no more invisible speechless deaf and blind child with neglected pleasures being addicted to denial floating through time gravitating towards a warm arm with an appetite for the emptiness that promises no harm no more uncontrollable eruptions of emotional depression a primal sos from the barren prison of selfless expression that only the guilty with innocent souls know buried in the social scar tissue of a defective ego no more relentless sifting through bodies seeking self settling through competitive combat for what s left on the shelf a mad melee of supply and demand driven by a gullible pride that leads to sedating the you that suffocates inside no more forever no more because i ve un shut my eyes and the difference between god s word and man will was realized seeing opposed and parallel lives some liquid and others frozen led me to never seek from man what god has chosen then the negative whispering subsided and the panicking ceased the undercurrent suppression of pent up terror was released as the mystery of the unknown manifested pristine clear a positive message of truth entered my ear now across my face is a brand new smile with the newly revealed meaning of a destined child a message of hope is being released from my heart and i am overwhelmed with dedication to do my part all i ever wanted was to be what i once was unbounded somehow it got all twisted and before long sounded as though life was a continuous connive thrive drive choking out the simple joy of just being alive now i am filled with love and i sing a love song a song of yesterday today tomorrow and beyond my new prayer is thank you god for setting me free and thank you god for giving me back me