i think we all have these moments in our life where we say or do things and we re so sorry for them really it s not the way we would have wanted it to come out umm let s face it this is real life and this is the thought that was captured from me that words only share a small portion of the vision that they give witness too i had to write this in blood because the ink wouldn t stick i sold five to six million but yo that aint really shit it was supposed to be different we were supposed to ride out but too much shot his girl then shot himself in the mouth then the steady game form but very soon fell apart cause when you just doing all with no the loyalty in your heart its like catching alzheimers on all these niggers forgetting where theyre coming from and theyre slowing down wait a minute what were running from this what were supposed to do heres where were supposed to be i hated mtv for trying to play me like a mockery but that don t bother me i just fulfill my fucking contract small price to pay just to take a piece of mind back my back backfire assassination of my character just to make some millions off of america my younger sister erika just adopted a child my older brother served fifteen he made it out even though my father loved me i aint seen him in a while had to fight my baby momma bitch give me my nigga now cause he s running out of time and i need him to understand the way a superior man had build a brand niggas talk about my taxes had to pay to uncle sam im surviving cause the minds eyes quicker than the hand heartbreak disappointment my mother died when i was nine i just wanted to join her nah mr joiner you get to california i got something for you to do it was like i was anointed resurrected found my purpose i remember meeting dre being nervous when i would kick my verses i was virtually worthless my whole life was a circus i was sleeping with serpents and i thought it is worth it got a call from paul told me shit isnt working exchange words told me tell me that shit in person he probably told em and by the way did he said it unapologetic twisted made about him i see slim and he said he didnt recognize me was it that or did he let another man define me i dont know but now i gotta get this all behind me follow my calling when i used to follow niggers blindly  i wish i had a better relationship with my uncles blood relatives i could turn to when im feeling trouble and talk about my struggles my uncle john nail he only put me on the phone with different females and this is such a such nephew tell er whats up aint even ask about tremayne and gatlyn growing up fuck i drink it all and i smash the bottle self medicated numb but i mma feel it tomorrow it feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin but now the pain is gone i got my second win only the strong live long you better settle in im fighting for ever i will never let the devil win 1983 thats when my journey begins i searched every world for strength only to find it within this for me and my kin still dying to live living life to the fullest till i see you again2