remember when i called you cause abby was wasted and didn t know how to get home we drove around til she sobered up and then i went home alone it s kind of funny cause she married ben and i still see them every now and again and i m glad they re doing well sometimes i think i m doing well too remember when we realized how much we cared but we still didn t talk for a couple of years so you kept writing letters and i kept writing songs but you can neither give up or admit it s wrong it s kind of funny because most nights i ve got so much on my mind but i feel alright or at least okay but i still don t forget it the longest night and the guilt that came with it and i gotta believe something i spent half my life trying to figure it out and the other half trying to believe in nothing and when i wrote this down i cried and when we used to talk i lied and when i say that i don t care i think i m starting to mean it i m picking up those pieces well this night has gone to hell and we re all let s talk about the past back when we were made to last and all i ve got in this world is like thirty five dollars and small amount of skill so i don t mind i m staying home avoiding the things that make me hate the most you re on my mind some night it s better i can t feel worse than that it s all regret i hope it doesn t last forever