if i make a lot of tinsel then people will want to if i am hardened no fear of further abandonment if i am famous then maybe i ll feel good in this skin if i am cultured my words will somehow garner respect i i i would throw a party still it would not come i i i would bike run swim and still it would not come i i i go traveling and still it would not come i i i would starve myself and still it would not come if i am masculine i will be taken more seriously if i take a break it would make me irresponsible then if i m elusive i will surely be sought after often if i need assistance then i must be incapable i i i be filthy rich and still it would not come i i i would seduce them and still it would not come i i i would drink vodka and still it would not come i i i have an orgasm still it would not come if i accumulate knowledge i ll be impenetrable if i am aloof no one will know when they strike a nerve if i keep my mouth shut the boat will not have to be rocked if i am vulnerable i will be trampled upon i i i would go shopping and still it would not come i i i leave the country and still it would not come i i i would scream and rebel still it would not come i i i would stuff my face and still it would not come i i i be productive and still it would not come i i i be celebrated still it would not come i i i be the hero and still it would not come i i i renunciate and still it would not come2