have you seen my sanity i seem to have left it at home i feel pushed up against the wall like some black flag song oh i try to wash it away every day a little closer a little closer to hell why am i so selfish hold on tight everything will be alright if i choose i why am i so selfish i push away everyone who loves me i don t want want to be like this i just want someone to hold me why am i so childish it s because my mother never loved me i don t want to be like this i just want someone to hold me