i heard the tv and it told me i shouldn t grieve there is something more if you believe in god s love but i ve seen too many scenes in which the people i love fell to their knees with no cause at a loss only questions and gordian knots so as i am without faith tell me what should i dream of oh tell me why should i do anything at all cause i m caught up in a race i don t know what i m running from for or to so breathe in breathe out take note take count tell me honestly my friend what did you live for and would you make amends cause i wanted to believe but i can t see the wood for the trees it s not long before your heart won t beat anymore and then you re gone the knot is cut meditations on loss 