i am not alive i do not exist im preprogrammed my soul is destined for death i cannot deviate the predetermined future this will is not my own trapped in this computed reality of calculated misery a formula for disaster the blueprint of my life caught in the equation of the methodical process of breaking me down the cycle of torment continuing on repeat the ceaseless agony will never decrease my memories torture me with a series of suffering always struggling ive lost everything constantly remembering stranded alone in this nightmare i must find a way to escape here i dont care about anything anymore i have nothing to live for i know im not alive i just survive to reach the other side continuing through this life of mine is a waste of time no hope moving forward ive never felt so low these thoughts they echo within my soul while they resonate they begin to tear me down within i start to question why i try to stay alive when all that awaits is nothing but a horrid fate if ill die either way why fight through another day to hope to find a gleam of a nonexistent dream my heavy heart has grown so cold as it shatters it fills in with stone the only escape is death i approach my destination with open arms i welcome the end spreading across my face like a smile a rewarding grin of guile my life doesnt matter ill return to the void my whole life is destroyed