nothing to say to be honest got no idea what to talk about now speaking my mind is so useless can t think of words that suit the state i m in don t know at all what it s all about all day long i m smoking always a thrill but i m not getting high i m not excited i don t feel like it deterioration i ve got a cracked brain cracked brain feel too lazy to get up just stay in bed and rest my mind nowhere to go no one s waiting all i want is to get passed this day stare at a box with moving pictures lie on a rug and let the time pass by clouds of smoke inside my bedroom floating away and leave reality behind i m not excited 