filled with sorrow bleak inner self touched by pride devoured by solitude still wrapped in time i m flowing with pain holding myself back in suspicion and lingering in the dust the dust of my abandoned remains killed with the dagger of life such an exquisite pride in my suffering alone all alone with the emotional streams of my soul so real so pure yet i m left aside entangled in fear without hope raped by the light of the world scorned left behind and broken down i am truly left alone but somehow just somehow it feels like my loneliness is a victory over the self delusion of joy and happiness my heart beats faster the anguish becomes clearer and my misanthropic view gets stronger living in the shadows so proud of being the one but desperate so desperate for a helping hand do i really want to live this life i have a thousand reasons to die and many millions of tears to cry in silence the human plague has emptied my life and i curse the day i was born to this world still no one else i ever want to be and no one else i intend to be cause no one else i was meant to be i need i want i long for my retribution i need i want i yearn for my retribution i want my retribution i want it now unity a gathering of open wounds of dark of dark clean spirits what a dream what a dream so distant why should i why should i be alone when i love when i love my brotherhood shall i die shall i die to be free when i cry when i cry in silence so please let me die in silence oh my god let me die in silence 