She did not know it until , a few days later , Shirley presented himself in her kitchen in his aviation uniform . Susan did n't make half the fuss she had made when Jem and Walter had gone . She said stonily , `` So they 're going to take you , too . '' `` Take me ? No . I 'm going , Susan -- got to . '' Susan sat down by the table , folded her knotted old hands , that had grown warped and twisted working for the Ingleside children to still their shaking , and said : `` Yes , you must go . I did not see once why such things must be , but I can see now . '' `` You 're a brick , Susan , '' said Shirley . He was relieved that she took it so coolly -- he had been a little afraid , with a boy 's horror of `` a scene . '' He went out whistling gaily ; but half an hour later , when pale Anne Blythe came in , Susan was still sitting there . `` Mrs. Dr. dear , '' said Susan , making an admission she would once have died rather than make , `` I feel very old . Jem and Walter were yours but Shirley is mine . And I can not bear to think of him flying -- his machine crashing down -- the life crushed out of his body -- the dear little body I nursed and cuddled when he was a wee baby . '' `` Susan -- do n't , '' cried Anne . `` Oh , Mrs. Dr. dear , I beg your pardon . I ought not to have said anything like that out loud . I sometimes forget that I resolved to be a heroine . This -- this has shaken me a little . But I will not forget myself again .
Only if things do not go as smoothly in the kitchen for a few days I hope you will make due allowance XXXXX me .
So by for in of out than that until with