when the shadows washed away i was painting larger ones larger than the canvases the canvases i can t believe and i can t understand when things turn gray i m not who i was in the morning and there s a million reasons that i d like you to stay time to utter the words while you re falling i run out the bedroom cause i can t really breathe a recurring fear of being tied down and i would like to blame it on the artist in me but there s no one in there who buys that bullshit i m going through girls and pushing through crowds and she knows i m looking for her and i m going through hell through the darkest sides of myself i only want what i can t have run ahead don t wait up just run ahead don t wait up cause i ll follow you there follow you there i ll follow you there follow the ocean follow you there follow you there the road s not far way i only want i only want her today i only want what i can t have i only i only want her today i only want what i can t have