yeah crazy ups and downs you know what i m sayin crazy how the world runs word up check it out bring it on lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes first of all i was born under a bad sign confined to torture never saw what life had to offer time slips away like pop singles on the radio chino never had the dough i was determined though sabotaged at birth cursed by an evil angel to strangle my aspirations from every angle from a street corner to a demo deal from warner hardcore performer crowd warmer thought it was on but it wasn t i never got no budget stuck like a glue trap it goes to prove that being the greatest lyricist can t paint the full picture it s a full mixture i can t get me no no satisfaction like being blind watching a movie with no closed caption i need some time to ease my mind i m bested fuck mr wendal my development s arrested all i wanted to do was rock with my fast ass and blast past the mass collect quick cash did what i did best create but began to hate all these flake music people making artists wait but i ma be up there one day and soon to slam wax innovate rhymes that my fans consume i view this world through my notepad thus expanding my vocab to win til then it s all bad  lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes when i was merely a sophomore went to atlanta on a false tour this ain t what i prayed so hard for dreams broken into individual particles like porcelain figurines attached to me like barnacles now i m supposed to be happy like bobby mcferrin keep faith the only thing holy is the drawers i m wearing 89 i aimed to graduate no exaggerate i got an albatross to fly to scenes that gravitate evaporating positive energy from inside of me to the point where my love for god no more provides for me of course lost pride obviously the false rides of paradise nobody invites but puts the bill of rights 1430 sat proving ya i m a spic that ll die respected like raul julia so cease with all that street shit expect mc from chi kid you gets the wicked priest shit until i see fit to open my life strife like the pearly gates of heaven for media entertainment this is my expression prepare wealth and i ll share self maybe i can t help and i m lost but i ll be large anywhere else the illegal twisted war novelist the problem swallowed us it takes an activated mind to follow this and true to realm to be ourselves not to follow a fad or give in to trends til then it s all bad lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes unanswered prayers plays the background i pull my baseball caps down i hide the tracks of my tears from rapping peers i finally got on and soon there wasn t a moment til i lost my mind i lost my friends my daughter s in a coma too i m going through a strange tug of war inside my mental wall record just went platinum i m slapping em i ll show you all cover of rolling stones vibe even tv guide was filming my first movie in l a when i heard my baby died shook it off without a thought that she was beautiful soul train awards i go to not my daughters funeral i stay drunk and high like i m imperial surrounded by more white groupies than a rakim video now life s a tour to me except the way i was rejected formally disrespected neighborhoods i know supported me it s eating me suicide attempts repeatedly what i worked so hard for ultimately is defeating me i m paranoid my own mom can t avoid being a tabloid so she wasn t shocked when my baby flopped caught in the industry spending money feverishly now i ve been robbed i can t believe my lawyers did this to me next album was filled up with tragedies and despair of fans with smiling faces with no real purpose for being here i call the dear lord when in billboard i plummet from 3 to 10 it seems that failure is my new trend thought i was all that now i just fall flat splat vials of crack my old friends won t let me crawl back so where in mind can i find myself a misty storm invisible to god i m falling off like tj swan lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes lord i try to keep positive but this life is full of strife and i m tired of trying to conquer it lord always thinking negative what will go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes1