i was so high last night heard you talking but couldn t reply something caught my eye pulled me closer to the other side is this what you wanted to crash and to burn and to learn it the hard way congrats yeah you earned it wish i could get it right nothing works no matter what i try sometimes the last thing i need is some sunlight but recently i m seeing this side of 5 am way too many nights you can t blame me i m not fine pretending that everything s alright cause this time just might be the last time that i ll ever hear you say good night you can t blame me now i m nothing but a voice inside your head replaying all the memories we never had you can t take back all the words you never said not everything made of gold is meant to last is this what you wanted to crash and burn and to learn it the hard way congrats yeah you earned it now i m nothing but a ghost inside this bed an empty room that s filled with nothing but regret sometimes the last thing i need is some sunlight but recently i m seeing this side of 5 am way too many nights you can t blame me i m not fine pretending that everything s alright cause this time just might be the last time that i ll ever hear you say good night you can t blame me i m not fine pretending it s alright it s never been alright i m not fine pretending it s alright it s never been alright if i ever said i was fine i was lying to keep you from finding the pills you re prescribing you re the one who always did the deciding so why are you crying when i m the one dying  sometimes the last thing i need is some sunlight but recently i m seeing this side of 5 a m way too many nights you can t blame me i m not fine pretending that everything s alright cause this time just might be the last time that i ll ever hear you say good night you can t blame me 