the carter family lived next door for almost 14 years with gwen and i inseperatable from rag dolls through brassieres then gwen began to bore me with her giggles and her fears the day the carters moved away i had to fake my tears i told new friends gwen carter had become a silly pest and then i found i missed her more than i d ever have guessed grandma used to nag at me to straighten up my spine to act respectful and read good books to take care of what was mine i hated being criticized and asking her permission so what if her advise was wise it always hurt to listen i didn t cry when granny died she made me so depressed and then i found i missed her more than i d ever have guessed you used to make me moan in bed but that can t be enough my friends complained your jokes were crude your manners were too rough don t know just what i wanted but i know i wanted more someone smooth presentable to blend with my decor and now at night i think of how you grinned when you undressed and i find i miss you more than i d ever have guessed