i was looking forward to this day for so long i had it all planned out i was hoping it d all work out i was losing patience you know it s never been my best trait counting minutes hours counting days then it dawned on me unpredictabilty i told myself everything s just fine you worry too much it s gonna eat you alive i was looking forward to this day for so long i had it all planned out i was hoping it d all work out will it all work out now i feel exposed like a black light on the wall in a darkened room all the dirt appears you can see my fears i don t want to let my guard down you know i never had the feeling that you would prey on my insecurities you know i never had the feeling that you would prey on these insecurities i have why is this wait taking so long counting minutes hours counting days i m losing patience don t think this means i m walking away i won t let fear get the best of me now it s up to me i wouldn t change a thing 