my father had dementia he lied in bed for months once in a while hed call me and ask me to fly down i told him that id love to but i had things to do and so he died without his son i heard about it drunk after a show my mother battled cancer for over seven years i nursed her and i held her when time was running out the night before she left me i drank scotch all night and thanked her for everything shed done raising me alone wasnt much fun dad i can forgive you but ill never forget months i wouldnt see you and when i did youd be out with your friends all night alone and only nine i watched the outer limits and scared out of my mind i wonder if you felt the same the days before you died i wonder if you even knew why i wouldnt come around i bet if you had been there there wouldnt be this song 2006 goodbye parents for once i am sincere 2006 my orphan year