i ve been having nightmares again and waking up and trying to pretend that you re still here and he s not gone and no one lost i drank my humor and my beauty away so sweetly lying you tell me that you love me and it s gonna be okay you ve been getting cigarettes again and you won t even try to pretend that the shaking in your jaw and spine will turn out fine well i hope you re happy cause i m not the girl i used to be you save yourself from you then grab me i drank my humor and my beauty away so sweetly lying you tell me that you love me and it s gonna be okay just rest a while and care for hysteria and sadness for genius i m not your baby i m not so crazy all your sweet talking is why i got done pull the trigger come undone it s hard to swallow you can t take lungs to half as much as me i am not the only one and you are not the only one i drank my humor and my beauty away so sweetly lying you tell me that you love me and it s gonna be okay