i thought i d grow out my hair to see if you d notice and i d start dressing nice to make you believe that i m alright and i d start playing sports to be more like my brother and my dad might be proud for once in his life or maybe i ll drink myself to sleep because that s what i m used to and when i wake up i ll feel brand new i ll start tanning my skin to be more like my mother because i am a ghost in size small clothes and i guess i could use some color maybe i ll smile to be like my ex girlfriends cause they can feel love but i can t feel anything so i thought i d write you this song so you could get noticed you could sing it along with your friends in the back of their mercedes benz well me and my volvo will be fine and maybe i ll close my eyes to feel more like myself maybe i ll close my eyes to feel more like myself and maybe i ll close my eyes to feel more like myself1