across the street above the green in the flat with the colourful curtains alisha s wrapped in her blankets head lent back on the wall she s gripping her knees looking for purpose shaking and nervous she keeps her brave face on all day long but now the brave face is gone something in the changing seasons prickles in her skin all day sucked her back through time and left her feeling far away he was in her dream she hasn t dreamt of him for months she s so tired when she sleeps she doesn t really dream at all but there he was holding his belly blood on his shirt she heard him scream her name and then she saw him fall alisha wipes her face and whispers to herself it was just a dream she sniffs and nods and dries her eyes she checks the time it s 04 18 it s a strange thing your face seems to fade with the changing seasons then for some reason it comes back more present than ever well not your face really more a sense of you even though i know it s happened it s no more comprehensible than if it was an abstract thing someone else s friend are you asking me for something is there something i should do it s hard on your mother she lost your little brother too but your sister s doing good man she s smart smart like you and she ll finish her degree next year try and find a job i suppose she s got her head screwed on right you don t have to worry is there something else though i mean if there is i m sorry cause i can t really think what you might want from me i heard your voice aloud it woke me up i don t believe in ghosts work s fine life s good ty s nearly 4 now smart enough to walk round and hear what i don t say the night it happened is vivid in my brain it won t fade life is long still some things don t change nice to fall in love again but that ain t gonna happen soon i m tryna get some money saved fix up the living room nearly got in trouble i got angry with my manager there s this young girl who works with us he tried to put his hands on her it s such a waste so many idiots alive and kickin why d i have to be the only sane man in town well i m probably only saying that cause you re not around but i m keeping my chin up though i don t let it get me down  i heard your voice aloud it woke me up i don t believe in ghosts you re with me all the time i think i know you better than i did when we were hanging out together what s it like where you ve gone well i can feel it it s ok i know you can t say but you ve been with me all day i have to tell you when it happened i couldn t cry for ages but when it hit me i fucking screamed like a lion in a cage and look i fasted i didn t eat a thing for like a week and i just walked across the heath in the rain spittin bars to the grass and listenin to the cars skidding past i thought life would get more real or something more fast but it didn t when i look at your son though life s hidden meanings come to the front of my vision and it s weird the way i see it right now it s so strong i d never be the person i d become if you would never gone everything s connected right everything s connected and even if i can t read it right everything s a message we die so the others can be born we age so the others can be young the point of life is live love if you can then pass it on right we die so the others can be born we age so the others can be young the point of life is live love if you can then pass it on