i used to think that i knew my way around this town but i m always getting lost since you re not around i never thought that i would say this but i miss my mom even though for all those years we didn t get along and when i stop to think about it i guess we were the same too stubborn to apologize too filled up on rage i wish she felt young again when everything was new when her father held her hand and said there s nothing you can t do and then i woke up to a phone call right on christmas day it said your grandmother is dying in a painful way her lungs are filling up with fluid even as we speak the doctor said that if she s lucky she ll make it til next week i had one last chance to see her right before i moved but i didn t end up going i used some lame excuse i hope that she s not scared lying there alone i hope she hears her husband s voice telling her she s coming home it s just sleepy california but i just hope they know it s just sleepy california how much i really care it s just sleepy california how i want the best for them it s just sleepy california even though i m hardly there