so i called you up again last night just to let it go to machine i know you re not picking up for anybody not just me and i listen to you speak say goodbye and wait for the tone held my breath waiting for somebody on the other end stop leaving messages a month or so ago people said it was unhealthy to leave confessions for a ghost i made a promise i intend to keep just know when it s over that it meant something it tastes like regret and smells like the rain everything s different when it should feel the same everyone s saying that it ll be okay time heals the wounds and stops all the bleeding stuck in the winter distant like memories i can barely remember the shape of your face the sound of your voice or where i am and it scares the hell outta me that i ll end up the same  i made a promise i intend to keep just know when it s over that it meant something and i m anxious and misfit i m a nervous wreck i can t sleep there s no comfort here i can die in the same place did you mean what you said was it just too heavy to take did you find all the answers did you find what you need i made a promise i intend to keep just know when it s over that it meant something i hear the gospel choir in my head again and my sins burning holes in my chest i m not sure if there s a place for me in heaven now i m not sure if i ll come back from this i hear the gospel choir in my head again and my sins burning holes in my chest i m not sure if there s a place for me in heaven now i m not sure if i ll come back from this