Title: Hi,<p>I&#x27;m in my mid thirties, rather accomplished, with a very good job (tech) that I like, family with 2 kids etc. I drink way too much however and I fear I&#x27;m already borderline alcoholic. I&#x27;ve recently found this &#x27;high functioning alcoholism&#x27; term and realized this is me. Which scares me a lot. I do know people that drink a lot in my family (I&#x27;m from eastern Europe...) and until recently I&#x27;ve never considered myself similar to them. 
For the record, I&#x27;m drinking on average 5 evenings per week, between half and a full bottle of wine (which is not that much, certainly I got used to it, so it doesn&#x27;t put me in the drunk mode neither).<p>I keep an &#x27;inner scorecard&#x27; which means I evaluate myself against what I used to be, and what I think I can accomplish (did I perform &#x2F; accomplish something up to my potential, or did I just did a half-ass effort). Funnily enough, I always somehow discarded alcohol as a factor, justifying it (to myself) that it&#x27;s not that influencing. Which is of course false. I should add that I work in the evenings very often (I love what I do btw) and most of those time, I drink too when working.<p>What made me realize this problem much more efficiently was running. I started quite recently and did some tests - how I perform, with the same training scheme, with and without alcohol for a period of time. Numbers don&#x27;t lie. I run much better and also feel better.<p>As to why I&#x27;m drinking when I&#x27;m working alone, I don&#x27;t really know (other than I like the taste). Not necessarily to forget problems or something. With perspective, this amounts to huge chunks of time, which certainly impacts my work on side projects &#x2F; business. Sometimes I think I drink because I&#x27;m scared to actually succeed with this side stuff, and somehow unconsciously I sabotage myself.<p>Are &#x2F; were you in this situation ? If you managed to stop, I would appreciate the &#x27;how&#x27;.
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