you should have showed me a long long time ago instead you kept it in your heart for those rough ass last sad ass days meaning so much to a boy oh he enjoyed those weekends never lost his faith in you and never put you down fuck no i feel shame as they re stitching up your stomach will i ever gain the power or the sperm to be a better man plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips oh daddy now look at me i m all grown up i m so scared to be alone crazy people point their fingers ha ha i hate the smell of funeral homes i m doing alright for being a bastard it s ok he ll be back she said so sweetly and so mad he s going out to catch a disease grandma grips her rosary beads surprises me with hot fudge and some late night channel 9 the wizard of oz was on she helps to keep me occupied i feel shame as they re stitching up your stomach will i ever gain the power or the sperm to be a better man plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips oh daddy ah you left me so fragile hollow and so yellow dig you up and say i m a man today sometimes i ve forgotten how you smiled while rotting in your deathbed why daddy let me cry why you woke me up you woke me up 5 30