if i showed my hand shaking like a leaf you might not understand but i bet you d believe this bat is inside crawling around the cobwebs in my mind that i try to drown out you said i look like a ghost man i almost was you said i need to let go quit chasing that buzz that picture in time frozen like ice that girls keep repeating beating me down to size well maybe i m blind just throwing darts in the dark i didn t get what i want i got what i need man it hurts like hell down here on my knees is this where i end or is this where we begin the night is my friend i blend in with the best the vampires the crooks the felons and the rest now we can pretend that we really care less and act like we love what we really detest make this go away i m begging please there s little life left here for me to bleed is this where i end or is this where we begin i m looking up but i m feeling down since i m cutting these corners was cutting me down to size am i losing control or losing my mind i know for a fact i m losing my last place to hide my pulse is racing i can t catch my breath this near life experience scared me to death is this where i end or is this where we begin or is this where we begin 