I was dead weary , deadly sick and full of pains and shiverings ; the chill of the wind went through me , and the sound of it confused my ears . In this poor state I had to bear from my companion something in the nature of a persecution . He spoke a good deal , and never without a taunt . `` Whig '' was the best name he had to give me . `` Here , '' he would say , `` here 's a dub for ye to jump , my Whiggie ! I ken you 're a fine jumper ! '' And so on ; all the time with a gibing voice and face . I knew it was my own doing , and no one else 's ; but I was too miserable to repent . I felt I could drag myself but little farther ; pretty soon , I must lie down and die on these wet mountains like a sheep or a fox , and my bones must whiten there like the bones of a beast . My head was light perhaps ; but I began to love the prospect , I began to glory in the thought of such a death , alone in the desert , with the wild eagles besieging my last moments . Alan would repent then , I thought ; he would remember , when I was dead , how much he owed me , and the remembrance would be torture . So I went like a sick , silly , and bad-hearted schoolboy , feeding my anger against a fellow-man , when I would have been better on my knees , crying on God for mercy . And at each of Alan 's taunts , I hugged myself . `` Ah ! '' thinks I to myself , `` I have a better taunt in readiness ; when I lie down and die , you will feel it like a buffet in your face ; ah , what a revenge ! ah , how you will regret your ingratitude and cruelty ! '' All the while , I was growing worse and worse . Once I had fallen , my leg simply doubling under me , and this had struck Alan for the moment ; but I was afoot so briskly , and set off again with such a natural manner , that he soon forgot the incident . Flushes of heat went over me , and then spasms of shuddering . The stitch in my side was hardly bearable .
At last I began to feel that I could trail myself no farther : and with that , there came on me all at once the wish to have it out with XXXXX , let my anger blaze , and be done with my life in a more sudden manner .
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