everytime i leave my heart is torn apart and everytime i see these things you know i wanna start to change you can feel it like rain coming down from the sky and mixing with tears falling from out of my eyes it s no surprise that my life is similar to a rollercoaster filled with ups and downs i won t enjoy it till the ride is over probably not but it s okay forget it skip it anyway my feelings are irrelevant to anything we do or say now it s not that i don t trust you and my love is infinite i tell you every chance i get so you will never forget so you can miss me with that shit that you be saying in them arguments throwing around possessions and destroying our apartment there s nothing that would happen that we couldn t talk about but lately we ve been riffing instead of tring to talk it out i said that i would never leave you and i still feel the same but it s killing me inside to fathom that your feelings have changed now you can think me bad for the things i do but you don t understand it s not all about you i sit and think though times of how we came to be and come to realise you re nothing like me now i see i know i told you when we met that i m a weirdo i got a lot of problems trusting other people i m filled with evil that leads me into darkness and when i start this you ll probably say that i m heartless and your remark is i hate you hear her car skid she s standing in the door crying bitch that s our kid your daddy loves you baby your mom s a crazy lady she s saying all of these things in an attempt for you to hate me i never meant for her to leave us like she did but really i can t blame her cause i know that i m a dick i got some issues that i know i need to deal with but so do you don t act like that at least just keep it real with me and we can make it feel so surreal like i m dreaming but instead you pack your bags give me the finger and tell me you re leaving i know these demons are gonna come get me so forget we ever met i hope you don t mind if blood dripping all over my neck  i never said that i would i never said that i would i never said that i would leave you leave you i never said that i would i never said that i would i never said that i would leave you leave you