in denial no my life s a trial i m not denying that every little bit hurts it s a problem that i m not solving don t mind admitting i feel like quitting this job for a while getting away before it gets any worse today you re in denial and that is final you re not admitting you should be quitting all these queens and fairies and muscle marys the rough trade boyfriend who in his pathetic own way denies he s gay why can t he see this is a fantasy i think i m going mad how d you know if you re going mad look at me i m lonely look at me i m sad i m not denying i could be trying a little harder to deal with some of this stuff know what i m thinking less drugs and drinking no cigarettes and you ll feel a little less worth is that enough my life is absurd i m living it upside down like a vampire working at night sleeping all day a dad with a girl who knows he s gay can you love me anyway 