i hurt myself today to see if i still feel i focus on the pain the only thing that s real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but i remember everything what have i become my sweetest friends everyone i know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt and i will let you down i will make you hurt i wear this crown of thorns upon my liar s chair full of broken thoughts that i cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else i am still right here what have i become my sweetest friends everyone i know goes away in the end and you could have it all my empire of dirt i will let you down i will make you hurt if i could start again a million miles away i would keep myself i would find a way 