i need you more than ever calling out the silence surrounds me i ran from a voice that takes us as we are that filled my selfish heart with something more how d i ever think that you could save me how d i ever think that you would try i ve been searching everywhere for answers to this life of mine am i on my own how d i ever think that you could save me from myself i m lost now more than ever hear me out i m desperate and broken i can t do this all alone and believe me oh i know i don t deserve a thing from you how d i ever think that you could save me how d i ever think that you would try i ve been searching everywhere for answers to this life of mine am i on my own how d i ever think that you could save me from myself falling apart i need a hand i cannot stand i m sorry mom i hated myself for 18 years i hate to watch you cry i hate to see your tears and i m sorry to my girl i ruined you you hated me how could this be real i lost a baby i ll never hold her in my arms and it s breaking my heart and i m lost without you so lost without you i m so lost without you 