when i m asleep i leave the light on and try to breathe relive the moment i was born i feel the breeze it feels electric then mockery another headache i reject suppose the feeling s real you d never know suppose it s what you feel you ll never know that s what i don t understand that s what i don t know now i m awake i leave the light on and take a swim beneath the rocks and undertow i try to scream i don t remember where i ve been a trampoline another lack of oxygen suppose the feeling s real you d never know suppose it s what you feel you ll never know i open my mouth but there s nothing to swallow down i m scratching my face like there s something farther down it s like a drug i turn the light off and pull the plug but still it always comes back on suppose you change your mind and back again suppose you had more time and adrenaline