wake up with a weight upon my chest you re fast asleep i listen to your breath can we still be great is there enough time left to make your proud and live without regret my mind is plagued with things that i don t say i suck it up and choose to start the day cause that s the one thing she never ever need to know she never ever need to know she never ever need to know she never ever need to know she never ever need to know i m scared to death that i might lose my health fade away before the cards are dealt one too many times i cross the line will i lose myself to a damaged mind will i fuck it up and cause her pain my father s son i change my name about to break the pressure just to run i swallow it down i won t show my crush  my fear my pride my double life my darker side all these little white lies this is the place i hide my fear of trust my wanderlust i want to run