i found that i was angry in the cool of the day all the tall trees swaying all i did not say though i managed all the details and made all those phone calls and i wrote out all the e mails and straightened out the front hall it don t matter it made no difference all through our disagreement there was a cardinal on the fence put no walls around me i will lay the stones myself and i ll lay down with my body and give nothing else still living with the feeling pent up in my chest my old lifelong companion the one i know best well i guess i got the hang of it the impossible you could say i moved right in with it the impossible you knew i felt unnatural in the blue light of dawn i left the house in shadow and my mind went on and on on the long spool of the highway strange fragments of song and all i can t get my way everything that s still wrong oh i guess i got the hang of it the impossible and i walk the endless boundaries of it just to know what you can t ever have what is light what shadow i guess i always wanted the impossible in time i learned to rest on the fevered pitch the change was so relentless no time to get used to it i had to get so ruthless to cut right down to the quick to wake at 6 am and go along with all of it but still i was so sensitive i could hardly even stand your simple acts of kindness the gentle pressure of your hand glimpsed from the ferry green swaths of land sleeping on the floor i felt the ocean s movement