i d be lying if i said i was completely unscathed i might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation would i be letting you win in my non reaction yeah how would i explain how would i explain this to my children if i had them because i can t not because i can t not because i can t afford to be misread one more time would i be whining if i said i needed a hug would you feel slighted if i said your love s not enough how can i complain and how can i complain when i m the one who reaches for it because i can t not because i can t not because i can t not walk without my crutches because i can t not because i can t not because i can t help wonder why you ask me to all the unheard wisdom in the schoolyard you think you re the right ones you think you re the charmed ones i m sure and how can you go on with such conviction and who do you think you are why do you question me because we can t not because we can t not because we can t help laugh at underestimations because we can t not because we can t not because we can t afford to be misled one more time because we can t not because we can t not because we can t not help without your willingness  why do you affect me why do you affect me still why do you hinder me why do you hinder me still why do you unnerve me why do you unnerve me still why do you trigger me why do you trigger me still 4