I thought he maybe would speak out then , seeing as I was left alone in the world . He was real kind and feeling , and did everything he could for me , but he never said marry . And that 's the way it has been going on ever since . People blame ME for it . They say I wo n't marry him because his mother is so sickly and I do n't want the bother of waiting on her . Why , I 'd LOVE to wait on John 's mother ! But I let them think so . I 'd rather they 'd blame me than pity me ! It 's so dreadful humiliating that John wo n't ask me . And WHY wo n't he ? Seems to me if I only knew his reason I would n't mind it so much . '' `` Perhaps his mother does n't want him to marry anybody , '' suggested Anne . `` Oh , she does . She 's told me time and again that she 'd love to see John settled before her time comes . She 's always giving him hints -- you heard her yourself the other day . I thought I 'd ha ' gone through the floor . '' `` It 's beyond me , '' said Anne helplessly . She thought of Ludovic Speed . But the cases were not parallel . John Douglas was not a man of Ludovic 's type .
`` You should show more spirit , Janet , '' she went XXXXX resolutely .
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