I 'm so glad I never liked Mrs. Burnett . I wonder if it is true that Sidney did care for that horrid woman ... of course she is horrid ! Did n't she marry an old man for his money ? ... and cares for her still . It is no business of mine , of course , and it does n't matter to me at all . But I rather hope he does n't ... because it would spoil everything if he got married . He would n't have time to be chums with me then . I do n't know why I feel so dull tonight . Writing in this diary does n't seem to have helped me as much as I thought it would , either . I dare say it 's the weather . It must be the weather . It is a wet , windy night and the rain is thudding against the window . I hate rainy nights . I wonder if Mrs. Rennie is really as handsome as Mrs. Burnett says . I wonder how old she is . I wonder if she ever cared for Sidney ... no , she did n't . No woman who cared for Sidney could ever have thrown him over for an old moneybag . I wonder if I shall like her . No , I wo n't . I 'm sure I sha n't like her .
My head is aching and I 'm going XXXXX bed .
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