i hope to break myself open drain this poison water let it flow back to its ocean that i used to call father every absence is a door to walk through but it all leads to empty rooms and the writing on the wall says we were never here but if awe is the salve for my eyes then ive gone blind we are not hard to find but were all lost all of the time and i was a creature of habit so i got myself stuck on your rabbit trails and im trying hard to leave myself when youre constantly in motion the forest has no trees and the one i climbed was broken and i fell quick through its iridescent leaves all my cravings in your absence moved to lesser things that i love too and the writing on the wall says we were fading quickly i dreamed of ropes tied round the rafters but i heard your heart shatter and i woke and cried till my eyes saw things clearly that fear would keep me here even if this life had scared me and if awe is the salve for my eyes than ive gone blind i am not hard to find but i feel lost all of the time i was a creature of habit i am leaving your rabbit trails and i am trying hard to believe myself