sleeping for half the day waking up in a haze the last year has been that way wasted time that i ll never replace i just want to wake up to myself i tried so hard but i couldn t change the pressure was making me sick i can see where i went wrong but i ve been on this path for so long so long now still searching for substance if only i knew what i wanted i m so indecisive when it comes to making up my mind i want to bury myself so i can sleep at night some call me cynical but life has never been that bright temptation is calling me towards the light but i m not going anywhere without a fight i just hope that there s truth in the words i write i tried so hard but i couldn t change the pressure was making me sick i can see where i went wrong but i ve been on this path for so long so long now my life stopped but the world kept spinning around me while i did nothing i ve been beating myself up cause no one would say you re life s a fucking joke but you ll be okay the fact of the matter is i m a disgrace just a 20 year old waste of space brace yourself for the tidal wave i ll fill your head with negativity what s so good about being me what s so wrong about being afraid i ve been holding my breath for so long where do you turn when you don t have anything anymore i ve been holding my breath for so long but i don t know how much longer i can hold on
['anthem emo']