step out the front door friend tossed up my keys from here here on out i m gonna do whatever it is i please just outside of this thickening window is a world full of opportunity for me and you and you and me but i fell into that same flawed fantasy that detaching myself from daddys bedtime stories and mommy s singing me to sleep is gonna be the key that s gonna set me free but you want out so badly right now baby girl but just you wait and see how much you miss our mom and dad once you finally get the chance to leave i wanna go home to my own bed tonight to sleep and cuddle with my puppy i miss my puppy i wanna make believe that she is a girl sleeping next to me like i used to when i was lonely like i was lucky enough to have somebody there next to me to keep me company when i woke up in the morning and hold me but now im buried in the arms of someone else and missing mothers and i miss the weathered hands of my dad while holding tightly to my lover s and we call this free but now i m eighteen baby you wanna see my i d i m gonna buy my own cigarettes in fact two packs please two packs for the two years i already ran myself broke and two more for the two more im gonna count on these to cope ill take two packs for the two days that im planning on being away i ll smoke em both on the first so that on the second i can give my lungs a break ah that was the plan anyway hah oh my god is that a two for one deal on the 27s you know on second thought i better just get two more in case on that second day when i wake i decide to smoke all eight but a captain and coke would go so nicely right now because i have been drinkin a little to try to forget about the fact that ive been drinkin a little to try to forget about the fact that ive been drinkin a little to try to forget about the fact that i drink a lot and actually forgot about the fact that i m down and it s funny how perspectives change so quickly when youre the one with your head beneath that toilet seat wearing the crown on your feet and as i lift up my head from that bathroom sink i sink into the mirror and scream you dont know me and paul said it perfectly i am the worst of these but every now and then i swear to god i got that guy beat and i used to be such a fan of abstract poetry but that quiet clouded kind of confusing painting went from a diluted gray scale to vibrant honesty pretty quickly and in fact im a little sickly and in fact im a little scared sometimes that this is all gonna be in vain with a million little me s just running around all of eternity its no wonder my hope has such a bad name but i know no matter how large a hypocrite or how small my faith when you started to talk about perfection the way you talked about my pain you became the seed inside that gave root to change i pray that there is power in prayer and i hope with all my heart that i will find you there you re bigger than my skepticism how dare i compare the high i prescribe with that beauty i am the skeleton in a little fragile skin and you became the seed inside that gave root to change and i pray that there s gonna be power in prayer and i hope with all my heart that you will find me there and if you re bigger than my skepticism then how dare i compare the high i prescribe with that beauty you prepare i am the skeleton in a little fragile skin and 1