she is twice my age and still beautiful she has had three double martinis i tell her that independence is a state of mind and i laugh at myself i have had three double martinis the first debt i have paid myself in my entire life how ill prepared we are for the we take she says pours herself another drink last night i for the first time in thirty years i was hoping might increase that s the church smokes cigarettes i think of dostoyevsky i calculate that 32 shots should not have another drink i pour myself another drink sounds of an english wedding which 