And I do n't see how I can ever look those children in the face again . I feel that I have humiliated myself to the very dust . You do n't know how cross and hateful and horrid I was . I ca n't forget the expression in Paul Irving 's eyes ... he looked so surprised and disappointed . Oh , Marilla , I HAVE tried so hard to be patient and to win Anthony 's liking ... and now it has all gone for nothing . '' Marilla passed her hard work-worn hand over the girl 's glossy , tumbled hair with a wonderful tenderness . When Anne 's sobs grew quieter she said , very gently for her , `` You take things too much to heart , Anne . We all make mistakes ... but people forget them . And Jonah days come to everybody . As for Anthony Pye , why need you care if he does dislike you ? He is the only one . '' `` I ca n't help it . I want everybody to love me and it hurts me so when anybody does n't . And Anthony never will now . Oh , I just made an idiot of myself today , Marilla . I 'll tell you the whole story . '' Marilla listened to the whole story , and if she smiled at certain parts of it Anne never knew . When the tale was ended she said briskly , `` Well , never mind . This day 's done and there 's a new one coming tomorrow , with no mistakes in it yet , as you used to say yourself . Just come downstairs and have your supper .
You 'll see XXXXX a good cup of tea and those plum puffs I made today wo n't hearten you up . ''
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