it s been awhile since i spoke like a human haven t seen you in over half a decade and haven t talked since i moved and the home town harmonies telling me you ve been bad grieving over the fact that you re losing your baby s dad but it s not just that you re farther into the crack heard you re walking a track and marching into the trash fuck praying cause i ve been silent for years i m sick of trying to be a man about it hiding my tears and fuck the judgment i ve got a messed up past but when asked and confronted i mma shut down fast and the truth is girl i cry when i think of you and write a million songs that i mma never get to sing with you talk about the places i mma never get to bring you to show you what it s like to build a life and learn a thing or two what hurts me is that i love you cause you re my older sister and the girl that i grew up with c mon today s is thanksgiving november 24th 1988 you re about to see the new puppet show ta da mom s shuts down when i ask and dad s so sad that i don t know if he s ever gonna get past it and really i m finding it hard for me to manage any close relationships without the fear of vanishing all of this has been hard i ain t denying it i m writing down this song as a product of my environment but listen they say that family is everything it s more than just a house two dogs and a wedding ring it s blossoming life and standing up to anything trying to take the people that you love from what it s meant to be yeah so then where d you go prisoner in your body quarantined from your soul and i know those drugs got you out in the cold got you spitting in the mouth of those showing you hope so if you d ever come through to your senses i ll be right here waiting for rebecca 1