wasn t taught to love wasn t taught to feel now i m thinking of how i m supposed to deal wanting tend to more than need conflict of the heart and mind proceed distorted visions through love no reality i believe in no such thing as sanity i don t know maybe that s the way it s supposed to go in my heart is where i hold the thoughts i cannot say in my mind is where all of my emotions stay thinking feeling what is this what did i miss when did this start piece together these parts my mind and my heart like colorful whispers painting my mind with secrets like a full heart of pictures dulled down by a blunted scream telling me i m wrong about these dreams for a minute i m strong never stays too long felt my mind to the top and then i m gone i m gone i don t know sometimes i just wish i had control fear is in the mind i don t want to think anymore trapped in a cage of uncertainty ready to let it be beyond the fear that s when i hear love is always near love is always near 