Its influence was not to be shaken off in a moment . In all his life he had never disobeyed her . Besides , with it all , he loved her more deeply and understandingly than most sons love their mothers . He realized that , since she would have it so , his choice was already made -- or , rather that he had no choice . `` Have your way , '' he said sullenly . She ran to him and caught him to her heart . In the reaction of her feeling she was half laughing , half crying . All was well again -- all would be well ; she never doubted this , for she knew he would keep his ungracious promise sacredly . `` Oh , my son , my son , '' she murmured , `` you 'd have sent me to my death if you had chosen otherwise . But now you are mine again ! '' She did not heed that he was sullen -- that he resented her unjustice with all her own intensity . She did not heed his silence as they went into the house together . Strangely enough , she slept well and soundly that night . Not until many days had passed did she understand that , though Chester might keep his promise in the letter , it was beyond his power to keep it in the spirit . She had taken him from Damaris Garland ; but she had not won him back to herself . He could never be wholly her son again . There was a barrier between them which not all her passionate love could break down . Chester was gravely kind to her , for it was not in his nature to remain sullen long , or visit his own unhappiness upon another 's head ; besides , he understood her exacting affection , even in its injustice , and it has been well-said that to understand is to forgive . But he avoided her , and she knew it . The flame of her anger burned bitterly towards Damaris .
`` He thinks XXXXX her all the time , '' she moaned to herself .
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