look was never lyrical but read a couple books was more than criminal i empathized with crooks life give the minimal so scraps is what we took so when it s critical no time to be shook ain t say i m hood but my neighbors ain t invite me in made them uncomfortable i used to wish for lighter skin i used to hate myself my mind is sick is my defense low self esteem not aligning more with righteous men since tiwanne died my mind kind of switched another homicide lied on the dry cement i couldn t even cry all i wanted was revenge some wounds never heal even time couldn t fix the tide i m against in a ship ready to capsize in troubled waters i guess i m getting baptized ask for forgiveness for every time that i backslide would be a miracle drown in hate for the last time holding back tears going back years ain t want to feel pain i let go of that fear i been holding back tears i been holding back tears i been holding back tears going back years ain t want to feel pain i let go of that fear i been holding back tears look was never any good with matters of the heart don t hand me yours if you been fragile from the start not skilled in discipline or mastering the art designer fabrics are more flattering with scars i m a flawed man ah man look glad my salvation wasn t left into y all hands if you ain t never had to scrape scratch or crawl man i don t need your opinion cause you an off brand now try and picture my frame of mind portraits developed in dark rooms it s taking time a fine craft on display with a great design often at a loss for words but i can make it rhyme i guess i m saying that i m on a soul search and when all that glitters ain t gold barely denotes worth numb the pain the liquor says that it don t hurt holding back tears i m praying to god i don t burst  i m holding back tears going back years ain t want to feel pain i let go of that fear i been holding back tears holding back tears i been holding back tears going back years ain t want to feel pain i let go of that fear i been holding back tears i been holding back tears but i bear the burden share the sermon tell the truth then share my purpose the time s now it s never been more urgent the time s now it s never been more urgent i bear the burden share the sermon tell the truth then share my purpose the time s now it s never been more urgent the time s now it s never been more urgent i been holding back tears1