just as i was bound to lose my mind i heard a voice sweeter than wine do you remember way back when let me make you a child again do you remember way back when let me make you a child again do you remember way back when let me make you a child again i want to see your smile again see your smile again a young lad trying to make it in a land where being a black man they hardly understand me neither i rarely had a leader to bypass the bottle to show me that i can be a beacon of light be a giver of hope instead of taking a life showing you what i tote bag it up at the end til the end is at my throat the end being my death when the means is selling dope so i took another route mapping my life out in the end i wanted dollars let s see what this life s bout round after round in my city it s going down like pacquiao intrigued like mama look what i found in the ground there s a gold mine i don t wanna escape this feeling i can t replace see your dreams will have to wait on this grind i want the cake ain t even my birthday but i m hungry and thirsty but i m hearing this earth say everyday is a roller coaster and i m not ready for the ride life can drive you crazy everyday is a roller coaster and i m not ready for the ride life can drive you crazy  these four walls got a voice of they own and i listen my mind missin in the city where the hope is gone and crime risen the same box that had me intrigued is now prison the church i see a schism and treacherous competition so the answer s not religion for me i got a mission of my own and i m wishing to be anything that i see to get me out of this hell yeah my thirst has increased it s pretty dry in the well police they want me to fail that s how i feel when they throw a young kid in the back of a squad car not telling me what i did i m just trying to live just trying to grow just trying to learn just trying to show that i can be somebody in this world of hate that s terrified of my face so they can t relate insane see that s the reason why i chase the fame to show em we equal and inside the same tell me how am i suppose to brace myself when it always comes from where i least expect tell me how am i suppose to brace myself when it always comes from where i least expect now my own people pulling me down crabs in a bucket i m feeling like my luck is run out i pull up on my throne they pull the guns out like i ain t from here they tell me since i got what they wanted first i can never ever come here they say they run here and i ain t welcome no more this ain t home add some obscenities to the convo and yup that would be the sum here they bout they math lookin like one they can grab they a 99 so to keep it 100 and show they run it that chain and that watch is mine see it s like a fine that you pay when you say oh my family they doing fine nope not a crime they took my watch so i m out of time put the barrel to my face and i lost my mind bang just as i was bound to lose my mind i heard a voice sweeter than wine2