being alone away from my home i was a different man did i understand there were decisions to make bills to be paid i was a different man now at this stage turning a page i re examine these ways though its hard to explain exactly what i know now and i what i have lost i hope i find it until then ill be hanging around waiting for someone to bring me down just standing in my ground in spite of all what i konw to be true and what should i do but rid these awful feelings that i haven t used well theres a blue bird inside of me but i wont let em out theres a middle age plan overrun by self doubt those s mountain of need there s the man that you see yeah i ve a blue bird inside of me but im trying to be tough as a boy i was told that i didnt have the stuff its just something in me something in me im being alone wave from my hand i was a different man did i understand there were decisions to make bills to be paid i was a different man now at this stage turning a page i re examine these ways though its hard to explain exactly what i know now and i what i have lost i hope i find it  until then ill be hanging around waiting for someone to bring me down just standing my ground in spite of all what i konw to be true and what else can i do but rid these awful feelings that i haven t used was it i or another person in this life standing here quiet eyed and so unaware live at last thats a inspiration from my past being fear of a distance which just so unclear