i moved myself west to find a philosophy to learn my geography at best where the mountains are cold the rain drops it s tears i m told amongst the ashes a heart of gold they say i guess it s best to imagine it that way so i bought me a book to teach me the ways of god to open my tarnished heart from it started praisin the lord talkin in tongues code i did repairs on that broken road back home i guess it s better than being alone and now to death i m dying to love i m trying to god i m lying again and to my ma i ve failed you to my pa i blamed you and to god i have shamed you again so i moved myself out i pictured a better home a lawn full of marigolds i guess i headed back east started thinking my hope away depression was the one to stay since then now i take pills to push it from my head yes i take pills to push it from my head and now to death i m dying to love i m trying to god i m lying again and to my ma i ve failed you to my pa i blamed you and to god i have shamed you again to god i have shamed you again to god i have shamed you again again