these photographs that hang on my wall meant everything looking back they all seem like a fading dream but waking now i know that it s just a fallacy i rub my eyes and face reality how could i just sit and ignore all the signs was it easier to say it was fine now the words are out in the open air i try to make it right but you don t care content to be blind not to see happy to follow not to lead but now that i ve regained my sight i won t be losing sleep tonight put up a wall i can t tear down there s no reason you don t have to shut me out suddenly it seems that you re too good for me remember when we were like family now you ve ruined everything with everything passing day the space between us only grew whatever happened to the person i once knew and there were time i called you almost every single day i know you d see my name and put your phone away funny how expendable some things can be like our friendship and your negativity you look down your nose at me with such disdain you re so much better friend how is the cocaine you re the last that i thought could do this if you needed blood i would have slit my wrist now you d cut me open just for spite so i won t be losing sleep tonight it seems that i have been betrayed again by enemies disguised as friends feels like a gut shot that stripped away my breath and now there s nothing left and now there s nothing left