time has come to ask myself what future lies ahead the weakness of my soul awakes the fury that was dead and what is it that brings out the shame in my dreams i travel lost confused still searching watching the skies all my sleep is wasted awake or not still waiting watching the skies my home is no longer a place where safety can be found constantly looking over my shoulder forced into the darkest corner of the mind i find myself not trusting anyone and distrust leaves you lonely the hiding from the fear brings me closer to despair feelings of doubt joins me i fight to keep myself above the surface i try but the waves i swim are just growing stronger the light s getting distant and i am drifting further i m being swallowed by the night in my dreams i travel lost confused still searching watching the skies all my sleep is wasted awake or not still waiting watching the skies please be the eyes that guides me through please be the hands to lead me in search for the shocking truth please be my courage my will to win please understand and listen please be my friend