3 56 searching for inspiration coming up empty handed i m running out of patience i feel so fucking stranded i killed myself in my mind at least a thousand times on all those nights where i just couldn t fall asleep sitting there gritting my teeth watching the clock couldn t help but think about all i lived loved and lost i beat the piss out of myself i toss and turn inside my shell just don t know where i m headed what s the point i don t get it