life is unusually beautiful but sometimes i feel so unsuitable and it drowns out what s musical and then i just find myself drinkin and thinkin making no turns yet my signal is blinkin feeling bad cause no judge is giving me 10 breaking rules to get up out of the deep end on the verge of having trouble begin drama never leavin hot is the weather where i m from hot is situations that come hot is how people get when they re stuck in a pit world not giving a shit life is suppose to be beautiful but it s a crucible turning me into a person brutal who s psychodependant on money bitches drugs funny business stuff can i give it up yes i love to get paid get laid get drunk get high but then i hear kids cry saying that they need a model to follow but i still find a liquor bottle to hollow sitting on the dock of the bay wasting time insecurities tingle racing up my spine facing crime in an eye to eye head to head thinking of how to get dough to bread keep roses red i realize that my life is composed of the actions i take combined with the feelings i hold but sometimes negativity molds a heart from it s start is just trying to get over but you can t let it fold tha soldier that from it s inception needn t lucks blessing from clovers cause when it fights it strikes it slices it bites from morning to night back through darkness to light it s office is yo life builds a fortress that s tight you can call it christ or whatever you like but to ignore it is yo right you deal your will you reap what you sew you till your field but post battle who will heal your shield so many vices you can sacrifice kill and grill cause you gotta see that the world will confuse you with abused clues i flip through news and see that the world s a treasure chest of misuses jewels who can t maintain from sunrise to sunset they face pain their used to blue skies got grey stains and are surrounded by friends who got snake fangs but you gotta block it don t avoide it destroy it throw it up in a box and then lock it cut power when docs try to shock it cause that ain t the shit you should welcome your block with