i m eating dinner alone i m writing face down on the table crossing vowels spilling over consonants i m waiting hungry like a drone for something worth moving for why am i so still so shrill why can t i show what i m made of dirty socks fill my drawers empty glasses provide company i make this mess so i can lift my hands for the inclination i ve had enough of the heat i want to wear my coat again how can i erase what i have misplaced i am so glad that you are not around i am sleeping alone to the sound of war drums and the voice in my head speaking in third person i seem more so like a dream but i can t get it right i rewrite over and over and over why can t i just fall in your line why can t i just see that light cause i don t believe in war or god or poetic ammunition i ve had enough of the heat i want to wear my coat again how can i erase what i have misplaced i am so glad that you are not around i m so fucking sick of exit signs kevin slow down this is my exit i just want to be no one else but me cause i am too proud to take advantage of your privileges your privileges i just want to be no one else but me cause i am too proud to take advantage of your privileges your privileges i just want to be no one else but me cause i am too proud to eat another meal alone i m writing face down on the table crossing vowels spilling over consonants