sometimes i get so silent i can hear my heartbeat sometimes i get so silent the memories come back to me but now i know there is suffering no one should have to feel hiding the truth because it wasnt safe to be open with who i was it left me in agony the shame the sadness the darkness surrounded every part of my being i had no compassion no love for myself there was no relief except in thoughts of death except in thoughts of death i have learned to love myself i have learned to care i have learned to make peace with the sadness and despair i had no compassion no love for myself there was no relief except in thoughts of death oh i was so alone buried in sadness love dragged me out of it so alone buried in sadness love dragged me out of it i want to love with the courage of an open heart i want to love with the courage of an open heart i want to love with the courage of an open heart i want to love with the courage of an open heart