some days are better than others at times i wish i could live my life from under these covers go the rest of my days never figuring out your puzzle because there we certain lines that we never connected to one another and i can tell you ain t want nobody to blow your cover so you did it to yourself hoping no one ever discovered until they found your body and boy i find it ironic that you chose to free yourself now everybody got to suffer now we re living a life none of us think we can handle and now i see that watching mommy die was just a sample of the darkness in the family ain t talking to cause i never thought your remark was as terrible as it can be but you was smart as a whip none of that slave shit went underground for freedom but now you working that grave shift many can t relate was it destined or was it fate or was it all part of the plan to make me step up to the plate and i m gonna knock it out the park might even see a spark cause i ve been swinging with a bat that s about as heavy as my heart you never gave me time to give a little advice you should ve taken a second instead of taking your life hiding in plain sight was living life behind a cloak and only your sister noticed she could hear it when you spoke and since you always wanted to help her open a salon you left her 40 000 dollars but her heart was still broke her daughter s father figure when he left you stepped in wanted to give her a better example of men but fell too deep in your thoughts where you just can t swim and gave up now she looking at you just like him that s about as real as it gets and i would kill for a switch shit cause this the kind of cut you can t heal with a stitch it s too deep about 100 people at your service most with the same blood but only family on the surface and i wonder if they feel like me we come together for death and not for any other purpose and i ain t about to let your name die that s why i made this album this ll be your rebirth kid i need to tell your story to someone losing their balance looking over the ledge and second guessing their value let em know there ain t a dollar price of what your worth is as long as we are on earth we are all serving a purpose but a lot of times we don t know just what that is driving through this life sometimes we lose the will to live look at your soul and take a second to search it i need you to understand the gift that you were birthed with and i ve been acting out like i rehearsed it was even popping molly thinking that shit could reverse this i m in the wrong place looking for the answers like why did i get this fucked up family that i ve been cursed with but it can only get better from here and so i wrote this letter in fear that if i lose my way and needed someone to steer that you would grab the wheel and say i got it from here you let me know that everybody got a limit i can t wait to have a dream and see you in it and i m sure that i m going to see you in a minute but i just wish you could ve heard this before you did it1