i was raised in the north underneath the pines where the pavement ends and the police hide moved down and to the west where it is so dry that all the streets flood when it rains every time so i ll just sit here in the yard and hope that the power goes out because this could be the time that it never comes back on and that would be that would be fine and i swear to a god that i never planned never planned to believe in that if i ever drink again it s going to kill me or i m just going to wish that it did i ll tell you right now i didn t quit shooting dope to watch the border patrol pull this shit unopposed the south side is a police state that s not the type of thing i normally say because i hate it when our rhetoric exaggerates but where i m from the police kidnap people every day don t sleep at night until the last prison gets burnt down or turned into a museum don t breathe until the last dollar bill they print gets tossed into a wood stove in new england i couldn t leave my house today i m too terrified of market exchange nothing remains in the hands that made it no one working for each other everybody working for a wage from that point drinking was not for partying anymore it was a six am when i got off of work until about 12 in the afternoon drinking until i passed out woke up and went back to work i didn t have any money i was eating a donut a day from change that i grabbed out from the couch i was extorted by an over the hill gangster named y o i got a dui aggravated dui there was vicodin involved so i guess i d like to tell a story so there was me and my friend right we picked up a bunch of like oxycontin or something like that it was like all we could get we didn t have a lot of money and we were splitting it 80 or something all i had was the one rig and it was really old and i remember the whole night i was trying to shoot up cause it was like it kept on getting clogged it wouldn t quite register and hit the vein it was maybe one of the second times or third times that i cried in my adult life at something i really wanted i mean i wanted to get high have you ever swam down to the bottom of a swimming pool swimming to the top you don t get there quite as fast as you thought you would you have this thing that s like get to the top get to the top find me some air i need to breathe find me some air i need to breathe 