oh in a little while from now if i m not feeling any less sour i promised myself to treat myself and visit a nearby tower and climbing to the top will throw myself off in an effort to make it clear to whoever what it s like when you re shattered left standing in the lurch at a church where people saying my god that s tough she stood him up no point in us remaining we may as well go home as i did on my own alone again naturally to think that only yesterday i was cheerful bright and gay looking forward to well who wouldn t do the role i was about to play but as if to knock me down reality came around and without so much as a mere touch cut me into little pieces leaving me to doubt talk about god in his mercy for if he really does exist why did he desert me in my hour of need i truly am indeed alone again naturally it seems to me that there are more hearts broken in the world that can t be mended left unattended what do we do what do we do  alone again naturally now looking back over the years and what ever else that appears i remember i cried when my father died never wishing to hide the tears and at sixty five years old my mother god rest her soul couldn t understand why the only man she had ever loved had been taken leaving her to start with a heart so badly broken despite encouragement from me no words were ever spoken and when she passed away i cried and cried all day alone again naturally alone again naturally23