well i guess i messed things up again i got caught in a landslide and my phone died and the weather added context i swear that i just cried for a week about the sun i came to all the conclusions of how i m losing every single thing i am had every plan of not moving from my bed ever again but i got scared of everything well i guess i messed things up again maybe all i ll ever be is just a self fulfilling prophecy of all the worries inside me well i guess i messed things up again is this all i ll ever be i was trying to be a better person but i m weak i m weak i m weak i ve gotten better at losing and it s using every single bone i have to be the one that s refusing to give up on everything they told me things would get better like the weather but i m still waiting for that cold to fade from november maybe i should let it go i already melt at everything  well i guess i messed things up again maybe all i ll ever be is just a self fulfilling prophecy of all the worries inside me well i guess i messed things up again is this all i ll ever be i was trying to be a better person but i m weak i m weak i m weak all these moods like english weather are never getting better i might stay inside forever where at least i know it s warm all these moods like english weather are never getting better i might stay inside forever where at least i know it s warm all these moods like english weather are never getting better i might stay inside forever where at least i know it s warm all these moods like english weather are never getting better i might stay inside forever where at least i know it s warm well i guess i messed things up again maybe all i ll ever be is just a self fulfilling prophecy of all the worries inside me well i guess i messed things up again is this all i ll ever be i was trying to be a better person but i m weak i m weak i m weak all these moods like english weather are never getting better i might stay inside forever where at least i know it s warm all these moods like english weather are never getting better i might stay inside forever where at least i know it s warm2