i look around in the morning at the waves as they bleed into the shore and i long to be one of them they make me feel like a warm insurrection as our revolution died in her arms i used to cower in the face of friends i used to want to be loved wanted to be just as accepted as them i blamed my fortunes for my pain and grief i used my anger to explain the abyss i wanted all to look up to me i built a wall to hide myself behind i used to cringe at the thought of death i used to think it was something i couldn t accept i killed my dreams one failure at a time i resembled the mask inside i had created in my mind i was blind i had been undermined i was distracted by a need to feel original i had to fuel the beast but then it turned on me i had to shut it out but then it started begging me begging me begging me begging me won t you please come out won t you open up the gates and let it burn in me i will release the angry beast and let it burn in me i will open up the flame and let it burn in me i will swallow up my grief and let it burn in me i will swallow up the sun and let it burn in me and i will drink up all the sea and let it boil in me boil in me i will swallow all my grief and let it burn in me