i m not alive i m not dead i can t be alive not without you i m remembering everything and it hurts all i wanted to do was to heal your wounds i wanted you to see the beauty i see in you but you were never willing to comprehend you were never alone in this i m always willing to be you were never alone in this i was willing to be by your side you always said for the fight you d be standing on the front lines where your heart is you ll find your treasure now it seems i don t know where your heart was at the whole time you never had to be alone through this and you know it i was always standing by your side let me in your arms let me be your first let me share your pain can you just let me in i always wondered bout that look in your eyes so cold with no emotion and your hands at your side you can t hide from me ya know that i ve been reading your mind and it s been telling me a story of an unhappy life so full of pain and so full of regret you left a message on my pillow that said never forget me i know you re so afraid of opening up but i m begging on my knees can you just let me in it will never be over