Surely he would not go -- surely he knew she did not mean it -- he would turn back before he got to the gate . But he did not . She saw him disappear around the turn of the road . She could not see if he took the shore lane further on , but she was sure he would . She was furious at herself for acting as she had done . It was all her fault again ! Oh , if he would only give her another chance ! She was in her room when she heard the buggy drive up again . She knew it was Spencer and that he had brought Vivienne LeMar home . Acting on a sudden wild impulse , the girl stepped out on the landing and confronted her rival as she came up the stairs . The latter paused at sight of the white face and anguished eyes . There was a little mocking smile on her lovely face . `` Miss LeMar , '' said Estella in a quivering voice , `` what do you mean by all this ? You know I 'm engaged to Spencer Morgan ! '' Miss LeMar laughed softly . `` Really ? If you are engaged to the young man , my dear Miss Bowes , I would advise you to look after him more sharply . He seems very willing to flirt , I should say . '' She passed on to her room with a malicious smile . Estella shrank back against the wall , humiliated and baffled .
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