when every thought brings so much pain it s hard to explain i don t wanna feel anything it s hard to explain i don t wanna change something in my brain telling me to hate all i ever say i don t wanna change something in my brain won t go away far from home where you ll find me made my bed and i ll finally lay in it lay in it far from home where you ll find me made my deathbed and i ll finally lay in it i ll lay in it backpacked on my own rather be fucked up all alone airplane mode on my iphone running from a careless path i wish i d never known but i know that everyone that i believed in was holding me back matter of fact i wasn t leaving because what i needed was space that i lacked i got off track don t wanna do it by myself but i don t want no help the only way s to go away and write a story to tell made a promise that i d love myself and a promise that i d break it made a promise that i d get better and a promise that i d fake it promised myself that i d give it up give up everything you hated made a promise that i d enjoy my life and a promise that i d take it far from home where you ll find me made my bed and i ll finally lay in it lay in it far from home where you ll find me made my deathbed and i ll finally lay in it i ll lay in it far from home where you ll find me made my bed and i ll finally lay in it lay in it far from home where you ll find me made my deathbed and i ll finally lay in it i ll lay in it guys just hold me back3