looking back on my footsteps on the cold ground feeling like fleeing they say the path i took should be my fate but i wanna take my lazy steps on my own day by day second by second i set the course anew walking through the frames of my life looking for the moments i ll remember with a smile tripping over lies and hate envy and vanity i wish i could change the order of proceedings no chance at all no chance at all i build a time machine i will reverse my mistakes pain fade away fade away fade away all these sources of noise are whispering and screaming tempting and frightening in the middle of my head beyond my heart they try to change my mind into something bad fighting against them for years but in the end i still decide on my own fearing the mistakes fearing the responsibility to myself and to my beloved to my beloved walking through the frames of my life looking for the moments i ll remember with a smile tripping over lies and hate envy and vanity i wish i could change the order of proceedings these photos can t overlook the flashlights they are surrounding me observing all my movements but finally it s me who s crying for my perfect sincerity crying for my salvation crying for the respect for myself so where is the golden means of all decisions i don t even know if there is a right way i could choose i go down on my knees i m yelling at the ground in the hope of finding some new answers thousands of questions only one life for finding answers one question for thousands of lives for thousands of lives breathing slowly despite this i never stopped believing in waiting for the point i can see it clearly2