i am not within within myself i am not here here i lay asleep asleep in someone else hopeless eyes withered skin who is this man that stands before me my eyes blind i can t stay here in a fog so thick all is grey i misplaced myself and i lost my face i hate what fills my shell there is nothing clear and nothing is mine in this self made hell i am not here not within myself cleanse me rape me fill me satan fill me father bringer of light be my blood