i think my mother died today or was it yesterday its hard to say i found it odd when she never came to bring my cup of morning tea i think my girlfriend left today cause i forget her face when she waved at me its such a plain face its hard to see but i think her name was grace all i want to do is disappear into the darkness of my room come away i am numb you can be numb too disappear slowly de attach now slip into nothing nothing at all i went to buy some tea today but couldnt understand a single word he said to me i could hardly breathe and i left without my tea i met my counselor today she said you got the grades for a college degree academic life is the one you bleed your futures looking bright all i want to do is disappear1