fell this morning fucked up this whole damn day in fact the sun is high and shining but i m too drained to leave i ll wait for night to sink close the blinds and lock both the doors oh god i m terrified i m terrified to be found here shaking and withdrawn i need a break i keep scratching but won t cut deep enough to bleed i ll figure it out alone don t know what s gotten in to me but it ll be alright it ll be alright it s okay god damn sometimes silence is all i need to be and feel complete it s okay if you never hurt you never feel a thing and i don t say all i mean fuck tomorrow and fuck all of yesterday i m too old to be chasing burdens by the riverside at night a watershed waste deep with friends turning cheeks as i m chasing trains that never end i cut but i don t feel don t know what s gotten it s okay god damn sometimes silence is all i need to be and feel complete it s okay if you never hurt you never feel a thing and i don t say all i mean but i m not scared no i ain t angry i just need time just need to escape we all try tired and broken but it ll be alright