took a second as he looked over the unmown lawn his hand froze on the handle of the front door feet felt glued to the floor driver side opens here we go once more with the front seat feel safer than whatever lay beyond the yard the weight of disappointment lay upon him like a scar red brick veneer look the same as the last what s the chance that this won t be the same as the last someone else s house someone else s rules someone else s room someone else s school he don t fit in anywhere and knows it hate it when a caseworker try to sugar coat what the fuck these people aren t mum and dad so fuck em when they try to tell me that my goodness is becoming bad i must be good at it the way that they keep coming back kick me out pick me up take me to another pad maybe this time will be different start from scratch and begin again maybe this time will be different rebuild trust restart that shit again maybe this time will be different i d swap it all for somebody who d listen maybe this time will be different what if we could trade our positions is anybody listening i don t wanna talk when you say that you know what s good for me cause in the end you re gonna let me down again cause you re not really listening i don t wanna talk not right now you let me down again always on the inside looking out what are we waiting for well maybe there s a crack in the world that will open up and swallow me whole and i would disappear but i fear that the outside world is a mirror that mocks me and this is all fucked up and they keep shattering illusions every time they move me on i ve been moving so long start to forget where i even started from like a sad old song where the feeling stays but the words are all wrong and no one listens and you let me down again  maybe this time will be different start from scratch and begin again maybe this time will be different rebuild trust restart that shit again maybe this time will be different i d swap it all for somebody who d listen maybe this time will be different what if we could trade our positions is anybody listening i don t wanna talk when you say that you know what s good for me cause in the end you re gonna let me down again cause you re not really listening i don t wanna talk not right now you let me down again someone else would really know where i m going to you don t understand what i ve been going through so don t judge me until you ve walk in my shoes