it took a photograph of her and me to get her home to her city driving through the darkness her lover passed out in the back and as she drove through the country town without a thought of slowing down i really hope she forced that television smile for me a necklace and a set of keys from a whirlwind tour of sydney and as the blood falls out my knees i remember why i hate to sleep dreaming of car doors slamming waking up to him on a single bed and when i said us i meant them and when i said them i meant you and when i said you i meant nothing and when i said me i meant anyone and when i said sam i meant tom and when i said tom i meant her and when i said us i meant them and the community meant more to me than all the times that i d believed that we were one against a common enemy she looked at me and said darling you make me so fucking scared and i upped and left and she was standing there on the same goddamn single bed i get up i got to work then i come back again i spend my money on a place that lets me live closer to my job so all this chest beating and fist pumping really means a whole fucking lot this is all we have