all this could be how can i decide call it all a loss as we try it on for size and how can i believe i can be so brave and i can never stop i can never save someone is searching calling your name wanting and willing are one in the same with all things aside i m calm when i confide you re always in my thoughts my stomach tied in knots these days become the week these weeks become our lives hanging overhead uncertain i arrive it s open and closing closing again startled and stunning but i can pretend and i ve seen troublesome and i dig myself a grave and i ll be done and how could i believe i could ever change the burden that you ve built well i ve rearranged kool aid and camels standing in line a bottle of something for 5 49 no one can say it know that you lied there s nothing beneath me i can t decide is everything escape is everything alone afraid to be awake afraid to use the phone they re calling and calling and calling again why don t you answer where have you been pick up this once just please pick up this once for me we bleed to death the first aid kit we cut our hands as we open it nothing will help us nothing will do nothing has meaning nothing but you and i ve seen troublesome and i dig myself a grave and i ll be done with a call they ve sent for you with heads bowed never dreamt what i could do no shame now and mother dreams for you father s words are few the hope that they can have never dreamt what i could do it s all in the dark it s all that i despise we bleed to death the first aid kit we cut our hands as we open it nothing will help us nothing will do nothing has meaning nothing but you and i ve seen troublesome and i dig myself a grave and i ll be done with a call they ve sent for you with heads bowed never dreamt what i could do no shame now