i keep talking to myself as if there s no one else around all those pretty pills can t help me find what can t be found everything went as planned i ll give up my mind will bend you can leave me behind you know i won t mind i swallow tears with a happy smile there s little time to reconcile can t run away i fall apart it cannot end it stops my heart i swallow tears with a happy smile and all i know is that you can t help me can t help me i keep staring at the ceiling though i know that it looks bad tired of old familiar feeling fighting voices in my head i keep running from my conscience with no special place to hide i m so tired of reminding myself of what s right everything went as planned i ll give up my mind will bend you can leave me behind you know i don t mind  i swallow tears with a happy smile there s little time to reconcile can t run away i fall apart it cannot end it stops my heart i swallow tears with a happy smile and all i know is that you can t help me can t help me i swallow tears with a happy smile there s little time to reconcile can t run away i fall apart it cannot end it stops my heart i swallow tears with a happy smile and all i know is that you can t help me can t help me