i had a vision of myself a turd spinning in flushing water not going down i think of myself as not going down and maybe it s bad to want to go down but if i could go somewhere at least it d be a sort of conviction if i could just keep a commitment maybe i d be happier if i could just go down and not always have such a conniption every time i make a commitment maybe i d be happier maybe i d be happier if i could go down i had a premonition about my next life i was a peanut and someone cracked me open but they didn t eat me i wanna get ate cause if i could just be ate at least then i d be useful to someone instead i m just a peanut all rotten sitting here and catching dust if i could just be ate at least someone might say i was worthy and who would wanna nurse all this worry if someone would swallow you i wish someone would swallow me then i could go down and take a peek at your insides all red and brown and come out the outside and be a turd spinning in flushing water i wanna go down  cause if i could go somewhere at least it d be a sort of conviction if i could just keep a commitment maybe i d be happier but i ll never go down cause man that would just be way too easy i ll never kill myself but live forever i ll live forever then maybe i d be happier