god s not real i said jeez aren t i such an edgy kid that i d rather live in a world with no satisfying end i just want to see you when i finally die and go to heaven but i don t think that place could exist though i know it hurts and thinking about it makes it worse i d like to think we all go on after we die i ll take my dog my mom my girlfriend and friends that i ve lost along the years as i got old and neared my end i ll take songs lps my favorite cds and all of the things that held me together as i lost all of them if you hear me i m coming save a spot up there for me i want in if it s real but it don t seem real so please stop killing my friends and my family i need them so fuck you don t you test me i ll take my mom my dog my girlfriend and friends that i ve lost along the years as i got old and neared my end i ll take songs lps my favorite cds and all the things that held me together as i lost all of them