but are your hard times will vanish into thin air vanish and disappear but some things other things i missed for years money from my drawers and my closet s been missing gear is it roommates friends or family that visit here high rollers drinking rum and coke cry over going broke gotta bum a smoke and can t buy soda women you would die over now eye rollers used to wink won t say hi acting bi polar that s when the money goes you in need but you can t plant seeds for the trees where the money grows i wore gold had airs with the gummy soles told the poor floors the rich wear bummy clothes money made people hustle weight so when you wake call your friends then they say they in another state it s like chris s death it s like crystal ball crystal clear show them hooked on crystal meth i hate that chris who left and vanished i seen money come i seen money go vanished friends here yesterday now gone today vanished had love for you used to be loyal vanished it was all there then it disappeared yo this industry is something cause it s hard to find friends in the game when your sales start slumping they love when you winning in the beginning but i bet you off the bandwagon they ll start jumping it don t take a scholar to understand that you ll always be the man till you spend your last dollar all the girls wanna holler and while you partying with carmello and la la your boys wanna follow fame is a drug and when it vanishes people walk over you the same as a rug feels real good to be on top of he world top floor of the w on top of a girl or maybe up in v i p like you got wealth with 20 friends sipping on some top shelf and all of them trying to play the field but as soon as it s time to pay bill motherfuckers they  yeah many dark nights my fear they cause fright all types trying to foresee my foresight for life i live it my feeling feel timid no gimmick my dad s life i don t wanna mimic made in god s image perfect imperfection facing hard times praying for god s blessing aggression since a teen fear holding me back like yellow tape on a crime scene i scheme for a better life running through this dark tunnel but i never seem to see the light i wanna take flight but scared to fly alone my friends keep pressing me like an iron on to keep grinding on what if it don t work stuck here dealing with fears like q token clerk maybe i should give it up and choose a new career i can t manage hoping that my fears 