i m saving my piss in a jar this depression has gone too far i m lying here in my bed am i alive or am i dead i m questioning my sanity the paint chips are kicking in desperation bubbles my skin there s stuff crawling on the floor crackers with black books knocking at my door the tv s talking to me i m questioning my sanity everybody have a breakdown i haven t changed my clothes in weeks i m wallowing in my own stink my ass is sore from lying in bed am i alive or am i dead 1