well i don t know what i m doin thought that i d be dead well i m sick of always losin these battles in my head and the drugs they just ain t workin i m headin towards my death i hope that you hear me now i do cause i got nothin left as pathetic as it is all that i know is it s hopeless all that i know is i chose this hey they ll love me when i m gone so what s picture perfect sing for me when i m dead like this all was worth it politics and all the bullshit just fuck with my head to the point where i was snortin dope and hopin for death searchin for purpose in a heartless person now tell me if this all was worth it feeling all past worthless but the hurt is perfect to lead the hurt with these words yeah it gives me purpose but low and behold i m still crap beneath the surface i m certain prayin for some change but it don t happen never beg for change so i m out scrappin whole life fucked how d it all happen devil s ridin shotgun laughin pray for me now whole life spent chasin lights camera action fallin harder than conor clapton i might just jump out this house of pain i m tired of facin today so all that i know is it s hopeless all that i know is i chose this hey they ll love me when i m gone i think about my life as it passes by i ve been so wrong and i don t know why stressed out to the max so i stayed high couldn t forget my past at times just wanted to die and when you re at the bottom trust me nobody cares they only give a fuck when you re no longer there and when you die then they ll be there at your funeral two weeks ago they couldn t answer your calls though i m sick of people and their attitudes how the fuck could someone judge me if they never walked in my shoes i spend my days alone prayin i get through the night you really don t know shit about my fucked up life i be contemplating suicide i m not alright keep these fake motherfuckers outta my sight the devil s in my ear screaming die and i m going out my mind i don t think that i ll survive this fight so many perfect hypocrites that think that they know what is right they ll tell you anything you want they ll try to keep you satisfied i know that i can never stop and no i ll never fall in line if you want peace you ll kill yourself tonight well i don t know where i ll go when i m dead all i hope is it s better than this anything s better than this can t help but hate to exist in a world full of ignorance