at night in my window i see your silhouette crying heavy tears look how wet my pillow gets throughout my days i don t smile i just get upset and since you left look at all the shit that it affects i take a picture of your face and i just hold it up kiss it then reminisce on when it was both of us it s hard for me to open up i m always talking to myself but to nobody else some say that church or maybe counseling could probably help but they don t know about all of my idiotic lies all the fucking times i left you traumatized swore up and down to you saying i ma try and never did i try not to cry but i feel bad i didn t apologize it s time i cough it up and tell more my soul is taken never sell yours i did some shit i probably coulda been in jail for bury me deep inside hell s core and don t let me out until you hear bells roar she said you never loved me you just controlled me if you fuck around i m calling the police but all i wanted to say was i m sorry oh how i wish that could tell you you re gone you re dead you ll never know that i was sorry just leave me alone stay out my head i wish that i could tell you you re gone you re dead you ll never know that i was sorry just leave me alone stay out my head i wish that i could tell you it s hard to forget my heart is a brick i tell myself marcus i thought that you were smarter than this the mess i put you through was worse than pearl harbor and shit i d always harm you and flip mentally scar you and trip sometimes i d argue and get the nerve to call you a bitch then bruise your back against the dresser that i tossed you against my juliet at the time i never thought you was it i do now but shit you re gone so i just offer you this a song to you through it i open the crack in my chest and show the whole world i ve always had a lack of respect for women who enter my life i look to vengeance as knife intentions to fight if you thinking i was senseless you right now every sentence i write i think twice on it so i don t regret cause only stress lies in a sinful mind of loneliness i m an unholy mess put me in a hole to rest welcome to my life this is how painful my stories get  she said you never loved me you just controlled me if you fuck around i m calling the police but all i wanted to say was i m sorry oh how i wish that could tell you you re gone you re dead you ll never know that i was sorry just leave me alone stay out my head i wish that i could tell you you re gone you re dead you ll never know that i was sorry just leave me alone stay out my head i wish that i could tell you now use this track as a lesson all you guys out there who have some aggression towards your woman it don t have to get hectic that crap is pathetic now look at me i have to regret it i can t go near her or nothing she ll probably have me arrested the only thing i could do is just make a track with a message and hope she hears it so she could know i was badly affected i never meant to be that type of guy but i realized that i was and because of it i m throwing my sinister life aside i can cry at any moment just thinking about it sometimes i hide it from the folks that i m hanging around with i should apply for a new soul cause i think it s invalid somebody told me when i die i ll be safe but i doubt it the grudge she holds against me it hurts me so severely she won t come near me i thought that time was supposed to cure me i m so alone and weary writing songs to heal me i swear that i m sorry heather i mean it so sincerely she said you never loved me you just controlled me if you fuck around i m calling the police but all i wanted to say was i m sorry oh how i wish that could tell you you re gone you re dead you ll never know that i was sorry just leave me alone stay out my head i wish that i could tell you you re gone you re dead you ll never know that i was sorry just leave me alone stay out my head i wish that i could tell you14