i was brought to my knees by our last conversation i was calling your bluff like you d loaded that gun with a flag i could not stop puking platitudes cause i couldn t give you up or keep yours down i wreaked of desperation how did you stand the smell and i could feel the shame i buried under all my anger this was my last chance but god forbid i would show some understanding i m just scared i ll be left alone i froze let the mutiny fester petrified like some statue walking a plank cause i watched them chiseling they carved my body out of rock then had the stones to ask i bend to hear their accusations i could not contest the fact that and i could feel the shame i buried under all my anger this was my last chance but god forbid i would show some understanding i m just scared i ll be left alone  i was brought to my knees by our last conversation and i could feel the shame i buried under all my anger this was my last chance but god forbid i would show some understanding i m just scared so i ll toss and turn and find a way to overstate the way i feel because god forbid i would show some understanding i m just scared that if you all leave that i ll be left alone