I 'd studied until the world seemed azure . So I came up here and dug these out of my trunk . They are so drenched in tears and tragedy that they are excruciatingly funny . '' `` I 'm blue and discouraged myself , '' said Stella , throwing herself on the couch . `` Nothing seems worthwhile . My very thoughts are old . I 've thought them all before . What is the use of living after all , Anne ? '' `` Honey , it 's just brain fag that makes us feel that way , and the weather . A pouring rainy night like this , coming after a hard day 's grind , would squelch any one but a Mark Tapley . You know it IS worthwhile to live . '' `` Oh , I suppose so . But I ca n't prove it to myself just now . '' `` Just think of all the great and noble souls who have lived and worked in the world , '' said Anne dreamily . `` Is n't it worthwhile to come after them and inherit what they won and taught ? Is n't it worthwhile to think we can share their inspiration ? And then , all the great souls that will come in the future ? Is n't it worthwhile to work a little and prepare the way for them -- make just one step in their path easier ? '' `` Oh , my mind agrees with you , Anne . But my soul remains doleful and uninspired .
I 'm always grubby and dingy XXXXX rainy nights . ''
So after for in like of on to until with