you ever dance with the devil in the middle of the winter my high coated in december happy nieces newer memory up and coming the enemy taking over by entities i don t think that they carefully throwin up from the hennessy and bars i ll jump in front of a car at the height of my career just to die fuck a start know one thing this life is hard but it did the industry took my chick it took all my inner peace and took all of my innocence and made me already paranoid and made me fucking arrogant i m self conscious had to say fuck this i ma get hella lit i need to learn to channel my anger social anxiety everyone got an eye on me everybody relying on me i don t think i ll ever find love and i ma die lonely look up to the sky homie crying god staring back music pushing away all my loved ones how unfair is that if happiness is really a thing then show me where its at i got a good side but lately evil prevail and fuck i look like bitch not a personal fail and run my hood right ain t no person working hard as me under age and bitch they never courted me nah no mod sun ay ay have you walked with a smile with each and every mile that walk through every day like a man not a child and i own my style stayed wild while the rest toned down just to fit the profile when i got up to the peak got a peek at what i didn t wanna be and slipped back down into the valley and the place that they can see all the visions i m giving doing not wishing i changed my position i ve positive lived it now everybody want a piece of a masterpiece rolling to a different beat and different strategy manage shit just comes with ease so why you mad at me off the top guillotine everything i said i mean rez and me no id bleeding out poetry doing this solo but no we ain t lonely every night what i lack i m gonna take it home with me hippie be preaching my words it s so holy it s mod sun  i got a good side but lately evil prevail and fuck i look like bitch not a personal fail and run my hood right ain t no person working hard as me under age and bitch they never courted me i gave my soul to this fuckin music industry no turning back lost the only girl that i ve for fifteen fuckin stacks doing the fuckin running man ain t nobody understand once an artist fall off there ain t a chance of coming back i think i m going wild i feel like i lost a child i feel like a daughter wild back in forgot what its like to smile and actually fucking mean it i wanna wake up from this nightmare i m sick of living my dreams this life is not what it seems matter fact it s the opposite ya ll think that bitches money and drugs is just the awesomest all these wack rappers do stupid shit and you follow with em sick of this fuckin world i can t wait for the apocalypse wanna be lady gaga rich i should a been anonymous when making fuckin music so ain t nobody would bother me i m owing everybody a fuckin open apology for being so distant and cold hearted i m being honest i got a good side but lately evil prevail and fuck i look like bitch not a personal fail and run my hood right ain t no person working hard as me under age and bitch they never courted me 1