tired of driving through the night stinging eyes and my knuckles clenched to white and it s still snowing outside it hurts to think of all i ve had and all the pain that i ve caused with these hands and how i want it back oh god can you tell me why i can t shake these thoughts that haunt my mind it s killing me inside surrounded by december cold there really is no other place like home no other place i d go i remember when nights just like this one tonight i d spend with you and i d feel alive i d love to spend them by your side just the two of us alone in time i still remember how you d laugh and how it felt when i held your hand they re cancerous these memories they re breaking me like a disease solitude i ll be alone can t ever go back won t go back home so i ll wait here until my last breath and breathe relief as it slowly leaves my chest