i ve woken up cold feeling like the loneliest boy in the world waking up freezing knowing that you re gone i m woken up sick to stomach knowing i can never see you again waking up so lonely knowing that you re gone i m having one way conversations with you inside my head repeating those words that fucking kill me to have never said it s these thoughts that i carry with me it s that knot in my stomach it s the pain that surrounds me i just wish i could say this to you that after everything that you put us through i thought that the worst in me was everything that i got from you if i scream loud enough do you think you could hear me and i could tell you one last time how much you meant to me and how just one little word would help me write a better ending and i could tell you one last time how much you meant to me and i could say that i tried my best and it would help me put you to rest there is a light and it guides us through all the heartache that life decides to throw at you now i can sing our songs so much louder than before they will keep you with me the soil won t matter any more