lost in the lust and pull of the desires of my eyes it starts a fire in my skin and burns it s way into my heart this sin tore us apart and now it s too late to go back cause i lost track of all the love that i said we shared it s like smoke and mirrors i don t know my heart i don t know my plans everything has fallen apart god save this wretched man i have fallen apart and i cant free myself i cant let go i have fallen apart and i cant free myself who will save me now there must be something wrong with me every time i try its like im digging my own grave its like theres poison in my veins every time i think im getting closer to break through i make the same mistakes i ve been chasing the wind ive been playing god replaced these gifts with efforts how did i end up like this i used to be passionate i used to have conviction flowing through my veins i used to be in love with you god you must be so disappointed in me my knuckles are callused and stained with your blood god save this wretched man i must have worn out your patience by now this has become my hell i swear to god something is wrong with me cause i cant breath feels like im suffocating i know its not just the snake around my neck but these hands that pushed the nails into your flesh god these hands have pulled the apple from the tree and i ve been striving for atonement but it s just out of reach this whole time i thought i was living in your name hands to the plow i was digging my own grave i ve been trying i ve been trying to somehow earn your grace i ve been lying i ve been lying wearing masks to hide my face i ve been thinking to myself does this cycle ever end i ve been falling short and burning out your patience must be thin have i worn out your patience yet 