you know what s funny when the shit that makes you laugh makes you cry hell i m bout ready to cry now thinking bout my cousin brandon and how we used to clown and then i hear them two shots and seen him hit the ground i think about chuck a rapper soon to be a legend and then i see him lying there bleeding and begging now every second is divided up at 5 i think of brandon 5 of chuck and it s fucked up cause chuck died on my birthday i m celebrating 19 in the worse way all i can say is that it s been about a year now 365 days of asking how and still no answers we want some answers i done had to cry so much that it s funny now dropping tears think its water balloons asking how could this be me i couldn t see that better way i m just another black product of where i stay living hell everybody i know sells or at least tried to buy the plastic for black mail see how they lied i m denied for everything i quite applying i can t even hear the birds sing my partner s crying i often see my brother lying up in his bunk writing letters from jail telling me to keep it crunk label a drunk to my thirst quencher a case of bud got me looking at the bottle backward letter switcher no matter i ma continue my journey where was i headed a challenge boy every second damn i regret it more regular than unleaded irregular mother the baby and the child s father must be that each other another child like most ain t no love cause from the east to the west coast baby thugs they selling drugs fuck a pacifier so why the fuck should i be scared of eternal fire i want some motherfucking answers 