is this danger is this true love is this something i can hope to know is this laughter is this anger is this a reason to lose control i have stood on the mountain apex waiting for the truth i have walked a million miles just to see what i already knew is this a basket is this my own life is this container to never use is this sadness is this past us is this a moment we did not choose i have walked through the darkest forest waiting for inspiration i have prayed a million hail marys just to wait at that godless station i ve been holding back on loving you i ve been holding back i ve been holding back ive been holding back on holding you i ve been holding back i ve been holding back is this wisdom is this garbage is this something i can throw away is this caution is this springtime is this a season that will not stay i ve been holding back on loving you i ve been holding back i ve been holding back ive been holding back on holding you i ve been holding back i ve been holding back is this over is this my wish is this a speech that i have never heard is this a lion is this a lamb is this a nature where we cant be sure 