wassup wassup everybody as y all know jermaine dupri so so def host of the survival of the freshest rap battle tour at the end of last year now i mean i wanna thank everybody for coming out and everybody for showing their support here s the deal i watched videos from all the contestants and i ve chosen one who i think is the best it s the homeboy quest from miami so quest you re on your way to atlanta southside studios and get a track by me for your demo deal and all i hear is quest you got the talent so tell me why you aint blow nigga dont even know nigga matter fact i know i just hate to admit that i made mistakes in my past i wish i had the chance to erase industry be treated like a relay and every night i replay situations where it could have been on nigga dupri still fuckin with my dome nigga whats even worse is that my 11 gs they gave me to compensate for the loss i blew in less than 7 months nigga imagine coming back to what happened with jd after bragging to everyone like niggas bout to pay me 19 thinking like this is the shit i work for i cried myself to sleep for three days straight no homo fuck it back to these rhymes no wasting time on the could have been or should have been just spit my struggles till im maxed out i black out five tapes dropped in less than a year or two a buzz i felt would place me amongst the hottest but nah nigga sit your black ass down you in the same situation with your black ass now one of your projects could have got you the shine that you revered but you dropped it and like an idiot just fucking disappeared i was young and stupid plus no type of assist or direction a proper representation no plan to keep me a method shit it im hard headed would think that i would learn but did it again twice like it was nothing of my concern struggle rapper what are you after ever since seven i looked to heaven dont let it happen my barber gave me free cuts told me if you aint rapping forget it im fucking taxing no asking thats why my passion has never been lacking im looking for some answers when niggas that you started with seem to master the art of it and climb beyond the stances reminiscing when kendrick was prepping on dropping od when cole released the warm up but on my mama i had cold feet fast forward a couple years later you see the time pass like what progression have i made excuses made at some point my jealousy raging when i should be looking inside but i dont want to face it save it plus im dealing with life shit like how the fuck im finna pay my lights shit support a 9 to 5 or full time just rhyme shit choking on this music while it has me in a heimlich the same that saved me can destroy me what a science you dont get me though but 22 and in my mamas house barely graduated fuck is college when the dramas out fired from my recent job and filed for unemployment pay a bill to silence scrutiny and bring about enjoyment this musics only real if you can somehow pay the bills and i aint eating worth a shit but in time i know i will you can t tell that to the woman who brought your life in this world supporting you while you chasing dream and sex with your girl in your little brothers room while hes sleeping out on the couch i feel embarrassed to even let it come from out of my mouth damn and thats just only half of the story ill take you back to 07 shit is true when i was kicked out spent my last 20 on a cool in the course of five years i returned to where i left from acquired the desire and lost it faster than red rum dont even fret or guess when i hear these rapper you diss like they got it and im the one that was slept upon and just missed i dismiss that peace to the niggas getting their kit kat no love and showing hate thats how a bitch act i swear ill never get that but wont even lie i wish that it was me half of these niggas take for granted what they see thats why when niggas get multiple chances to do it right and fail to follow up it makes me sick to my knees struggle rapper what are you after this could be beautiful or turn into a great disaster truly my calling i just hope i didnt miss it if i did god tell me or just leave a little message im stressing on a certain when certainty lies at fate and my faith was your labor forgive me now for sinning but inconsistent behavior sometimes i get the holy ghost like jesus is my savior turn around and doubt the path you lay for me to walk your favor a human with a dream of rhyming music is changing so much i barely notice the climate maybe my image needs improvement maybe im doing too much on my own and need to drop some of this weight on my team for me to get known im my own label my own publicist my own composer my own engineer a lone soldier i got to keep me motivated everybody i know has made it struggling the most in a circle full of personal favors you know i spit it from the heart nigga its been like this from the start nigga the only thing that i was taught nigga honesty the policy and choice so know your part nigga for real you joke about it but i wake up having nightmares lack of recognition 30 plus reciting white tears im torn meaning my thoughtsll never give me my shot of being where i want to be looking at my peers and feeling low within economy pissed off gazing in the mirror hardly sleeping missed opportunities haunting me will resent me my wife is struggling to call me breaking the tv when the grammys show and im not part of it thats why i got to hustle the nightmares feel as real as the dreams stand clean with a lot of muscle even the thought of becoming worthless is motivation so fuck you to whoever thought in they soul hating struggle rapper just dont become a struggle rapper whatever you after dont waste your time and become a laughter the fans turn into a blind motivation but i still understand it takes time no patience though this is everything i saw nothing else besides me and these motherfucking flows i need this one chance and i promise i will show everyone who seem to tell me what i already know  what are you after what will you sacrifice no matter what you choose don t let em see you die you have one new voice message first voice message hey quest it s chris from visionary music group give me a call when you get this thanks 16