wrote this with emotion 3 days 5 months 10 years and my heart still swollen pillowcase still soaked up from the tears when i think about that day and you mama been so long for me mama and it still don t seem real that you re really gone from me mama yeah they say time heals wounds i m tellin time hurry up cause if wounds don t heal i just block things out and i seal pain up cause after all this time all i got are these memories with ya but even those start to fade i swear we ain t take enough pictures quit your job just to stay at home with me you were never gonna let someone else raise your child and even though we really needed money daddy started workin overtime to even things out when the night fall you would cook the chicken with the red rice homemade meals for the three of us and you taught me bout love and you taught me bout prejudice yeah some people gon see the way we look listen to the way we speak and tell us that we don t belong here crossville tennessee that s the backwoods hate runs deeper than the chevys and the john deere but don t let them spite you son they are just some people like you son you a sinner just like them son and don t forget that god loves them just like he loves you son wise words from a wise woman wish that you were still alive to tell me more cause this life s like a minefield don t know what i m steppin toward i m just moving the spirit inside me you know with this music we don t take these things lightly chillin with the tribe that s my fam beside me never trippin over whether people gon like me yeah that s the confidence you taught me i guess i really learned to fake it well cause they always see me with a real big smile even when i ain t doin so well but i made that b ball team like you and you know i even tried to sing just like you and you know i m following my dreams just like you did and i still get depressed just like you did they say to the father a day is like a second and a minute s like a year so for you to be up in eternity with him i do not think that time for you is the same as it is down here and there s no sorrow so i guess you never get to see all of the times that i sin and i drop the ball but that s probably for my benefit cause if you were to see all of the junk that i ve done you d probably smack my mug and all holy father won t you please send this message to my loved one pretty mama your heart lives on right in your son yeah no matter how much time that s in this world that pass me by eh i ll be home with you in the blink of an eye