this was the year i would finish a book i was going to live a bohemian life in berlin and this was the year i was redecorating my kitchen my bedroom my bathroom and everything in side this was the year my life would change and all of the chaos would fall in two days this was the year i would start on a diet and be very healthy while reading the magazines thorough and this was the year i would write a whole book about life how i see it and they would all think i was smart and this was the year i would play on tv i would talk to the host about life and the hard times last year and this was the year i would tour in the states i would live in new york buy new clothes and drink wine every day this was the year i would make it but this became the year i was faking it everything stays the same the life that they re living i want to move to paris and i want to be with my lover my lover my beloved one beloved beloved beloved one i want to tell him i love him i want to ride on a horse in the sunset with my beloved beloved beloved one beloved beloved beloved one this was the year i would marry have kids buy a house with a garden and this was the year i would cook everyday i would travel the world talk to strangers and friends be a lover a wife a mother a friend and everything would turn out perfect in the end in the end in the end oh i thought i had changed but nothing has changed eveything stays the same1