a lesson lived is my lesson learned i get what i deserve i know i make mistakes it s more than you can say i can t escape being me i m face to face with all my problems and i don t know how to solve them i found my drug a fix for me but it didn t fix anything it s dark and cold throughout this season everything happens for a reason i think it s time i caught my breath and braced myself for what comes next i m medicated so fucking faded i ve become the person i once hated i m not afraid to die i m afraid of life i can t help the way i feel inside i m face to face with all my problems and it s time i fucking solved them it s all my fault i lost control of the monster inside us all