hold in my breath not taking a step the good church has closed its doors on me god don t like my dirty feet burnin the lawn everyone s gone ain t no bbq going on today i drink my dinner in the shade days days go by children laughin still i don t smile at all mary s calling to me can t you see what i see she would never let me down it s been a long time at the bottom i spend a lot of time way down there it s been a long time at the bottom i don t know how i made it here been livin a lie my kisses are dry i got no where else left to run my love is blind deaf and dumb heaven can t wait to lock up the gate tell me that i never could be long i had my chance but got it wrong mother mary stay with me don t let me die you re the only god part left of my trash god knows i can t change me i ve tried and tried i never meant to make you cry