my timeline is a wire wrapped tight around my neck slowing apathy swells give in to disconnect unworldly transmission fed to relive the shame i don t want a trial i ll take all the blame a stone stolid council speaks dogmatically bullets and anecdotes divided evenly a chilling consciousness wakes me from the trance it redefines my mind i ll never have a chance nothing giving unworthy offering losing feeling like a bird with clipped wings sinking feeling pushing down on me swimming drowning in a toxic red sea the blow shatters my remission fracture patterns show through my skin please understand this was not my plan no i gotta know does it matter where my heart s been fracture patterns show through my skin please understand this was not my plan no i gotta go weightless restraint floating away evaporating the impulse grows in clouds below cascading dripping whisper falling faster raining raining raining raining