Granny looked at her with a twinkle in her little , incredibly old eyes . `` Be off , '' she said . `` You 're in a hurry to go -- you 're as proud as any of the proud Sparhallows . But I bear you no grudge . I likes proud people -- when they have to come to me to get help . '' Janet found herself outside with a relieved heart in her bosom and her little box in her hand . For a moment she was tempted to throw it away . But no -- Randall would be so unhappy if he found out Avery did n't love him ! She would try the ointment at least -- she would try to forget about the toads and not let herself think how it was made -- something might come of it . * * * * * Janet hurried home along the shore , where a silvery wave broke in a little lovely silvery curve on the sand . She was so happy that her cheeks burned , and Randall Burnley , who was sitting on the edge of her flat when she reached the pond , looked at her with admiration . Janet dropped her box into her pocket stealthily when she saw him . What with her guilty secret , she hardly knew whether she was glad or not when he said he was going to row her up the pond . `` I saw you go down an hour ago and I 've been waiting ever since , '' he said . `` Where have you been ? '' `` Oh -- I just -- wanted a walk -- this lovely day , '' said Janet miserably . She felt that she was telling an untruth and this hurt her horribly -- especially when it was to Randall . This was what came of truck with witches -- you were led into falsehood and deception straightaway . Again Janet was tempted to drop Granny 's pill box into the depths of Burnley Pond -- and again she decided not to because she saw Randall Burnley 's deep-set , blue-grey eyes , that could look tender or sorrowful or passionate or whimsical as he willed , and thought how they would look when he found Avery did not love him . So Janet drowned the voice of conscience and was brazenly happy -- happy because Randall Burnley rowed her up the pond -- happy because he walked halfway home with her over the autumnal fields -- happy because he talked of the day and the sea and the golden weather , as only Randall could talk .
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