single mom i was raised by her in a place where the hate triumphed half white half latin so my inner conflict was a race riot she said i d never be shit said i d die young said i d end up in a precinct where the cops wanna see us dead now they only looking for a reason uh now i m in the four seasons feet kicked up on the balcony looking at the city lights thinking of the broads that i did so wrong now i was so focused on getting right put them in a cab and i put them in a song uh huh i don t know if she got style cause i only seen her in a thong it s a life i lead no my life don t lead me yeah and i don t need love and my love don t need me yeah that s co dependent coulda end up as a co defendant coulda spent months in a coldest cell because a code of silence is a code of ethics where i m from everybody sold drugs uh huh we don t wanna die young and we wanna grow up uh huh and my homie just od ed had to see it online no one told me right i ain t know he was a dope fiend with kilos in his arm tryna play it off lowkey poking his vein when i m back home now it won t be the same tryna find hope in the rocks like looking for a teardrop soaked in the rain nothing changes hate from love or is it love from strangers said i m living on the edge i just hope it s sharp enough for me to cut the chains yeah and this can t be life and this can t be and this can t be life and it can t be we deserve more than that uh huh gotta make this right yeah yeah and this can t be life yeah and this can t be life and it can t be yeah and this can t be life and it can t be we deserve more than that uh huh gotta make this right yeah yeah and this can t be life and lately i ve been praying amen tryna box with god but my heart is too heavy to make the weigh in now i m staying patient in the study recording i m on credit for them hours knowing that i can t afford it and my cousin started snorting shit my little sister pregnant damn i told her to abort it since i said it i regret it now when my niece and nephew enter this world and it s gonna be guilt when i look into they beautiful eyes and i think of the time i said she should kill them i m not perfect i don t pretend to be i m my worst fucking enemy cause i gave my ex s all they best sex and they worst memories but still they just can t seem to leave me alone that s a cycle of dysfunction man that shit just go and go we just kids from broken homes can t fix shit struggling with love and addiction and all the months that we never paid rent on time landlord threatening eviction when them doors close though you just gotta break through right you don t wanna look back with regrets stressed out bout what you ain t do  yeah and this can t be life and this can t be and this can t be life and it can t be we deserve more than that uh huh gotta make this right yeah yeah and this can t be life yeah and this can t be life and it can t be yeah and this can t be life and it can t be we deserve more than that uh huh gotta make this right yeah yeah and this can t be life