while i was walking today i realized i was asking myself the same questions i usually ask on my birthday am i proud am i old am i mature am i stable what the fuck did i do this year am i better am i wiser am i successful am i in love am i sick hi sweetheart come and tell me what should i wear tonight high heels are not an option or would you wish i changed my mind close your eyes make a wish eat for me the cakes they bring to feed me to take you away away away away but i ain t spitting i ain t spitting you i ain t spitting i ain t spitting you i ain t spitting i ain t spitting you out why do i always cry on my birthdays they usually suck but today is the saddest the saddest the saddest the saddest the saddest the saddest day of my life the gifts the hugs the smiles the presents the ridiculous cake ceremony oh my god hi sweetheart come and tell me what should i wear tonight high heels are not an option or would you wish i changed my mind 