You have encouraged Gus Sinclair markedly right along , and now you throw him over like this . I never dreamed that you were capable of such unwomanly behaviour . '' `` That 's a hard word , Alicia , '' I protested feebly . She dealt me a withering glance . `` It does not begin to be as hard as your shameful conduct merits . To think of losing a fortune like that for the sake of sentimental folly ! I did n't think you were such a consummate fool . '' `` I suppose you absorbed all the sense of our family , '' I said drearily . `` There now , Alicia , do leave me alone . I 'm down in the very depths already . '' `` What do you mean to do now ? '' said Alicia scornfully . `` Go back to Valleyfield and marry that starving country doctor of yours , I suppose ? '' I flared up then ; Alicia might abuse me all she liked , but I was n't going to hear a word against Jack . `` Yes , I will , if he 'll have me , '' I said , and I marched out of the room and upstairs , with my head very high . Of course I decided to leave Montreal as soon as I could . But I could n't get away within a week , and it was a very unpleasant one . Alicia treated me with icy indifference , and I knew I should never be reinstated in her good graces . To my surprise , Roger took my part . `` Let the girl alone , '' he told Alicia .
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