how does the world perceive me perceiving myself all i care to do is sip on beer and chocolate milk im frightened more than usual lately i do not translate into one of the boys lotus flower or chinita i m just es i d probably rather nap than wonder restlessly will you ever be impressed by me mom doesn t think i fit into the darling archetype but that s an ancient pair of jeans and my thighs are crafted holy rolling thunder forget the numbers forget the numbers please every goddamn family reunion someone s got something to say how did you become this way as if ive made a mistake meanwhile theyve slaughtered the cake3