i am reckless with my soul broken and defeated by the things i can t control i have given up so many things for a hope when i die that these heaven seeking promises weren t lies oh god of mercy you have told me i could put it in your hands do you really think i can and if i had everything i want would i keep falling down would i keep falling down so here i am learning to cast aside all of my desires all of my desires i am restless in my soul stealing their affections tryin to fill an endless hole i have cried alone so many times cause i can t feel your love i remember when you used to be enough oh god of mercy so they tell me i can put it in your hands do you really think i can so are you even real or am i afraid to feel scared of what i ll find that when i cried to you called it true in the end will it be that i wasted all my time but with all these doubts i m offering to leave it all behind