i woke up today after a blurry night a never ending fight and i saw you but you weren t there you weren t there and i ve failed again i got lost in black and cycle an eternity flooded drought with emptiness you weren t there i exist without color i wander without faith you re gone and so am i heavy heavy i put it down it s empty and so am i lower lower hope into hate sadness into hate love into hate hate into insanity insanity into spite spite i woke up today with a hole in my fucking chest i will try i will try and if i fail fail once a fucking again it will be just like me just like me suffer just like me yeah suffer yeah suffer suffer spite 