since 91 i been a menace for real born rotten and exposed a rose in a garden full of hoes a flowerbed of souls where the flowers never learn they can go they can grow they can they can be something i m a bird i m a bird look at me fronting been confused and obtuse gotta mean something i don t feel i don t feel i mean nothing mama look around what you gotta say you probably never gave a fuck about me anyway i know i m foolish cause i love you with my whole soul but i keep running so i ain t gotta home i don t wanna go home runnin from the fire in my brains in my ozone runnin from the pressure till i cave in my own home you don t understand the obsessions that i got i need love i don t feel that shit a lot nigga been alone from the motherfuckin jump man every battle every hurdle every hump man bitches either feel it or they motherfuckin don t man time to draw the line and do the motherfuckin snort man man listen i don t talk about myself nigga oh no you don t get it you don t feel it nigga oh no where i m from is a nightmare not a smoke show niggas never make it there they never make it oh no nigga  i m from the generation of the scarred and abused for real man you re either dead or you re dyin or you doomed and what s worse is nobody s got a clue of what the fuck that i go through in my brain that there s a fuckin beast of the motherfuckin chain that i be having dragons in my heart being slain till i m broken and too vulnerable again lovenobody ever showed me what it was my nigga for real i ve been beggin since a youngin since a cub my nigga for real saw into your pretty blue soul like the rainbow my third eye saw your devil and your angel we tried to love each other from a different angle unfortunately we still got strangled i don t even know if i m ma make it to the next day every day i wake up and i feel like it s my deathday you can see inside me like a motherfuckin x ray losin to my demons in a motherfuckin chess game it s a hard life i choose to lead the memories so lucidly i m just speakin truthfully it s hard to breathe it s hard to breathe damn1