my life these days busy friends and late trains a mattress on the floor in a city that s been good to me all this distraction from my old life it haunts my decisions and plagues my mind cause after all i m just a kid who s aspiration s were never more than dreams but they still remain i m not going anywhere i ve fought so hard just to stand here overwhelming silence i found where i belong i needed this and as smoke leaves my lungs from my last cigarette i ll fight my last fight in a desperate attempt to prove that i m worth it worth your attention portrayed my rendition of a broken boy i m so tired of hiding behind my pen it only goes to paper what comes off my chest but i can t forget i ve struggled to find a place that i could stay because settling has never been an option for me i d trade it in to never feel afraid but everything goes away  i m not going anywhere i ve fought so hard just to stand here overwhelming silence i found where i belong i needed this according to me i m my own worst enemy i can t keep a simple promise or even swear on anything the bottle attached to my hand proves addiction makes for a lesser man and i can t muster up the motivation to break away from this fucking pattern i m not going anywhere i ve fought so hard just to stand here overwhelming silence i found where i belong i needed this