Kakeru moves to Matsumoto with his mother mother after she decides to move there for her own reasons. When she passes away on the first day of school after Kakeru transfers, Kakeru blames himself and thus refuses Suwa's invitation to join the Soccer club. Kakeru sees some old classmates from Tokyo, but none of them understand what Kakeru is going through. In the end, Kakeru becomes so distressed that he feels that he has no way out.
Every day, I think, "I'd be better off dead."
".أفكّر كل يوم "يستحسن لي أن أموت
Ich überlege jeden Tag,
ob es nicht besser wäre zu sterben.
Todos los días pienso
que estaría mejor muerto.
Todos los días pienso
que estaría mejor muerto.
Je me dis tous les jours 
que je serais mieux mort.
Ogni giorno mi viene da pensare... 
che forse sarebbe meglio se morissi.
Eu penso todo dia que
 seria melhor eu ter morrido.
Каждый день думаю:
«Лучше бы я сам умер».