oh father i fell again will you welcome me home even after this because its only a matter of time i cannot continue sleeping in this bed of lies i am walking in pastures but they are burning down and as far as i can tell theres no way out ive been running my head into the ground a nose dive into an ocean that looks and sounds like an unholy mess if i knew i was lost why did i stay on that path oh we all fall apart usually when we re young yeah we poison our livers and suffocate our lungs and cut out our own tongues do you believe me when i say i m trying i m trying to change but i can t do this on my own i can feel my heart turning to stone