let myself down one too many times feel victim to my fucking mind so close to living a life without this devil walking to my side i ve tried to leave it behind how can i face this on my own it s time to step away 19 years lost count of days i ve wasted so much time so much time counting the days wasting away can t wait to get the fuck out of this place it s been so long where do i turn the choice is slim i refuse to fucking drown drown set myself free gotta break these chains it s time to leave too much of this living hell can i make a change only time will tell i dream of serenity a peaceful place is where i need to be instead i m left in the dark all alone one place to turn olanzapine when will you save me you re out of choice no where left to turn you ll never understand you ll never learn deal with the reaper before he drags you out deeper