I came to help you if I could -- if you needed help , Mrs. Palmer -- '' `` Do n't call me that , '' she interrupted passionately . She flung out her hands as if pushing some loathly , invisible thing from her . `` I hate the name -- as I hated all who ever bore it . I never had anything but wrong and dog-usage from them all . Call me Min -- that 's the only name that belongs to me now . Go -- why do n't you go ? Do n't stand there looking at me like that . I 'm not going to change my mind . I do n't want any praying and whining round me . I 've been well sickened of that . Go ! '' Telford threw back his head and looked once more into her eyes . A long look passed between them . Then he silently lifted his cap and , with no word of farewell , he turned and went down to the gate . A bitter sense of defeat and disappointment filled his heart as he drove away . Min stood in the doorway and watched the sleigh out of sight down the river road . Then she gave a long , shivering sigh that was almost a moan . `` If I had met that man long ago , '' she said slowly , as if groping vaguely in some hitherto unsounded depth of consciousness , `` I would never have become what I am . I felt that as I looked at him -- it all came over me with an awful sickening feeling -- just as if we were standing alone somewhere out of the world where there was no need of words to say things . He does n't despise me -- he would n't sneer at me , bad as I am , like those creatures up there .
He could have helped me XXXXX we had met in time , but it 's too late now . ''
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