`` It took more courage for you to tackle that five pounds of new infant , Rilla-my-Rilla , than it would be for Jem to face a mile of Germans . I wish I had half your pluck , '' he said ruefully . Rilla was very proud of Walter 's approval ; nevertheless , she wrote gloomily in her diary that night : -- `` I wish I could like the baby a little bit . It would make things easier . But I do n't . I 've heard people say that when you took care of a baby you got fond of it -- but you do n't -- I do n't , anyway . And it 's a nuisance -- it interferes with everything . It just ties me down -- and now of all times when I 'm trying to get the Junior Reds started . And I could n't go to Alice Clow 's party last night and I was just dying to . Of course father is n't really unreasonable and I can always get an hour or two off in the evening when it 's necessary ; but I knew he would n't stand for my being out half the night and leaving Susan or mother to see to the baby . I suppose it was just as well , because the thing did take colic -- or something -- about one o'clock . It did n't kick or stiffen out , so I knew that , according to Morgan , it was n't crying for temper ; and it was n't hungry and no pins were sticking in it . It screamed till it was black in the face ; I got up and heated water and put the hot-water bottle on its stomach , and it howled worse than ever and drew up its poor wee thin legs . I was afraid I had burnt it but I do n't believe I did . Then I walked the floor with it although ` Morgan on Infants ' says that should never be done . I walked miles , and oh , I was so tired and discouraged and mad -- yes , I was . I could have shaken the creature if it had been big enough to shake , but it was n't . Father was out on a case , and mother had had a headache and Susan is squiffy because when she and Morgan differ I insist upon going by what Morgan says , so I was determined I would n't call her unless I had to . `` Finally , Miss Oliver came in . She has rooms with Nan now , not me , all because of the baby , and I am broken-hearted about it .
I miss our long talks after we went XXXXX bed , so much .
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