Paul loves me ! He told me so to-night as we walked by the harbor and watched the sunset , and he asked me to be his wife . I have cared for him ever since I met him , but I am afraid I am not clever and well-educated enough for a wife for Paul . Because , of course , I 'm only an ignorant little country girl and have lived all my life on a farm . Why , my hands are quite rough yet from the work I 've done . But Paul just laughed when I said so , and took my hands and kissed them . Then he looked into my eyes and laughed again , because I could n't hide from him how much I loved him . We are to be married next spring and Paul says he will take me to Europe . That will be very nice , but nothing matters so long as I am with him . Paul 's people are very wealthy and his mother and sisters are very fashionable . I am frightened of them , but I did not tell Paul so because I think it would hurt him and oh , I would n't do that for the world . There is nothing I would n't suffer if it would do him any good . I never thought any one could feel so . I used to think if I loved anybody I would want him to do everything for me and wait on me as if I were a princess . But that is not the way at all . Love makes you very humble and you want to do everything yourself for the one you love . August 10 . Paul went home to-day . Oh , it is so terrible ! I do n't know how I can bear to live even for a little while without him .
But this is silly of me , because I know he has to go and he will write often and come XXXXX me often .
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