as much as i d like to go to places i ve never known scared shitless to leave home and i don t want to go alone i miss the rewarding gaze of a friend from my younger days didn t mind bout my selfish ways as he died i was miles away i hope he remembers how as i do when i look back now though he d bark at the slightest sound would not bite for he knew not how and sometimes it s more than clear when morning comes early here and i know that the day is near wasted days make for wasted years now i m vicious with appetite sobering half a mind dripping with stolen wine awoken by something i dreamt harboured by everything i have been witnessing postcards and daydreaming get less embarrassing after the day is done i will be on the run so much for everyone so much for everyone the showdown is endless here under the burning sun as eyes roll toward me now i will drop my gun i will drop my gun i will i will drop my gun drop my gun i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will i will 