stained glass windows all around me watching as they fall down to their knees whispering words i am not understanding but i know that i should be kneeling praying asking for forgiveness thinking of all the things i ve done wrong hoping their god is out there somewhere he s listening now and all along and i m told there s a god in this moment watching over me i don t know their god in this moment but i know i ll try to believe ten years ten lifetimes older now watching waiting expecting that day knowing that i can t hope to imagine the ways my life will change now i m holding my daughter she s sleeping i m staring down at a face just like mine knowing that from now on nothing matters as much as this in my life and i know there s a god in this moment watching over me and i know my god in this moment and i know i ll always believe until the day you took away from me the only thing that mattered in my life can t you see why i am angry with you i m hating you for all you put me through and i don t know why inside this silence is deafening you know i gave up everything for you i followed you always all along god don t let her be gone i m lost without you but now you re gone and i m fading and i i hurt in all these new ways though i m praying you ve gone to a better place now i just can t say but i hope there s a god in this moment watching over me i don t know if there s a god in this moment but i know i ll try to believe god i hope you re there in this moment watching over me can you show me you re there in this moment something to make me believe 