we get so heavy and we ve gotta let it breathe my night proves sleepless i watch a live birth before i go to work is that you smiling i thought i knew what i was doing til i watched the teeth shoot through in every beam we get so heavy and we ve gotta let it breathe my loose end s leafless the doctor feels the spin just when he stands that s why he s smiling then i m reminded why he s crying i join in i m completely fine with it we get so heavy and we ve gotta let it breathe preserve the image of the last vibrant seconds i was clean and i m still smiling each notebook s in a drawer thousands of words do what these pictures should ve done black done up like a doll done up like the laminated cover of my rite of passage social death knell hide in gravy boat eyes in flying saucer midnight bounce back and forth up and down echo chamber dread you hollow out my head i m swallowed by my bed you re resting on my shelf you re kissing me goodnight you re wishing me good morning now tell me do we look anything like a mirror i wake up amazed everyday that in spite of every shortcoming of every misstep and halfstep and every debased covenant and every ripped contract behind that backs of my makers i ll always be fine it s like what ms magnusson said in the darkness of the guided study room pulling me out of my own huddled mass just to tell me i ll always be fine it s so simple that after all this it seems sick but i ll always be fine as long as you stay perched with me on this earth waiting to be lifted i ll always be fine now tell me do we look anything like a mirror 