i watch the clock hands go by time after time i dream of leaving this place if i could leave the past behind then i would just fade away and cease to exist well it would cleanse all my pain it s a shame that i ever lived the devil on my shoulder he whispers to me and dribbles such a never ending cacophony into my ear to blind the joy that tries to reach out to me such a dulcet suffering why can t anyone see penance a lesson in misery you studied my rise as you watched my fall i wrote my love in the cracks of the cracks of the wall you ll read that dying in vain it was as good as it looked in a forget me not written in the spine of a book i ve wasted my time falling in love with the thought of falling in love with someone am i killing time or killing myself i think i m killing myself sometimes oh penance a lesson in misery penance a lesson in misery you studied my rise as you watched my fall i wrote my love in the cracks of the cracks of the wall you ll read that dying in vain it was as good as it looked in a forget me not written in the spine of a book well i could never grow trees still i planted my seeds an sadly you will see eternal sunshine won t blossom me  i am enough to feel happiness and love it s hard to say out loud i deserve to be happy now well i deserve to be happy now you penance a lesson in misery well i deserve to be happy now1