now i m so tired so so tired of working this out going to give myself up up to the truth of what this is of what i am take from me all of my blood take from me all of my head this is the best thing i can do why is it me instead of you now this is real i can t go back caught up with everything here tonight going to fuck myself up going to throw myself away going to give this to you give you what i ve become first red on white then red on red i left my soul back in my bed this is the best thing i can do why is it me instead of you 