so there it is claire it is as you feared all these years of wonder their closure draws near a quiet kind of distance a word i would not touch did i ever know my son at all well now i know too much but where was the warning how can this be i guess there are some things we don t want to see where was the warning to know this was coming now what do i do with this news i find numbing where was the warning where was the warning and what if i liked the song i heard before the one i sang when my boy was born all the dreams i had for him they fade away lost in words i could not say i wish that i could hold him god he s all alone and scared i should be there for him i love him so but i am not prepared and where was the warning his father will die how do i tell him he can t see me cry where was the warning don t tell anyone i won t want their pity i just want my son it s happened it s happened and life is so strange one simple word and the whole world has changed could this really be my child my firstborn my child who lay in his cradle so tender and mild