you should ve heard me sobbing as i drove home that night got into bed and stayed there for days i just laid there having been permanently changed but we won t get into that now let s take it from the start you should ve seen me smiling like the world was mine she used to call me baby softly sometimes but if i dwell on those days too long i feel like my life is over and that s no good so let s move on to the part where i begin to sense her distance i panic and hold on tighter but that makes it worse how am i supposed to take it when she said this is something i m going through it s got nothing to do with you i had a special evening all planned out desperately determined to reignite some spark between us she had to feel something for me a love as strong as ours doesn t just go away you can t just turn it off unless she was lying all those times but i don t think so i really don t think so the way she used to look at me made me a thousand feet high the meaning of the word cool not the same geek who fumbled with his words that night the ugliest night i said some pretty awkward things i got the feeling that she felt sorry for me i should ve seen it was hopeless and left it alone but i had to go on embarrassing myself  i miss what we had i need you so badly i miss what we had i need you so badly i miss what we had i need you so badly i miss what we had i need you so badly i must ve sounded pretty pathetic i know that s why i don t blame her for what she said but listen to me rambling we don t know each other that well but you re so easy to talk to i feel i could tell you almost anything i hope i haven t put you off i have a tendency to do that why don t i just be quiet 