the nutritionist said i should eat root vegetables said if i could get down thirteen turnips a day i would be grounded rooted said my head would not keep flying away to where the darkness lives the psychic told me my heart carries too much weight said for twenty dollars shed tell me what to do i handed her the twenty she said stop worrying darling you will find a good man soon the first psycho therapist told me to spend three hours each day sitting in a dark closet with my eyes closed and ears plugged i tried it once but couldnt stop thinking about how gay it was to be sitting in the closet the yogi told me to stretch everything but the truth said to focus on the out breath said everyone finds happiness when they care more about what they give than what they get the pharmacist said lexapro lamicatl lithium xanax the doctor said an anti psychotic might help me forget what the trauma said the trauma said dont write these poems nobody wants to hear you cry about the grief inside your bones but my bones said tyler clementi jumped from the george washington bridge into the hudson river convinced he was entirely alone my bones said write the poems 1