If I were sure that it would -- if I were sure that no change would ever come to me , I would be perfectly content . It is the fear that a change will come that makes me wretched . Oh ! '' She shuddered and put her hands over her eyes . Alan thought she must mean that when her father died she would be alone in the world . He wanted to comfort her -- reassure her -- but he did not know how . One evening when he went to Four Winds he found the door open and , seeing the Captain in the living room , he stepped in unannounced . Captain Anthony was sitting by the table , his head in his hands ; at Alan 's entrance he turned upon him a haggard face , blackened by a furious scowl beneath which blazed eyes full of malevolence . `` What do you want here ? '' he said , following up the demand with a string of vile oaths . Before Alan could summon his scattered wits , Lynde glided in with a white , appealing face . Wordlessly she grasped Alan 's arm , drew him out , and shut the door . `` Oh , I 've been watching for you , '' she said breathlessly . `` I was afraid you might come tonight -- but I missed you . '' `` But your father ? '' said Alan in amazement . `` How have I angered him ? '' `` Hush . Come into the garden . I will explain there . ''
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