goodbye carolina i felt cold and i felt weak took a midnight bus from asheville passed like a ghost through tennessee brushed the northern edge of blacksburg like the hair off of your cheeks i wish i could fall asleep half dead in the window seat awake for weeks good morning manhattan stopped at port authority i ll take a train under the river ride the a out to the g and i ll walk along your narrow streets with a dollar cup of coffee letting it stain my teeth two sugars a drop of cream bittersweet god damn i missed you brooklyn caught my breath here on your streets i left my winter coat in charlotte and i m cursing at the breeze i m hiding out from early march read the sign hung in our lobby elevator broke last week i walk the stairs to 403 i don t blame you for changing the locks i think i d probably do the same if it were me now i m gathering up the courage to knock not sure what i m looking for i don t know what i want do i want anything i don t want anything well some college student answers and my heart crash lands on the floor he says he sublet this place last month he never heard of me before well he sees me there collapsing and he opens up the door it s all new furniture i barely recognize it anymore he says i m sorry man i wish that i knew more i m not sure exactly what you re looking for but no dianne no she don t live here anymore anymore anymore anymore dianne don t live here anymore9