sometimes i can t handle the cold ill break another heart too fragile to hold love dies i m standing alone painting false hopes is a habit i ve grown come find why i said i don t love you and instead i was humbled and content with the struggle that you gave me and said that i was crazy words grew to chains and love became safety i saw trust until i lost the view and then i lost faith in us like i always do i refused to complement your weakness through all our ups and downs til i was sea sick flashbacks i remember so well we both held in november when the snow fell but that changed you were not a friend to me i distorted and soon i lost identity and when we fought it i tried to break the innocence you said lies and i became a hypocrite you tried to hold the sadness when you grabbed tight you said you couldn t live if i ran away but part of me died anyway when i had to stay in a storm that i saw in groundview and i couldn t find the i it was all about you  year one i felt the dear sun a brand new hope before the tears come year two i see in clear view ashamed of myself when i am near you year three i watch the stars fade im a zombie whos walking through a heartache year four you re forever away and the sun now shines as my memories fade all the feelings i have are hard to word i can t see the problem my vision starts to blur into an image of a violent struggle of a slow suicide since the time i loved you id gladly die if you d pacify but you need too many things that i can t provide so you looked for it inside another s arms lied through ya teeth and cried that nothings wrong all the cryin in public or telling me i m not the only guy you were fuckin but i gave in to all my fears instead the only thing that ran more than me when you told me you cut inside ya flesh you re depressed and you d rather die instead i could feel my heart tear to bits and i knew there was no you and i i kissed you goodbye it felt like suicide or a bond that was made to sever when i turned my back on you and wouldn t face the weather and for a moment it felt like nothing mattered there s givers and there s takers and you re just the latter i needed help but i got a struggle when i fell to pieces you couldn t solve the puzzle til we were lost at sea and a faded promise ring your hands were full cause you seemed to hold grudges while i chased both of our dreams through rosebushes in november i couldn t think to hold a single hope so i pressed on my luck until my fingers broke i m treading steps through quicksand of past love to find closure from ice shoulders and hands touch and my mind is still plagued with the fragrances of pain and bliss and all the things you made me grip when id watch ya face with teary eyes and i had to hurt myself so i could feel alive but i found a place where the weather is much better now in greener pastures where the rain is never out and ya face is replaced by another november s leaves stay but have changed for the summer hope meddles go settle in the line that blurs from love to rose petals and the silence hurt so i just followed through on a beaten street never reaching peaks which i saw in you and now i see that you just took me for granted had a diamond in the rough and you still took me for granite so i d turn my back on things i thought matter lamenting in the sins and the halos that had shattered in november we gazed at sea scapes with each wave symbolizing things that we d make love and war we were born as keepsakes to underscore loves accord when peace breaks in november1