we taxied out for a twelve ship lfe and i lost count of who was 1 and who was 3 it s nothing new it happens every time over victor 2 s blind we took off on a radar assisted trail tried a boresight lock and got an fcr fail then lead turned into the sun like he does every fuckin time aw son of a bitch 2 s blind why is he so damn hard to see well it must be his flying cause it damn sure isn t me we got spiked and lead went to the notch when he did i had my eyes down in my crotch when i looked up only jack shit did i find god damn it 2 s blind we pushed to the target and lead said just keep sight but then he actioned left when i swear to jesus that he briefed right it s times like this where i feel a bit resigned to just fuckin eject rather than admit that i am blind dear god what the hell have i done wrong is it cause i drink and smoke and cuss and repeatedly stroke my schlong needless to say my ip busted me he gave me a zero when i think it s clear that i earned a 3 cause what he doesn t know is that he s lucky to be alive when i said i was visual i lied my ass off i was blind 