if this is life that i m living then i wonder what death is like with a million questions running i ve got the feeling that something is not right i ve tried to be alive but i ve fallen short i am so sick of this cycle there must be something more this is endless this is sickening this is everything i never wanted it to be this is hell this can t be happening i m a failure i m a liar i m a hypocrite i am not who i claim to be what could you possibly see in me i could never turn my back on you grace like an ocean i am lost in the depths of your truth you have seen my heart and the wicked things i ve done and yet you call me son this is my awakening and my call to arms show me this world through the holes in your hands i m alive i m alive i have been set free i was blind but now my eyes are open i can see i am flawed i am flawed but you have made me clean i know i m not perfect but i serve a perfect king i am nothing you are everything let this truth resonate in my soul take my life god i give you control i have stumbled i have fallen i ve grown weary and yet i m still walking i ve been stuck here with all these questions inside my head but i will never forget the words that you have said you are the child of the king you have been set free there is nothing that can separate you from me i am the one that calls you son i formed you in the womb i conquered the grave your home is not a tomb god this just can t be i m so unworthy but your grace has washed me clean and now i m learning that youre changing everything and i am not the same you made everything change when you called my name my heart stopped and our pulse became the same when you calmed my soul i felt the earth shake and the mountains tremble when you called my name i finally came alive again when you call me son i feel your blood in my veins and your breath in my lungs when you call my name