since the day they called me and i heard you passed away i had no peaceful night no minute of rest i cant hear myself think no love left for another this first night of winter was unison my own death come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall it makes no difference to me i dont care at all neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart you were not my closest friend but the longest serving you were my fellow or at least you tried but you died last winter strung up in the stable they found you in the morning dead as our dreams tonight ill get so terribly drunk ill lapse into coma for fucks sake ill drink myself into oblivion cause the only way to forget about you is to deafen all senses until deadness eventuates chance had thrown us together and only death can part if my attempt should not fail a bullet will all too soon conclude fuck this life i re open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine and i will lay down my bones at this stone cold rivers muddy banks one breath left until the void engulfs me one breath left and all belongs to the past you were not my closest friend but the longest serving you were my fellow or at least you tried but you died last winter strung up in the stable they found you in the morning dead as our dreams tonight ill get so terribly drunk ill lapse into coma for fucks sake ill drink myself into oblivion cause the only way to forget about you is to deafen all senses until deadness eventuates  fuck this life fuck my life this was the year of the great depression this was the year i buried myself in the dust of days 1