seems crazy cuz people be thinking that i be changing but it s really them that be changing yo i remember the day i first signed my record deal with lyle everything was so good everyone was so proud i was so very happy still with my baby daddy living with my granny but we was all family it s like when the tour begin that s when the war begin you would be flipping ripping soon as i m walkin in and i m so sleepy could barely stay awake you don t understand i been in the studio for six weeks straight till 4 in the morning tryna finish these songs and all you wanna talk about is how many times you was calling and i m always lying it s never the truth it never crossed your mind that i could ve been in the booth tryna hurry up and get back home to you tryna get these cheues so we could get out the jects i wasn t thinking bout no niggas wasn t thinking bout sex tryna do this show so i could get this dough all i was thinking was i gotta finish remy on the rocks and i m not tryna flop so it gotta be hot everybody on my back saying hurry up and drop so i m asking you what i m suppose to do listen y all i know it seem like i be dissing y all i m just tryna reach my goals and remain focused but ain t shit changed now i m still the same so wish me well sometimes i might scream and yell but even people with a fan base have bad days but ain t shit changed for real i m still the same you was the only child until i came see we was buck wild back in the days i was scared to have a boyfriend cuz you would beat him up we d eat cereal together watch cartoons when we got up so i couldn t believe that you flipped on me right in the streets for a bitch so weak that ain t got shit but a fucked up weave and i m your blood your little sister i started to cry said it must be the liquor see i almost died when you took sides with her then walked off and just left me there like i was nobody and you really ain t care said you would die for me how you ain t gon ride for me how you see me on the block and don t say hi to me it s all love now and it s all done now but you never took the time to apologize to me it may be hard to see but it bothers me i know you ain t gon let nobody do no harm to me but you can t be acting like you fathered me so i m asking you what i m suppose to do mommy you was the one that made me but you didn t raise me you left me all alone i had to hold my own but now i m all grown and far away from home i know you love me but you did me wrong i guess it was all the drugs that you was on or the beatings you got from my foul step pops remember the time his punk ass had his nerve to raise his hands to me bitch nigga blacking my eye i was wishing he would die but now i wish him life i know he seeing me blowing and it s killing him slowly but what kills me is that you watched him hit me so i m asking you what i m suppose to do 
['alternative r&b', 'bronx hip hop', 'hip pop', 'r&b', 'trap queen', 'urban contemporary']