i said sometimes i spill my mental out on a beat i send my thoughts up to the sky they take me off of my feet i paint this image for you a replica of my pain i let you hear out my problems but hope you dont feel the same my emotions been a wreck my head been on phsyco i can never win this war but i still try to fight though beauty in the struggle the struggles a friendship i been talking to my demons back and forth on some friend shit asking how seeing who wonder when itll stop question why they build you up knowing damn well you drop always asking for some sun but it dont leave when it rain i wanna love all of my scars but they remind me of pain see i dont love you i dont hate you woah woah woah 8x see i dont love you i dont hate you i dont see no other option lately i just been observing lately i been on my watching im just acting like it matters im just speaking like you hurt me i dont love you i don t hate you but i feel you dont deserve me i been right here steady trying i been out here slowly dying i stay low key with my crying demons never leave my side i just feel like it don t matter i just feel like its depression say its only in my head so you can really get to stepping i dont need the energy lately you been seeming toxic everytime i mention problems you just go and change the topic we should really start to face them facing everything is key you may be out run all these demons but my demons catching me  see i dont love you i dont hate you woah woah woah 8x wish i could give you all my visions for a day just to let you sit with it and hear the shit you say you always call me crazy you been right and im apologetic but im human too and often times it seems you do forget it my mind run my heart follows and i cant stop it i feel my mental lift the world so i just cant drop it i guess i need to say im sorry once again for stressing but often times i feel you busy and i need attention i want the doctor just to tell me that im fine and good but even when they do i feel like i m misunderstood the things i feel never add up when it s even im sick of fighting love and hate i feel like leaving see i dont love you i dont hate you woah woah woah 8x