From the time he came home I felt only pity -- a pity that hurt and wrung me . I supposed then that it was just because his accident had made him so helpless and changed . But now I believe it was because there was really a different personality there . Carlo knew it , Anne -- I know now that Carlo knew it . I always thought it strange that Carlo should n't have known Dick . Dogs are usually so faithful . But HE knew it was not his master who had come back , although none of the rest of us did . I had never seen George Moore , you know . I remember now that Dick once mentioned casually that he had a cousin in Nova Scotia who looked as much like him as a twin ; but the thing had gone out of my memory , and in any case I would never have thought it of any importance . You see , it never occurred to me to question Dick 's identity . Any change in him seemed to me just the result of the accident . `` Oh , Anne , that night in April when Gilbert told me he thought Dick might be cured ! I can never forget it . It seemed to me that I had once been a prisoner in a hideous cage of torture , and then the door had been opened and I could get out . I was still chained to the cage but I was not in it . And that night I felt that a merciless hand was drawing me back into the cage -- back to a torture even more terrible than it had once been . I did n't blame Gilbert . I felt he was right . And he had been very good -- he said that if , in view of the expense and uncertainty of the operation , I should decide not to risk it , he would not blame me in the least . But I knew how I ought to decide -- and I could n't face it .
All night I walked the floor XXXXX a mad woman , trying to compel myself to face it .
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