when i was a child i used to dream of what life would be like when i grew up i never dreamed it would be like this somewhere along the way i lost myself can you see me somewhere between my dreams and hell i ve given up everything i believed in but i had a name once and now i m someone that no one knows i had a life once but this ain t the life i chose now i m empty drowning myself in my pain and nothing can fill me but this addiction for cocaine just one more time and i can leave this life behind now once again i m stuck between a rock and a hard place this hell i call home it s got me lookin like a madman tryin to understand this lust for substance that burns in my bones suicide on a daily basis i m too high to face this pointless helpless hopeless heartless god forsaken life i ve wasted could you even fathom what it s like to be broken steady lookin for a reason for breathing except this evil you re smoking and i never get a moment of peace i m living to feed the need for me to get geeked cause i can t eat and i can t sleep and i can t think what it is i do and what i don t believe i don t see how something so small could take control of me i ve given up everything i ve loved everything i ve owned and now there s nothing left but this skin hanging from my bones i don t know how something so small could rip the life out of my soul i know that i must be blind but it s taking over my mind all i want to do is hit it just one more time and i ll be find with this pain that i feel when i m lonely i m lonely it s got my mind gone my mind blown now i m gone praying for jesus to take me home because i had a god once but this ain t the god i chose now i m empty drowning myself in my pain and nothing can fill me but this addiction for cocaine
['country rap', 'redneck']