when i awoke in a cold sweat i opened my eyes in hopes last year was just in my head well of course it wasn t i stared at a ceiling who hates me cause indecision feeds complacency when i awoke i did not know where i d been sleeping but i had an inkling it was not the bed id wanted high rise or basement you take your pick i want to be six feet underground with flowers on the surface because i m so fucking tired of waking up tired with that throbbing pain in my head i know i m speaking vaguely but lately those are the only terms in which i can speak adequately when i awoke when i awoke now i know i don t have the guts to go home and face what i have not done and golden opportunities are sitting right in front of me still i hold my hands behind my back an excuse to not take the good and bad i deserve to get when i awoke when i awoke i found peace in a parking lot peace in a parking lot i think i ll tell everyone i was hanging out with my friends then in the morning i ll drive home like nothing ever happened i found peace in a parking lot