the sacrifice must be for some unknown deity babe i just can t get hard for reality at least not mine your love chariot is like an immortal bleeding beast and peerless can t seem to motivate my heart to function this age is a bitch that burns our dreams so mercilessly we can only turn away i wonder can i produce enough heat to keep our experiment alive i turned you off cause i couldn t cope seeing the disappointment in your eyes do it oh nina how can i defend myself against this world that batters me like a retarding cartoon it s too sick for salvation but that word is just a joke oh nina my mood system is chaos i m desperate for something but there s no human word for it i should be happy but what i feel is corrupted broken impotent and insane oh nina i ve become so hateful how am i ever going to survive this winter i can think of nothing but getting my revenge make those fuckers pay but it s not gonna happen and it s eating a hole in me eating a hole in me it s eating a hole eating a hole eating a hole in me in our hive conceit each suffering repeat hostile concession too foul to mention i ve inherited spiritual sanctions for some old ancestral crime it was committed long ago but the punishment s absolved all down the family line everyone s so unstable on my mother s side and emotionally barren on my father s side but tell me how can i attempt to atone for somebody else s wilful ignorance 