where the hell have i gone to why s it got to be so motherfucking hard for me to call you staying up late tryna to get it all straight every minute i ve wasted you were probably thinking i didn t want to that ain t the case 15 years and that ain t the case bad as it tastes i m the one to blame for putting up all the walls and demanding the space and i just can t take it these days so far out want to bring it home but i don t know how yeah man i don t know how family could be something i don t know bout and i pushed you that far cause i got scared would ve been hell but i could ve said prayers should ve been there and it s not okay that your name is one thing i don t know how to say faded looking for the words that i could use to get to you don t know how to say it faded hopefully it s gettin through cause everything is faded lookin for the words ayy and i don t know how to say it faded hopefully it s gettin through because everything is faded where the hell did you go to why d you make it so motherfuckin impossible to go through runnin on fumes trying to follow your tune we were runnin around in circles to the point that it was dangerous to know you i could ve reached out 15 years and i should ve reached out but i couldn t find the person i was looking for even if i did i was scared that you would have been underneath in the ground and i ran from that ran from that too damn scared to take a chance with that so the bags got packed blood got cold names got changed and your kids got grown grown lookin at the phone with a broken heart tryna to keep a piece of what fell apart dark night and it s not okay that your names one thing that i don t know how to say  faded looking for the words that i could use to get to you don t know how to say it faded hopefully it s gettin through cause everything is faded lookin for the words ayy and i don t know how to say it faded hopefully it s gettin through because everything is faded
['abstract hip hop', 'indie pop rap', 'pop rap', 'seattle hip hop', 'underground rap']