My mother might have had relatives somewhere , but I never heard of any . I do n't even know where her home was . Father never would talk of her . He died two years ago , and since then I 've been absolutely alone . '' `` Oh , you poor girl , '' said Miss Channing softly . `` I want friends , '' went on Constance , seeming to take a pleasure in open confession now that her tongue was loosed . `` I 've always just longed for somebody belonging to me to love . I do n't love anybody , Miss Channing , and when a girl is in that state , she is all wrong . She gets hard and bitter and resentful -- I have , anyway . I struggled against it at first , but it has been too much for me . It poisons everything . There is nobody to care anything about me , whether I live or die . '' `` Oh , yes , there is One , '' said Miss Channing gently . `` God cares , Constance . '' Constance gave a disagreeable little laugh . `` That sounds like Miss Williams -- she is so religious . God does n't mean anything to me , Miss Channing . I 've just the same resentful feeling toward him that I have for all the world , if he exists at all . There , I 've shocked you in good earnest now . You should have left me alone , Miss Channing . ''
`` God means nothing to you because you 've never had him translated XXXXX you through human love , Constance , '' said Miss Channing seriously .
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