in the face of all that s obvious i continue to wreck my life so set in my ways it s impossible to do what s good smokin jokin boozin my time away just livin for the pain lies caught in denial chorus look in the mirror to only see a liars face in front of me i ve tried so hard to heed the warnings my heart is turning on with self slaught the barfly gives in once again the bottle is judge jury he s caught in a struggle that calls for his life so caught up in his own self destruction caught in denial chorus i made my own bed i ll sit in the mess this poison booze lifestyle is a dear friend and i know it s a lie but it s all that i have i m going right for the end with total abandon chorus it s real