i d forgotten that we re all the same that our differences are all a game that were all like the super friends so every loser has a future win i had fell for the okie doke lost my control like holy smokes i really said worse than that i wish i could take the curses back i had spoke from a frequency that was pretty low i bet you folks would agree with me but when i thought it was impossible somebody brought me to the hospital i kept two feet in a cup of booze to try to stay above the blues that color s unnatural a result of personal subterfuge i had the let the bottle go im tryin to be a role model bro i was such a piss poor example then except for what not to do if i had a rap check to spend i d go buy a big rare cockatoo i thought i was responsible then they brought me to the hospital wherever i sit today in front or against the wall i can accept it all no matter which a way wherever i sit today ima make a motherfucking throne i used to be so jealous hearted how d he get such a swell apartment look at me counting other people s fans instead of tryin to be a better eagleman i even hated on my own friends turnin up my nose with a clothespin like pee you in my head i had to make em wack luckily i came a long way from that what kind of pal was i leaving all those downloaded files to die now i m bumping all these tracks and given em good honest feedback it s like there was two of me my true motivations hid beautifully a public face and a shadowed man a dirty ship with a clean cut capitan foolin all my damn passengers tellin them we re still on this planet earth  wherever i sit today in front or against the wall i can accept it all no matter which a way wherever i sit today i mma make a motherfucking throne it smells like rain again fresh dew beads on the wet lawn how many sundays have i seen how many blades of grass have i stepped on my old friend used to walk barefoot until the bottom of her feet looked silver close to where the shaw meets wilshire i used to think she was a lunatic now when i call she asks who is this 