i ve carried you inside my mind for my entire life head in my hands weighed down any lower and i d be in the ground i m wasting breath and i m wasting space doubled over from the pain i d give anything not to feel this way nobody gives a shit unless you feel like them and i m starting to think that you never cared i feel gutted so much for friendship and that s how it always is you ll leave and i ll dwell on it i still reside in this broken home i can cover up the cracks in the walls but there s no fixing the nights i have spent alone i ve carried you inside my mind for my entire life head in my hands weighed down any lower and i d be in the ground misery loves company and i m here to stay i can never say what i mean cause my anxiety is a conscious being it s got me by the throat strangling it s fucking suffocating i know we all die alone but i didn t know that living would be this cold nobody gives a shit unless you feel like them and i m starting to think that you never cared i feel gutted so much for friendship and that s how it always is you ll leave and i ll dwell on it