how could it end this way i thought i had done everything right i thought i had been what you needed it makes it hard to believe when you let your infatuations destroy the hope that we were built on but darling was it not to me that you claimed your love for and was it not to me that you would have laid down your life for i can hardly envision a time when i felt as strongly as you have and i wish i could have the compassion that you showed for me all i wanted was for you to be happy for us to have made something of this life that no one thought that we could is giving in what you call happiness letting our dreams to rot along with everything that we had stood for this isnt how i wanted it to end i never meant to hurt the only one who brought peace and acceptance into my life i cant promise you a life that youre going to love i cant promise you a life that youll even be proud of ive got enough stained memories to realize the good from the bad and ive got enough scars to know that you werent the one causing them i know ive done you wrong but i swear itll be different this time if past memories have taught me anything its the fact that people dont change youve kept your mind closed like it would bring some sort of comfort like shutting yourself off from the world around you would make you the person you dreamed of being but spending your nights door to door watching your innocence flee isnt the life that you had dreamed of waiting for the next numbing substance so that you get through another night youve let the voices in your head ring out so long that they begin to become the truth if life is but a dream how do we decipher whats real and what lives in our heads chalking off a memory to something we thought we had wanted taking those 4 am nights to remind you of a time when you felt purpose and fulfillment instead of what you call home and i know that you had wanted more but i gave all that i had 
['ohio indie']