i spent hours outside your window with my hands over my mouth to make sure not a whimper or insult spilled out and as much as i hate it the silence felt comfortable because neither one of us were there to turn to the vicious names and anecdotes about how every second together and apart felt like being choked it felt better to reminisce whisper into the ambiance the stories of things we built and how we used to be in love sending out an sos looking for my better half when you used to hold my hand when we were young laughing on the run away from the problems that everyone said would come i remember the day you slid off your dress and i stared at it as it turned alabaster to coke white like the rest back before i was bitter and back before you packed your bags i know when i yelled it hurt you but sometimes my voice is all i have back before we needed success and i didn t live with the weight of the world around my neck your life was mine to invest your light enveloped my head sending out an sos looking for my better half your life was mine to invest your light enveloped my head i swear i did what i had to do to live i just got lost chasing my dreams somewhere between now and when i was a kid innocence oh innocence let me in the last part of myself that i truly miss