Yet feel remorseful I did -- and do . If Fred Arnold never comes back from overseas , this will haunt me all my life . `` Then Fred said if he could n't take my love with him to the trenches at least he wanted to feel that he had my friendship , and would I kiss him just once in good-bye before he went -- perhaps for ever ? `` I do n't know how I could ever had imagined that love affairs were delightful , interesting things . They are horrible . I could n't even give poor heartbroken Fred one little kiss , because of my promise to Ken . It seemed so brutal . I had to tell Fred that of course he would have my friendship , but that I could n't kiss him because I had promised somebody else I would n't . `` He said , ` It is -- is it -- Ken Ford ? ' `` I nodded . It seemed dreadful to have to tell it -- it was such a sacred little secret just between me and Ken . `` When Fred went away I came up here to my room and cried so long and so bitterly that mother came up and insisted on knowing what was the matter . I told her . She listened to my tale with an expression that clearly said , ` Can it be possible that anyone has been wanting to marry this baby ? ' But she was so nice and understanding and sympathetic , oh , just so race-of-Josephy -- that I felt indescribably comforted . Mothers are the dearest things . '' ` But oh , mother , ' I sobbed , ` he wanted me to kiss him good-bye -- and I could n't -- and that hurt me worse than all the rest . ' '' ` Well , why did n't you kiss him ? ' asked mother coolly . ` Considering the circumstances , I think you might have . ' ''
` But I could n't , mother -- I promised Ken when he went away XXXXX I would n't kiss anybody else until he came back . '
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