suicide hotline may i help you yeah uh well i m bout to fuckin kill myself listen you don t wanna do that okay you don t wanna do that i m gonna eh there s so many fuckin reasons why i don t even need to be here anymore you know there s no reason i m gonna put a slug in my fuckin head you don t wanna do that you wanna be here on earth okay fuck that shit man i got a gun right now put it away and i got it right under my chin man fuck that take it away from your chin i m gonna fuckin blow my head all over the ceiling no you re not okay fuck this shit man hey just talk to me okay it ain t no point to me wakin up everybody s time i m takin up i got nobody it ain t a shoulder near i can t stay here and it s colder there i don t wanna look back cause it s gonna hurt i slice my wrists and it s gonna squirt for me everybody holds a hate i get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake it s no roads to take i m in a circle drive bustin at myself and i m tryin to survive i ll disappoint you and i will let you down and i ain t got many home boys comin around you don t understand so don t say you do i swear i ll put a motherfuckin slug in you i m the only one the lonely one at home alone loadin a gun thinkin why not why not i ll tell you why not okay okay you have feelings inside your head okay i understand that feelings lead to depression when you have depression you have a lonely void inside of your heart okay and your heart means everything to the world okay  i got court comin up i stole d a truck i got a bitch pregnant and i m broke as fuck i wanna get high but i got piss test i m always first name on top of the shit list get this the witch has made my chest it s permanent nightly visiting nest it ain t no clothes that i look good in i m the motherfuckin big red train that couldn t i got no family i stole they shit restraining orders and i still won t quit i hit rock bottom and then i fell in a hole and then i fell through the floor of that hole some more i been missing for a year nobody s lookin i got beat down and my shit tooken i look ahead and all i see is more of the same or this self inflicted bullet hole pourin my brain okay i understand that you re in pain okay i understand everything you re going through i ve been there myself okay now your pain is my pain alright and i feel your pain and i wanna be your friend just me and you friends i dream about cuttin heads off with a shovel the dreams are gettin serious think i m in trouble i don t hold memory for more than an hour i m tired as fuck and i m drained of power i ain t half way there and i m all outta time i m like a crushed light bulb all outta shine i been around the world but no place is home i wanna see the other side when i face this chrome i m butt naked i been jackin off gettin drunk it s my last hours alive who gives a fuck it don t matter i m doin this shit in the garage tryin to make it easier for them to clean my head splaage this bitch i loved i hope she finds me still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me i m bout to do it can you hold for a second 