any thought of moving on is a loop without an end back to the beginning reliving this over and over and over and over while everything around me moves detached to protect others more than myself well i m afraid of how this ends no comfort in absolutes no places without time i am the beginning and i m reliving this over and over and over and over while everything around me moves detached to protect others more than myself well i m afraid of how this ends reliving this over and over and over and over while everything around me moves detached to protect others more than myself well i m afraid of how this ends now a monumental waste i refuse to be a crutch for your disease i refuse to carry on your tragedy i refuse all your secrets never shared programmed into me well i m afraid of how this ends i never thought such things before ignorance is indeed bliss and knowledge isn t just power it s torture i see you trying to get to me but i m alone even in the most crowded room screaming inside like an animal inside confused and scared trying to survive this place over and over and over trying to survive this place over and over trying to survive this place oh over and over and over trying to survive this place over and over