and everytime i see you laugh it always sends me running off and i know that i m all alone and everything is turning out so wrong and everytime i fall asleep there s nothing holding on to me so i fade into your arms into the place where i have what i want i shoulda known i shoulda known i shoulda been on the defense all along and now i see your dark side and all that is blue and green these memories that pile up on me and i don t know how it took so long for this to die off i shoulda known i shoulda known i shoulda been on the defense all along and now i see your dark side