But then Sara does not understand . Oh , I am so happy ! It almost frightens me -- I do n't see how anything so wonderful can last . But it will last , for nothing can ever separate Walter and me , and as long as we are together and love each other this great happiness will be mine . Oh , I want to be so good and noble for his sake . I want to make life `` one grand sweet song . '' I have gone about the house today feeling like a woman consecrated and set apart from other women by Walter 's love . Nothing could spoil it , not even when Sara scolded me for letting the preserves burn in the kettle because I forgot to stir them while I was planning out our life together . Sara said she really did not know what would happen to me some day if I was so careless and forgetful . But then , Sara does not understand . August Twentieth . It is all over . Life is ended for me and I do not know how I can face the desolate future . Walter and I have quarrelled and our engagement is broken . He is gone and my heart is breaking . I hardly know how it began . I 'm sure I never meant to flirt with Jack Ray . I never did flirt with him either , in spite of Walter 's unmanly accusations . But Walter has been jealous of Jack all summer , although he knew perfectly well he need n't be , and two nights ago at the Morley dance poor Jack seemed so dull and unhappy that I tried to cheer him up a little and be kind to him . I danced with him three times and sat out another dance just to talk with him in a real sisterly fashion .
But Walter was furious and last night when he came up he said horrid things -- things no girl of any spirit could endure , and things he could never have said XXXXX me if he had really cared one bit for me .
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