susan says ; things are really going well now and if Rumania lines up , the end may come with a suddenness that will surprise us all . '' Rumania did come in -- and Susan remarked approvingly that its king and queen were the finest looking royal couple she had seen pictures of . So the summer passed away . Early in September word came that the Canadians had been shifted to the Somme front and anxiety grew tenser and deeper . For the first time Mrs. Blythe 's spirit failed her a little , and as the days of suspense wore on the doctor began to look gravely at her , and veto this or that special effort in Red Cross work . `` Oh , let me work -- let me work , Gilbert , '' she entreated feverishly . `` While I 'm working I do n't think so much . If I 'm idle I imagine everything -- rest is only torture for me . My two boys are on the frightful Somme front -- and Shirley pores day and night over aviation literature and says nothing . But I see the purpose growing in his eyes . No , I can not rest -- do n't ask it of me , Gilbert . '' But the doctor was inexorable . `` I ca n't let you kill yourself , Anne-girl , '' he said .
`` When the boys come back I want a mother here XXXXX welcome them .
So as if in of over that to with worth