keep fading i know i can t stay too long so i take life as it comes crashing down on me in waves of despair self defeat everything i try to be if i could only wish this away just one day of stability so i can kill what s been killing me the fact is that here it s all about winning not how well you play the fucking game no matter how hard you strive or slave you re just a pawn to a greater scheme of chance and greed of gods and thieves of people lacking humility sometimes it seems their only purpose here is to bury me and keep me from living my dreams and keep me from living my dreams first time they ripped it away and then they laid you to waste third time they spit in your face fourth time hell to pay three times but never more three times but never more never stability falls away there will be hell to pay there will be hell to pay hell to pay there will be hell to pay there will be hell to pay once was an artist now a fucking slave once was an artist now a fucking slave once was an artist now a fucking slave