Title: I work at one of the &quot;Big 4&quot; tech companies and haven&#x27;t been satisfied for a while. Did an interview with another &quot;Big 4&quot; company and failed hard.<p>I&#x27;ve been feeling extremely anxious about work. I don&#x27;t feel well in my current team because everyone is smarter than me and I think no one likes me (people forget to invite me to meetings, I&#x27;m not invited to outside events, etc.). Every pull request I submit gets a load of criticism. I don&#x27;t feel valuable to the team.<p>The first thing I thought is that my attitude is bad. But this can&#x27;t be - I&#x27;ve heard from multiple people that I&#x27;m the nicest and most patient person they&#x27;ve ever met. In fact, my manager has criticized me more than once for being &quot;too nice&quot; i.e. that I should stand my ground more, or push people for things I depend on from them.<p>I wanted to jump ship and find an opportunity I might feel more passionate about. Found said opportunity but failed hard in most of the interview puzzles.<p>I&#x27;m feeling lost. I feel that 1) I&#x27;ll be forever with the current company and 2) if I&#x27;m ever laid off, I&#x27;ll never get a job again because I can&#x27;t solve the puzzles.<p>Interview puzzles are so hit-or-miss. No matter how many of them I solve, I always stutter when I&#x27;m faced with a new one. If the problem is new, it either &quot;clicks&quot; right away or I bomb the interview. No middle ground.<p>My thoughts are descending into the darkest reaches. Death doesn&#x27;t seem so bad anymore. Then I don&#x27;t have to think about all this.<p>I don&#x27;t know where I went wrong. I used to be intelligent. I used to be liked by my teams. I used to be good at puzzles.<p>Now I&#x27;m dumb and worthless.<p>I don&#x27;t have the option to stop working for a while. I have the savings for it, but it&#x27;s unacceptable to my wife.<p>I don&#x27;t know what to do.
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