and it hurt just to touch on the words i said too much i was just a kid i thought that i could not be caught and much less by a moment but the words came flooding from my mouth some things will never surface they capsized so long ago i didn t want to still be sinking but the anchor won t let me go those things that we thought were never there those ghosts we brought with us everywhere from your birth you were born in to this never knowing when the walls would crack in your defense you were so unprepared you said the things that you can t take back those things that we thought were never there those ghosts we brought with us everywhere i want to explain this but nothing s making sense there s poison in my blood it claimed both of our lives that world we thought important crumbled into nothing will words define me i am more than a moment will words define me i am more than a moment that day behind me but i cannot shake it i am more than a moment more than a moment and the beauty left my eyes i was standing there with the rest of my life knowing i would never be the same knowing i had changed i had become more than what i had dreamed the look of the youth but with hands stained the look of the youth but with my hands stained tell them i m sorry tell them i m sorry does she know i m sorry guilty guilty i am guilty how were those words in my head for somebody else somebody else i wish that i could have said anything else anything else i want to explain this but nothing s making sense there s poison in my blood it claimed both of our lives that world we thought important crumbled into nothing but the bitter treasures so elementary