Title: It may be because I live in a country without great access to mental health care (America, in case it wasn&#x27;t obvious), but I went through a very long period of my life where I was horrendously depressed. Suicidal depressed.<p>I won&#x27;t go into the details that led up to this event (I&#x27;m using a throwaway account for a reason!), but basically I had all of my dreams in life shattered and then I dealt with the Department of Justice for a year. The long-term stress robbed me of any self-confidence.<p>I finally got over it last year when I started doing small kind gestures for the people I care about. Volunteering to run errands. Cleaning the dishes. Anything to convince myself with concrete examples that people are happier that I&#x27;m around. Anything to justify not committing suicide.<p>And it worked, until last week when I suddenly started feeling anxious and depressed for no discernible reason. Being kind to others doesn&#x27;t seem to have the same effect this time around, so before my condition gets any worse, I&#x27;d like to ask the community what reasons they have for continuing to live. Maybe I can figure out why I feel so crappy and pre-emptively stave off those inner demons.
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