looking did i really turn 23 just to see a metal 4 before 24 did i just blow it all like a hand grenade in the middle of a civil war am i still down with the same niggas that i came in with do they really value my friendship or do the just love the attention not to mention my girlfriends what went wrong did they do me too right am i the same as the snakes is the past coming back to bite did i waste too many days did i fight too many nights will they love me when i die will i ever learn how to fly there will be tears i ve no doubt there may be smiles but a few and when the tears have run out we ll be numb and blue blue