the first thing you see is the light then you focus on a man in a mask with a knife as he cuts you away from everything you thought you knew about life now you re in your mother s arms wrinkled and wet you ll spend the rest of your life trying to hard to forget that you met the world naked and screaming and that s how you ll leave it in riverside hospital on a july morning with a push and a pull this is how i found out i wasn t quite so invulnerable it put the fear of god in me when i heard my daddy say one mistake is all that it takes i ended up at central school 1993 and met a certain kid named sarim at the library he said they re ain t nothing about this place that s elementary i learned to play the guitar in the seventh grade in order to convince everyone i was a renegade that s when i learned in glen rock everybody calls a spade a spade i couldn t fool anyone i couldn t even fool myself i was just another book on the shelf nothing else1