lying in the hospital holy fuck i lost it all god yo i don t wanna go god please don t let me go i ve got so much more to give just let me live i m sorry i m a prick i m sorry i m a shit mummy don t cry mummy dry your eye trying to leave some shit behind for the kids this is pathfind god i love the nhs the nurse is from colombia the next one s from zambia the kindness of strangers now i ve lost my vanity now i get the clarity i guess this shit happens when you ve had to shit your pants g suddenly i feel the lord suddenly i can feel it all happier than i ve been before now i m knockin at heaven s door or am i going straight down under it makes me wonder allah you the og bhagavan you the one bruv i chase my early memory when my dad played me one love qawwali on the tape brahhh bob marley on the wave brahhh peep me on the tv i m a talking head a pundit hindu center queens catch me talkin to my pandit he said i should start a start up maybe he would fund it i said you a priest where you get so many funds at his client did fraternity he partied in the toga now he up in rishikesh he tryna learn the yoga everyday he get the shits and everyday he throw up he eat the food of the people sabzi roti yogurt hindu in the bottle hinduism in a bottle marketed and sold like fairness cream by the model it s all about the money fast cars and the throttle one of em do it and they all gotta follow they comin for the culture man like they was on a mission ask me about kama sutra different sex positions used to hate the clothes they ask where d i get the stitchin used to call me curry now they cook it in the kitchen  i guess i feel we re all connected i feel like we should never be unkind to one another feel like that starts with yourself feel like it starts from deep inside but it s difficult when you re raised to hate yourself and look in the mirror and dye yourself and it deflates your health sigh you can t escape yourself please love yourself please love yourself