you re the one that s keeping me underwater while i drown you tell me it s all my fault waiting for the day you just swallow me whole i always thought this was meant to be home what happened to home so let me piece this all together how am i supposed to feel when you abandon my apologies my regrets the guilt you find so attractive i guess i ll wash away unclean until you finally utter my name you feel in love with my desperation hoping you don t fall into my depression the comfort and regret of losing you i can t explain myself don t know what the fuck i am trying to do so let me see what s on your mind don t tell me what s on my mind just to see what s on your mind don t tell me what s on my mind so i can t make up my mind whether to beg or call i can t even look up you name i can t forget the words you always told me that you would fade away without me so let me see what s on your mind don t tell me what s on my mind just to see what s on your mind don t tell me what s on my mind i found a message in a bottle it made me think of you sitting on my bedroom floor i guess i don t know you anymore