text: Here, take it. It’s yours, I made it for you. Do you like it? It’s no big deal, really. Just a little something I threw together. I thought you’d like it, so I decided to make it for you. It wasn’t easy getting it just right, it actually took me a few tries, but I’m really proud of how it came out. There’s a part of me in it, so every time you look at it you’ll that I’m thinking of you. Maybe it’ll remind you of how much you mean to me, or how hard I worked to make you smile. You did smile, did you? To be honest, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to give you this. Of course I want you to have it! But what if it doesn’t work for you? What if you don’t like it? I’d hate for all of my hard work to go to waste. What if it becomes a burden for you, something that you don’t want but you can’t get rid of because it’s a gift? What if you can’t help seeing me when you look at it, and you start to think that it’s me you don’t want? I worked so hard to make this. You hate it, don’t you? STOP. I’m so sorry. Of course you don’t hate it. I saw how you smiled when I gave it to you. You have such a beautiful smile. No one can smile like that and not mean it. I guess you did like it, then. Maybe you even loved it! Maybe it’s the best gift you have ever received, and you will cherish it forever. I doubt it, though. Like I said, it’s no big deal. It’s a big deal for me, though. I don’t usually make things like this for people. I don’t usually make anything for anyone, actually. I never saw myself as the kind of person that creates beautiful things out of nothing. I don’t even know what came over me when I decided to make this. I was thinking of you and it just.... happened. I guess a part of me thought that if I made you this you’d see me in a different way. Maybe now you can see me the way I see you. You did like it, didn’t you? Please say something. It’s been too long, and starting to panic. I’ll say it was a joke, that I didn’t really make you this, and that I just wanted to see the look on your face. At least that last part is true, isn’t it? Maybe I’m the joke for thinking this would change anything. There’s no way you liked it, you would have said something by now... Fuck, what do I do? I can’t take it back, it’s awkward enough as it is without me about-faceing my sorry ass out of this shitshow. What’s wrong with me? Why am I like this? Why do I get myself into these stupid situations? Why did I ever think this would work? Is there something so wrong with my head that I’ll obsess about a terrible idea for the longest time only to realize it’s a terrible idea just when it’s too late? I have to do something. ANYTHING. Why can’t I move? I have to get out of here! Oh wait, you’re saying something, what was it again? Oh... Well, I’m glad you liked it! No, don’t worry about it. Like I said, it’s no big deal. I just thought you’d like it.