you who live in heaven hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth who are afraid of being left by those we love and who get hardened in the hurt do you remember when you lived down here where we all scrape to find the faith to ask for daily bread did you forget about us after you had flown away well i memorized every word you said still i m so scared i m holding my breath while you re up there just playing hard to get you who live in radiance hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin we have a love that s not as patient as yours was still we do love now and then did you ever know loneliness did you ever know need do you remember just how long a night can get when you are barely holding on and your friends fall asleep and don t see the blood that s running in your sweat will those who mourn be left uncomforted while you re up there just playing hard to get and i know you bore our sorrows and i know you feel our pain and i know that it would not hurt any less even if it could be explained and i know that i am only lashing out at the one who loves me most and after i have figured this somehow what i really need to know is if you who live in eternity hear the prayers of those of us who live in time we can t see what s ahead and we cannot get free from what we ve left behind i m reeling from these voices that keep screamin in my ears all these words of shame and doubt blame and regret i can t see how you re leading me unless you ve led me here to where i m lost enough to let myself be led and so you ve been here all along i guess it s just your ways and you are just plain hard to get 