i m sick of losing family everytime i blink my eyes and at the rate that it s going fell like i need to stay inside cause i don t wanna be the next nigga to fall in a coffin lord knows everybody that i love die often or wind up in the cage and i don t seem to understand it ain t nothing but a few of us left i can count on my hand if i tried to make a song for everyone that i lost i d prolly have a triple c d in my deck when i floss and that s a damn shame people entertained by pain i think i m only selling records cause i m going through it mayn i received a phone call from my old man today he was going crazy cause his older sister passed away and in my mind i think she looking down smiling away but still it hurt i m writing this and it ain t even been a day at least i got to giver her a kiss and told her i love her hey christina promise it ll never be another damn i ma keep thugging till the day i drop cause it feel like i m losing everything i got on my knees asking god is it ever gon stop but he don t answer me back i hope he help me out to tell the truth i m never being happy now a days in my everyday living will make a nigga wanna blaze i don t smoke so i m running reality head on all the pressure and pain coming to me is dead wrong only time i get to smile is when i see my lil boy if he only knew i m riding down for my boy i ain t got too many friends so i m riding by myself your own kin ll try to do you when on a mission for wealth i was told every person get a day of they own i guess they skipped over mine i been in line for too long why they won t leave me alone i just wanna have a life i m sick of living in the dark tripping searching for the light i m a soldier so i fight till i m running out of breath and i ain t running from the devil it s war until the death dear lord help me out i think you missing all my calls my back against the wall and i ain t got no time to fall at all  it ain t no mo telling me that it s gonna be ok i watched the judge try to throw my roll dog life away it s safe to say any day i ma be checking in with everything that i m facing they gotta let me in i only rap about the struggle cause it s all that i know i m assuming people hate me because it s all that they show i never asked to be a rapper i was stuck with it and fuck this shit cause i don t fell i m having luck with it and it seem like i m really tripping sometimes and i really want is the lord to show me a sign cause everything been rough when it s coming to me and mine since it s raining everyday i ll be praying the sun ll shine but it don t and on the real i don t feel that it will i m the last one left until i end up getting killed i wanna turn away but still i know that it s real and deep inside i pray that the lord ll be my shield my pain is for real 