When Miles was at liberty to seek me , he found me , to all appearances , quite absorbed in my companion and oblivious of his approach . He turned on his heel and went away , nor did he come near me the rest of the evening . `` I went home angry enough , but so miserable and repentant that if Miles had been his usual patient self when he called the following evening I would have begged his forgiveness . But I had gone too far ; his mother was shocked by my gaucherie , and he was humiliated and justly exasperated . We had a short , bitter quarrel . I said a great many foolish , unpardonable things , and finally I threw his ring at him . He gave me a startled look then , in which there was something of contempt , and went away without another word . `` After my anger had passed , I was wretchedly unhappy . I realized how unworthily I had acted , how deeply I loved Miles , and how lonely and empty my life would be without him . But he did not come back , and soon after I learned he had gone away -- whither no one knew , but it was supposed abroad . Well , I buried my hopes and tears in secret and went on with my life as people have to do -- a life in which I have learned to think , and which , I hope , has made me nobler and better . `` This summer I came here . I heard much about a certain mysterious stranger known as ` Young Si ' who was fishing mackerel at this shore . I was very curious . The story sounded romantic , and one evening I went down to see him . I met him face to face and , Helen , it was Miles Lesley ! `` For one minute earth , sky and sea reeled around me . The next , I remembered all , and turned and walked away . He did not follow . `` You may be sure that I now religiously avoid that part of the shore .
We have never met since , and he has made no effort XXXXX see me .
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