just when i thought i had handles on this i can soften my guard behind false confidence just when i felt humble pie insipid exempt from this blind side and firmly in its grip cause i am seduced by reaction and under the influence i m slipping again i m up to old tricks off my wagon i have no defense i m wreaking havoc wreaking havoc and consequence i get reduced by my own willfulness as i reach for my usual god replacements cause i am rich with sanction and lax in my steps i m slipping again i m up to old tricks off my wagon i have no defense i m wreaking havoc wreaking havoc and consequence if forgiveness is understanding then i offer mea culpa for the millionth time from this toppling house of cards of mine i am beaten by my impulsiveness by this uncanny foreshadowing of regret cause i m repulsed by restriction at least that s my excuse  i m slipping again i m up to old tricks off my wagon i have no defense i m wreaking havoc wreaking havoc and consequence i m slipping again i m up to old tricks off my wagon i have no defense i m wreaking havoc wreaking havoc and consequence1