Then I pulled my hands away and burst into hysterical , undignified tears . `` I beg your pardon , '' said Mr. Sinclair . `` I did not mean to startle you . Have I been too abrupt ? Surely you must have known -- you must have expected -- '' `` Yes -- yes -- I knew , '' I cried miserably , `` and I intended right up to this very minute to marry you . I 'm so sorry -- but I ca n't -- I ca n't . '' `` I do n't understand , '' he said in a bewildered tone . `` If you expected it , then why -- why -- do n't you care for me ? '' `` No , that 's just it , '' I sobbed . `` I do n't love you at all -- and I do love somebody else . But he is poor , and I hate poverty . So I refused him , and I meant to marry you just because you are rich . '' Such a pained look came over his face . `` I did not think this of you , '' he said in a low tone . `` Oh , I know I have acted shamefully , '' I said . `` You ca n't think any worse of me than I do of myself . How you must despise me ! '' `` No , '' he said , with a grim smile , `` if I did it would be easier for me . I might not love you then . Do n't distress yourself , Katherine .
I do not deny that I feel greatly hurt and disappointed , but I am glad you have been true XXXXX yourself at last .
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