i always say nothing when i should ve said something i always say nothing when i should ve said something cause i couldn t think of the right thing to say no i can never think of the right thing to say i spend most of my days paralyzed by fear shame and anxieties am i doing it right probably not im probably not but ill be damned if im not trying depression is my oppression and it trumps all the rest id be content to die right now if i knew i wouldnt be missed but i know id be missed at least i know id be missed im terrified of all the kids i went to high school with im scared of what they think of me now do they respect me do they like me do they hate me do they spite me they probably just dont think of me at all they dont think of me at all and i know i should care more about how i think and feel about myself but i just want to serve and i dont want to serve myself cause im a lost cause and you are a lego box so tell me what to do and i will appease you i just want to please you i just want to please you i just want to please you i just want to please you i just want to please you i just want to please you because if i cant be happy at least you can be since i cant be happy will you please be 1