i flew in dirty like a word from a murderous mouth the news came to me id been too long south things had changed in the days of my sleep do whatever he says and ignore the creep she looked at me lke i was jailbait her smile was more liek a sneer laced up with a rouch of hate when that smile used to be so clear not sure what would happen yet i ordered from the bar i know that im not perfect but you are who you are i miss the cradle of family i miss the comfort of home i miss the way that i used to be more than i have missed being alone but you just had to go there and you knew i would resist like do i ever think about babies that do not exist you were calling me out on things i did when i wsa young imagine being held accountable for everything that you have ever done i miss the comfort of a lovers bed i miss the girl that i once knew i miss the idea we created in our heads more than i have ever missed you i can t believe the secrets that i keep the scars that you can see are nothing like the ones we have unleashed like st augustine before me i am sorry for my sins but i have no regrets about the places i have been theres no way i can say im sorry for the things that you decide to do i guess you went for money i just had to get away from you i miss the innocense of purity i miss the things i never had i miss the way that i used to be before you ever got to my head i