i am in denial and i am depressed i will try to bargain with you then share my anger with you but i can t complete the full cycle of mourning i struggle with acceptance i can t forgive myself everything i touch turns to gold then to coal everything i touch turns to rust then to dust my clothes are full of holes hanging off my tired body i command so much negativity my touch drains the life from machinery but i feel such powerlessness when i struggle with forgiveness yet i don t know my own strength when i destroy everything everything i touch turns to gold then to coal everything i touch turns to rust then to dust