You 'll come with me and we 'll settle what 's to be done with you . After you 've finished the dishes go up-stairs and make your bed . '' Anne washed the dishes deftly enough , as Marilla who kept a sharp eye on the process , discerned . Later on she made her bed less successfully , for she had never learned the art of wrestling with a feather tick . But is was done somehow and smoothed down ; and then Marilla , to get rid of her , told her she might go out-of-doors and amuse herself until dinner time . Anne flew to the door , face alight , eyes glowing . On the very threshold she stopped short , wheeled about , came back and sat down by the table , light and glow as effectually blotted out as if some one had clapped an extinguisher on her . `` What 's the matter now ? '' demanded Marilla . `` I do n't dare go out , '' said Anne , in the tone of a martyr relinquishing all earthly joys . `` If I ca n't stay here there is no use in my loving Green Gables . And if I go out there and get acquainted with all those trees and flowers and the orchard and the brook I 'll not be able to help loving it . It 's hard enough now , so I wo n't make it any harder . I want to go out so much -- everything seems to be calling to me , ` Anne , Anne , come out to us . Anne , Anne , we want a playmate ' -- but it 's better not . There is no use in loving things if you have to be torn from them , is there ? And it 's so hard to keep from loving things , is n't it ? That was why I was so glad when I thought I was going to live here . I thought I 'd have so many things to love and nothing to hinder me . But that brief dream is over .
I am resigned XXXXX my fate now , so I do n't think I 'll go out for fear I 'll get unresigned again .
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