yeah i just want to thank everyone thats supported me during this long journey even if you didnt necessarily believe in me in the beginning or even if you did and dont believe in me now thank you without you guys none of this would be possible but i still have a few things that i have to get off of my chest barry allen as i run from my demons hugging my soul tight became accustomed to fear failure frivolous relationships and lives being taken when there was no right at this point im just numb to it but i wont succumb to it how many bullets can i dodge alone do i put my faith in this world or only in your god alone never mind bullets how many snakes slither round my home praying for my downfall and my people to die as clones or maybe its just my paranoia speaking for me i look around dont see any black doctors or scholars but i know who was murdered last night i went to school with him as a matter of fact i was pretty cool with him we balled together he was young hit by a stray and that could happen to anyone of us on any day but should it see aint no unity between you and me no ones immune to these in our community sincerely yours me and my friends are from three different worlds and you know that ish love peace and little bit of hope thats it but i wont lie those homicide numbers float in my mind pretty similar to the soul that sits with the skeletons in your closet that you wont give in to sincerely yours i look myself at 19 and see a different person a person whos hoping hes alive next year a person thats human hurting that usually hides that sheer terror caused by hallucinations that arrived last year never been too in depth with my feelings unless with my friends reclusive with everyone else but extroverted to them never been too in depth with my feelings unless with my fans rina said we could live forever never knew what that meant imagine knowing so much about me yet still knowing nothing whatever the weather for better or worse i give my all cause its something for every person walking up to me in silence in public you pull your sleeves up showing what youve survived through its touching that im the reason then you ask about my old friends cause im an open book and how two friendships that close can both end i tell you that its just life to some its bout control if they dont have control they lose sight just so you know  sincerely yours sincerely yours i see the times we live in i see the writing on the wall and the blood thats spilling i see unnecessary wars and the guns thats killing my people in hands of my people and the drugs still filling our neighborhoods up with this evil aint no fathers supposedly caught doing something illegal if they aint for my people i am sincerely yours my name is byron henderson recently turned 21 i lost my best friend at 18 so if im to give you one piece of advice its cherish whoever you have with you relinquish your vices ive had a lot of things happen to me like having to leave a friend to die cause he was bleeding out after being shot by a cop for no reason tell me how to get over that or the thief that left tony leaking i aint known for holding back or to pull it and start squeezing see i lost a couple friends cause we grew apart listen ive gained a couple fans if i influence yall then id better make it positive how am i to shed light on this how am i to prevent suicide at the time im writing this if im to lose anyone else i promise i might flip couldnt care less about having this game in a vice grip couldnt save me or rina but might be able to save you to end this open letter the best of mes what i gave you sincerely yours byron henderson a k a the underdog from the underground a k a the american nightmare haha