i cant see through this transparency but i guess ive been wrong about everything so should i lie or dumb myself down to feel okay or do i phone it in awhile until the feeling goes away im on the outside looking in and i dont see you again you know exactly where ive been becoming self aware becoming self aware im thinking i half believe that i dont care anymore walking like an old man but feeling immature weve learned we wont agree on anything the line drawn in the sand rethinking where im standing now and if ill ever stand a chance i know i know i could call this home but i dont want to make this awkward i wont i know i could call this home but i dont want to make this awkward anymore