phone rings st catharines psychiatric help line this is nancy i m sure this is all gonna sound really ridiculous and uh i don t exactly expect anyone to believe all this uh for the last little while i ve been keeping correspondence with my sanity and uhh i really get the feeling that im starting to lose interest in the letter writing process the pieces of the letters just get progressively shorter and shorter until its not even a reply i uhh the whole thing makes me really nervous i just wish i could show you what a huge problem this is as life hangs beside me i gather all that i can you were never one for confrontation but now it lies all in your hands your hands your hands i kind of have this really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions right like what if uhh what if there s a spot on my body that i can touch to keep my heart from beating or like what if what if there s this uhh stray bullet out there thats gonna come through my window and take me out like what if uhh what if there s this huge unstoppable comet thats just gonna like destroy the earth and all of us like what what if thats happening right now how can i avoid all these questions if i don t have that like who is gonna be here why who is gonna be there in the hospital who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit it s a dream just a dream this is not a joke and uhh i ll never sleep  who will be there to tell me how stupid i am who will be there to tell me how stupid i am who will be there to tell me how stupid i am who will be there to tell me how stupid i am who will keep me from lashing out lashing out anxiety chokes me like razorwire razorwire who will keep me from lashing out lashing out anxiety chokes me like razorwire razorwire now it s all in your hands in your hands now it s all in your hands in your hands now it s all in your hands in your hands now it s all in your hands in your hands anxiety chokes me like razorwire anxiety chokes me like razorwire razorwire 2