if i told you i was tryin to change would it make up for all the stupid things i ve done maybe you d forgive me but there d still be pain when you consider that it s possible i m not the one so much time you spent here believin that maybe i was perfect and i gave you a reason to think what you think you see isn t what you re seein if you leave then i won t blame you for leavin just know that i promise this was never my plan if ya never forgive me you should understand that i m sorry for being the way that i am guess i never say it cause i ve done what i can well i cannot change i think i proved that to us both by now i have tried to be a better person but i don t know how i never wanted to be this way i m tryin to do what i can to change i wish i could tell you all the things i m doin i know what to say to you but i m too afraid i wish i could tell you i m a bad guy i wish i could tell you to stay away i know what s wrong with me i m trying to fix it but somehow i keep making the same mistakes i m trying to change but i m still the same i m tryin to change but somehow i m still the same leave it alone how could i leave it alone when mistake after mistake is all that i ve ever known too many drinks and there s just too many hoes too many crazy nights after too many shows i m not gonna stand here and keep asking for second chances i know better than you i don t deserve them don t waste your time standin there asking me for honest answers i m not positive that you ve ever heard them i m sick of wakin up drunk what am i doin i can help but think this life is goin to end me it doesn t seem to help to think about what i m losing never thought sober kids would be the ones that i envy you don t need me then why you still here well i wonder but that s your call i keep tellin myself i don t need you but i know that ain t true at all i never wanted to be this way i m tryin to do what i can to change i wish i could tell you all the things i m doin i know what to say to you but i m too afraid i wish i could tell you i m a bad guy i wish i could tell you to stay away i know what s wrong with me i m trying to fix it but somehow i keep making the same mistakes i m trying to change but i m still the same i m tryin to change but somehow i m still the same i m trying to change but i m still the same i m tryin to change but somehow i m still the same i m trying to change but i m still the same i m tryin to change but somehow i m still the same