to be honest the truth is im afraid i fear losing the only thing ive ever held so close the fact is you never cared half as much for me as i did for you no matter what you say youre filling your head with lies telling yourself youll be here when youre not anywhere to be found how can you just close your eyes and pretend im a ghost when i am haunted by the thought of you to be honest i wish i was like you i wish i could forget these memories did you not see me falling down into endless shades of grey you watched without taking a step i just wish you could disappear but maybe im the one who turns to smoke maybe this is my destiny maybe this is my destiny