the grocery list hangs below my ears apples and oranges weigh me down like trapped pigeons wanting to fly i hear them screaming clawing to get out of my mind if it s not safe in here its where i disappear oh i try to shake the present emptiness of being anywhere but here i try to shake the present emptiness of being anywhere but here i try to shake the present emptiness of being anywhere but here i i its where i get churned out and remodeled as a worser part of me its where i disappear chewing lips and pulling hair i make lists in my head get me through the day just so you wont see thats where youll find me safely tucked away behind the twisted folds of space before i leave this place oh  i try to shake the present emptiness of being anywhere but here i try to shake the present emptiness of being anywhere but here i try to shake the present emptiness of being anywhere but here i i its where i get churned out and remodeled as a worser part of me its where i disappear im not gonna stop the words falling out of my mouth its a verse i have yet to rehearse im not gonna stop the words falling out of my mouth its a verse i have yet to rehearse im not gonna stop the words falling out of my mouth its a verse i have yet to rehearse im not gonna stop the words falling out of my mouth its a verse i have yet to rehearse its where i get churned out and remodeled as a worser part of me its where i disappear