i want to always be on film to be caught in the cut coffee sober ding di ding di ding ding boom boom boulder unscratched lenses of a brand new prescription drawing days from a stacked deck of cards and doing doing i should cut down my caloric intake i should go to sleep hungry and wake up with my guts knotted up and ears open like a burnt down hut i want my mouth to always taste the blade but i want but i want but ohhhhhh i want to kiss like taffy hump gentle on a bed of nails and feel salt to widen eyes like a cut up clam s tongue does i want to dump early on and be empty the rest i want a patch of blue sky to follow me unfold an origami death mask and cut my dna with rubber traits pull apart the double helix like a wishbone always be working on a suicide note i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone long i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone longer i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone longer i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone productive fully charged cocked and pointed keep a tape recorder on my bedside table sweats only the pants that fit the best no belts no cuffs walked home yet loose keep heel dies blue to a ten watch a fly hit a pane of glass till it gets real bony his stomach swells up and he dies i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone long i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone longer i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone longer i don t want to when i feel like i could ve gone cut