imagine being eight and never feeling safe my momma s crazy husband put a pistol to her face he knocked me on the ground and told me that i had to wait gotta watch yo momma die cause her and jesus got a date it fill my heart with hate never give in so we take then when my brother passed i wish i could ve took his place wait wait you see i ain t wanna live pain lies in death is what i knew as a kid so afraid of love to scared to ever cross that bridge not one to mess it up in these relationships i m in not again who the hell am i supossed to trust when he beat my mom for years and all she did was show him love all the tears they slowin much know my fears i m growin up don t play me like a chump i mma get you what you want i m so tired of being weak got a gun from down the streets said i mma kill him in his sleep sixteen i was a beast twenty years i ll be released got it on my mom for weeks i mma take us both beneath i m just numb i m just numb to it i m just numb to it don t wanna feel the pain no more oh yeah i m just numb call me numb to it i m just numb to it don t wanna feel the pain no more oh yeah i m just numb to it  they said i was bein dumb really i just needed love so i had my babies young for you i d fight the moon and protect you from the sun with daddy on your side baby you ain t gotta run stand strong keep your head up the world can be against us and i promise we won t lead up but if they knock you down just be proud you can get up keep your hunger in that drive even when you fed up i m just numb i m just numb to it i m just numb to it don t wanna feel the pain no more oh yeah i m just numb call me numb to it i m just numb to it don t wanna feel the pain no more oh yeah i m just numb to it i m just numb to it i m just numb to it