i can not love i can not trust waste too much time by giving a fuck feel everything i do isn t enough clock has been ticking but time isn t up i fight with myself got to make right by myself tears in my eyes while i write by myself depressed for a while put my life on the shelf wasn t fucking with nobody else i was so stagnant life was just passing i was so jealous of people who laughin felt like my life was beginning to crash and i found someone else that was equally damaged i guess that pain could bring people together and fuel the desire and fire for passion then i went through it and no one was riding for me i felt like my whole life was collapsing thought i was happy i was just actin it s such a place i could never imagine thought about quitting on that flight to new york before i got paid for mcdonald s for rapping you could keep sayin i m trash guarantee that i m an artist that s gonna be lastin and sweater and shit you could tell me i already know if you dream it then that shit could happen rez oh i m still searching waiting standing on the edge watching learning how to love again  heh if you thinkin i m for love boy you hella wrong fuck a blog cosign now y know labels wanna sign me for a leggin on but i m a fucking take what i deserve like i m le veon sayin that i m this they saying that i m that some are saying that i m sick others saying that i m wack put my blood sweat and even tears in every single track and every word i d never take it back had this dream since i was thirteen same pair of jeans didn t have much so music is when i ate slept and breathed almost turned to the pills and the liquor and the weed music is what kept me off the streets we were five deep two beds and i never had my own room everyone was rocking next too close to me in homeroom brothers were my only friends the only ones i m close to everyone s a snake or they ghost you lot of friends that i used to share clothes with they the same ones that i m not close to now when i come around people wanna know shit heh but y all don t know what i go through lot of friends that i used to share clothes with they the same ones that i m not close to now when i come around people wanna know shit nah i don t even fucking know you oh i m still searching waiting standing on the edge watching learning how to love again oh i m still searching waiting standing on the edge watching learning how to love again