i m trapped in consequences and things that are out of my control my mind s a mistake and it s making me think i shouldn t be awake in this state in this way i feel i ll never get to sleep it s been a week and nothing seems to do much for my shaking i need an escape there s nothing that i hate more than being a pain i can t relate i m really ashamed of how many times i ve taken the blame i m going numb from every cold shoulder you threw at me tonight i don t want to fight but you push me further than i d like and in spite of every night this happens to me i think that i ll be alright what s one more night you fucking lied and ruined my whole life i need an escape there s nothing that i hate more than being a pain i can t relate i m really ashamed of how many times i ve taken the blame i need an escape there s nothing that i hate more than feeling insane i can t relate i m really ashamed of how many times i ve taken the blame