And for this morning , I did but design to do myself credit , and get fame to marry with , and , behold ! I have brought about the death of your dear kinsman that was good to me . And what besides , I know not . For , alas ! I may have set York upon the throne , and that may be the worser cause , and may do hurt to England . O , madam , I do see my sin . I am unfit for life . I will , for penance sake and to avoid worse evil , once I have finished this adventure , get me to a cloister . I will forswear Joanna and the trade of arms . I will be a friar , and pray for your good kinsman 's spirit all my days . '' It appeared to Dick , in this extremity of his humiliation and repentance , that the young lady had laughed . Raising his countenance , he found her looking down upon him , in the fire-light , with a somewhat peculiar but not unkind expression . `` Madam , '' he cried , thinking the laughter to have been an illusion of his hearing , but still , from her changed looks , hoping to have touched her heart , `` madam , will not this content you ? I give up all to undo what I have done amiss ; I make heaven certain for Lord Risingham . And all this upon the very day that I have won my spurs , and thought myself the happiest young gentleman on ground . '' `` O boy , '' she said -- `` good boy ! '' And then , to the extreme surprise of Dick , she first very tenderly wiped the tears away from his cheeks , and then , as if yielding to a sudden impulse , threw both her arms about his neck , drew up his face , and kissed him . A pitiful bewilderment came over simple-minded Dick . `` But come , '' she said , with great cheerfulness , `` you that are a captain , ye must eat . Why sup ye not ? ''
`` Dear Mistress Risingham , '' replied Dick , `` I did but wait XXXXX upon my prisoner ; but , to say truth , penitence will no longer suffer me to endure the sight of food .
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