i fear i ll die from complications complications due to things that i ve left undone that all my debts will be left unpaid feel like a cripple without a cane i m like a jack of all trades whos a master of none then there s my father he s always looking on the bright side saying things like son life just aint that hard he is the grand optimist i am the worlds poor pessimist you give him burdensome times and he will escape unscarred i guess i take after my mother i guess i take after my mother but i used to be quite resilient gained no strength from counting the beads on a rosary and now the wound has begun to turn another lesson that has gone unlearned but this is not a cry for pity or for sympathy i guess i take after my mother i guess i take after my mother i guess i take after my mother i guess i take after my mother8