"When I was in " foster care" and Forced to ing.est my own waste..to punish me at 2 yo...<br>I was Saved by " coincidence" ..my step father had an angelic " visit" he was in the deep woods almost 80 miles away..he Busted into the kitchen..and much took place..but he removed me from there..and asked his Dad if it would be ok for me to live with him.<br> I was Respectfully Cleaned up by the old man.. <br>He had in those days ..only zinc tubs and lye soap..gentle lye soap..and when he sat me to the place he sat normally..the head of the table.<br>He placed a plate of England Boiled Dinner..a but of cabbage ..carrots ..rutabaga..( yellow turnip)..potato half..butter for the veggies...and table service to eat with...but I just sat there.. AFRAID <br>..even though the aromas were so Pleasing to my nose and made my tummy growl hungrily.<br>I could Not Recognize it as Food ..<br>Edible with the tastes as sure as ..<br>Their Aromas !!!<br> His oldest son swore at me..and the old man ..Giant of an Irish Lumberjack...put his son's tongue to Silence !<br> I had no idea of the table utensils..<br>And until the old man took a piece of the foods he placed on My plate.<br>Made sounds of ..ummmm..I just sat and stared....Right At Him ..his mouth and eyes ..Smiled Wide . and I tasted the carrot 1st...I could not eat a lot ..his son told him ..that I looked just like the peoples he fought to save in the camps WWII ...<br>Emaciated. And the General told All the Soldiers to NOT feed more than tiny bits of food to the prisoners..because it would cause their stomach to explode .<br>So I had very small amounts ..and maybe an hour later..more the same.<br>And heated in butter..just a taste of ham..meat being too Strong for me.<br> Kindness and Gentle Protections from that Giant of a man ?:)<br> So much I have lived through in my 71 years..it feels like I have lived many lives within these 71 years.<br> Excellent schooling Because nuns are Serious Teachers..but my being <br>Absorbed into this human body...as a star.seed....I was a Rebel !!<br> My earth Mother was 6' ....and half breed Native Indian / Pure Blood Scottish Male ..from the queens dungeon..he was to die or serve as a scout here in Maine.<br>  So my star.seed brain/ self ...has learned to adapt to <a href=""http://earth.life/"">earth.life</a>.<br>I brought my Momma to school..she took care of All future Whippings etc <br>Nuns crippling My classmates hands <br>..palms and backs of hands whipped with horse crop..into bleeding Welts <br>10 palms and ..then DEMANDING ..<br>classwork to be done ..Or Else.tell the Very Catholic Parents ..their child<br>Was disrespectful to...their Catholuc Nun !!<br> My Momma got arrested ..and taken from me for 7 months ..placed into an insane asylum..instead of jail.<br> I believe jail wwould have been better..but my Momma was A<br>Sunningly Beautiful Woman...she looked like Ellie Mae in the USA tv show : The Beverly Hillbillys ...and so<br>...the insane asylum was done. And <br>My Earth Mother was Punished Daily <br>..for standing up to the nuns ..they used Electric Shock treatments on her.  Medicated her into a world of <br>Mental anguished new ways she Had to live in Dopes Land.<br> Well....I am seeing I should go...my memories are yet ..as though just happenings <br> Lost my line of thought..but being in a earth body..and having the Will to be the experimental ..in service to others star.seed..and maintain some balance of ...lol Sanity.. I will go now.<br>Hope my prattle have helped you and others to know...chemical dopes from outside the human body..is Never Necessary....well maybe almost..never necessary ?:)<br> Respectfully", Niacinberry...I have a name..but my stepdad told me .Not is His and I am to Change my/ His name...so that my being an Imp<br>Child ..will not Sully His Family's<br>Name.<br> I will do it soon ..since he is gone..and I am Free ?:)<br>Lol...free at a time my earth years are almost gone ..in this earth CHILDS. Aged body.