i have joined the long defeat that falling set in motion and all my strength and energy are raindrops in the ocean so conditioned for the win to share in victor s stories but in the place of ambition s din i have heard of other glories and i pray for an idea and a way i cannot see it s too heavy to carry and impossible to leave i can t just fight when i think i ll win that s the end of all belief and nothing has provoked it more than a possible defeat we walk a while we sit and rest we lay it on the altar i won t pretend to know what s next but what i have i ve offered and i pray for a vision and a way i cannot see it s too heavy to carry and impossible to leave and i pray for inspiration and a way i cannot see it s too heavy to carry and impossible to leave it s too heavy to carry and i will never leave