it s been a long year i wish i could explain everything i am in one song and what i believe in but i question what i m believing i ve even questioned my music but that ends here i ve found how to make it out alive yeah pressure im feeling is building its cold i wanted this back at seven years old try to live present but can t let it go spend my time writing in rooms all alone if you think this is dark then you don t even know what goes on deep inside of my soul im a role model to many people that don t be who they wanna be won t let it show chest is tight find it hard to breathe many regrets i find it hard to sleep what if i made it yeah what would that mean to go touring through cities just me and my team i never thought that could happen to me suddenly people reaching out want meet and greets autographs pictures begging me please lucid can you show me how to break free you might have forgot i m a human too putting together tunes steady sparking fumes finally they got to listen now they all consumed acting like dogs in a darkened room would you really fucking like it if i barked at you put you up on a wall and threw a dart at you fuck everybody you ain t really thought this through i ain t settling for shit that was taught to you  do you want to find a way out a way out of here can you feel it so conditioned to the things we re taught to fear and we re trying still were climbing can we make it out alive souls are tied in no longer silent break the chains in the rules of life leaving the people you love can be difficult love em today then flip like a reciprocal they re gonna hate you they won t understand blame you for changing becoming a man question your visions and question your plans gotta say fuck it you can t give a damn or i promise that you re gonna end up like them don t be the guy that says remember when do everything that you gotta do to get outta bed you gonna fail a fucking lot and make a thousand attempts gonna be days you thought you were better dead you have deal with the shit that they said if you ain t losing people you ain t taking the steps doing what you gotta do to make it up to success too afraid to move but you wonder what s next paralyzed in the moment looking back in regret and you ain t got a clue what i did to get this i don t gotta party every night to feel i exist i put every fucking penny into making this shit so i plan on taking every benefit that i get dedicated everything to perfecting my craft think you got a clue but you don t know the half nobody gave it to me your fucking perception is whack i lived in depression and i ain t going back do you want to find a way out a way out of here can you feel it so conditioned to the things we re taught to fear and we re trying still were climbing can we make it out alive souls are tied in no longer silent break the chains in the rules of life people asked me why i started to rap they wanna know what is sparking these tracks it s pretty i simple i picked up a pen i got pissed off and i started to vent i connect with my music more than i do them older i get i been losing some friends bigger i grow the more i must confess there s part of me hoping that all of it ends try and take a second out to walk in my shoes i never sleep always writing from a quarter to two suicidal at a point in time but nobody knew everybody wanna tell me their opinion or view yeah people love it and some hate what i do look at my phone and see people abuse technology kids getting bullied in school overdose thinking that gossip is true it s pretty sickening just how vindictive a bully can be to a kid in the kitchen that s going through hell while his parents are bitching about making money and facing eviction all while taking prescriptions fix add ones that causes addiction nobody listens fuck it i guess that we all are conditioned 1