i m beginning to think that my mind and soul are polar opposites where did it all go wrong things are so far gone how do i still exist nailed dead fast to the wall crucified by every thought repeat over and over make sure it s all perfect and in place bite my knuckles crack my fingers dwelling on events that will never occur slave to myself a hazard to my health slave to myself a hazard to my health obsessive compulsive suffering where did it all go wrong things are so far gone how do i still exist all i do is count use the same sayings that help calm me down check the door what seems like a hundred times only to walk back it s just people don t understand think i m a freak crazy for how i am making remarks like it s their job always talking in my ear they say you need to fix this you need to focus on that take these meds stop acting like that well the ten step program didn t work worth shit now what am i supposed to do where did it all go wrong things are so far gone where did it all go wrong things are so far gone how do i still exist how do i still exist nailed dead fast to the wall crucified by every thought where did it all go wrong things are so far gone nailed dead fast to the wall crucified by every thought