I can not -- must not go . '' `` Lynde will break her heart then , '' said Emily in a tone of despair . `` I think not . She is too strong and fine for that . Help her all you can with sympathy but do n't torment her with any questions . You may tell her if you like that I advise her to confide the whole story to you , but if she can not do n't tease her to . Be very gentle with her . '' `` You do n't need to tell me that . I 'd rather die than hurt her . I came here full of anger against you -- but I see now you are not to blame . You are suffering too -- your face tells that . All the same , I wish you 'd never set foot in Four Winds . She was n't happy before but she was n't so miserable as she is now . Oh , I know Anthony is at the bottom of it all in some way but I wo n't ask you any more questions since you do n't feel free to answer them . But are you sure that nothing can be done to clear up the trouble ? '' `` Too sure , '' said Alan 's white lips . * * * * * The autumn dragged away . Alan found out how much a man may suffer and yet go on living and working . As for that , his work was all that made life possible for him now and he flung himself into it with feverish energy , growing so thin and hollow-eyed over it that even Elder Trewin remonstrated and suggested a vacation -- a suggestion at which Alan merely smiled . A vacation which would take him away from Lynde 's neighbourhood -- the thought was not to be entertained .
He never saw Lynde , for he never went XXXXX any part of the shore now ; yet he hungered constantly for the sight of her , the sound of her voice , the glance of her luminous eyes .
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