`` I do n't think you any of those things . Come , dear , let 's just talk it over sensibly , as we might talk over any other of the great crises of life . You 've been brooding over it and let yourself drift into a morbid view of it . You know you have a little tendency to do that about everything that goes wrong , and you promised me that you would fight against it . '' `` But -- oh , it 's so -- so shameful , '' murmured Leslie . `` To love him -- unsought -- and when I 'm not free to love anybody . '' `` There 's nothing shameful about it . But I 'm very sorry that you have learned to care for Owen , because , as things are , it will only make you more unhappy . '' `` I did n't LEARN to care , '' said Leslie , walking on and speaking passionately . `` If it had been like that I could have prevented it . I never dreamed of such a thing until that day , a week ago , when he told me he had finished his book and must soon go away . Then -- then I knew . I felt as if someone had struck me a terrible blow . I did n't say anything -- I could n't speak -- but I do n't know what I looked like . I 'm so afraid my face betrayed me . Oh , I would die of shame if I thought he knew -- or suspected . '' Anne was miserably silent , hampered by her deductions from her conversation with Owen . Leslie went on feverishly , as if she found relief in speech . `` I was so happy all this summer , Anne -- happier than I ever was in my life . I thought it was because everything had been made clear between you and me , and that it was our friendship which made life seem so beautiful and full once more .
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