oh bright sun of the night i lift my eyes up to thee oh ye amber golden light let the dark sweep over me mighty cauldron oh nidus i surrender all to thee panacean nothingness when nothing is left these dreadful shades dancing in my dwindling sight and crying out these hollow words a straying soul in my scorching flesh dying down amid this fucking blaze my swooning world infested by strident cries in a worship of the void all vanishing in a dull and distant noise oh bright sun of the night i lift my eyes up to thee oh ye amber golden light let the dark sweep over me mighty cauldron oh nidus i surrender all to thee panacean nothingness when nothing is left this was my rebirth as one with pain and with distress sweet surrender in serenity will i remember this womb at all will i ever know oh bright sun of the night i lift my eyes up to thee oh ye amber golden light let the dark sweep over me mighty cauldron oh nidus i surrender all to thee panacean nothingness when nothing is left  i am not here i do not last i am the grain in the earth i am the wave in the deep sea i am the softly whispered word in the murmuring autumn breeze in front of antumnos gate i beheld the mirror in the lake recognize i did not nor did i comprehend oh bright sun of the night i lift my eyes up to thee oh ye amber golden light let the dark sweep over me mighty cauldron oh nidus i surrender all to thee panacean nothingness when nothing is left this was my rebirth1