He is his mother 's only son and how dreadful she would feel if he went . Only sons should never think of going ! '' Walter came wandering through the valley as Rilla sat there , with his head bent and his hands clasped behind him . When he saw Rilla he turned abruptly away ; then as abruptly he turned and came back to her . `` Rilla-my-Rilla , what are you thinking of ? '' `` Everything is so changed , Walter , '' said Rilla wistfully . `` Even you -- you 're changed . A week ago we were all so happy -- and -- and -- now I just ca n't find myself at all . I 'm lost . '' Walter sat down on a neighbouring stone and took Rilla 's little appealing hand . `` I 'm afraid our old world has come to an end , Rilla . We 've got to face that fact . '' `` It 's so terrible to think of Jem , '' pleaded Rilla . `` Sometimes I forget for a little while what it really means and feel excited and proud -- and then it comes over me again like a cold wind . '' `` I envy Jem ! '' said Walter moodily . `` Envy Jem ! Oh , Walter you -- you do n't want to go too . '' `` No , '' said Walter , gazing straight before him down the emerald vistas of the valley , `` no , I do n't want to go . That 's just the trouble .
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