how bout getting off of these antibiotics how bout stopping eating when i m full up how bout changing a line cause it don t make sense how bout that ever elusive kudo thank you india thank you terror thank you disillusionment thank you frailty thank you consequence thank you thank you silence how bout me not blaming you for everything how bout me enjoying the moment for once how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you how bout grieving it all one at a time thank you india thank you terror thank you disillusionment thank you frailty thank you consequence thank you thank you silence the moment i let go of it was the moment i got more than i could handle the moment i jumped off of it was the moment i touched down how bout no longer being masochistic how bout remembering your divinity how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out how bout not equating death with stopping  thank you india thank you providence thank you disillusionment thank you nothingness thank you clarity thank you thank you silence oh oh oh oh no oh oh oh