i couldn t control the corners of my mouth the last time i left ballenden house because i swear i m never going back there but even though i ve regained my health i still find time to torture myself and convince myself the situation is worse than it is i can t deal with nights like this when it all fades to black and air just disappears so please don t remind me of things that i can do without and of nights spent wishing she d come find me stuck in this rut and pull me out but instead i kept you hanging round to drag me down i like to think that i live a lie when i m working from 9 til 5 and that these nights are what define me but my definition is not regret paralysed in a bed of sweat aching from my cranium to my jaw as all the demons gnaw on what is left of my brain somewhere in between so please don t remind me of things that i can do without and of nights spent wishing she d come find me stuck in this rut and pull me out i ve got a lot to sort out and today is the perfect autumn day to think this through walk up and down the innocent railway for an hour or two when it starts getting dark i head back home to work out what to do we re both to blame for wasted days but it time to cut you loose because this is all you seem to do you remind me that i m worthless you remind me that i m always tense you remind me that are the simplest things leave me confused as i struggle to make any sense you remind me that i m weak willed you remind me of the nights that i spent high to forget another face another name to forget another goodbye you remind me that with each step forward i m already contemplating stepping back to digging my nails into my pale skin and let the whites of my eyes turn to black you remind me that i ll never grow up but not in the way that i ll always have fun in the way that i ll never progress i ll always be a mess and do my best to block out the sun that s why i am think i m done do my best to block out the sun that s why i am think i m done do my best to block out the sun that s why i am think i m done do my best to block out the sun that s why i am think i m done i m through with blocking out the sun that s why i think we re done
['power-pop punk']