i ve cried like a child in the arms of a storm whose feet can t pretend to be brave any more days under sheets and smoke under skies and rooms lit to burn down our lives as we break this one day at a time i will crawl on my hands and collapse at the sea and i ll scream to the water you have mended me all that i want and all that i need is to fall just as fast as i please with no one to cry over me i have bled like a soldier in the books that they showed us when they told us that no one is safe and i ve pleaded with god saying don t you be long i don t know how much more i can take and all the good people who think that they know the story in full well nobody knows just me and the moon and these lies that i ve told i think i ve got them sold i will crawl on my hands and collapse at the sea and i ll scream to the water you have mended me all that i want i think all that i need is to fall just as fast as i please with no one to cry over me the hearts that i ve wrecked cause i stay out too late and then hide in my shame til their eyes start to break through the walls of my chest and this bed that i ve made i spoil the things that i ve saved and i ll sleep till i dream them away i will crawl on my hands and collapse at the sea and i ll scream to the water you have mended me all that i want i think all that i need is to fall just as fast as i please with no one to cry over me with no one to cry over me