i am a mess i made a huge mess i cant control myself i kill the rhyme again im coming sick and on time again words manifest from deep inside where people hide within its chemical unbalanced on the triple beam what fuck what ya heard its about what i seen i seen it happen back hand brand to face smacking definite disorder now his mindset is blackened the doctors say he s got the brain of a murderer this rugged style steals your brain and my heart is bleeding and this pain it will not pass it s not receding and my body s going numb a bad trip child rolling stoned keeping high he dont know what hes doing he just keeps getting by thrown away i want to be thrown away hes born sick nothing in his hands but his dick he couldnt handle pressure he couldnt handle shit for the life he was leading lead him down the wrong path where guns blast dont give a shit about the gods wrath dont want to talk to the counselor doctor tell them whats real to tell them whats proper situation unclear i pray and i know it gets worse everyday and my heart is bleeding and this pain it will not pass it s not receding and my body s going numb a bad trip child rolling stoned keeping high he dont know what hes doing he just keeps getting by away  thrown away i want to be thrown away i am a mess ive made a huge mess i cant control myself im losing it ive lost it ive spilled all my marbles because i see you inside of me sometimes i want to be thrown away because i see you inside of me sometimes i want to be thrown away a hyper spaz and that is me sometimes i want to be thrown away thrown away thrown away thrown away thrown away thrown away thrown away thrown away thrown away dont tell me to do it cause i will now dont tell me to do it cause i will now theyre screaming theyre screaming theyre screaming