It 's so dreadful humiliating that John wo n't ask me . And WHY wo n't he ? Seems to me if I only knew his reason I would n't mind it so much . '' `` Perhaps his mother does n't want him to marry anybody , '' suggested Anne . `` Oh , she does . She 's told me time and again that she 'd love to see John settled before her time comes . She 's always giving him hints -- you heard her yourself the other day . I thought I 'd ha ' gone through the floor . '' `` It 's beyond me , '' said Anne helplessly . She thought of Ludovic Speed . But the cases were not parallel . John Douglas was not a man of Ludovic 's type . `` You should show more spirit , Janet , '' she went on resolutely . `` Why did n't you send him about his business long ago ? '' `` I could n't , '' said poor Janet pathetically . `` You see , Anne , I 've always been awful fond of John . He might just as well keep coming as not , for there was never anybody else I 'd want , so it did n't matter . '' `` But it might have made him speak out like a man , '' urged Anne . Janet shook her head . `` No , I guess not .
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