The protagonist has managed to achieve another evolution, and she's not too happy about it. Understandable, considering the skill she's gained has revealed the truth about the world to her. In order to avoid being caught in the tumult affecting the world, she decides to confront her own trauma.
I realized that I thought 
it was beautiful.
أدركتُ إعجابي بهذا الجمال
dachte ich nur, wie schön das sei …
llegó a parecerme hasta hermosa…
llegó a parecerme hasta hermosa…
je me suis mise à y trouver
une certaine beauté.
sono rimasta incantata a osservare la scena...
aquela visão me pareceu bonita.