i start to run it s all in my head cause i cannot remember which of us is dead i found the gun you hid behind your back but i wish that i could find it while your body was intact i try again it s always the same you catch your neck in the noose that i hang and in the end i run to the start just to find that without a taste of tragedy we d only fall apart if i was a castle then you were the last stone keeping the ground beneath my feet keeping the ground beneath me if i can be honest you made me a promise i guess in the end you couldn t keep i guess in the end you couldn t keep pretending to smile and now i see your ghost every day i m not complaining it makes everything okay but how did we end up where we are i m a lonely hopeless dreamer you re a blue eyed shooting star i wish for time to pour into you to figure out if there was something i could do brother of mine we were doomed from the start but if you need a place to hide away i swear to god you ll always have my heart if i was a castle then you were the last stone keeping the ground beneath my feet keeping the ground beneath me if i can be honest you made me a promise i guess in the end you couldn t keep i guess in the end you couldn t keep pretending to smile i want to be somebody else i want to see you when i m looking at myself i tried to belong tried be strong tried to write a beautiful song but i always get it wrong it s like i m destined to fight for my sanity and wage war with the person that i planned to be because the only one who ever understanded me probably felt like this too connor i miss you  if i was a castle then you were the last stone keeping the ground beneath my feet keeping the ground beneath me if i can be honest you made me a promise i guess in the end you couldn t keep i guess in the end you couldn t keep pretending to smile keep pretending to smile