He has got a lieutenant 's commission and expects to go overseas in midsummer , so he wrote me . There was n't much else in the letter -- he seemed to be thinking of nothing but going overseas . I shall not see him again before he goes -- perhaps I will never see him again . Sometimes I ask myself if that evening at Four Winds was all a dream . It might as well be -- it seems as if it happened in another life lived years ago -- and everybody has forgotten it but me . `` Walter and Nan and Di came home last night from Redmond . When Walter stepped off the train Dog Monday rushed to meet him , frantic with joy . I suppose he thought Jem would be there , too . After the first moment , he paid no attention to Walter and his pats , but just stood there , wagging his tail nervously and looking past Walter at the other people coming out , with eyes that made me choke up , for I could n't help thinking that , for all we knew , Monday might never see Jem come off that train again . Then , when all the people were out , Monday looked up at Walter , gave his hand a little lick as if to say , ' I know it is n't your fault he did n't come -- excuse me for feeling disappointed , ' and then he trotted back to his shed , with that funny little sidelong waggle of his that always makes it seem that his hind legs are travelling directly away from the point at which his forelegs are aiming . `` We tried to coax him home with us -- Di even got down and kissed him between the eyes and said , ` Monday , old duck , wo n't you come up with us just for the evening ? ' And Monday said -- he did ! -- ' I am very sorry but I ca n't . I 've got a date to meet Jem here , you know , and there 's a train goes through at eight . ' `` It 's lovely to have Walter back again though he seems quiet and sad , just as he was at Christmas . But I 'm going to love him hard and cheer him up and make him laugh as he used to . It seems to me that every day of my life Walter means more to me . `` The other evening Susan happened to say that the mayflowers were out in Rainbow Valley . I chanced to be looking at mother when Susan spoke . Her face changed and she gave a queer little choked cry .
Most of the time mother is so spunky and gay you would never guess what she feels inside ; but now and then some little thing is too much XXXXX her and we see under the surface .
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