`` Everything is dear and beautiful , and almost the dearest and most beautiful thing is that I am getting acquainted with my mother , the mother I never knew before . She no longer seems dead to me . I feel that she lives and loves me , and I am learning to know her better every day . I have her room and her books and all her little girlish possessions . When I read her books , with their passages underlined by her hand , I feel as if she were speaking to me . She was very good and sweet , in spite of her one foolish , bitter mistake , and I want to be as much like her as I can . `` I said that this was almost the dearest and most beautiful thing . The very dearest and most beautiful is this -- God means something to me now . He means so much ! I remember that you said to me that he meant nothing to me because I had no human love in my heart to translate the divine . But I have now , and it has led me to Him . `` I am not going back to Taunton . I have sent in my resignation . I am going to stay home with Aunty and Uncle . It is so sweet to say home and know what it means . `` Aunty says you must come and spend all your next vacation with us . You see , I have lots of vacation plans now , even for a year ahead . After all , there is no need of the blue pills ! `` I feel like a new creature , made over from the heart and soul out . I look back with shame and contrition on the old Constance .
I want you XXXXX forget her and only remember your grateful friend , the new Constance . ''
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