do you want to go see a movie my aunt runs a theatre in fresh pond when when i go home i stare out the window but all i see sometimes is the window pane you claim that i m not turd how could i take your word when i all i see sometimes is my own pain my dad calls me to tell me he loves me and why not but why should were i him can i say i would when i go home i stare out the window but all i see sometimes is the window pane you claim that i m not turd how could i just take your word when all that feels real sometimes is my own shame who wouldn t want to be outwardly directed but i can t get over my fat bony skull and who doesn t sometimes feel totally defective when for each light that clicks on i find two shattered bulbs and who wouldn t want to be outwardly directed but i can t get over my fat bony skull and who doesn t sometimes feel totally infected when for each light that clicks on i find two shattered bulbs do you want to go see a movie 