`` Everybody knows it , '' said Ruby bitterly . `` I know it -- I 've known it all summer , though I would n't give in . And , oh , Anne '' -- she reached out and caught Anne 's hand pleadingly , impulsively -- `` I do n't want to die . I 'm AFRAID to die . '' `` Why should you be afraid , Ruby ? '' asked Anne quietly . `` Because -- because -- oh , I 'm not afraid but that I 'll go to heaven , Anne . I 'm a church member . But -- it 'll be all so different . I think -- and think -- and I get so frightened -- and -- and -- homesick . Heaven must be very beautiful , of course , the Bible says so -- but , Anne , IT WO N'T BE WHAT I 'VE BEEN USED TO . '' Through Anne 's mind drifted an intrusive recollection of a funny story she had heard Philippa Gordon tell -- the story of some old man who had said very much the same thing about the world to come . It had sounded funny then -- she remembered how she and Priscilla had laughed over it . But it did not seem in the least humorous now , coming from Ruby 's pale , trembling lips . It was sad , tragic -- and true ! Heaven could not be what Ruby had been used to . There had been nothing in her gay , frivolous life , her shallow ideals and aspirations , to fit her for that great change , or make the life to come seem to her anything but alien and unreal and undesirable . Anne wondered helplessly what she could say that would help her . Could she say anything ? `` I think , Ruby , '' she began hesitatingly -- for it was difficult for Anne to speak to any one of the deepest thoughts of her heart , or the new ideas that had vaguely begun to shape themselves in her mind , concerning the great mysteries of life here and hereafter , superseding her old childish conceptions , and it was hardest of all to speak of them to such as Ruby Gillis -- `` I think , perhaps , we have very mistaken ideas about heaven -- what it is and what it holds for us .
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