just thought i would try it see if i liked it i never thought my life would have crumbled because of my vices but i don t know what else could bring me this type of excitement and i still find a way to afford it fuck what the price is been in a crisis even when i m sober i look lifeless and i ain t talking royalty when i mention my highness i only feel this good when i m rolling just like the dices upping my chance to losing my life ignore your advices it s my decision to slice this up and take it in vain better yet through the nose is a quicker road to the brain i be better known for cocaine sniffing to cope with the pain and a mother who taught her three kids to never do the same i m lucky enough they were smart enough to make their own decisions but now they re growing up without me i hope one day i m forgiven but little do i know is i m smoking to fight my demons my son will find me dead in my bed for the same reasons hey mom back mom hello damn what the fuck is that smell hello ma you sleep ma oh my god oh my god ma no god no no my father told whatever you do just keep it real so that s what imma do someones dealing with the pressure i just don t know how to feel and that s what a momma do sobbing through shit and i still don t know exactly how to deal so i sipped the liquor heavy i m a nuisance running through my veins i ve been addicted to the music so i gotta treat it like its dope i ve been using whatever you do just keep it real so that s what imma do so much dealing with the pressure i just don t know how to feel and that s what a momma do sobbing through shit and i still don t know exactly how to deal so i sipped the liquor heavy i m a nuisance running through my veins i ve been addicted to the music so i gotta treat it like its dope i ve been using just thought i would take a sip to relax never realizing the more that i drink it comes with a tax learn from being a sailor you gotta sip till it s empty the more i knock em back the more my family resents me now i m starting to pass out more at family gatherings jack poured in a cup getting smacked forming a pattern i transform into a monster when hardy swallows the vodka fast on acting out treat the bottle like its and oscar i ll take the fast route to my body giving and failing my liver was the victim the liquor was the assailant finally starting to see all the problems that is unveiling this living keeps me afloat but i m sinking instead of sailing and every day is harder to say what you like about me my family will go on and keep living their life without me how was i supposed to know i would die from being a drunk and the nephew i paid the least attention to would write about me my father told whatever you do just keep it real so that s what imma do someones dealing with the pressure i just don t know how to feel and that s what a momma do sobbing through shit and i still don t know exactly how to deal so i sipped the liquor heavy i m a nuisance running through my veins i ve been addicted to the music so i gotta treat it like its dope i ve been using whatever you do just keep it real so that s what imma do someones dealing with the pressure i just don t know how to feel and that s what a momma do sobbing through shit and i still don t know exactly how to deal so i sipped the liquor heavy i m a nuisance running through my veins i ve been addicted to the music so i gotta treat it like its dope i ve been using so i gotta treat it likes it s dope i ve been using1