happy sunshine green grass growing smiling faces pearlies showing care free loving rosey red to think i let that go to my head i was sunshine pouring through a window cold water running down the face of a child i remember nothing but a breath of air growing thicker in my lungs i think of nothing else just sordid pleasure with myself ooh i can t believe what does man gotta do to get a little nothing but a i spit in the face of bigger men i ran the rat race and i m still a rat yeah vote for me i m president i ve walked through your garden and i ve pulled your pedals one by one she loves me she loves me not and this is what i get to wanna fly you call it suicide colors so vivid just like opening my eyes for the first time and i feel closer to god can you hear just what i whisper when i blow out the candles you teach me how to swim then you push me under is nothing left to sacrifice you ve torn me up now here s your slice fill me up suck me dry push me off and i can t fly i was i was little left but nothing now staring through the face of a clown as the makeup smears happiness is just a dream living in a man that might seem put together oh so well everything s so fucking clear i was 