all this time i ve been alive i have counted up the hours and they don t seem to add up i think you took them away from me and don t say that you didn t and don t tell me i m an ungrateful son when i chose to be in it how do you decide who gets the blessing and who gets the curse i wanna know i wanna know i ve been trying to decide if i m the best or if i m the worst you ve ever known you ve ever known and be not afraid be still and know that i am god when i walked on the water and the storms came in did you know i was sinking how do you decide who gets the blessing and who gets the curse i wanna know i wanna know i ve been trying to decide if i m the best or if i m the worst you ve ever known you ve ever known oh whoa oh oh oh oh i ve been trying hard to be the son you wanted but i don t have it in my body i guess you ll have to carry me how did you decide that i was worth it and that i m deserving of such sweet sacrifice i wanna know after all of this time i ve been cursing your name since the day i was alive