caroline buys a ticket for the last train out of baltimore in the october dark smokes a cigarette and throws the pack away so her daughter would never know that she smokes that she smokes that she smokes fifteen years in and out of prison halfway homes are only halfway home christmas cards telling momma what shes missing made her soft and then it made it hard made it hard made it hard made it hard how do i say it outloud the ghosts that were holding me down oh ive finally tired them out yeah ive tired them out she watches her momma from the station dragging her bags of shame and desperation a little girl in the shape of an old woman just a child who doesnt know where shes going where shes going where shes going where shes going fifteen years of being angry in the dark disappeared with the beating of her heart holding on to how youve been wronged leaves no room for moving on moving on moving on moving on how do i say it outloud the ghosts that were holding me down oh ive finally tired them out yeah ive tired them out