as the earth has seen the sunlight coming and going i ve seen my idols coming i ve seen my idols going one more great gain one more bitter loss my losses were always unhappily greater than my gains lost in this maze so many pathways to be followed what s the best solution for a senseless life a terrible thing is a man who dies no accomplishing his goal but the worst is one who lives without it i hope to get something to fill this void in me how can i occupy my mind and relieve my life from suffering and anguish loneliness and disgust martydom and guilty what a shame what a human waste don t say that it s lack of own love senseless life of perception that s the way of living which i ve chosen for me conjuring the dead and adoring their images reality and fantasy confound themselves in my mind they ve nevers told me what to do creatures of stone gods angels and saints they ve don t move and tell me nothing either i would like to materialize all my dreams and adore them if there are dreams that are worth a life there are lifes that aren t worth a dream christ knew that the human race likes to adore the dead they were needing a so called god thinking of the immortality he died to be adored be contemplated become an idol candles crosses statues and the bible they haven t god sense for me any more i ll break all of those chains which have hindered me for all of those years will god comprehend me please tell me will my idols comprehend me help me now i guess i m my own god nobody tells me what i shall think and do will i be able to walk with my own legs during my existence i ve made nothing for myself if they punish me i m afraid if that void grows again i ll regret and die how may i help you if you don t know what you want 