i just came from the guru s website i m still washing off the smell man why don t he just go on tv and tell us all pay up or go to hell i was only looking if they had something to say lately it has been hard to get through my day i was looking for something i just don t know i ve been looking for a better way to go because there s something missing deep inside me that s as common as the rain i m long on good intentions but i ve got zero tolerance for pain and in this i m like everyone i find we try it s so hard to just be kind and the ones we love sometimes we hurt them so so we re looking for a better way to go i m going crazy with the sirens from the past am i too lazy to lash my sorry ass to the mast everyday i lose another chunk of myself everyday there s more junk upon my shelf and the biggest joke of all is the one that we all know time is the only road everyone knows where it goes i don t want a destination different from the rest i don t want to win because i tried my best i only hope there is somebody there to know and so please help me find a better way to go