i thought in the end i had found a home but it was all just an illusion i thought this was where i would not be alone instead it plunged me deep into confusion i thought there was always something to condone but in the end i saw it would not work out i considered those gloomy times to be gone but now they were back so beyond a doubt i can feel all the barriers torn down and all my thoughts they feel so light and free all the baggage that died with my last frown to make way for a second reality i can feel so much that has gone away with that darkness no more a part of me all the things i thought forced me to stay now forgotten with a past reality i can feel it die away without sound like a fading image of a past me with no place in the freedom i have found living in this second reality but i need to leave my place below deck so long have i felt it is long past twelve when i need to turn and never look back to go where i can just be myself i know somewhere i skidded off the track but i just could not see clearly back then i need to leave behind all that slack and find out once more who i really am