abused and ridiculed ill admit that i played the fool i was bullied when i attended school i toughed it out and did what i had to do thick skin makes it harder to cut them deep wounds unless there s already scar tissue covered with attitudes emotion is an ocean it s easy to drown in undertow it s natural to fight for air and so much harder to let it go so now i m broken incomplete like missing puzzle piece the darkness overbearing i m wondering will it ever cease when i m watching raindrops fall against the concrete like my feet when i beat the pavement when i walk away from the hatred but it follows me like i make it forsaken me cause i take it could change it but nonetheless i d rather be myself i guess unless the whole day goes by and i don t feel like i m gonna fucking die wrong or right be it day or night that s how i feel and i can t help it but i can t tell if it s all a dream cause this here don t feel right to me i can t be who i wanna be but you you re just like everything that we see tell me it s over i need the closure you was supposed to make it all go away can you make it all go away what is the purpose i don t deserve this under the surface can you take it away can you make it all go away  sometimes it s hard just to fit in be it your size your shape or the tone and color of skin maybe deformity abnormally i m different but why are they so superior and i ve been insignificant i m like a painting of confused brush strokes a whipping post and just another face for them cruel jokes i wear it all like a horrible suit of shame i m damaged already and no i ll never be the same not the norm won t conform against the grain from the day he was born please just treat him like a monster or evermore declare war on a misfit that s what i get for being different anybody want to walk in my kicks please do so cause i know that anybody wanting to get into my soul has a long dark road to toll when your all alone with no one to help feel lost just walking in circles well that s just how my life has felt can t believe that being me can make some narcs so angrily so i just keep it twiztid and represent for the family tell me it s over i need the closure you was supposed to make it all go away can you make it all go away everyday with that same dream yelling about the same thing telling her what you gonna do bunch of mights and maybes complaints and fake schemes out of your mouth on the daily but you follow through want everything else it s just as weak as your daydreams and i m stuck here in this nightmare well aware that you don t care if i took my last breath of air and just like that i disappear so insecure my line between fantasy and reality to me is nothing more than blurred my confidence is gone and all i got going for me is that i m breathing and these words to this fucking song could it be possible that someone feels like i someone to tell me that it s over there s really no need to cry so i m bending knees i m looking up to the sky please make it go away make it stop or just let me die 2