i want somebody but hurting them so badly wanted it to work cause i m the one who loved you first when i found somebody who wants to love my body pretend not to be sad when i m the best you ever had and now you re bare and now you re bare i ve never hated myself more than yesterday i d never wish so hard that you d just move away i wish you were a candle burning on my shelf then i could blow you out so you had nobody else i went to sleep and i know you re not lying by my side i m the girl with the mascara eyes and no place left to hide and now i m bare and now i m bare and yesterday was a mistake and now i feel like i m dying and i feel like a child seeing shadows moving dark in the night if i could stand myself i would leave and light this all on fire but instead i m lying naked on the bathroom floor i m crying 