When Mrs. Rachel Lynde come next day , collecting for foreign missions , I give her that ten dollar bill . She never knowed the difference , and sent it away with the rest . But I knew I 'd done a mean and sinful thing . I could n't drive it out of my thoughts . A few days afterwards I went down to Mrs. Rachel 's and give her ten good dollars for the fund . I told her I had come to the conclusion I ought to give more than ten dollars , out of my abundance , to the Lord . That was a lie . Mrs. Lynde thought I was a generous man , and I felt ashamed to look her in the face . But I 'd done what I could to right the wrong , and I thought it would be all right . But it was n't . I 've never known a minute 's peace of mind or conscience since . I tried to cheat the Lord , and then tried to patch it up by doing something that redounded to my worldly credit . When these meetings begun , and everybody expected me to testify , I could n't do it . It would have seemed like blasphemy . And I could n't endure the thought of telling what I 'd done , either . I argued it all out a thousand times that I had n't done any real harm after all , but it was no use . I 've been so wrapped up in my own brooding and misery that I did n't realize I was inflicting suffering on those dear to me by my conduct , and , maybe , holding some of them back from the paths of salvation . But my eyes have been opened to this to-night , and the Lord has given me strength to confess my sin and glorify His holy name . '' The broken tones ceased , and David Bell sat down , wiping the great drops of perspiration from his brow . To a man of his training , and cast of thought , no ordeal could be more terrible than that through which he had just passed .
But underneath the turmoil of his emotion he felt a great calm and peace , threaded with the exultation XXXXX a hard-won spiritual victory .
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