i fell down the stairs tripped over carpet that s no longer there into a hallway of nameless faces it s tasteless but i just need to feel alive oh my all my friends are going to lose their minds tonight oh my all my friends are going to lose their minds tonight can i just lay here so i can sink into disorder it s about time can i just stay here changing reflections in the mirror i clawed up the stairs fucked up the hardwood with my fingernails all i need to believe is indeed there s relief for these feelings somewhere in sight oh my i ve gone and lost my mind tonight oh my i ve gone and lost my mind tonight it s not my bed but for tonight it ought to get me through an honest conversation with myself is about to ensue i feel the skin stuck to my bones starting to come unglued blood pressure s rising and my veins are starting to protrude oh is that the panic setting in where do i begin i can t explain every thought every touch every sound that this house is sayin open the window i need air because i m losing it wait can you close it because i m liable to jump