on the sunday after the mason dance it s the one day i can remember when i felt so pure and really at peace with myself i was in love the sun sang down victorious but the truth is i have no faith in happiness it turns to fear draws the devils near so i jumped the fence and went out west abilene got a sales job as a pharmaceutical rep lived out of hotels rental cars and a stowable bag i drove all dayfrom hospital pacing and clinic sweats i drove all nighti couldn t ever sleep now anyway i tried but the old devils they found me in my room i hid under the covers and i cried out as they tore off my sheets so i went east vietnam i m long gone i m up the river way past mekong but the old devils they found me in my hut they poured through the windows they cornered me and i cried out to no one i give up 