i won t lie it seems i stood disappointment s catching up with me this time i ll vow and i ll succeed i m too ashamed to look into my fathers eyes oh what have i become cause everything i ever wanted inside of me is proving real tonight i can feel it now yet all the things i think i want all the very things i pushed my friends aside i need them now i need them now and i m afraid it s all for nothing oh why do i it s hard to see at a glance it seems that everything s just fine yet i see suddenly it s like i m seeing wounds appear for the first time cause everything i ever wanted suddenly is proving real tonight i can feel it now yet all the things i think i want all the very things i pushed my friends aside i need them now i need them now and i m afraid it s all for nothing all i see is let down faces looking back at me cause everything i ever wanted all the lies i ever told and promises and hearts i ve broken but i feel them now i m afraid it s all for nothing