text: First Time Poster! Think about it..don’t say a name but just think that one person, the one you would do anything for, the one you would give your life for, the one you would gladly jump in front of a bullet for. You have that person in your mind? Good, now imagine them holding the gun at you and you are powerless to do anything except hope and pray that they love you enough to not use that gun on you. This is my story, the story of the betrayal of the one I love more then anyone else, the one I thought loved me back but it turns out he didn’t love me enough to stop himself from trying to remove me from his life and everyone else's forever. Now I know what you may be thinking, how can you write this if he succeeded? Well he didn't because at the last moment something happened, will I tell you..., no, you are just going to have to sit and listen. It started in middle school, I was lucky enough to find the guy I could spend the rest of my life with that early. Micah was tall, beautiful brown eyes and curly brown hair. Of course it wasn’t a love at first sight thing and we definitely did not keep in touch over the years, in fact we regularly forgot about each other, we would move away from each other and end up back in the same place over and over. Sometimes we didn’t know we were in the same city, sometimes we did but we only really started to notice each other in a sense other than “cool their around again” was in senior year, the last time we were together in the same city for 3 years. Senior year was the highlight of high school and Micah did everything together we went to homecoming, we went to football games and swim meets and plays and choir performances, I went to all his baseball games and he came to all my recitals. We seemed to be the perfect couple. Prom night was the most magical, I was in a beautiful floor length gown that sparkled like the waves and he was wearing a suit with a blue bow tie to match. We knew that we were coming up on the end of us being together so we danced and took pictures and laughed the night away. The next morning we called each other and decided to meet up and we made a scrapbook of all the things we did at prom.I don’t know why but I felt as if I was riding on cloud nine. Unfortunately though all things have to come to an end even the most magical. We tried to keep our breakup with no tears and no drama but both of us sobbed for days and we would call each other crying. It wasn’t the best way to end a year of dating but we did what we had to do after all it was time for both of us to move for the last time before college. This was the biggest move we had ever gone through. Most of the time they were just a move from country to country state to state but this one was different. This wasn’t a big move location wise, we were just moving up to washington. It just felt different. This was my last move with my family and I was going to start college far away in georgia. Exactly 2,429 miles away from them and I had just lost Micah it seemed as if my world was crumbling down around me. The summer passed and then I had to leave. College was amazing, the years passed by quickly and I was top in everything I dated people and had fun but I never forgot about Micah, I saw the scrapbook everyday and I missed him more every time I looked at it. I couldn’t bring myself to put it away though, it was my one connection back to him. One day I was out with my boyfriend, I don’t need to say his name, he wasn’t important, and then I saw him. My Micah, the world seemed to stop and it was only me and him. I turned away from my boyfriend and I made eye contact with Micah and I couldn't help but smile, he looked at me and smiled and his face lit up like the stars in the night sky. I completely forgot about my boyfriend and ran into his arms laughing in delight. It seemed as if the world got brighter and the day became less stressful. “What are you doing here???” I exclaimed as I held him “We have never been this far away from each other for so long, I mean we’ve not noticed that we’ve been together in the same cities but I always felt like I knew you were there,” Micah looks at me as though the whole worlds issues have been solved just because he’s here with me again. I see my boyfriend walk over and I blush sheepishly “Micah I have to deal with him I...I may have dated him, I didn’t think I would ever get to see you again” ‘It’s fine, my love deal with him and then my lady may I take you out?” I smile and nod and then turn to face my boyfriend, I explain to him that someone I would never get to see came back to me and I needed to break up with him so I could fulfill my life dream with Micah. He was understandably devastated but he wished me the best because he knew how happy I had gotten as soon as I laid my eyes back on Micah. I turned around and finally got to be in Micah’s arms again. I pressed my lips to his quickly and then I smiled, “You ready to go?” I had been dying to say something to him since senior year “Hey Micah, can I tell you something I’ve been wanting to say for a long time?” “Of course, is everything alright?” “Yes, I just wanted to say, I love you.” He stopped and stared at me, “What did you say?” “I said I love you.” His face lit up like a kid on Christmas Eve, “I love you too.” We went out to dinner that night and it was the most wonderful night of my life. I didn’t think anything could go wrong and luckily nothing happened....that night. As the weeks went on me and him got closer, I didn’t think we could because I already knew everything about him but he opened up to me during those weeks. He talked about the move and about his family and how they didn’t even know he was at my college. He seemed broken but I loved him anyway I did everything I could for him to bring the smile back onto his face. I went to his favorite places, I did his favorite things, I made his favorite meals but it still seemed like something was worrying him. As it turns out there was still something he wasn’t telling me because he didn’t want to unlock the last bit of his soul to me, and for good reasons. His family was mad at him for ruining his chance at life by coming to see me(he finally told them) so he didn’t feel like he could trust me and with the secret he was holding he was right. That secret would tear anyone apart and we were about to be exhibit A. Life seemed to be passing by easily, the world seemed brighter everyday. I woke up with Micah by my side. If my life could be compared to anything it would be like floating on a donut in a chocolate river with no bumps in sight. Sounds amazing right? Well under every river is a current and this current was rapidly dragging me further and further into a dark forest with no way out. Micah got more and more quiet and seemed disappointed if I did something that didn’t make him happy, he never said anything to me so I never seemed to notice. Boy was that stupid. He wanted me to be his 18th century perfect obedient girlfriend. I tried to live up to his standards most of the time, however, I was only 23 I broke his rules and went out to party. In my eyes he wasn’t in charge of me, but in his eyes he was the one that was supposed to have control over me. He never got violent when I did something he didn’t enjoy. He just seemed sad and I could tell. It made me feel bad so when I broke his rules I was meek and perfect again for around a month or so until I had another girls night. Every girls night out I told myself I wouldn’t be stupid this time so that Micah would stay proud of me. I didn’t want to betray his confidence that I would make good choices, but no matter how hard I tried my girls always seemed to make me have fun. He got really upset one night I was out. I had gotten blackout drunk my first time ever doing that and the girls had to carry me inside to our apartment.The next morning was terrible. He was more angry than I had ever seen him and if I’m being completely honest I was scared. “What were you thinking? You could have gotten hurt or killed?!” “I.I’m sorry I wasn't thinking” “I KNOW YOU WEREN’T’ I flinched back and he lowered his voice ‘Honey I can’t live without you if you had gotten hurt I would have never forgiven myself” His voice broke off and he seemed like he was about to cry. “Micah, I promise that will never happen again, I love you” “I love you too” We changed the subject and he asked me to go out with him tonight. I was surprised, normally after a fight he wants me to leave him alone. It’s not a bad thing of course he's upset and has every right to be. That night we went out and I had the biggest surprise of my life. The love of my life proposed to me and I said yes.