i brush a tear from my eye as i glance towards the star spun sky is he up there somewhere is there any chance that he s thinking of me a sigh slips out as my thoughts follow their inevitable course back to the man i love and the day that he decided that settling down just wasn t for him i ve loved him for years from the moment i laid eyes on him washed up on an abandoned beach life in general and the wars in particular forced me to grow up to adapt to a new way of thinking and a new life one that didn t revolve completely around myself at times i felt as if i d given up every part of my own identity but always my love for him remained it grew and matured along with me he knows that for years he seemed to cherish that love and return it that day almost a month ago today he swore that he did it s just that my love wasn t enough to hold him here any longer perhaps i m naught but a fool but i honestly thought he was happy i certainly was i suppose i should have realized that the life i ve chosen to live wouldn t suit him for long he s a private man and a soldier at heart there are few things less private than a politician s life and i know there were many who held his past against him perhaps he can find contentment as a wanderer i pray that he finds happiness somewhere even if it isn t here with me as much as the idea hurts i love him too much to wish misery upon him and i pray that he will always remember me and the love i hold for him with fondness my thoughts wander through my memories of our time together of shared laughter and tears of our time of peace the wind blows through my hair and i tilt my head back imagining that it s his caress i can t help the small sad smile that escapes no matter how sad i am now i m glad i had these last years with him and he does love me i hold that little piece of knowledge to my heart whoever said that it s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all was right but you know what s best of all the promise that he ll be back someday 