i down cups of sludge and stay up forever cause i m too afraid of what happens when i fall asleep can t drift away if you keep on holding tight trust me it s not worth the fight baby i swear that i don t really know if i m lying to you or hiding the truth from myself and i m sorry i m not but you deserve to feel dumb if you thought i was somebody else i know that you checked my pulse to see if i was freaking out cause you were freaking out but i remain comatose from coast to coast cause everyone i care about is miles away can t figure out the words to say that i made a mistake it s not my fault if i can t see how you could fall so easily and i am never going to be what you saw inside of me i m thinking of reasons not to love you ways i can push you away and it s safe to assume when you step in this room you should thank your stars for everyday i don t really know if i m lying to you or hiding the truth from myself and i m sorry i m not but you deserve to feel dumb if you thought i was somebody else