Her quick anger was gone and she would have given much to have been able to seek relief in tears . So all her boasts had come to this ... she had actually whipped one of her pupils . How Jane would triumph ! And how Mr. Harrison would chuckle ! But worse than this , bitterest thought of all , she had lost her last chance of winning Anthony Pye . Never would he like her now . Anne , by what somebody has called `` a Herculaneum effort , '' kept back her tears until she got home that night . Then she shut herself in the east gable room and wept all her shame and remorse and disappointment into her pillows ... wept so long that Marilla grew alarmed , invaded the room , and insisted on knowing what the trouble was . `` The trouble is , I 've got things the matter with my conscience , '' sobbed Anne . `` Oh , this has been such a Jonah day , Marilla . I 'm so ashamed of myself . I lost my temper and whipped Anthony Pye . '' `` I 'm glad to hear it , '' said Marilla with decision . `` It 's what you should have done long ago . '' `` Oh , no , no , Marilla . And I do n't see how I can ever look those children in the face again . I feel that I have humiliated myself to the very dust . You do n't know how cross and hateful and horrid I was . I ca n't forget the expression in Paul Irving 's eyes ... he looked so surprised and disappointed . Oh , Marilla , I HAVE tried so hard to be patient and to win Anthony 's liking ... and now it has all gone for nothing . ''
Marilla passed her hard work-worn hand over the girl 's glossy , tumbled hair XXXXX a wonderful tenderness .
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