the feelings i had for this place once unknown remain as feelings i fear rather than a place to feel home and while seasons keep dying i already stopped trying to get emotions in line everytime your eyes hit mine it s decisions i ve made that caused both love and hate for all that i am for all that i am for all that i m not for ways that i cut for every feeling i choked and the promises i broke but to live not survive it s just impossible but to live not survive as a part of this place is only bearable while i m away