Perhaps you wo n't speak to me . You must hate me . I deserve it . '' He paused , but she said no word . She could not . After a space , he went wistfully on . `` I know you can never forgive me -- no girl could . I 've behaved like a fool . There is n't any excuse to be made for me . I do n't think I could have been in my right senses , Estella . It all seems like some bad dream now . When I saw her that night , I came to my right mind , and I 've been the most miserable man alive ever since . Not for her -- but because I 'd lost you . I ca n't bear to live here any longer , so I am going away . Will you say good-bye , Estella ? '' Still she did not speak . There were a hundred things she wanted to say but she could not say them . Did he mean that he loved her still ? If she were sure of that , she could forgive him anything , but her doubt rendered her mute . The young man turned away despairingly from her rigid attitude .
So be it -- he had brought his fate XXXXX himself .
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