i don t know what i need i m scared of life i m scared of what it means to me this broken home is just not what it used to be too fast to slow me down too loud to drown me out i doubt i ll ever get this close to what i was because i ve seen the grand design hold on i hope you ll talk about the future when i m gone but if i m wrong i ll know the reason why i i can t feel anything i can t feel anything that s under my control i i won t do anything i won t do anything that s out of my control i can see myself extended past the limits of my cry for help i don t believe i ve ever come this way before so why do i know my way what do i have to say and do to drain that look of shame away from you i knew we d never find our peace hold on i hope you ll celebrate the past before i m gone but if i m wrong i ll know that it was me i i can t feel anything i can t feel anything that s under my control i i won t do anything i won t do anything that s out of my out of my control i don t know what you need i m scared of love i m scared of what it means to me this empty house is burning down around me so cold i don t know how so much for holding out i hope i suffocate before i let you choke on words you know i ll never say oh no don t go i want you to destroy me one more time so when i die i ll know you really loved me  i i can t feel anything i can t feel anything that s under my control i i won t do anything i won t do anything that s out of my out of my control out of my control yeah1