i m not okay i can t find stability x2 threading through my faith with a needle named doubt putting it all together and then tearing it apart throwing away the scraps and trying to restart go back to the days when it was sunny and clean my soul stormed until it stopped trying to shine it settled for hazy messages from a black sky i still don t know why know why no question i threw up came back and i don t know why is this what i wanted to be a restless soul wrestling with what i believe or just a selfish soul blind to problems that tower over me over me that tower over me slow fade out sun burn and stay out clouds close like a mouth round last light and sound don t bother save your breath could be the last you get am i jaded to the point where i can t see all of the beauty your hands made the world surrounding me i m scared of what has come and what is to be my heavy heart the earth will cover me