shaking my fist at the heavens my lifetime pastime but now no more natural light shines flat line just as i was dissing his name i m hit with the flames as my soul left my physical frame frightened my senses heightened defenseless against this relentless lightning a stampede of thunder claps i can t breathe it s like i m running laps with my lung collapsed i can t leave i m stuck and trapped meanwhile i am no longer senile the life i lived in the body that feels like the dream now and i ve awakened to a real life nightmare it s quite clear no use putting up a fight here my destiny is sealed a true catastrophe with future agonies that have yet to be revealed and that thought alone is such a blow to me it s terrible because what i m feeling right now is totally unbearable i m disembodied met my worst fear mentally every second like a year every year a century no one that i can call i m crushed under a wall of holy fury amazed by the justice of it all getting what i deserve in fact my soul is burning black i ve crossed over the threshold never to be saved eternal is the furnace and it ain t no turning back oh god just let me send my fam a letter from the grave my conscience is killing me like a worm that never dies like a worm that never dies having plunged fist first into a fixed state of horror and agony mr michaels attempts to gather his bearings as he scrambles to find a way to warn his family little does he know as sincere as he may be his following efforts are sadly in vain oh god oh god i m in agony right now i m in agony in this fire please can i can i just warn my family please can i just warn my family just let me go back if i can t go back let me write them a letter or let me dictate it i ll dictate it please just write this down for me please to my parent my sisters my cousins my nieces friend co workers everybody needs to read this you probably thinking i m in heaven smiling down upon you but that s not true i m writing this now to warn you i m serious wish i could put a gun to your face whatever it takes to make you listen don t come to this place i made tons of mistakes when i was there with y all certainly the worst by far was not preparing for eternity it s crazy i don t even know how to tell y all but i m in hell y all and i know it s upsetting to hear it s upsetting to be here but i write so you d get it and see clear i don t have all the answers i grope for more but there are a couple of things that i know for sure re incarnation is a lie there s no such thing as satan lie getting to heaven through meditation that s a lie yo it s vital we build homicidal i feel your pride will be killed the god of the bible is real y all know i ain t read the bible a day in my life but he s the one who s inflicting all my pain and my strife so get a bible and read it whatever you read believe it after believing eat it sleep it and breathe it there s much more to this man jesus observe the story and i can tell you that there s no such thing as purgatory what i wouldn t give to have your opportunity i see my pride has ruined me ignoring god is lunacy there s no comfort all shame no peace there s no slumber all pain it don t cease so don t be lax when attacked with distractions the fashions and attractions had me relaxing now i m awake for the first time ever but from the goodness of god s works i m severed regretting all the tracts that i threw in the trash regretting moving fast in pursuit of the cash regretting spending all my life trusting myself regretting not reading the bible up on my shelf regretting all the stuff in life that had me caught up regretting switching the subject when christ was brought up regretting not going to church when my friends invited me regretting believing my college profs who lied to me regretting dismissing all believers as lame regretting not examining jesus claims regretting 