You find out how many friends you have . Why , even Superintendent Bell came to see me , and he 's really a very fine man . Not a kindred spirit , of course ; but still I like him and I 'm awfully sorry I ever criticized his prayers . I believe now he really does mean them , only he has got into the habit of saying them as if he did n't . He could get over that if he 'd take a little trouble . I gave him a good broad hint . I told him how hard I tried to make my own little private prayers interesting . He told me all about the time he broke his ankle when he was a boy . It does seem so strange to think of Superintendent Bell ever being a boy . Even my imagination has its limits , for I ca n't imagine THAT . When I try to imagine him as a boy I see him with gray whiskers and spectacles , just as he looks in Sunday school , only small . Now , it 's so easy to imagine Mrs. Allan as a little girl . Mrs. Allan has been to see me fourteen times . Is n't that something to be proud of , Marilla ? When a minister 's wife has so many claims on her time ! She is such a cheerful person to have visit you , too . She never tells you it 's your own fault and she hopes you 'll be a better girl on account of it . Mrs. Lynde always told me that when she came to see me ; and she said it in a kind of way that made me feel she might hope I 'd be a better girl but did n't really believe I would . Even Josie Pye came to see me . I received her as politely as I could , because I think she was sorry she dared me to walk a ridgepole .
If I had been killed she would had to carry a dark burden XXXXX remorse all her life .
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