no i don t even know oh oh oh oh and i don t even know where the fuck i been heading feel like everyday is wasted all these thoughts got me stressing my mind is a prison always dealing with depression everyone i ever loved i only showed aggression i hate that i don t even like to see my own reflection i hate that i m too scared to tell them all these confessions really i just gotta get to venting yeah really i just got to get to venting its like every single day i m getting older i been losing lots of friends but never getting no closure and every single breath i take is another one closer to the last i m gonna get got me feeling so much colder really i just hate to be alive i been contemplating suicide many times honestly i don t even know why cause i don t feel at home no i don t feel at home no and my friends are saying music s not gonna pay the bills but the music is the only thing i have let s keep it real every single time i hear a beat i start to get the chills and it really got me thinking i can do this shit for real all these demons in my past its just another fucking pill zolaf to xanax prozac it doesn t heal they just wana see you numb they don t really wana help they just tell you take one a day from the bottom of the shelf but fuck that i d rather feel something than nothing i hide my pain with a smile they don t make no assumptions they don t know that everyday i m just running from my problems i don t really speak on it cause i know everybody got em but honestly my thoughts always bury me feel like i m all alone and nobody really there for me the thought of dying by myself is always fucking scaring me another break down feeling like there s no air to breath tell me why my home doesn t feel like home tell me why i loved you but you moved on tell me why the only thing i have is these songs everybody say they get it but they never sing along they never sing along