making time in a low rent highrise no place to go downtown crushing crucifixion particles aching harmful descent take a shot and hide subway slam dance stale mattress slow throb bloating freshly open grave barefoot beggar barefoot beggar freshly open grave knotted finger turning pages in a book descending no noise the great trees fall calmly through the window see backward elevation faded spirit of the gold toothed whore moon dances wondering how could this ever be kicking the habit kicking the habit kicking the habit kicking the habit possession in the flesh loves made up melancholy kicking the habit kicking the habit trip back and unleash all anger emerging from the waterfall branch fork horse rear snorted downward a vulgar desire playing cards conjured on fly blown dimly lit round a room of shadows claw the side phantom pinches waking from a dream half eaten candy from some disordered heaven swirling tastes fornicate rotted meat swirling tastes fornicate rotted meat a nested virus feeds eating dish aging she sits alone in the worry she s created more time put aside sorry i m fucked up inside holy hatred kicking the habit kicking the habit kicking the habit kicking the habit kicking the habit kicking the habit1