there s electrical tape around my shoes to prevent them from breaking in two and there s a crown on the end of my tooth some royal filler and some superglue and there are broken things all over my room old and borrowed stolen and used instruments that can t hold a tune i recline on my mattress and become one too i ve never had satisfaction in the chemical reactions that happen in my head there are faults in these cracks they send volts then relax then realize the wrong message was sent it s disillusion and confusion this illusion of me through solemn seclusion i ve come to this conclusion that i ll never fully be in my mind i can t find an inclination or a basic impulse for self preservation so i ll sit here teetering and waiting for a big gust of wind or some stabilisation i m treading water i m juggling knives i m doing both at the same time dude put down the blades and swim to the shore line well oh god i ve tried but i ve never had satisfaction in the chemical reactions that happen in my head there are faults in these cracks they send volts then relax then realize the wrong message was sent it s disillusion and confusion this illusion of me through solemn seclusion i ve come to this conclusion that i ll never fully be i first saw you from my plastic cage from the wedding band at the back of the stage in slow motion you caught the bouquet in slow motion i smiled and walked away isn t this the same story we ve heard it before the same melody and the same score well these hairs won t stand up in my pores these shouts of calamity are becoming a bore  i ve never had satisfaction in the chemical reactions that happen in my head there are faults in these cracks they send volts then relax then realize the wrong message was sent it s disillusion and confusion this illusion of me through solemn seclusion i ve come to this conclusion that i ll never fully be not fully6