i was so tired of being alone i was so tired of listening to the chorus in my head telling myself i wasnt good enough to be happy or proud or loving to myself what kind of life is that to lead finding the courage to open up my heart and finally let me fucking breathe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe no one should ever be judged for who they love no one should ever have to be afraid there is so much grace in being vulnerable there is so much beauty in being brave i learned to love myself turpentine away the pain what i found underneath was a quivering heart ready to beat i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe i want to believe  i am no longer afraid to die i am no longer afraid to die i am no longer afraid to die i am no longer afraid to die2