i try to focus on my drink but i can see my fate in it i took a deep breath and drunk and never questioned where i got it is this purgatory now i swear im dead i really mean it ive hit rock bottom i wake in bed and fuck myself over again ill give myself up to the wind if i please cause its so fucking pointless making plans with my dreams well youve just woken up and im barely asleep when im home from this journey im giving myself to the sea i try to focus on my feet but its a blur just past my nose wearing the same jeans and same hat i wore a year ago when you explained to me there was beauty missing someone far away did you really mean it or have you forgotten i wake in bed and fuck myself over again ill give myself up to the wind if i please cause its so fucking pointless making plans with my dreams well youve just woken up and im barely asleep when im home from this journey im giving myself to the sea the things you need you push away