yo i m doomed to a life of 7 25 no point living right wont make it out alive making plays downtown let me sleep on the drive leaning from the fucking codeine in my sprite leaning on the hollows in his fucking four five like put it to my head and we ll see if i can fly he don t really care if im impaired just stares says what the fuck is up bruh you really want to die yeah i ve been blessed with a death wish i just hope that i die young and high like hedwig i ve been too distressed to address this but i know i can t be the only one who feels helpless and i m sorry that i ve been so selfish i d change if i could but i just can t help it but i know who i am no need to pretend guess im im still fucked up and let down again cause ive been feeling down can t wait until it passes i kept your picture underneath my mattress can t see the sky to find my own position i know it isn t working i know that somethings different i know i m fucking different yo why the world gotta be like this getting high and she tells me what her stepdad did i keep the secret so she can pretend that her innocence hasn t been lost in a sense so we go to the mall and buy some bullshit to block out how fucked up it all is i just need a whip with the gold plate rims i just need a pill to feel happiness i just need a check and some ice i can flex a few more drugs to feel a little less a few more hits and a girl that s obsessed that loves all my shit and loves having sex so i can pretend everything s okay but the world s so black and i m so grey i hope in the end one day i ll say i see the same old world in a brand new way  cause i ve been feeling down can t wait until it passes i hope you keep me underneath your mattress still too blind to see my own condition i know i can t be perfect i know that something s missing cause i ve been feeling down can t wait until it passes i kept your picture underneath my mattress i can t see the sky to find my own position i know it isn t working i know that something s different i hope i m always different different i hope i m always different different i hope i hope i hope i hope i m always different1