i can t sleep i can t eat it s all too present to me i can hear everything i can still see when i close my eyes i m dreaming again so i guess that s good i m more abstract than usual it s like i m trying to tell me something everybody wants something from me i just hope i can give it to them i ve never felt this alone so of course i got close with myself being friends with yourself is the smartest and worst decision i can make i can t feel alone but i sure can look like it it s not me thinking i greater or me thinking i m lesser it s me thinking i m me i m sorry you took it that way i found out that i need this i don t just do it because i want to do it i do it because i have to what else is there to do nothing can get to me more than ever they only love me when they re far away if another woman tells me i m her future husband and current no one i m buying a chastity belt people who acted like they didn t know me are acting like they always did we don t listen to what people say anymore we just get snippets i ve lost friends over this version of myself but what did i expect my legs can t stop moving i have to be honest because no one else is doing that right now it s not that i ve run too far i ve run too differently you are the greatest instrument you can play so tune yourself i don t care what people think but i do care how they feel