when i asked what closure felt like no one could give me a solid answer when we turned around the corner i felt my entire body shake i swear it didnt look like him those hands were dirty and that was comforting and when she said dont be afraid for the last time i touched his face and i drove over sunday morning i couldnt stop shaking the whole way and she walked over to the thermostat said the house needed to be warm today and we all sat there in silence listening to our mother cry and i felt it when it hit i feel everything and i heard you practicing in the shower all the things you were gonna say though i didnt hear specific words boy i tell you you sounded brave you were that little bit too late probably wouldnt have changed him anyway but if i said that i felt the same would it feel okay and i keep his photo in my wallet yeah i watch home videos sometimes to hear his voice and see him smiling to heal the impact on my life still hoping ill see him on the street or in the house he built around me and my sisters and my brother for the strongest woman ive ever known my mother and i keep his photo in my room and how he looked so much like you charlie youre gonna be okay at least tomorrow if not today and charlie im gonna be okay and there is no one we can blame charlie youre gonna be okay at least tomorrow if not today keep playing your songs every day oh and when youre not okay you can always call and it was no ones fault