I said that it was only because he was rich that I was tempted to marry him . I thought would my heart would break while I was writing those dreadful falsehoods . But it was for his sake , because I must not spoil his life . His mother told me I would be a millstone around his neck . I love Paul so much that I would do anything rather than be that . It would be easy to die for him , but I do n't see how I can go on living . I think my letter will convince Paul . I suppose it convinced Paul , because there was no further entry in the little brown book . When we had finished it the tears were running down both our faces . `` Oh , poor , dear Miss Emily , '' sobbed Diana . `` I 'm so sorry I ever thought her funny and meddlesome . '' `` She was good and strong and brave , '' I said . `` I could never have been as unselfish as she was . '' I thought of Whittier 's lines , `` The outward , wayward life we see The hidden springs we may not know . '' At the back of the little brown book we found a faded water-color sketch of a young girl -- such a slim , pretty little thing , with big blue eyes and lovely , long , rippling golden hair . Paul Osborne 's name was written in faded ink across the corner . We put everything back in the box . Then we sat for a long time by my window in silence and thought of many things , until the rainy twilight came down and blotted out the world . IX . SARA 'S WAY The warm June sunshine was coming down through the trees , white with the virginal bloom of apple-blossoms , and through the shining panes , making a tremulous mosaic upon Mrs. Eben Andrews ' spotless kitchen floor .
Through the open door , a wind , fragrant from long wanderings over orchards and clover meadows , drifted XXXXX , and , from the window , Mrs. Eben and her guest could look down over a long , misty valley sloping to a sparkling sea .
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