I 'm not glad or sorry -- or ANYTHING . I feel as if something had been torn suddenly out of my life and left a terrible hole . I feel as if I could n't be I -- as if I must have changed into somebody else and could n't get used to it . It gives me a horrible lonely , dazed , helpless feeling . It 's good to see you again -- it seems as if you were a sort of anchor for my drifting soul . Oh , Anne , I dread it all -- the gossip and wonderment and questioning . When I think of that , I wish that I need not have come home at all . Dr. Dave was at the station when I came off the train -- he brought me home . Poor old man , he feels very badly because he told me years ago that nothing could be done for Dick . ' I honestly thought so , Leslie , ' he said to me today . ` But I should have told you not to depend on my opinion -- I should have told you to go to a specialist . If I had , you would have been saved many bitter years , and poor George Moore many wasted ones . I blame myself very much , Leslie . ' I told him not to do that -- he had done what he thought right . He has always been so kind to me -- I could n't bear to see him worrying over it . '' `` And Dick -- George , I mean ? Is his memory fully restored ? '' `` Practically . Of course , there are a great many details he ca n't recall yet -- but he remembers more and more every day . He went out for a walk on the evening after Dick was buried .
He had Dick 's money and watch XXXXX him ; he meant to bring them home to me , along with my letter .
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