i miss the loneliness that haunted youth the highs and lows the sucking whine between dead leaves at night the glow of autumn afternoons i miss the loneliness that fed on us but from a safe remove stunned birds like us flown into glass testing the edge beyond the town there was a field i knew id lie alone my face obscured i could be anyone a hundred years between each thought beyond the town the softest violence hummed and the sky would open up now im boring and full of shit testing the edge