was it all my fault or just a little bit did i let all my friends down again are they waiting for me to say something but it can t be me no not this time i m gonna carry on i m gonna dry my eyes i m saving myself and i m not sorry it s a bad memory when i close my eyes it s the only thing i see hold on to me like a parasite or an endless fever dream was it happenstance was it meant to be is there something you re not telling me cause i m waiting for you to say something and i m fading fast into the sunset