Billie Piper pines for her first love - a scaffolder
She's had a pop career, an acting career, two marriages and two children.
Yet Billie Piper has expressed her frustrations at the world for making her feel like she should have achieved these things, despite the fact that she's actually achieved them.
Speaking to the latest edition of Stylist magazine, the former Penny Dreadful star, 34, said: 'It feels like you have to be fully established by your 30s. But now the world’s not interested, because you’re not 20 anymore.
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'I feel f**ked by this pressure!' Billie Piper finds it 'unnatural' that she is expected to 'have it all' as a 30-something woman... and pines for her first love - a scaffolder from Swindon
'I just think some of this new-age female emancipation can often land us in that place in our 30s where we feel, I’m supposed to have this, this and this... I’m supposed to be successful and business-savvy and coquettish and making cash and a slag in the bedroom and well-read and I’m supposed to be on top of all of these things, because it’s my time.
'I just feel f**ked by this amount of pressure! It feels like it is unnatural to be able to do all of those things.'
She also revealed that she sometimes sees herself in a parallel, alternate reality, in which she married her first love (a scaffolder from Swindon) and stayed with him forever.
Pressure: She's had a pop career, an acting career, two marriages and two children. Yet Billie Piper has expressed her frustrations at the world for making her feel like she should have achieved these things, despite the fact that she's actually achieved them
Having it all: Speaking to the latest edition of Stylist magazine, the former Penny Dreadful star, 34, said: 'It feels like you have to be fully established by your 30s. But now the world’s not interested, because you’re not 20 anymore.'
The full interview appears in this week’s issue of Stylist, out Tuesday 15th August 2017
'I often think about what would’ve happened if we were still together and I think we would probably have had a 30-year relationship,' she said.
But with a scaffolder she is not; in fact Billie only recently publicly acknowledged her current relationship with boyfriend Johnny Lloyd for the first time in a supportive social media post, shared with Instagram followers, a few weeks ago.
The musician was at the time gearing up for the first of eight shows with American rock band Mystery Jets over the course of the summer; and the blonde beauty took to social media to share a natural selfie of her in a grungy Mystery Jets tee, which she posted with a caption that sent her love to her rocker beau, ahead of his first concert with the band.
'It feels like it is unnatural to be able to do all of those things' Billie says she feels the pressure of being a 30-something
Posing with an enthused expression on her face, Billie mirrored her excitement in the caption, which saw her wish the Tribes frontman luck with his live appearance.
She wrote to her fans: 'Good luck tonight @johnny_s_lloyd @mysteryjets (really strong merch ) and @themaccabees. Hope it's a beautiful night.'
After little more than a string of dates in London over the past year, Billie was seen sporting a sparkling ring on her wedding finger earlier in the summer.
The beauty caused a stir with the accessory sparking rumours she and Johnny were engaged.
Alternate universe: She also revealed that she sometimes sees herself in a parallel, alternate reality, in which she married her first love (a scaffolder from Swindon) and stayed with him forever
What could have been? 'I often think about what would’ve happened if we were still together and I think we would probably have had a 30-year relationship,' she said
Sources inside the event told MailOnline: 'She was wearing a huge rock on her ring finger. It was a real sparkler!'
However a representative for Billie told MailOnline: 'Billie and Johnny are definitely not engaged.'
Their relationship comes one year after Billie split from fellow actor Laurence Fox, and just months after she began covering the 'FOX' inking on her engagement finger.
After the divorce in May last year, Billie began masking the letters on her finger with make-up, and now she has taken the step of having the letters blacked out.
'Hope it's a beautiful night: Billie publicly acknowledged her relationship with Johnny Lloyd for the first time on Tuesday, by wishing him luck on Instagram
You can do it! She wished her rocker beau of one year (above) good luck with his show in the caption, writing: 'Hope it's a beautiful night'
Next step? It seems the pair's relationship is still going strong however, after Billie sported a sparkler on her wedding finger at the Glamour Women Of The Year Awards last month
Billie and Laurence married in December 2007 in a romantic ceremony in West Sussex, but parted ways after eight years of marriage.
The former lovers raise their two children together - Winston James, aged eight, and Eugene Pip, aged five.
The full interview appears in this week’s issue of Stylist, out Tuesday 15th August 2017.