i ve spent many a night lying on my back waiting for the dawn to pierce and crack and the ceiling hanging from the sky and i envy the boy who grabbed the toy and ran away and found a joy while i stood in the shadows wondering why flying towards me then he laughs a woman s face the terrible taste of the morning after kisses and goodbyes i could never seem to catch my footsteps have desires they fly away every day i have to fight the plague how can i sleep in hours like this when anguish tracks me like a fist my nakedness exposed i can t stand still i try to remember lips on lips hips on hips and ice on fire in gloom and glow when did they leave the man in the mirror of the night i see a face that staring out at me like a fallen star burned itself out like a deadly scrapes across the ground my voice cried out in a gravelled sound no one s there to hear me but the plague straining hard to see running after me i keep pounding pounding on the door but it s all so vague when you meet the plague and i keep coming i keep coming back for more