who am i trying to fool as the night falls upon me who am i trying to be when this leads to nothing i need some medication i need your medication these choices i ve been making they make me hate myself are you there how i long to be with you are you there listening to my despair standing right at the shore knowing life is so much more i said what she wanted to hear pretending that my mind was clear it s a lie how you wept how you tried but i never make the time here i go once again will this ever end i need some medication i need your medication these choices i ve been making they make me hate myself are you there how i long to be with you are you there listening to my despair standing right at the shore knowing life is so much more said what she wanted to hear pretending that my mind was clear don t make the call into the room it s where i fall standing right at the shore knowing life is so much more i said what she wanted to hear pretending that my mind was clear lying trying to stop this time i ll stop this time one step backward chasing after a voice inside a voice inside that knows