i dig my heels into the dirt cause this one s gonna hurt won t let the waves wash me away is what i always pray in my heart i know you couldn t see in the dark or find your way through me now i m alone my hands are numb how do i carry on at the turn of the tide i feel this part of me die am i washed on your shore and barely alive now i m held hostage in my head with every word you said god all those lessons in my past i spit them out so fast i see myself with you i act so small i see myself with you i always crawl so someone leave a raft for me the water s getting deep at the turn of the tide i feel this part of me die am i washed on your shore and barely alive here i am in my insecurity here i am in my damaged dignity here i am you re pulling me in too deep here i am here i am i m in the mercy seat here i am running without my feet here i am oh what s come over me here i am when i was melting in your hand you didn t understand you slip through me like grains of sand you still don t understand overboard i m thrown out to see what you are and what i mean to me but i will always have my dream where you can swim to me at the turn of the tide i feel this part of me die i ve been on your shore before and it was no waste of time over my head and in my mind am i washed on your shore and barely alive 