you used to feel like a smoker shivering in the cold waiting outside the bar til the opener s over but now you feel like a drinker twenty days off the sauce down at the liquor store trying to call your sponsor you used to feel like the forest fire burning but now you feel like a child throwing tantrums for your turn you used to sound like a prophet and everyone wanted to know how you could tell the truth without losing that soft glow but now you feel like a salesman closing another deal or some drunk ship captain raging after the white whale you used to feel like the forest fire burning but now you feel like a child throwing tantrums and then some you used to feel like the prodigal returning but now you hate what you ve made and you want to watch it burn