i m like the eighth soul you ve stolen past is what i ve been holding planning on going up but i m empty without you home and dreams and visions come hear to die i m barely living a life with stressing like every night and the power inside is right i think i m losing control when you told me to move on i honestly felt broke you re only willing to show exactly what side you know too bad you never knew us i wanted to call it home holding on what we had there s barriers in our path we re needing to break through or you won t come back now everbody has had it everybody looks plastic fake they made dating you relatable so ask them when they re planning to break it making only mistakes the pacifist in my soul was only willing to take you and now you re fake too and now this mistake glued in the deepest part of my sub concious to change moods how could i blame you it s always the same truth that you wanted him yet i was the one to save you i sent over a text that always meant and i couldn t say it directly cause i ve been scared of perfection if only you got the message cancelled it when i sent it i ve been searching for you while we ve been losing connection always trying to pretend it instead of trying to defend all the meaning because you said that i m only here for a sec while regretting all of these feelings you never knew that i had i m sorry for all the pain i really wanna go back i feel the misery that it s piercing my heart in half for always choosing you first when you ve been choosing me last i m missing back in the past where no one cared about weight or shape these fake friends you said you would never date but now you hate us and you contemplate trust like every choice that i ve made is the same place of needing help looking for someone else plenty fish in the sea but all i m feeling are shells washed inside my heart mindset s in hell the spell is broken and you re provoked to tell me what and how i can connect again i m searching for someone to trust not to take a second guess you left and i wish you best you re more when i m feeling less you know that i was obsessed with you when you wore a dress sorry but i just vent alone inside my of my head and saying i m not as good as you probably wanting me dead always forgot to tell you how much worth that i held to so much love it would melt you you d help when no one else will frozen heart in a stone i promised love on my bones with all this family supporting me guiding me where to go but i can handle my own sh t and all of these fake pricks with mixed emotions soaking up on the same script so let me flip it i m driven to make a difference this chapter won t ever finish until you finally listen we re distant but that won t change us i feel like i played dumb writing bout a girl that s holding my hold world up won t ever get it still wondering why you said all these memories you ll forget and that s actually when you left so i guess i ll let go and hope you the best know that i m always here inside our minds and soul