its cold here in the city always seems that way i ve been thinking about you almost everyday thinking about the good times thinking about the bad thinking about how bad it feels all alone again i m sorry for the ways things are in china i m sorry things aren t what they used to be but more than anything else i m sorry for myself that you re not here with me my friends all ask about you i say you re doing fine i expect to hear from you almost any time they all know i m lying i can t sleep at night they all know i m dying deep down inside i m sorry for all the lies i told you i m sorry for the things i didn t say but more than anything else i m sorry for myself i can t believe you went away i m sorry if i took some things for granted i m sorry for the chains i put on you but more than anything else i m sorry for myself for living without you