i m tired of being what you want me to be feeling so faithless lost under the surface don t know what you re expecting of me put under the pressure of walking in your shoes caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow every step that i take is another mistake to you caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow and every second i waste is more than i can take i ve become so numb i can t feel you there become so tired so much more aware bout becoming this all i want to do is be more like me and be less like one thing i don t know why it doesn t even matter how hard you try keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time all i know time is a valuable thing watch it fly by as the pendulum swings watch it count down to the end of the day the clock ticks life away so unreal i didn t look out below watched the time go right out the window tryna hold on but you didn t even know i wasted it all just to watch you go i kept everything inside and even though i tried it all fell apart what it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn t even matter i had to fall to lose it all in the end it doesn t even matter  crawling in my skin these wounds they will not heal here is how i fall confusing what is real i bleed it out digging deeper just to throw it away just to throw it away just to throw it away i bleed it out digging deeper just to throw it away just to throw it away for what i ve done i ll face myself to cross out what i ve become erase myself and let go of what i i don t know what s worth fighting for or why i have to scream i don t know why i instigate to see what i don t mean i don t know how i got this way i know it s not alright but i m breaking the habit tonight ohhh why is everything so heavy holding on to so much more than i can carry holding on why is everything so heavy why is everything so heavy 