searching for something walking endlessly for what seemed like days and if you wait for me i ll wait for you grasping to hold on to what i can t see it is coming back it seems that i ve forgotten the way to continue on this broken down road push carry on i won t pretend that this is my life hollow words make paranoid people back down this is not this is not this is not control i thought that i had control i thought i could keep control i thought i would want control i thought i d never lose control there s no reason for this just please forgive me hoping for something passing time with an endless trail of smoke throat burns choke on cigarettes ashes fall and scatter that old familiar blue glow red eyes gaze this is not this is not this is not control