did protons and electrons create the earth or did allah meditate and create its birth is every day in this place a curse or should i pray on my knees and embrace this dirt i don t know if there s a reason i m here i feel the only thing that s driving me is reason and fear and seeing death to me conceivably near so i don t give a fuck what you think bout me reaching for beer i don t worry anymore about what my friends do i have a more urgent matter to attend to is there something there bigger when i die and vanish that weaves everyone and everything into a canvas i m not smart enough to think i have a resolution i ll never be a man with mediocre constitution my father told me that blood and power intoxicate and that tyranny is a product of his father s hate i recognized the guilt and sins of the father and recognized what s built and what stems from the author understand man is not a machine he needs a surface and a purpose and a reason for being either way i m gonna stick with my fam regardless if that s a dream of a ridiculous man and i m becoming more indifferent every day so naturally all the questions have faded away some of the things that i said i hated to say but blame yourself mothafucka you made it this way i don t think i would even if i was able to stay i don t think you re good i would sit to the angels and pray but everybody gotta deal with they self if they cut another throat for the material wealth if it s a problem are you man enough to deal with the help or are you destined for the darkness of concealing yourself  i m trying to deal with the 30 years i ve spent in prison not the physical because of existentialism i back myself into a previously dead position when all i ever had to do was just repent and listen why can t everybody leave me alone i m the only one who really need to see that i ve grown you ain t smart enough to see what i know i like to stab myself and let me fucking bleed till i go but i m just scared what would happen on the other side tryna fight the good fight how many of us died i don t know if i trust the people that hang with me is it god or is it the big bang theory i know some really good people and they slang near me but i don t think karmically that they should hang really at 30 years old i don t have peace yet and i ain t get out of the belly of the beast yet2
['conscious hip hop', 'hardcore hip hop', 'philly rap', 'political hip hop']