i won t know the score when the sedative stains nothing enthralled me before but glimpses of love or disdain but i don t wanna live forever i m not looking for relief i don t wanna live forever your apprehension is what s bringing you peace i drug you into this mess and now i push you away 3 years of varnished distress polarize delight or dismay habitual contempt to animalistic lust i could hardly wash it down by the slow dauntless dusk