I would feel guilty if there were anything I was ashamed to tell you . I hope Miss Cornelia wo n't find out . Sometimes I feel as if those terrible , kind brown eyes of hers read my very soul . Oh , I wish this mist would never lift -- I wish I could just stay in it forever , hidden away from every living being . I do n't see how I can go on with life . This summer has been so full . I never was lonely for a moment . Before Owen came there used to be horrible moments -- when I had been with you and Gilbert -- and then had to leave you . You two would walk away together and I would walk away ALONE . After Owen came he was always there to walk home with me -- we would laugh and talk as you and Gilbert were doing -- there were no more lonely , envious moments for me . And NOW ! Oh , yes , I 've been a fool . Let 's have done talking about my folly . I 'll never bore you with it again . '' `` Here is Gilbert , and you are coming back with us , '' said Anne , who had no intention of leaving Leslie to wander alone on the sand-bar on such a night and in such a mood . `` There 's plenty of room in our boat for three , and we 'll tie the flat on behind . '' `` Oh , I suppose I must reconcile myself to being the odd one again , '' said poor Leslie with another bitter laugh . `` Forgive me , Anne -- that was hateful . I ought to be thankful -- and I AM -- that I have two good friends who are glad to count me in as a third . Do n't mind my hateful speeches .
I just seem XXXXX be one great pain all over and everything hurts me . ''
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