Kim thought of the oilskin packet and the books in the food-bag . If someone duly authorized would only take delivery of them the Great Game might play itself for aught he then cared . He was tired and hot in his head , and a cough that came from the stomach worried him . ` No . ' he said almost sternly . ' I am not a dog or a snake to bite when I have learned to love . ' ` Thou art too tender towards me . ' ` Not that either . I have moved in one matter without consulting thee . I have sent a message to the Kulu woman by that woman who gave us the goat 's milk this morn , saying that thou wast a little feeble and wouldst need a litter . I beat myself in my mind that I did not do it when we entered the Doon . We stay in this place till the litter returns . ' ' I am content . She is a woman with a heart of gold , as thou sayest , but a talker -- something of a talker . ' ` She will not weary thee . I have looked to that also . Holy One , my heart is very heavy for my many carelessnesses towards thee . ' An hysterical catch rose in his throat . ' I have walked thee too far : I have not picked good food always for thee ; I have not considered the heat ; I have talked to people on the road and left thee alone ... I have -- I have ... Hai mai ! But I love thee ... and it is all too late ... I was a child ... Oh , why was I not a man ?
... ' Overborne by strain , fatigue , and the weight beyond his years , XXXXX broke down and sobbed at the lama 's feet .
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