you still haunt me like you used to you re the weight on my shoulders but it s different than before because i ve gotten older i watched your shadow roam around the room all night dimly lit by the cloud covered moonlight i prayed in silence that i might get some sleep cause the bags under my eyes expressed the words i couldn t speak i saw your ghost out of the corner of my eye darting past the window frame and i still have that feeling in the corner of my mind maybe i fucked up and kept the words i should ve said you still haunt me like you used to you re the weight on my shoulders but it s different than before because i ve gotten older you still haunt me like you used to and it s the same now hold me under inhale water watch me drown so i ll stay inside and waste every day away the sun was never meant for me but maybe now i ll finally get some sleep i rest my tired eyes to the sound of exploding arteries and for as long as i can remember we ve kept our fingers perfectly entwined your apparition hand in mine it was cold but at least it was constant when nothing else in my life was and i ve watched all the color fade away and the knots in my stomach take their place i wish i could speak up but with you there s only silence there s only silence i m so afraid of the silence why can t i hear anything why can t i feel anything you still haunt me like you used to you re the weight on my shoulders but it s different than before because i ve gotten older you still haunt me like you used to and it s the same now hold me under inhale water watch me drown