all i do is stress anxiety is killing me my ocd is eating me alive i ll change the scenery i can t take no more but i can t take no less but completely undecided when sided all on death i pray for suffocation when the bad days wouldn t pass so i m poppin oxy started heroin just to relax staring at the needle knowing there s no coming back visions of my dad tired running from the past an overdose will end all that please don t tell me to relax i get anxious in most social settings and i tend to snap i just wanna be normal or wish i was perfect i just want you to get me but i need you to hear it who s fake and who s real and only i cannot tell paranoia s got the best of me and i m trapped inside my personal hell i try to breathe i know it s not an option i m slowly dying in autumn i need to leave i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i m praying for my death cause i m too tired to carry on hoping god forgives me i have been in pain way too long always been a lost soul they ll love me when i m dead and gone never understood the world that s why i sit and write these songs ghosts in my head since a kid everything s been wrong so scared of life i d rather die than try to move along i m feeling weak and out of place like i don t belong and in odds with myself at times i was treated like a pawn this game is harsh and the people in it i did my best to keep my innocence and keep on living for a sinner there s no forgiveness let my death be vivid just needed someone to listen and instead these people stay distant constantly dissin i m wishin that they can see my damn vision that s why i stay stressed poppin prescriptions suicide mission feeling like a mortar i might have to die for this if that what takes please just put me in my absence please  i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done feeling like johnny cash always in a struggle trying to make it through dressed in all black losing my mind s just what i do feeling like everyone s out to get me how much of this true this paranoia runs deep i wanna change my views honestly to most of you i m just a drug addict my whole life s blurry like tv static no matter what i do i feel my story ends up tragic noose around my neck face turning blue just hanging in the attic waitin for someone to find me like an actress sick of cash trying to cut me out like an absence always tripping on me like they do in shots of absent when i m down and out why the fuck is everyone absent sick of staying strong like hercules god just sent me free my body s turning cold now can you hear my tragedy debt to world r i p just keep me in your memories i m gone i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done i wish to shed my past like autumn sheds the leaves forgive me for what i ve done 