i took your photos off my wall and replaced them with pictures of my friends i know you burned the ones you had and i m sorry for this year i m sorry that i got mad but you gotta believe me i didn t burn the ones i had they re in a box in my closet with all the other stuff i wish i never had i never wanted to make this feel so hopeless i ll cut my fingers on ticket stubs to movies that we talked through every photograph reminds me that i miss you you never wanted to come over and ask me why i ordered them chronologically i m bleeding through my shirt and onto the concrete and through my shoes you ll feel my heartbeat a thousand miles trekked though your streets i didn t burn the ones i had they re in a box in my closet with all the other stuff i wish i never had i never wanted to make this feel so hopeless i ll cut my fingers on ticket stubs to movies that we talked through every photograph reminds me that i miss you you never wanted to come over and ask me why i ordered them chronologically i m bleeding through my shirt and onto the concrete and through my shoes you ll feel my heartbeat a thousand miles trekked though your streets i loved you and all the lines you traced in my life like cursive poetry in sunlight i see you fine but something s not right last night i dreamed that we got married and we were happy in a house that we built for ourselves and i felt at ease i never wanted to turn this into silence i ll cut my fingers on promises i broke and i m so sorry that i stumbled and erased all of the songs that we wrote we crossed our hearts we d self destruct and leave this bitter world behind