i remember puking down the side of the car the cost of drinking liquor from the mouth of a jar leaning on the fender and declaring that wed name a star tramping through the brambles til our pants were all torn searching for a paper bag of mildewy porn reflecting on the neverending question why had we been born happiness bleeds all over you and me i remember stumbling down the side of the road reeling from the ill effects of licking a toad bobbing and weaving and waiting for the sun to explode hour after hour throwing rocks at a sign looking for the weapon on the leafy incline swearing its the first youve ever seen it screaming its not mine happiness bleeds all over you and me i remember sadness at the edge of your eyes surrounded by the darkness of a dead winter sky something like a kiss upon the temple and the word goodbye there were never devils living under the stairs there were never angels in your grandmothers hair there has never ever been another that i could compare happiness bleeds all over you and me