my thought process is constant rat race a battle of emotions between numb and a bad place i dont think ill ever learn no ill probably never learn the novel worth of text you wrote to try and explain was full of bad excuses mostly written in vain its not something i think ive earned and thats probably none of your concern now its not your fault im a wreck a mess im broken i tend to give my all to end up confused and hoping for a change for a change for a change and i dont think that ill ever learn no ill probably never learn