well i m staring straight into the face of hell you re so close and you can t even tell i m so wrapped up inside because i don t have much to love horrified i feel from pits unseen falling off my pedestal of plentiful deeds as it crumbles down on top of me i contemplate my lack of love come and save my soul before it s not too late i m not afraid to admit how much i hate myself all these gongs and cymbals ring inside my head