you didn t care about me and now this is how it has to be i was lost but now i am free i m happy cause i found a family whattup em it s ya biggest fan it s not even necessary to introduce who i am by now cause we re good friends remember the letter i wrote before atlanta on up in smoke that s the day i was gonna cut ya throat i guess my watch was broke cause by the time i woke i seen my watch was twelve hours late and i missed the show but nonetheless i m glad that i finally reached you ever since the accident i ve been dying to speak to you to tell you things have changed and i m a different man a different level of understanding i m a different stan things are a lot better i promise i won t harass you with any letters saying shit like we should be together i meant we should start a group the industry s full of homosexuals slim but i don t wanna fuck you i got a new attitude really i ain t mad at you i just wanted you to recognize i got talent too when i say talented i don t mean battle kid i mean storytelling kinda like how ya album is i been attending counseling and taking medicine they did some tests on me at nih in maryland they showed me techniques to help me deal with pressure whenever i remember that crazy night when i was being reckless driving with a deathwish on the bridge and i crashed into a lexus right before i finished that last sentence i was listenin to xzibit s album restless the next thing i knew i was under water and breathless i was unconscious for a second literally dying to go to heaven till some fellas came and pulled me from the wreckage they started cpr then they called the paramedics in retrospect i probably shoulda used a gun to end it by the time the car sunk my pregnant girlfriend was still in the trunk and i was still feelin kinda drunk the ambulance came and they put me on the stretcher hooked me up to the iv and checked my blood pressure one of them was so concerned that they wouldn t leave he hopped in the back of the ambulance and rolled up some weed my vision was blurry i couldn t really see i just remember his voice talking to me in the emergency room i needed surgery to get some glass removed and fifty stitches for my wounds  after a couple months of therapy i figured i was as ready as i d ever be i wanted to be an emcee he took me to shows wit him he let me flow wit him he let me write some rhymes and go on tour wit him i really believed in him i decided to team wit him and now i m overseas wit him getting cheese wit him and i m emceeing wit him i m having the best time of my life and i m writing the best rhymes of my life he introduces me to people as his lyrical equal let me write a rhyme on his album and even produce a beat too he ain t see through i can t see him fronting he s not the type to call you just because he needs something that s what i like about him i wouldn t want to rock a mike without him he s got kahunas and he s not a coward matta fact i think he met you it was the day you came to his video shoot with dj jimmy s nephew clef stepped to him and told him he should step to you that you was ghost writing for l but that wasn t true you was looking at him the same way i m looking at you why can t we be friends em i don t want nothing from you you see there s a little bit of stan in all of us tell me where you think all of these record sales spawn from talking bout britney and christina aguilera nsync too have you ever looked in a mirror your hair ain t really blonde and ya eyes ain t blue so never diss me cuz when you diss me you re dissin you so see what happens when you don t care 1