i had that dream again grinding teeth through an absent head losing control again to forget is to be calm by passing broken fingers through aching palms you will awake again if all you are is under the surface then why is it so hard to be a conduit i went lucid she said tried every minute of my waking unconsciousness to start again but the man in the doorway he always had better plans cause an idle mind is the fault of idle hands and you can t break the boy to forge a better man if all you are is under the surface then why is it so hard to be a conduit if all you are is under the surface then why is it so hard to be a conduit if all you are is under the surface then why is it so hard to be a conduit chalk it up to cognitive dissonance i am aware and i will remember this if all you are is under the surface then why is it so hard to be a conduit 2