i wish i didn t have this nervous laugh i wish i didn t say half the stuff i say i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks i guess i m not concerned about getting away cause every time i try to hold my tongue it slips like a fish from a line they say if you want to play you should learn how to play dumb i guess i can t bring myself to waste your time cause we both know what i ve been doing i ve been intentionally bad at lying you re the only boy i ever let see through me and i hope you beleive me when i say i m trying and i hope i never improve my game yeah i d rather have these things weighing on my mind and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame there must be a light of some kind there must be a light of some kind i must have blown a fuse or something cause it was so dark in my mind she came up to me with the sweetest face and she was holding a light of some kind and i still think of you as my boyfriend i don t think this is the end of the world but i think maybe you should follow my example and go meet yourself a really nice girl cause we both know in the end the world comes down to just a few people but for you it comes down to one but no one ever asked me if i thought i could be everything to someone there s a crowd of people harboured in every person there are so many roles that we play and you ve decided to love me for eternity i m still deciding who i want to be today cause we both know 