i was on the water when it began to heave and at the fight my words were strong but i would not have imagined that they d stop making patterns it s caps of white raised and broke i fasten to the boat the panic overtook me and the fear i held within i drew a breath and i tried to find the courage to stand the troubled trip what have i gotten myself into i silently wondered i silently asked i thought of my family and thought of my love i thought of my maker and what might be above and the cabin in the woods that i have not yet built many other things that i hold dear in this world i rode through the turmoil and rode through the strife i held to my words and i clumped to my life and then when my vision began to blur this is what i saw in the thought that had occurred i saw every fish swimming fast beside me and all kinds of leafs from all different trees and all of the insects that circle on the earth birds and land animals are reaching towards birth and i saw my body on a body of water and i could see that we were the same roaring and reckless invulnerable emotion and swinging and predisposed to changing when i open my eyes vision respell i picked up my oars and i kissed the coldness with stronger arms i silently swear i silently drifted i silently wept