i m feeling mean today not lost not blown away just irritated and quite hated self control breaks down why s everything so tame i like my life insane i m fabricating and debating who i m gonna kick around right now right now right now right now i m feeling cold today not hurt just fucked away i m devasted and frustrated god i feel so bound so why do i feel the need i think it s time to bleed i m gonna cut myself and watch the blood hit the ground right now right now right now right now you open your mouth again i swear i m gonna break it you open your mouth again my god i cannot take it shut up shut up shut up i ll fuck you up shut up shut up shut up i ll fuck you up shut up shut up shut up i ll fuck you up shut up shut up shut up i ll fuck you up shut up shut up shut up i ll fuck you up shut up shut up shut up i ll fuck you up  right now right now right now right now i fucking hate you i fucking hate you i fucking hate you i fucking hate you i fucking hate you i fucking hate you i fucking hate you i fucking hate you 