this one is dedicated to the dreamers most people see things that are there and ask why dreamers see things that aren t there and ask why not i m dreamin with you i once knew a girl who on the surface was as solid as a rock future full of promise and mind seemed stronger than an ox face of beauty and a tongue was as honest as it got that wasn t what is was problem rock bottom she was lost i couldn t see this sweet genius was full of secrets full of demons that pulled her deeper in this pool of leeches confused by the news i was bruised when they told me it concludes to the truth was she consumed by the loneliness she was a true queen nothing like elizabeth often caught her starin into space with a distant look considerate but detached from others even when intimate now i m searchin for answers i d never find in a book last time i saw her before the day she took her life i wish i fixed her pain i shoulda coulda woulda tried but i took it personally and turned to leave and to this day i m still haunted by the words she screamed sometimes i really really hate myself sometimes i wish that i could change myself sometimes i don t wanna give no more and sometimes i just don t wanna live no more sometimes i don t know where to go for help sometimes i don t really know myself sometimes i wish that i could fly away and find away to a brighter day  they say that life is a question and death is the answer but niko lost his brother and rewds lost his father god bless your souls please know that i love you both they say time heals but the pain still doesn t go i ve seen my brother die and seen my mother cry seen the wind change with the flutter of a butterfly seen people get sectioned for life i think and wonder a small twist of fate that could ve been my brother 25 years a life could say thus far i always have wondered who the sane ones are though i live by the words fear not i m afraid when i wrote this so many tears dropped on the page it s mad how death always manifests in the weirdest ways won t go near the grave but in my dreams he appears the same then i get closer and see his face it s clear as day he looks me deep in the eyes and i hear him say sometimes i really really hate myself sometimes i wish that i could change myself sometimes i don t wanna give no more and sometimes i just don t wanna live no more sometimes i don t know where to go for help sometimes i don t really know myself sometimes i wish that i could fly away and find away to a brighter day1