The child she had learned to love had vanished somehow and here was this tall , serious-eyed girl of fifteen , with the thoughtful brows and the proudly poised little head , in her place . Marilla loved the girl as much as she had loved the child , but she was conscious of a queer sorrowful sense of loss . And that night , when Anne had gone to prayer meeting with Diana , Marilla sat alone in the wintry twilight and indulged in the weakness of a cry . Matthew , coming in with a lantern , caught her at it and gazed at her in such consternation that Marilla had to laugh through her tears . `` I was thinking about Anne , '' she explained . `` She 's got to be such a big girl -- and she 'll probably be away from us next winter . I 'll miss her terrible . '' `` She 'll be able to come home often , '' comforted Matthew , to whom Anne was as yet and always would be the little , eager girl he had brought home from Bright River on that June evening four years before . `` The branch railroad will be built to Carmody by that time . '' `` It wo n't be the same thing as having her here all the time , '' sighed Marilla gloomily , determined to enjoy her luxury of grief uncomforted . `` But there -- men ca n't understand these things ! '' There were other changes in Anne no less real than the physical change . For one thing , she became much quieter . Perhaps she thought all the more and dreamed as much as ever , but she certainly talked less . Marilla noticed and commented on this also . `` You do n't chatter half as much as you used to , Anne , nor use half as many big words . What has come over you ? '' Anne colored and laughed a little , as she dropped her book and looked dreamily out of the window , where big fat red buds were bursting out on the creeper in response to the lure of the spring sunshine . `` I do n't know -- I do n't want to talk as much , '' she said , denting her chin thoughtfully with her forefinger . `` It 's nicer to think dear , pretty thoughts and keep them in one 's heart , like treasures .
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