waking up right next to you is the last thing that i want to do knowing you don t care cause you re spineless and too much to take my kindness was a big mistake it gets me nowhere and i ve been reading through your letters hoping you might never make up your mind and i i wish i was a boy again where i could still pretend you were mine i m drinking too much these days it never seems to help cause you say i ll never change and i m the only one who i care about when you say that you re leaving and you re ready to go cause you thought i was cheating but i don t think you want to know well i think that things are better this way when it seems like you re breathing but you re already dead to me making up my mind on you is something i wish i could do but you re so damn thoughtless and i m not going to lose to any of these games you play cause no one likes you anyway you re just a faceless name so what will you say when i tell you that your life s like a book it s torn and tattered sitting on a shelf where no one wants to look and i m sure that this is what we want as your face begins to haunt my memories and seep into my future dreams where no one can hear you scream that you re leaving and you re ready to go cause you thought i was cheating but i don t think you want to know well i think that things are better this way when it seems like you re breathing but you re already dead to me