hey you know that i ve been searching deep inside and i m not certain i will like the things i find i don t know that you will understand but i have tried i don t know just why i need to do the things i do and i d love to do these things without them hurting you i don t know that you will understand but that s the truth i d give it up for you but let me finish what i ve got i d love to now but lord you know it sure does take a lot i ll always love you honey but i can t be what i m not