i must have left my house at eight because i always do my train i m certain left the station just when it was due i must have read the morning paper going into town and having gotten through the editorial no doubt i must have frowned i must have made my desk around a quarter after nine with letters to be read and heaps of papers waiting to be signed i must have gone to lunch at half past twelve or so the usual place the usual bunch and still on top of this i m pretty sure it must have rained the day before you came i must have lit my seventh cigarette at half past two and at the time i never even noticed i was blue i must have kept on dragging through the business of the day without really knowing anything i hid a part of me away at five i must have left there s no exception to the rule a matter of routine i ve done it ever since i finished school the train back home again undoubtedly i must have read the evening papers then oh yes i m sure my life was well within its usual frame the day before you came i must have opened my front door at eight o clock or so and stopped along the way to buy some chinese food to go i m sure i had my dinner watching something on tv there s not i think a single episode of dallas that i didn t see i must have gone to bed around a quarter after ten i need a lot of sleep and so i like to be in bed by then i must have read a while the latest one by marilyn french or something in that style it s funny but i had no sense of living without aim the day before you came and turning out the light i must have yawned and cuddled up for yet another night and rattling on the roof i must have heard the sound of rain the day before you came