may 10th thank god for the rain which has helped wash the garbage and the trash off the sidewalks i m workin long hours now six days a week sometimes seven days a week it s a long hustle but it keeps me real busy i can take in three three fifty a week sometimes even more if i do it off the meter all the animals come out at night buggers queens fairies dopers junkies sick venal someday a real rain will come that will wash all the scum off the streets i go all over i take people to the bronx brooklyn harlem i don t care don t make no difference to me it does to some some won t even take spooks don t make no difference to me each night when i return the cab to the garage i have to clean the backseat some nights i clean off the blood twelve hours at work and i still can t sleep damn days go on and on it don t end all my life meaning was a sense of someplace to go i don t believe that one should devote his life to morbid self attention i believe that someone should become a person like other people loneliness has followed me my whole life everywhere in bars in cars sidewalks stores everywhere there s no escape i m god s lonely man june 8th life has taken another turn again the days move on with regularity over and over then suddenly there is change june 29th i gotta get in shape from now on i m gonna do 50 push ups every morning fifty pull ups from now on it ll be total organization every muscle must be tight the idea had been growing in my brain for some time true force all the king s men could not put it back together again you talkin to me you talkin to me you talkin to me who the hell else are you talkin to you talkin to me well i m the only one here who do you think you re talkin to oh yeah huh listen you screwheads here s a man who would not take it anymore a man who stood up against the scum the dogs the filth someone who stood up now i see it clearly my whole life has pointed in one direction i see that now there never has been any choice for me2