i was so consumed by this emptiness because its so damn easy to be such a mess when you fear and scared about fucking up your whole fucking life will keep fucking up there s like a angel and a demon on your shoulder blades positive and negative fucking with the way you want to live but the positive is dead i ve got double negative and they laugh and scream and keep distorting in my head its so easy to fall and get lost in the darkness anything and everything will fall until your heartless sleeping in your coffin you ve got maggots on your carcass wondering and wondering how you fucking got this your worst enemy can be your self stuck up in your mind and with no one else hell becomes home when i m stuck alone demon screamin in my head wishin i was dead i ve seen the devil and i m haunted by a demon i m screamin now so lost and alone no place to call home except this coffin i m in now i m rotting so lost and alone stuck in my grave cause i m a slave to the pain i m contagious better get away from all these pages i could write a book about the bull shit i be feeling dig my hole a little deeper cus i know i m not appealing i m a fuck up that is just the voice that i be hearing i m a fuck up this is all the pain that i be feeling i m a fuck up that is just my life that you are stealing i m a fuck up that is all my blood upon the ceiling think about the people who you lost you re never missed think about the girl you lost and every time you kissed get another bottle keep on drinkin until your pissed get a fucking blade and cut your mother fucking wrist i m sick of this its so fucking hard i m breaking down so fucking scarred fuck this shit and ill burn it down cut my neck i won t make a sound i ve seen the devil and i m haunted by a demon i m screamin now so lost and alone no place to call home except this coffin i m in now i m rotting so lost and alone