i wish that i could end this but i m too afraid to try afraid to try and i wanna scream i feel it in my lungs in every breath i take in my bones in my heart with every smile i fake the look of dead eyes the fear the lies and this disguise and i feel it in my blood and it makes me numb i wish that i could end this but i m too afraid to try and i don t know what to say to you if you wanted to know why i wish that things were easier but the stars are not aligned and my heart can t survive the pain let s me know that i m alive something surrounding me pulled under and i can t breathe reflections lie to me i see what they don t see the look of dead eyes the fear the lies and this disguise and i feel it drowning me and i wanna scream i wish that i could end this but i m too afraid to try and i don t know what to say to you if you wanted to know why i wish that things were easier but the stars are not aligned and my heart can t survive the pain let s me know that i m alive and i was broken but now i m standing on my own a new moment to begin the scars of our past don t have to hold us back but i m addicted to the way you make me feel and i ll never understand you ll never understand  i wish that i could end this but i m too afraid to try and i don t know what to say to you if you wanted to know why i wish that i could hate you but i cannot live a lie and my heart can t survive i wanted to stop breathing but i m too afraid to die and i don t know what to say to you if you wanted to know why and now everyone is telling me that i lost my mind and if i tried to get me back i m scared of what i d find i am broken