i feel like i need to apologise for all the pain i ve caused you guys i never even tried to make it right it seems that all we do is fight maybe one day this will change a family again i was responsible for your breakdown and all the hospital calls it s so hard seeing someone that you love fall apart before your eyes when you can t help them get back up so i m passing this along to tell you i m sorry for everything i ve done maybe some day i might be able to tell you this without having to hide it in the of a song i held you in my arms as you cried then you looked at me and said nick i want to die well these arn t the words a son s supposed to hear from his own mother because deep down she thinks i never cared you were always there for me i know and i believe you when you say it s hard to let go hard to let go of me watching me self destruct with such ease depression is the cause this sick disease is killing me disease is killing me so let s let by gones be and no matter what happens i know you ll love me and that s all i need so i m passing this along to tell you i m sorry for everything i ve done maybe some day i might be able to tell you this without having to hide it in the of a song