forgive me for the lies i ve told i know my story s getting old but please just hear me out one last time long before i d popped pills and swam in unpaid bills there was a time i felt something other than restlessness at night mother grabbed me by the hair threw me down the stairs picked me up and cried stayed till i was breathing right a fucking household prisoner there were scratches on my neck bruises on my arms living check to check driving broken cars i gave up counting sheep cus i never fucking sleep packing my things and i m moving away forget you ever even knew who i was and when you hear my voice or see my face i hope it gives a decent taste of what it s like to feel so unloved i had my first suicidal thoughts when i was 13 years old was taken by the idea of an escape i saw my best friends father beat his mother till she couldn t walk he grabbed my head and said you better not talk family members die choosing different sides some i ll never see split my family tree right in half and you re okay with that packing my things and i m moving away forget you ever even knew who i was and when you hear my voice or see my face i hope it gives a decent taste of what it s like to feel so unloved it s been a minute since we last spoke and when you call my phone i think i always choke there just ain t a whole lot left for me to say looking back now i can say i m proud blending with the crowd maybe i m more human than you d like to believe  and i m packing my things and i m moving away forget you ever even knew who i was and when you hear my voice or see my face i hope it gives a decent taste of what it s like to feel so unloved1