pop a bunch of pills til i feel like i m floatin then lie still like the steel that i m holdin the voices tellin me to chill so i focus then i wake up and take a kneel at the toilet i m wondering should i say this i m like vegas cause myself i ve been fearing and loathing but for years i ve concealed that i m hopeless i act the way i feel never deal with emotions i m still on that muhfucking suicide tick so i medicate and meditate cause truly i m sick my head and brain have separated who am i with i m laying in my bed all day and drooling my spit and i could never dedicate the do it my shit i m headed straight to heaven that s as loony i get i m throwing all my bread away as soon as i get but i ain t got nobody be unified with ugh taking a bottle of liquor and nobody want to see my enzymes so sick the nigga that checked himself in about ten times ask me if i m in my right mind i m not in my i m bout to go on a killing spree i m counting down like ten nine eight seven i hate voices meaning myself like am i sick six five i mma get my revenge i m finna drop shit four three hella go real but he s gon be for the sor ry two one then it flips shit then it clips shit they didn t know real now who want to take a trip inside my mind tell your sanity bye bye time i feel like i m livin in sci fi time no j t i can t buy my time if you look into my mind yo it s kind of scary i just wanna lay up with a halle berry but i m treating everything like it s commissary prob ly cause my soul is in solitary late nights in my single cell and them people turned me so dark felt my soul diminish i m coexistent with those who want no part up what i been through i got issues and now i feel i m bout to go off so i m just meditatin no medication couldn t heal my broken cold heart late nights in my single cell and them people turned me so dark felt my soul diminish i m coexistent with those who want no part up what i been through i got issues and now i feel i m bout to go off so i m just meditatin no medication couldn t heal my broken cold heart i used to have suicidal thoughts at night sit up in the cell with a razor blade cause don t nobody care if i lost my life so i m watching my sanity fade away used to make death threats to the warden if the co s ain t change they ways they put a nigga in restraints and recorded it made a muhfucka have to change his name so call my iso nigga i flow sicker than anybody rapping about they eyesore nigga talkin about they go real but i go realer hit the handle with the force of nine gorillas you know rappers but i know killers you know trappers but i don t feel ya leave your mind gone inside your skillet whatever i don t like then i m gon kill it i got screws loose so i m screwed in the mind really don t have one i ain t losin my mind but what up if you touch me this dude isn t mine institutionalized i m as mute as a mime the system changed my perspective the dark side is in me i got the message they treat us like a stock investment but fuck the whole world over no contraceptive i confess that i ve been vexed and i m a monster it s all connected they target us at a young age so we call collect it speak negative shit dog and y all perfect it if you look into my mind yo it s kind of scary probably the reason why my mom ain t married my soul s in the system and probably buried that s why i m just sitting solitary  late nights in my single cell and them people turned me so dark felt my soul diminish i m coexistent with those who want no part up what i been through i got issues and now i feel i m bout to go off so i m just meditatin no medication couldn t heal my broken cold heart late nights in my single cell and them people turned me so dark felt my soul diminish i m coexistent with those who want no part up what i been through i got issues and now i feel i m bout to go off so i m just meditatin no medication couldn t heal my broken cold heart2