sat by my window watching all the other girls fall in love but i d never know what it felt to hear him say you re the one drive myself in the state of denial so dark and hopeless i wanted to die but now i know that there s a difference between happy and just saying that i m still trying to find it in the midst of all this madness it s still an uphill battle battle it s still an uphill battle battle me versus me me versus me way too much time spent lowering myself to please someone else buying affection for whoever cuase i m just tto afraid to be alone drive myself in the state of denial so dark and hopeless i wanted to die but now i know that there s a difference between happy and just saying that i m still trying to find it in the midst of all this madness it s still an uphill battle battle it s still an uphill battle battle me versus me me versus me me versus me me versus me you can run run run fast as you can but you can t run from yourself run run run fast as you can you can t outrun yourself  it s still an uphill battle battle it s still an uphill battle battle me versus me me versus me me versus me me versus me