let s look back on all the things that were said to me pull apart the morals and the lessons that were so clear to see i was raised in the church i was taught the truth or at least how to repeat it but now i can t be too sure i never questioned i never searched for my own i tried my hardest not to stray from the beliefs of my home ive been trying to remember all the truth that you ve said but i get lost with all these doubts and fears there s so much doubt and fear inside my head burn it down let it go up in flames let the whole thing be rebuilt burn it down i wanna watch it crumble i want to know the truth i want to see your life first hand take me to the place where it all began i know you must have been so different than me i want to know how you lived and i want to feel your heart beat i don t just want the stories i want to see it all as if i was there i want to walk the path you walked and i want to breathe the same air cause i can t help but question when i m still doubting everything show me your life from when you were born to when you hung on the tree i want to see the burial grounds i want to see the stone rolled away filled with doubt these relentless questions pounding in my head i want to know the truth will you answer me it s as if the holy ghost himself came and took me to that place gathered all my questions at once and swiftly threw them all away i saw blind eyes opened i saw mangled bones restored i heard all your sermons and watched you calm the storms but i looked down i took my eyes off you i lost track and fell back to the same place tossed around i started doubting you im right back to where i began after seeing all of this and hearing all your promises i d still be in the crowd holding on to my doubt youd probably hear me say i don t want you to die i don t want you to die there must be some other way than this worthless sacrifice 3 days later just doesn t make sense i don t want you to die i don t want you to die even if you showed the scars in your hands to me i think i d still be filled with doubt and i just wouldn t believe i wonder if i ll ever be fixed i don t want you to die don t waste your time on me 