if im gonna be honest im scared to tell it all if i let go of my secrets will i have anything at all if im gonna be honest transparencys my god but i keep all of these secrets to make it seem like im not lost im not lost this is the lie i tell myself and this is the reason that im still here weighed down by the guilt of it all when every confession is insincere i know i know it all too well but i keep going back because at least ill have a story to tell i have a story to tell but im still dirtier than i thought id ever be i keep hiding from the cross cause deep down i dont want to be free i wanna hold on to this darkness scream it loud so i am heard if im gonna be honest its the same song i just rearrange the words ive been too scared to move past to move past everything ive done the devil that i know is better than the one i dont i know it all too well this is not the story that i want to tell cause im still dirtier than i thought id ever be i keep hiding from the cross cause deep down i dont want to be free i wanna hold on to this darkness scream it loud so i am heard if im gonna be honest its the same song i just rearrange the words this is the only way i know how to cope just grit my teeth and bare it all this is the only way i know how to feel so i stay put to keep these stories real i know theres been truth in the things ive sought and ive screamed transparency but im all talk