i m not a cool guy anymore as if i ever was before i took a look at all the signs then rolled it over in my mind the feelings i could not release became a bitter part of me what was i thinking of it couldn t stay the way it was looked at my reflection and i saw a stranger s face i saw where i was going and i had to walk away i lost a girl it s just as well she tried to save me from myself i ve still got her on my mind tossing and turning in my bed but if she had stayed another week i would have dragged her down with me she took it til she had enough was that what i thought love was i told her see you later but it s hard to see at all at the bottom of the barrel with your back against the wall i m not a cool guy anymore left it behind and closed the door i know you can t escape the past now i look back and have to laugh i was my worst enemy it almost got the best of me what was i thinking of it couldn t stay the way it was i looked up one day and saw that it was up to me you can only be a victim if you admit defeat well i looked up one day and saw that it was up to me you can only be a victim if you admit defeat