in the name of jesus amen do you feel something something tingling in your stomach no no but i appreciate the prayer and i meant that i really did it was a kind gesture an expression of sympathy and i believe in god and all but did she really expect something to change right then abra cadabra amen be healed on the spot my god what is wrong with this girl what a fool what a fool to think my pain would disappear what a fool to think her prayers were any different than the dozens hundreds thousands of faithful saints whove laid hands on me and rebuked this disease in the name of jesus what a fool what a fool to pray with expectation like she actually thought god would hear and respond its these kind of christians that make us all look crazy you know the ones with faith too much faith the ones convinced that god grants supernatural power the ones who look like fools for christ and dont mind what anyone thinks the ones whose prayers go unanswered yet they keep praying keep hoping keep asking do you feel the ones who feel the ones who know god with more than their mind the ones who dont waste time picking fights with atheists but go to war on their knees the ones who lean not on their own understanding the ones who serves a god that doesnt bow to human rational but uses the fool to shame the wise the weak to shame the strong those who are not to bring to nothing those who are and how far i have come after four years of theological training constant reading to appease my philosophical cravings my thoughts about god are intelligent my belief is a kind unbelievers can respect not the ignorance of simple faith not the type to get you mocked persecuted crucified my religion is safe and i wonder how i got so lost and i wonder whos the fool after all the one who prays the one who waits the one who dies believing god is on his way or the one who prays never expecting him to come 