i take a walk outside to remind myself i m not the only one living in this hell i know i ll probably need some help cause i can t take it i walk a couple blocks to the liquor store i know i ve been down this path before lost so many friends to addiction but i still can t shake it should i pray to a god that i don t see should i fake a smile when you all see me knowing if you knew the real me you d drown me out like jason and i can t seem to love myself i guess staring at the ugly i possess hoping you ll forgive me for the mess i m finally at peace no one could save me i m finally at peace no one could save me couldn t take it breakdown inside of me hold it inside of me breakdown inside of me till i m dead hoping reality finds me some sanity breakdown inside of me till i m dead in my time alone all that i find is fear visions of your face slowly disappear you don t know you killed me do you you don t know i ll die just despite you i ve waited by the phone my vision s not so clear this poison calms my soul i really wish you were here but it seems like all i am just fades away fades away the saint and the sinner talk with each other walk with one another drugged out on needles two sided people please come together can we find a reason for peace this evening no more crying mothers we re blinded for a reason lets go fight the demons let s conquer ourselves first not harm one another kill one another shoot one another no more crying mothers don t take our brothers we war with each other it s such a saddening thing to see we can t trust trust one another if you ve seen what i ve seen then you d know why we suffer 1