secrets of the night make everyone go hide pretend we re not afraid but we are terrified inside our mind visualize that everyone has died everyone has died everyone has died everyone has died and i try to masquerade the fear inside but it s taking over taking over my mind i don t know how long i can hide but i will try again and again to fend off the fear inside and i will strive because i must survive these involuntary dreams and every time i faint i wake up in untold pain perplexity absurdity tell me please what s wrong with me he says i m sure you re fine i think you re fine but i will run some tests for your peace of mind i know how hard it can be at home you cook and you clean i just think you need some sleep and for the dreams they re only dreams they re just imaginary fiction merely fantasy i know you re scared and afraid but you can t let it persuade you to feel so dismayed i will try again and again to fend off the fear inside  and i will strive because i must survive these involuntary dreams and every time i faint i wake up in untold pain perplexity absurdity tell me please what s wrong with me ma am i ve received the results of your tests and it appears you have either voluntarily or involuntarily ingested a high dose of a drug called ketamine is there something you re not telling me no i ve been drugged taken advantage of it must be what s causing all these dreams it s smothering me i can hardly breathe every time i fall asleep i will try again and again to fend off the fear inside and i will strive because i must survive these involuntary dreams and every time i faint i wake up in untold pain perplexity absurdity tell me please what s wrong with me 