i went to about five funerals this year and i felt so empty that i couldn t even shed a tear i felt so fucking selfish all i thought about was me and how i d love to lay down on my back and just float out to sea how i m constantly losing my shit while my friends are losing family i had something like a hundred bad days this year and at the end of each one i couldn t wait to just get out of here if you knew how many times i thought the dead must have it pretty sweet i d get beat so when i go please don t cry it s not like i deserve to die but i ve been burning bridges man since day number one and when the pack keeps lapping me and i don t fit in anywhere and don t know what to do i wish that they took me instead of you do you have a good time do you do what you want when you hit a certain age does everybody stop having fun is exuberance a deterrent for which we pay a fee is a quiet nod the only way can t we loudly disagree it seems like these things they work out for everybody everyone but me so when i go please don t cry it s not like i deserve to die but baby we ain t born to mourn and there s no hope in mope and when the pack keeps lapping me and i don t fit in anywhere and don t know what to do i wish that they took me instead of you don t treat it like a race there s no winner at the finish line just treat it like a bar cause we all gotta leave sometime we can t fight the future why do we even care we won t always have the luxury of sun kissed summer air we won t fight the future we don t really care we won t fight the future we don t really care we won t fight the future we don t really care so for the worst i ll always stay for the worst i ll always stay prepared i went to about five it went funeral funeral funeral funeral funeral i went to about five it went funeral funeral funeral funeral funeral i went to about five it went funeral funeral funeral funeral funeral i went to about five it went funeral funeral funeral funeral funeral i went to about five funerals this year