i put you on a pedestal i dont know why i watch you through a telescope with weary eyes blindly i follow all you say hoping that you ll find yourself loving me someday dont leave me behind im lost all the time now youve gone away it hurts every day ill pretend im the hero youre dreaming of take my hand and well dance until i wake up i try to speak before you go but now im left here on my own again empty the blood from my veins ill never change the flaws i cant control i cant escape this fate or the monsters that call my name denial takes it s toll fears that ill never get off my chest lost track of the reasons why i dont feel whole guess ill never know seems like ill never clean up my mess feels like theyre trying to take apart my soul but i m still im dreaming of a place to call home