cold seems crippling lame meander through corridors aromas thick with age mark off the day reflections of my life are fading pull me out of body dont want it dont want in feeble frail and rotting descending im lost in structure thats collapsing dont want it cast into maker take the body dont want it it wants me i just want to run around fly kites wrestle jump and play swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me cocooned in misery past has found its place salvation is no more will god accept my peace bleach will pardon me reflections of my life are fading pull me out of body dont want it dont want in feeble frail and rotting descending im lost in structure thats collapsing dont want it cast into maker take the body dont want it it wants me i m sick and tired of embracing reflections of past time receive me or cast me away god please take me away resistance futile suicidal ideas i will crucify my own being satisfy selfish needs fuck the deities justify my own right to what s waiting for me on the other side the time has come lock and load i m coming i m coming i m coming i m coming home  i just want to run around fly kites wrestle jump and play swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me cocooned in misery the darkness overcomes soul soars to the other plane existence past the door i sail through purgatory s bay i asked a god for poison cradle me sown to my dreams souls searching death blossoms where clouds lie over me held in god s hands death blooming dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a tear death blooms