render me useless i m a shell of who i used to be and i struggle to make sense over why my life is so fucking empty nothing to say nothing to give cause every time i push myself to relate i m reminded of why i never bothered in the first place all this time i thought i needed help all i needed was to help myself quick to point the finger and reflect the blame sorry if i ever came across as vain i never took the time to see what life gave me i fucking hate myself i was so blind nothing worth doing is ever easy so why can t i make up my mind erase me block me out why would anyone believe the shit that comes out of my mouth sometimes i just want to run away but what kind of person would that make me faking a smile only goes so far when you don t believe in the person you are it doesn t matter how hard you try just give up you ll never be happy