i m at the point of mental combustion stuck in this rut and all this extra weight just results in self destruction beatin up myself i need to find some kind of peace so i take that walk to the corner bar searching for release twist the caps and throw em back that s how i numb the sorrows getting lost inside a bottle forgettin all my tomorrows spoken word and smokin herb to try and calm my nerves turning my lungs death black guess it s what i deserve through all the cheap escapes used to break free from reality from all the pills and all the thrills that pull me down like gravity in actuality i bring this pain upon myself so whatever the case don t take this as a cry for help contemplating the next step in this mysterious journey yearning this passion is burning for the cure to stop my stomach from turning i d do anything to constrain this pain of my brain it s hard to stay sane with a weight upon my shoulders that s much more heavier than boulders building up pressure inside it feels like i m about to burst to tell you the truth talking about it just makes me feel worse like i m living a curse that s got me destined for destruction and when depression sets in it makes things difficult to function trying to make things all right but wrong s the only thing that s left can t even write this song right cause i don t know treble or bass clef living my life day to day without knowing what comes next see that s what fuels my frustration it s not so complex