see how fast i can run a window is closed in the cold race up the stairs with a friend sit in the hall stare at a wall the words that you said by my hospital bed on my back and bent at my knees were talked through air were talked through teeth through a pain in my stomach and blood on my sheets the one with the cold metal hands up on a table undone a tube in my womb all again the breath and the clothes of a friend close my eyes a placenta dies