now in these cynical times are sterotypical minds got me falling from my pinnacle the minute i climb now these subliminal thoughts got individuals blind i m trying to look beyond the lies just to see what i ll find i m like a flower in a cave another hour in the maze i ll cower to the power of my criminal ways the sun is shining but i m catching minimal rays it s time for me to bloom out of this childish phase my life is like a battle that i ll probably never win cause i keep thinking big and risking everything life s a challenge and i wonder if i ll ever find the balance mixed emotions and confusion topped off with many talents sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change can i change would i change or am i always gonna be the same i blame the world for making me such a freak but the world wants to blame it on me sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change can i change would i change or am i always gonna be the same i blame the world for making me such a freak but the world wants to blame it on me my fingers pointing in the mirror i m the one now i see my shadow in the sun dial am i really out of change put my freedom in a cage slow down man i got a son now it s nothing new they all said it and i knew it but i had to go through it myself i m hard headed but that s the only way that i learn get caught in the fire there s no escaping the burn change this change that change is full of lies i remain the same cat wear a good disguise living life looking through my third blind crooked eye so if i change i d be changing for the worst wouldn t i sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change can i change would i change or am i always gonna be the same i blame the world for making me such a freak but the world wants to blame it on me sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change can i change would i change or am i always gonna be the same i blame the world for making me such a freak but the world wants to blame it on me  i wanna run but if i run i m only running from myself would it be easier if i was someone else i m like a child playing with matches that s never been burned relearning all the lessons that i ve already learned to a destination i ve earned but i never bothered to turn i m like a piece of shard glass laying on the frame of a window that was broken by the bricks of pain sometimes i feel just like the devil s guinea pig he s watching me just to see how deep i can dig i admit i m fucked up and got a lot to learn so i m dancing in the ashes of the bridges i burn sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change can i change would i change or am i always gonna be the same i blame the world for making me such a freak but the world wants to blame it on me sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change can i change would i change or am i always gonna be the same i blame the world for making me such a freak but the world wants to blame it on me sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change will i ever change can i ever change sometimes i wonder if ll ever change but the world wants to blame it on me my life is twisted sometimes i wonder if i ll ever change will i ever change can i ever change sometimes i wonder if ll ever change but the world wants to blame it on me my life is twisted1