lay down she said why don t you just get a grip you re shutting down again reclusive bends weight like lead all your thoughts undone you become a loaded gun illusions can t give in are all those voices winning all my life has been a lie who am i lay down she said you re always playing dead struggling between all the chaos constant whispering can t get clear the better of my fear at times you just pretend but you ve lost it again they all talk at once but no one s there raise your voice cold blank stare confusion in life tell him it s all right it hurts you you take you smile you re faking it once again pretend but it s all lost again how will i survive this time lay down she said you re always playing dead how can you survive because this just isn t right i m losing it again