Title: For the first time in my decade long career I&#x27;m deeply burned out. I&#x27;ve been feeling this way for at least the past 3 months. The smallest of tasks feel like moving a mountain which leads to procrastination and then no feeling of success when completing a task that my bosses feel is already late. I&#x27;ve never been anything but a top performer before.<p>I&#x27;ve thought and written about why I feel like this. It&#x27;s a swirling combination of lack of autonomy or strategic involvement, working on a codebase that requires a lot of effort to wrangle (single digit millions of lines of code), in languages (C++, Python) I don&#x27;t enjoy or want to master, with really bad tools and long feedback loops, on a team with hardly any camaraderie, and a roadmap that isn&#x27;t very exciting to me.<p>The job pays well but all in all I don&#x27;t feel anything like myself. I once was incredibly confident in my abilities and loved building things and exploring my curiosities. I failed two interviews in the past few months and in hindsight it&#x27;s obvious why if I&#x27;m not feeling confident or like my best self. Now at night, when I should be coding to work towards better interview performance, I have no energy to pursue that or other personal interests. I feel trapped which makes me even more anxious.<p>My significant other doesn&#x27;t support me leaving my job without another one lined up, even though we have nearly 2 years of living expenses saved. My work situation is causing me anxiety every Sunday knowing I&#x27;ll be returning to it the next day and this anxiety sometimes turns into micro meltdowns where I fear I have no way out.<p>I&#x27;ve never &quot;ran&quot; from a job before but that&#x27;s what I want to do. I&#x27;ve started therapy once per week. I&#x27;ve tried techniques to get me going on the smallest of things but it isn&#x27;t helping. How would you get out of this mess?
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