i spend time searching my mind walking blindly i m alive but i don t know why my thoughts threaten me paranoia fear and guilt i hope i don t explode i m a bomb that ya can t diffuse a gun that ya can t unload i don t listen i don t know man i don t care you re talking bout all the hell you ve seen man i live there talk to me and it goes right through i never heard a word you said save your breath cause it s no use you re talking to the living dead oh bullet driven eyes yeah what can you tell me oh i m living in a nightmare yeah i m on the edge shrinking back from the ledge looking out my window down upon my heritage strip malls thin walls people paralyzed beneath the sun why me why now i see the dirty millions and i try to survive somehow got no reasons got no needs i hear gunshots i hear screams what can you do to me what can you say i used to be alive but i threw it all away i used to have problems i used to live a lie i ve seen the sidewalk bleed and i watched the mother cry i used to have a mind i used to wonder why but now i go from day to day and wait around to die like he did like he did 