i had a panic attack recently and went completely mental to the point i was completely gone crazy, that little voice that speaks in my head became quiet and there was only me, and in my trip for some reason my mind kept feeding me this sentence " i am life discovering the universe itself with all possibilities through time ", it was such a strong experience,  i was aware but completely gone, it got so bad that it took me 3 days to remember what is reality and to convince myself that i was being delusional all the time, but damn, i felt that every second was like a eternity because i would, in my delusion, start breaking down every second that passes by and deconstruct every aspect of reality, as in time passing, emotions i am having and what is my mind thinking. <br>because every second passed like an eternity (literally) when i came back to sanity, my understanding of emotions changed so much, i felt that every emotion is something we chose to carry from one moment to another, and we carry it to remember something we want to remember, but worse i realized so much of what brought me pain in my life, are emotions that we want to forget but still chose to carry just so we dont feel them again which is the funny thing, we are so afraid that we would rather chose to remember that fear just so the next time we might be in that situation, we can evade it, so when i comeback to sanity, i realized i no longer need to hold to these emotions as i am the one in control of what to feel in the next moment. <br>it changed me