neither heaven or hell will take me now cause i m so lost for so long where i fell is where hope gave and it s all gone and i m all wrong again all the while they had me so convinced that all the trying was somehow worth it this denial that i ve been drowning in had me believe i don t deserve this i ve been struggling for years to find what they call home and i ve been terrified to think i might still end up all alone neither what is wrong or i think is right for now can make up for this i can t handle it and when redemption feels so far out of reach it seems hopeless and i m sure it is and all the while i had them so convinced that i was trying and somehow meant it and this denial that i ve been drowning in had me believe that i was innocent i ve been struggling for years to find that they call home and i ve been terrified to think i might still end up all alone i have made a mockery of all these things that i believe and i have lost my faith in all the things i knew when i was young and i have been so out of line it s no one else s fault but mine i will take the blame for this if i could learn to just forgive i ve been struggling for years to find what theycall home and i ve been terrified to think i might still end up all alone i ve been struggling for years to find what they call home and i ve been terrified to think i might still endup all alone