i killed myself but i didn t die she crossed her heart and stuck a needle in her eye she promised me she ll never leave me alone she doesn t sleep she only calls me on the phone all night i went to school but i didn t learn i touched the fire but i didn t feel the burn somehow i got desensitized to the world i hate pop music and i hate the duke of earl alright i killed myself but i didn t die now in the hospital recovering i lie none of the visitors can look me in the eye they say how are ya but they don t apologize oh no and my mom came in she was having trouble trying to speak she could see that her boy was some sort of freak i killed myself but i didn t die now she s my baby she s the apple of my eye she only wants a sensitive guy and i ve been in and out of my mind three times that s just the way the way i always was i go to therapy but i don t take the drugs i try and really look my life in the face i think i m learning that there s no way to escape oh no and the worst part is that i didn t even really care it s just to be or not to be and either way i m only barely there i killed myself but i m still around i think the living dead will like me better now i m gonna socialize i m gonna go out more i ll be so beautiful with nothing at the core1