send me a big smile envelope me in your arms tape my knees across my tummy shut me up inside a cardboard box litter it with first class stamps and tell me that i m number one maybe a sticker or two to show everyone that i m fun remember that you needn t bother pack me a lunch box or water just remember that i love you just remember that you ll never see me ever again my body got messed up on the train a case of wine and some boxes of knives fell on my face now i am going to die i close my eyes and listen to my insides becoming outsides i listen to them wave and file out of me in a parade my kidneys descend hand in hand after the storm has cleared like a couple of soggy truffles or a loving pair of deer well i wasn t built quite strong enough to keep them warm and safe i cried as your heart tumbled out with mine our love would never propagate maybe i could find a boat to take us both away i wouldn t have to miss you anymore i promise it would be the same i d listen to you giggle and i d listen to your heart beat faster with every caress i d listen long into each morning after