i swear i ll never come home i m a mess can t contain all the lies and the hate that fuel my bitter existence come show me a better way torn between two cities i mourn the death of my dreams everything happens so fast i can t get a grip on reality all this time and i still don t know why i can t get out of these fucking doldrums and back to the daylight every single day is the same i only want the chance to rearrange no you can t move on to the future if you re still living in the past i turn my back but it never lasts it will never last all that i can do is try to pull myself out of the clouds and turn away from anything that can bring me down i look around but there s not a sound you don t make a sound step away so i can see the former mistakes that define me all i can gather is nothings cheap apparently i am my own worst enemy i am my own worst enemy fuck no you can t move on to the future if you re still living in the past i turn my back but it never lasts it will never last all that i can do is try to pull myself out of the clouds and turn away from anything that can bring me down i look around but there s not a sound you don t make a sound i will always stay within the light kill all hesitation