you keep a little piece of the past beneath your skin spider legs crawling through your cold bloodstream baby s got a slow pulse he s hearing static sounds again he changes like the autumn trees shiver shaking limbs you take their words for gospel and leave me in the rain nathan don t make me lose my breath again you built yourself a bed from ashes and string nathan don t fill up your lungs with fire again there s summer in your hazy eyes though the winter steals the air it feels like i ve loved you my whole life cause i see you everywhere in dreams where i cannot move i can only stand and stare your milky skin my piano hands putting flowers in your hair i ll drown these nightmares in apathy til i believe that i m okay nathan do you feel powerful when you re pushing me away i ll sleep with open windows in case you come back for me someday nathan keeps me on the run begging him to stay nathan holds me to his chest begging me to stay