white lies to hide me at home while i m sad in the mornings oh i can be a hermit you know i ll reply when the weather gets warmer here s to miss everything s fine eating full bowls of kale and sipping her wine even she agrees apathy comes with the times so rest assured that nothing matters it s always a struggle you learn to grin and bear it i wonder if we could memorize our thoughts put them into songs would they ever really change much my old fears showed up and left i ve basically conformed and lost my edge i imagine this will always be complicated my wanderlust may never be satiated i will try to find some sort of peace in it all revise my beliefs on our walks on alberta i won t tell you when i m full and down to go home cause our talks on alberta are the reason i m not spiritually suffocating not fake smiling better things will come if we never stop trying that s what they told me but i don t really buy it i ll play dumb and you can play it cool