when the door s always closed isolation imposed i try the best i can but the gulf is too wide and i can t stand astride such a gigantic span this impossible distance obscures my existence like fog hugging autumn shores and it s building inside with each wound to my pride i can t take this anymore i m standing right here i ve not disappeared and yet you look right through me do i not exist a presence unmissed an unseen identity i m on the outside looking inward these impenetrable walls restrain me i could tear them down but i m afraid of what is on the other side its not my intention to covet attention at least no more than i m due but you turned your back and left me in the black with nothing i could cling to was it too much to ask such an abhorrent task to simply acknowledge me some small recognition to raze this partition that makes me feel so empty i m on the outside looking inward these impenetrable walls restrain me i could tear them down but i m afraid of what is on the other side i m at the point i might break alone and displaced an unwelcome nobody i m a vessel adrift traversing the rift consumed by an angry sea pushed aside by the crowd and i m screaming out loud until my voice is raw but i won t go away from this perverse ballet as long as i ve breath to draw i m on the outside looking inward these impenetrable walls restrain me i could tear them down but i m afraid of what is on the other side