i start out with blue prints and building blocks i stack them up so high you can t see the top i calculate the best ways to make it fall before i swing the wrecking ball i can t help but break it down i ve got a heart that s full of mushroom clouds when it s self destructive like i m wired to delete anything that might be good for me til i m left with nothing cause i pushed the button i count to three then watch the whole thing collapse oh i can t wait to start again from scratch but every time i get to the final piece oh i start disassembling i can t help but break it down i ve got a heart that s full of mushroom clouds when it s self destructive like i m wired to delete anything that might be good for me til i m left with nothing cause i pushed the button  but soon i ll find the way to build up something beautiful that stays cause deep down i know that i detach the moment that i throw the switch alight the match cause i can t help but break it down i ve got a heart that s full of mushroom clouds when it s self destructive like i m wired to delete anything that might be good for me til i m left with nothing cause i pushed the button this could be the last time that i undo the standing bridge that s taking me straight to you