verse 1 well ava walked down the street she said i don t know this place well my stepmom s a witch and she doesn t know shit and no i don t wanna live like this pre chorus she feeds the workers nothing she won t let me do nothing so i swallowed a teaspoon of arsenic no i don t wanna live like this you re suddenly forty one when everything came undone chorus suicide is the worst sin i ll find another way to get into heaven my god i ll find another way to get into heaven my god verse 2 i bet the arsenic just made me sick a full on week of vomiting i m gonna kill a kid the most innocent i m gonna kill a kid then i ll turn myself in the boy i killed didn t know any better i strolled into town and found him by a river i threw him in because the boy can t swim i threw him and i turned myself in well i never forget my sins and so again outro suicide is the worst sin i ll find another way to get into heaven my god i ll find another way to get into heaven my god