i used to wait around for payday until i got fired couldnt get rehired early i retired only to realize it could be worse what if i couldnt spit this verse what if i was on my way to my funeral in a herse getting buried next to my co d in the dirt what if it was never rap never a beat that means ill never move my feet what will inspire me no music is no life no way of expression through my depression im still counting all my blessings destiny it has to be because its gods intent if its meant to be im behind it 100 percent what if i was never born never though of what if i never saw earth never saw love i take it day by day loving my people huggin the block hustling for the root of all evil i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse i could be dead or in jail uneducated and frail another endangered black male i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse there is really no one to blame and we cant complain maintain cause you control change what if your family was plagued with cancer and a i d s and someone put a number on you days three uncles in three years thats serious cause thats three brothers that didnt out live their own mother or what if you where born innocent yet torn with sickness by your own mothers dumb decisions ive witnessed niggas complain about hustling and things and they dont understand the nature of the game it could be worse than pumpin on the block with rocks runnin from cops you could get locked chillin in comstock for a crime you didnt commit rather you didnt pull the trigger cause of your record they figure to put it on you nigga i seen it all cause im young and wise yet old there are newborn babies who get abandoned in the cold sistas without a child cause children they cant bear homeless people on my street screamin it aint fair  i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse i could be dead or in jail uneducated and frail another endangered black male i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse there is really no one to blame and we cant complain maintain cause you control change i sit back and reflect and thank god that im healthy and my son was born strong so im wealthy i want to reach out to some of those who felt me im just frustrated with what rappers tell me on records constantly whining about grindin they should be thankful for the chance to be rhyming cause its kids out there with just one wish some people still aint free put up one fist because the real is this country let us rob and steal hustle this crill and con people out of their scrill in some places looking at a mans wife a get you killed so less blood spilled no you thugs feel lucky opportunity is infinite look around you ever wonder why you see so many businesses so i excepted that it could be first and put my fam first so my life has worth i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse i could be dead or in jail uneducated and frail another endangered black male i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse there is really no one to blame and we cant complain maintain cause you control change i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse i could be dead or in jail uneducated and frail another endangered black male i had to stop putting me first i had to realize yo this could be worse there is really no one to blame and we cant complain maintain cause you control change