i don t know what to say to you i shouldn t judge but i often do when you gonna come back home why d you leave me all alone i cut myself sharp and deep it s the only thing that lets me sleep takes the pain from off my face and puts it in one tiny space where i can keep it down out of sight way off to the side it won t come at me on a cold dark night the red ridges i can t hide they re on the outside i don t know what to say to you i m pretty sure you wouldn t want me to despite conviction i still lack proof as the rain beats down on the motel roof and i miss those long hot summer days when i can keep that beast at bay long shadows bring it back to life til it sees its reflection in a short sharp knife then i can keep it down out of sight way off to the side it won t come at me on a cold dark night the red ridges i can t hide they re on the outside  i remember all my gifts in the early hours when the panic lifts thoughts go racin round and around and only daylight slows em down i miss my dog from long ago where he went i still don t know whiskey and coffee while i burn my toast and build a cage for all my ghosts so i can keep em down out of sight way off to the side they won t come at me on a cold dark night the red ridges i can t hide they re on the outside i don t know what to say to you i shouldn t judge but i often do