there are some questions that i really need to ask you i found them swimming around in my brain i know you promised that nothing is beyond you so i better ask before i go insane why do i do what i don t wanna do when i don t do the things that i know really should do i m a walking contradiction of the things that i do and the things that i say i believe but you know the way i wanna be and i know that s the kind of god you are somehow you can see the beauty in this mess only you can make sense of this madness that sounds so simple you d think understand it maybe it just takes some time for the truth to sink in i know your mercies are new with every morning so everyday i m going pray this prayer all over again why do i do what i don t wanna do when i don t do the things that i know really should do i m a walking contradiction of the things that i do and the things that i say i believe