another friday night wasted realizing that my life is a disgrace you ll never change even if you wanted you ll never account for anything i swear that s all you d say i swear that s all you d say i tried so hard to pull myself together and pick the pieces off of the ground i never thought that a thousand miles away i could ever feel the same but i can and i will i lie awake almost every night it s like nothing has changed since milwaukee i m so sick of this progression i m a walking contradiction i tried so hard to pull myself together and pick the pieces off of the ground i never thought that a thousand miles away i could ever feel the same but i can and i will and i will i thought things would get better but i shouldn t plan for anything but the worst since history likes to repeat itself i always try so hard but what does that actually mean because everything stays the same no matter how far away i stray from my friends and my family from everything and everyone i love i m so alone i m so afraid of everything that could possibly go wrong what the fuck am i doing here am i doing with my life i can hardly stand it anymore i can hardly stand it anymore i m so alone i m so alone i m so alone