so far so good you re coming to the bend at the end of the road you put a hand to the belly that s foreign more with every day like an oversize load and you re thinking about clouds the color of fire and the scent of an orange peel the way mount shasta explodes into windshield view and your hands steady on the wheel so far so good coffee motel coffee diner coffee go on styrofoam is drying like the tears that once did flow starting 10 o clock and ending at dawn and you can t go back but you re going back and you don t know what you ll say you ve got half formed sentences explanations for a life half broken away and they just may they ll take you in their arms and then take out their knives so you drive on thinking so far so good but you can t go on much longer like this you know you re all alone in this world no that s not true the nice christian lady told you so she was handing out pamphlets by the clinic door saying jesus knows what you ve been through take the savior into your heart my child there s love waiting for the both of you well you don t believe but you have to believe it s still crumpled there in your back seat were you the hero or the worst kind of coward back there putting pavement back under your feet couldn t stand the heat couldn t stand the thought of ghosts with a negative age turn the page ok so far so good you try to sing along to the radio but it s not your language not your song it s from some other time ago and you re thinking about how someone died that day the you that was so carefully planned but then again maybe this life is like a sleeping mountain waking up to shape the land calm calm let it come let it come back to you calm calm breathe on out you know you know what to do