wasting my time wasting away wasted four long years just to claim i m okay the question remains is it still all for me running in circles am i in the right the place bloodshot eyes ringing in my ears swollen throat afraid to speak on all my fears i made a pact to be honest so it s time to speak up rip my thoughts into pieces pick apart my skull please tell me what i ve done wrong i can t do this on my own i am complacent familiar with failure feet stuck in the sand so quick to let go of the things i love a past that haunts me a future i m avoiding always looking back trying to fight the fact that this was never the plan no one deserves to live like this penniless and without a purpose the life i lead hasn t meant a thing i wouldn t miss me if i were gone spreading myself thin lost in the shuffle i am indecision wrapped up in skin giving in is a common theme i continue to dissolve outside myself my own thoughts a common thief stealing every piece of my resolve i am familiar with failure you are no stranger to reminding me my life is a fleeting moment just one big missed opportunity  i am terrified to die because my life has yet to mean anything im making an effort to ignore the voice in my head the chilling whisper of death it never disappears