dear joan i ve almost forgotten the pain in the window blue dress in the doorway dear joan help me remember the face i forget and the traps that i ve sprung guess i ve grown tired it s just whats expected of me to tear your heart from the inside to the outside you know i was lying i just couldn t help it the hundred thousand times i hurt you dear joan i wanted to say that i m sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before well i wanted more from this then anything i ve ever known dear joan dear joan your face has a brightness that i ve never seen in the years that i ve known you dear joan i pick up the pieces but some scattered too far see they flew when i kicked them i know you believe when i said it was over you stood by me patiently waiting and brooding so deeply in love with every face that i ve shown dear joan i wanted to say that i m sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before well i wanted more from this then anything i ve ever known once i forget twice i m a fool three times i wrap my hands around your nec k while you re sleeping you re quietly sleeping sleeping and dreaming dear joan don t walk out the doorway cause if you did i believe i could honestly kill you dear joan i wanted to say that i m sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before well i wanted more from this then anything i ve ever known dear joan i wanted to say that i m sorry for the screaming last night and the nights before well i wanted more from this then anything i ve ever known dear joan