you want him you need him it s so hard to please him you just don t dare and inside you re burning with some secret yearnings you must not care still won t you help me i m flawed desperate angry with god cause he just won t care oh excuse me you re mourning how calloused and boring i brush you hair and see your face empty smile i touch that place and all the while you know it won t stop so you make an excuse to confuse the issue what makes you think that i ll care about you when you lay on the ground til he tells you he s through and do what he ll do when he ll do it to you and all the while he s been using you yes all the while he s abusing you so it finally dawned on me yesterday morning i just can t stare and swallow the words that your hero s perverted on what we share i ll kill him i ll beat him the cycle s repeating i hold thin arrogance still won t you hold him and trust him you love him so much and he still won t care to see your face with an empty smile cause i touched that place on you and all the while she says it s so good when it s so good if this is so good then it s no good if this so good everybody s so good everybody s so good when you re no good and all the while he s been using you yes all the while he s abusing you with your naked excuse you confuse your misuse what makes you think i should care what he ll do if you lay on the ground til he tells you he s through and he makes up your mind that that s what you should do cause all the while you ve been using you yes all the while you re abusing you he hurts you mistreats you your own mind misleads you you just won t care when holes in your face can t be covered with makeup you ll still stay there