is this what it is this is supposed to be love im falling losing my strength you wasnt holding me up im feeling ice in my veins this life has frozen me fuck i had this mic and this pain my fight it rose me up rose me above ive risen this high i refuse to give in or die you abandoned me you living a lie you acted like you fucking loved me you were willing to ride i thought that loyalty was the light that was filling my sky that was tough to accept mostly cause i didnt know why i went to war with everything they tried to kill him inside but something snapped if i gotta be a villain thats fine im unbeatable i told you for the millionth time ive been in hundreds of fights probably lost a bunch but i never ran from one once never walked from a punch dont say hello when we pass we dont talk on the phone you might see me in the future but im not coming home tonight what dont kill me only makes me stronger all this emptiness inside feeds my hunger so tonight tonight its on its on tonight tonight i wont fade away tonight tonight its on its on tonight tonight i wont fade away this jealousy is hard to accept now that ive made it ive been betrayed and hated its the monster i created if i believe in something best believe im gonna say the shit when i die what i stood for i gotta lay with it aint nobody making me or breaking me you cocksuckers only mistaking me awaken me from complacency and now im pacing impatiently holding my rage inside my ribcage stay the fuck away from me i aint scared of the next life im prepared when it gets trife destroyed by my own dad i was left by my ex wife watched dozens of young friends meeting their deaths right i was there when my aunt oded on those steps like i put her on my shoulder jumped into a cab when she came to she punched and kicked me she was mad i guess my whole life misunderstood ive been so sad the only thing i have is this pencil and this pad tonight  so tonight im back where i belong im back where im from ive got my back and my front and here back with my gun im back walking through this fire and the gutter my son ive accepted my calling lord i know what ive become my skins thicker my pens sicker my minds made up ive been a poet and binge drinker from the 9th grade up ive witnessed some things beyond vicious bitches with wings im the fallen angel the chosen written scriptures of kings im the everyman the legend they bestowed me with that and hated me for it but nowadays they hold me to that to the music im a slave till i go to my grave im the freedom fighter the writer in a cold blooded haze tonight 