text: I dream of bright lights, a town to live without my shadow. Digging in the fiber of the streets and the passersby; Penetrating a future with dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. Her breasts smother my scarred breaths. Scraping lips and she tastes like summer blood. It'll pass and I'll never be the same. Looking for people in a crowd. Tearing skin and watching my past decay in hours. Bathing in the filth, just to be born in my own eyes. Entangling with the hurt I found in the beginning. Staying away, leaving my parted loneliness in her mouth. Orgasmsing in the ways that make my mother and father something I forget. Nobody loves themselves, so how could they love me? And I writhe in ‘comfort’, just to feel. Provoking searing glares because the numbness is like dry blood jarred underneath my nails. My life encapsulates a warm goodbye. Running to nothing to find myself.