Then she began to worry over her refusal . Was it cowardly ? What would Jem think if he knew ? After two days of worry Rilla phoned to the president of the Patriotic Society that she would recite . She did , and lisped several times , and lay awake most of the night in an agony of wounded vanity . Then two nights after she recited again at Harbour Head . She had been at Lowbridge and over-harbour since then and had become resigned to an occasional lisp . Nobody except herself seemed to mind it . And she was so earnest and appealing and shining-eyed ! More than one recruit joined up because Rilla 's eyes seemed to look right at him when she passionately demanded how could men die better than fighting for the ashes of their fathers and the temples of their gods , or assured her audience with thrilling intensity that one crowded hour of glorious life was worth an age without a name . Even stolid Miller Douglas was so fired one night that it took Mary Vance a good hour to talk him back to sense . Mary Vance said bitterly that if Rilla Blythe felt as bad as she had pretended to feel over Jem 's going to the front she would n't be urging other girls ' brothers and friends to go . On this particular night Rilla was tired and cold and very thankful to creep into her warm nest and cuddle down between her blankets , though as usual with a sorrowful wonder how Jem and Jerry were faring . She was just getting warm and drowsy when Jims suddenly began to cry -- and kept on crying . Rilla curled herself up in her bed and determined she would let him cry . She had Morgan behind her for justification . Jims was warm , physically comfortable -- his cry was n't the cry of pain -- and had his little tummy as full as was good for him . Under such circumstances it would be simply spoiling him to fuss over him , and she was n't going to do it . He could cry until he got good and tired and ready to go to sleep again . Then Rilla 's imagination began to torment her .
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