so is it courage or strength and is that what i m waiting for if i could just kill myself would it also kill the remorse i wanted so badly to catch a break but i m only breaking down i m still here and standing but if it s up to me i don t think i ll be hanging around the drink slips down my throat and the burn cures nice and slow all the worst parts i wouldn t want you to see the only parts left of me now here i am just a kid without a better plan but it s the simple thoughts that haunt me the most i never got to see the west coast spend my nights just asking why would god let me become like this was it a joke from the start was i s posed to laugh more at it and everyone s quoting the teachers and preachers but their words make me feel so alone no one ever says that they ve had those thoughts in the middle of the night no one ever admits that they wanted to take their life the drink slips down my throat and the burn cures nice and slow all the worst parts i wouldn t want you to see the only parts left of me now here i am just a kid without a better plan but it s the simple thoughts that haunt me the most i never got to see the west coast but it s the life i dreamed i d have the love i would find in my grasp the words i could share with someone those thoughts keep the breath in my lungs the tomorrow my hope will become fulfilled by a love that can t be undone and save a wretch like me so if the drink slips down your throat and the burn cures nice and slow all the worst parts you wouldn t want me to see the same parts i have in me now it scares me too we are both this way i feel just like you do but when you re by yourself you should know one day we gotta see the west coast