i still care about christian does he care about me when i see him around he looks down afraid of what he ll see and i know there s a heaven that he s trying to find but it s hell that he makes callous and afraid of the ones he s left behind and the touch of his body so tender and cruel when he made me play girlfriend there wasn t much i could do he d come to my garret and we d make something like love but the flowers he gave me have wilted but i keep them like i keep him he wants a life after life but the world he didn t love and the one he didn t love should have been night after night but the world he didn t love and the one he didn t love will never know paradise when he makes his confessions when he says his prayers and kneels beside his bed in the moonlight is a part of me there he s taken up with a new girl who keeps his conscience clean and tells him he s a keeper though i don t know if he knows what that means