i wish i would ve said it just cleared the air i was so scared to break you but too blind to care i painted me wiser and covered my eyes shrouded in shame proud of my pain layered with lies the tears that dried and stained our skin the cracks that grew and spread us thin the pace at which i run from it the memories i can t stomach the harm that i ve done the shell i ve become the beast that stays on my heels reminder that s all too real of harm that i ve done of what i ve become this wasn t what i wanted or what you deserved and i was so sure i could fix it before you returned but with bricks and mortar we sealed our borders off the tears that dried and stained our skin the empty room where love had been  the pace at which i run from it the memories i can t stomach the harm that i ve done the shell i ve become the beast that stays on my heels reminder that s all too real of harm that i ve done of what i ve become sunken and slow you turn your eyes away from me you re moving off it s all wrong no it s all wrong sunken and slow you turn your eyes away from here fought for so long it s all wrong no it s all wrong