my man love my first love my closetness and pain my lying my deceiving my rivers keep on crying my father my action man my hiding in the crowd my mother my sisters eyes my seniors and their prying my hero my schoolboy my physical abuse my loneliness my aching brain my pounding in the head my freedom my prison cell my tempting to destroy my fantasies my lost control my confusion disillusion machismo my manhood my wanting just to scream scream yeah yeah yeah