And yet I ca n't help hoping that since they 've come this far unhurt they 'll come through . Oh , Miss Oliver , what would it be like not to wake up in the morning feeling afraid of the news the day would bring ? I ca n't picture such a state of things somehow . And two years ago this morning I woke wondering what delightful gift the new day would give me . These are the two years I thought would be filled with fun . '' `` Would you exchange them -- now -- for two years filled with fun ? '' `` No , '' said Rilla slowly . `` I would n't . It 's strange -- is n't it ? -- They have been two terrible years -- and yet I have a queer feeling of thankfulness for them -- as if they had brought me something very precious , with all their pain . I would n't want to go back and be the girl I was two years ago , not even if I could . Not that I think I 've made any wonderful progress -- but I 'm not quite the selfish , frivolous little doll I was then . I suppose I had a soul then , Miss Oliver -- but I did n't know it . I know it now -- and that is worth a great deal -- worth all the suffering of the past two years . And still '' -- Rilla gave a little apologetic laugh , `` I do n't want to suffer any more -- not even for the sake of more soul growth . At the end of two more years I might look back and be thankful for the development they had brought me , too ; but I do n't want it now . '' `` We never do , '' said Miss Oliver . `` That is why we are not left to choose our own means and measure of development , I suppose . No matter how much we value what our lessons have brought us we do n't want to go on with the bitter schooling . Well , let us hope for the best , as Susan says ; things are really going well now and if Rumania lines up , the end may come with a suddenness that will surprise us all . ''
Rumania did come in -- and Susan remarked approvingly that its king and queen were the finest looking royal couple she had seen pictures XXXXX .
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