I 'd have married Alec or Alonzo if I had n't met Jo . Oh , Anne , things are so mixed-up in real life . They are n't clear-cut and trimmed off , as they are in novels . '' `` I hope that NO one will ever again ask me to marry him as long as I live , '' sobbed poor Anne , devoutly believing that she meant it . Chapter XXXIX Deals with Weddings Anne felt that life partook of the nature of an anticlimax during the first few weeks after her return to Green Gables . She missed the merry comradeship of Patty 's Place . She had dreamed some brilliant dreams during the past winter and now they lay in the dust around her . In her present mood of self-disgust , she could not immediately begin dreaming again . And she discovered that , while solitude with dreams is glorious , solitude without them has few charms . She had not seen Roy again after their painful parting in the park pavilion ; but Dorothy came to see her before she left Kingsport . `` I 'm awfully sorry you wo n't marry Roy , '' she said . `` I did want you for a sister . But you are quite right . He would bore you to death . I love him , and he is a dear sweet boy , but really he is n't a bit interesting . He looks as if he ought to be , but he is n't . '' `` This wo n't spoil OUR friendship , will it , Dorothy ? '' Anne had asked wistfully . `` No , indeed . You 're too good to lose .
If I ca n't have you XXXXX a sister I mean to keep you as a chum anyway .
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