i have a secret it s haunting me sometimes i wanna tell you i m not what i seem it breaks my heart when i look in your eyes you see me smile but i m alone inside happiness depends on the silence i keep i know that i should tell you but can t bring myself to speak i m so disguised i don t know what s true it kills me when i see what it does to you it s a big big lie you re about to see through and i don t why it s all i can do it s a big big lie i m hiding from you i don t love myself so how can i love you i toss and turn yeah i can t sleep why am i so lonely you re right next to me it s building up inside me i can hardly breath you re lying there so peaceful i just wanna scream it s a big big lie you re about to see through and i don t why it s all i can do it s a big big lie i m hiding from you i don t love myself so how can i love you how can i love you i keep thinking that you re gonna hear it in the words that i don t say someone tell me how long oh how long can i live my life this way you re about to see through i don t know why but all i can do is lie i don t know why it s all i can do it s a big big lie i m hiding from you i don t love myself yet so how can i love you how can i love you how can i love you