even now after all these years i think about you with both joy and pain even now i remember when you left i walked all night through the rain broken and lost swearing i d never love that way again even then you were aiming much higher somewhere higher where you thought i could fly even then you were looking for rainbows something more then the cloudless blue sky now you tell me you were wrong you never should have left me for an empty dream and now you spill out your regrets a mighty river to a bitter stream lying awake thinking about all that might have been i guess we re even now i guess we re even now even now more often then i d like i think of you and the place we used to share even now i remember all the songs and the perfume in your hair i was carried away until you cut me down in mid air even then there was something inside you something bright that was burning so cold even then there was something about you something dark that i couldn t hold and now you tell me that your life has never been the free flight you thought it would be and now you know it s way to late all we ve got is history you know that when i lost you you lost me i guess we re even now i guess we re even now i think we re even now even then you were looking for rainbows even then in a perfect blue sky i guess we re even now i guess we re even now i think we re even now could mean we re even now i think we re even now i think we re even now i think we re even now all that summer in the moonlight you were dreaming i was believing all that summer in the moonlight you were dreaming i was believing