he looks better than me in skinny jeans but i look better than he does naked then they taste so sweet that you forget that you ve ever had your heart broken another panic attack fills up the space in my chest so i let the whiskey flow and my feelings go but i m not dead i wanna say to myself that i m not dead this is my golden year and the darkest time i blew all my money on sparkling wine because it seemed like the right thing but i was losing my mind losing my mind don t ask me if i m happy if you don t want the truth i ve been waiting on you to call and tell me that i m beautiful slow down shut up stop feeling sorry for yourself cause you re not dead i can walk i can leave i can do anything i please because i m not dead this is my golden year and the darkest time i blew all my money of sparkling wine because it seemed like the right thing but i was losing my mind losing my mind i can t remember what i said to the bartenders and i check my bank account i wanna yell at myself i woke up with a headache from hell but i don t wanna lose myself in the medicine cause i m not dead it s not over till we re all dead  this is our golden year and the darkest time i blew all my money on sparkling wine because it seemed like the right thing but i was losing my mind losing my mind i blew all my money on sparkling wine cause it seemed like the right thing