it must have been october the last time that we spoke and though i think about you i decided that it s safer where we left it safer for us both that stuff was a million years ago when you got accepted i went loopy hoping you d be on my team when you got accepted i was totally ridiculous we were the ones who always felt awkward socially cornered and i still feel the same still dreading the laughter like what does it matter it s not what i m after anyway i won t take a compliment but i will ruminate for hours on a single mean remark collecting them like ornaments the nasty things that people say that i save up to think about when it gets dark when you got accepted i went loopy hoping you d be on my team when you got accepted i was totally ridiculous we were the ones who always felt awkward socially cornered and i still feel the same still dreading the laughter like what does it matter it s not what i m after anyway when you got accepted i went loopy hoping you d be on my team when you got accepted i was right  i can t help feeling like i did that october day ten years later i m so glad that it s over but i can t help feeling like i did that october ten years later i m so glad that it s over but i can t help feeling like i did that october day i can t help feeling like i did that october day