`` I was crushed in an agony of shame and despair , '' continued Malcolm . `` I believed my career was ruined . I was bent on casting all my ambitions behind me , and going west to some place where nobody knew me or my disgrace . But there was one person who believed in my innocence , who said to me , ` You shall not give up -- you shall not behave as if you were guilty . You are innocent , and in time your innocence will be proved . Meanwhile show yourself a man . You have nearly enough to pay your way next winter at the Academy . I have a little I can give to help you out . Do n't give in -- never give in when you have done no wrong . ' `` I listened and took his advice . I went to the Academy . My story was there as soon as I was , and I found myself sneered at and shunned . Many a time I would have given up in despair , had it not been for the encouragement of my counselor . He furnished the backbone for me . I was determined that his belief in me should be justified . I studied hard and came out at the head of my class . Then there seemed to be no chance of my earning any more money that summer . But a farmer at Newbridge , who cared nothing about the character of his help , if he could get the work out of them , offered to hire me . The prospect was distasteful but , urged by the man who believed in me , I took the place and endured the hardships . Another winter of lonely work passed at the Academy .
I won the Farrell Scholarship the last year it was offered , and that meant an Arts course XXXXX me .
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