Even the half-shut eye was open now . `` Heaven bless her ! '' said the Carrier , `` for the cheerful constancy with which she has tried to keep the knowledge of this from me ! And Heaven help me , that , in my slow mind , I have not found it out before ! Poor child ! Poor Dot ! I not to find it out , who have seen her eyes fill with tears when such a marriage as our own was spoken of ! I , who have seen the secret trembling on her lips a hundred times , and never suspected it , till last night ! Poor girl ! That I could ever hope she would be fond of me ! That I could ever believe she was ! '' `` She made a show of it , '' said Tackleton . `` She made such a show of it , that , to tell you the truth , it was the origin of my misgivings . '' And here he asserted the superiority of May Fielding , who certainly made no sort of show of being fond of him . `` She has tried , '' said the poor Carrier with greater emotion than he had exhibited yet ; `` I only now begin to know how hard she has tried , to be my dutiful and zealous wife . How good she has been ; how much she has done ; how brave and strong a heart she has ; let the happiness I have known under this roof bear witness ! It will be some help and comfort to me when I am here alone . '' `` Here alone ? '' said Tackleton . `` Oh !
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