solace in this solitude is what i had sought applauding god and his facade there s comfort in this fraud i m just the son he d gone and forgot i gave up on myself my health and hope of any help may hell accept me as the spawn of what this world has dealt my teeth are metaphors of everything that i deplore hollow flawed and falling from the awful height of twenty floors as i descend feel my knees bend indifferent apathetic glances across the cement when my face met at least it kissed the pavement the ground gave me more sympathy and grief than what their stares meant as i descend feel my knees bend indifferent apathetic glances across the cement when my face met at least it kissed the pavement the ground gave me more sympathy and grief than what their stares meant harbored dark thoughts got the cops calling spots where my body might drop voices in my closet talk jaws click and gossip who the notches in my bedpost are hear them knock before i toss myself all for naught i mock and scoff and hop onto the windowsill a father and his daughter paused to stop and watch then walk it off forgot my face confirmed my faith the human race has lost its cause dancing with the devil by the moonlight head filled with some moonshine led and pirouetted out the room by my bruised thighs loose stride moving through the booze til the brew s dry used to abuse so what s it to you right delusions of grandeur used to subdue doubt until it perfused through my body like gout then it consumed more than i had allowed exhuming the tombs of neurosis aground confusion and laughter from the ruthless crowd assuming the stupid kid would turn around a nuisance a loser whose head s in the clouds too far removed from the earth to be found and the crows gather round so concerned now they stand on common ground and the crows gather round so concerned now they stand on common ground murders perched and watched me rot they brought with them intrusive thoughts2