i am so confused i don t know what s up or down should i leave or stick around am i lost or am i found he s throwin wisdom like a poet throwin tantrums like a child but when he holds my hand my pulse runs red and wild i was a fighter for my freedom now a fool for his touch he is a nightcap a brunch buzz and i m a lush next to the nightstand i m taking every pill he s got my head my heart my throat my lungs my stomach all in a knot i swore off suitors and the never ending needless drugs i learned my lesson and i thought yeah i ve had enough but i m back on love back on love and i m losing time losing weight i m a loser for this man i ve been lost since our first date he is a tight rope talker i can t balance at all he says it s fascinating watching me tip toe and crawl he says my ex boyfriend s boring he says the moon is the sun he says anxiety can be the source of lots of fun my best friend made a list of ways his love is off track but i don t give a shit and i refuse to call that bitch back he might be messin in new york he might be messin with my head but i ll do anything to keep him messin in my bed next to the nightstand i m taking every pill he s got my head my heart my throat my lungs my stomach all in a knot i swore off suitors and the never ending needless drugs i learned my lesson and i thought yeah i ve had enough but i m back on love back on love  i ve got witches wavin in my windows sky high i cry and swear to quit i ve got witches wavin in my windows sky high i cry and swear to quit i ve got witches wavin in my windows sky high i cry and swear to quit he calls me up he calls me moonlight i m pulling up to pacsam for one more hit next to the nightstand i m taking every pill he s got my head my heart my throat my lungs my stomach all in a knot i swore off suitors and the never ending needless drugs i learned my lesson and i thought yeah i ve had enough but i m back on love back on love back on love 