a good man doesn t drink and i ve been drinking alone so what does that make me my hands they always shake and no one s calling my phone so what does that make me and i know the kid with his guitar so drunk and anxious has been done to death but tell me what hasn t i ll try it because i m selfish enough to wanna get better but i m backwards enough not to take any steps to get there and when you realize it s a pattern and not a phase it s what you ve become and it s what you will stay that s ballgame cause i don t got room in my life for anyone else and i ve driven away all the people that could help and i still don t even know what i need to do to fix myself and there s a clamp around my chest it tightens every time i lapse into another sorry story about my miserable collapse a bronze box i keep encased in glass and dust off whenever i want your pity cause lately i ve had to come to grips with scope and figure how my problems stack up in a world two steps from ruin well either way i realize that my shit s about as small as it could be but that makes me feel worse for even feeling this bad in the first place cause there s a war starting soon and all the flags ll be waving and daniel s 20 year old friend will be ready and willing and waiting he s a marine and he told me and that makes me sad really really fucking sad but at least he ll act i ll just bite my tongue and then say daniel you wish him luck i pray that he comes back for his mother s sake and then i ll drink those thoughts away i ve gotten good at that cause when you realize it s a pattern and not a phase it s what you ve become and it s what you will stay that s ballgame oh oh oh yeah when you realize it s a pattern and not a phase it s what you ve become and it s what you will stay that s ballgame yeah when you realize it s a pattern and not a phase it s what you ve become and it s what you will stay that s ballgame