i should ve known better i shouldn t have never believed him not for a minute cause if there s on thing i ve got from all of this is they lied yeah now ive seen behind the curtain seen in the mirror i m more animal than person certain i m dealing hurt with no attrition repeat the same mistakes but always wishing i was different and i hit it hard that rock bottom that lost cause with that trough softened that broad got him that job propping that jaw dropping i stop talking im caught i tried to give them something real now were dealing with the way i really feel i tried to give them something real all they wanna tell me is im so far away from healed shining bright despite all this artificial light i m holed up in this night hold up how d you think i write so boxed in i can t move i can t breathe i can t hear i can t see i can t speak my mind this time i do it differently because evidently it s a spirit can t be crushed and there s still a few people who believe paralyzed always looking for another pair of eyes i know my selves i know that i dont know where to find that real heart tin man where to start to begin again i justify this rust of lies im crushed and trying to move scared to part scared to death i m losing it more kinds of vices im using it all my devices profuse with shit that i cant wrap up and refuse to quit make mad passes slash gashes bat masterfully 4 hon average ty cobb on a wax planet i drop dry gobs of it off atlantis underwater no disadvantage thats underground with more apparatus so i can breathe in the coldest blackness major leagues i swim with blackfish mvp most vast practice true perception im done asking for the cognizance i cut classics stay real fuck status