no matter how neurotic my mind that s not what i wanted to say i m running out of words i ve always loved you i ve always cared but in the past i wasn t there out to the desert to disappear only to find i wasn t there everything i knew was wrong what is really going on there in the darkest depths of my mind but that s not what i wanted to say i m running out of words they ll sell sarcasm and constant fear don t be so far don t be so near the missing papers the souvenir no one around no one can hear all at once we want to live holy water won t wash away sin off in the sky the sun is red what s in the past and what s ahead or can i live with what s in my heart that s not what i wanted to say i m running out of words