i found my fickle friend out in the alley way he said you don t look so good i said hey doc that s great you started practicing i never got the note so let s shake and trade and be on our way let s go go go so here we are again inside your neon shrine sharing a chopping block beneath embarrassed light that tries to hide from us it tucks itself away so we both grab hold and say no you don t just stay just stay the morning s hot and harsh my notebook fills itself the words come thick with sweat it feels like someone else is writing all of this someone i just can t believe when i mop my brow set my pen back down it s still me still me and i m grabbing at a feeling now that i can t ever name some sign post to remind me how i wanted things this way and she said it s pretty but you hate yourself i can hear it clear as day and i say i sing like this it sounds worse than it is i m okay okay i m okay okay i m okay okay i m okay okay so just stay just stay just stay just stay i m okay okay so just stay just stay just stay just stay