text: Upon waking, the flood to my senses was impulsively deafening. Opening my eyes shone anything but comfort. I think in that moment I could have seen farther if I looked through my toe. What I could see was oddly familiar, like all those times as a child that I had pressed my palms to my eyes to view that kaleidoscopic spectacle. A practice of which I’m sure is not the healthiest for the eyes. It was as if the colors, dull and dim though they were, were sentient. Swirling and spinning in their own independent paths, but at the same time, in unison; all on the same voyage. I’m sure of it now that this was just my eyes’ last ditch effort to discern something, anything among the madness. Darker than my eyes could see, and yet what I felt could only be accounted as a sense of grey. The bounds of my being were indiscernible. I couldn’t sense where my body ended and the hell began. Upon trying to stand, I felt the overwhelming fear of falling and a disturbing lack of confirmation that I was moving at all. I was stationary with the ever-present awareness of hurtling toward something. It was a comatose consciousness, much like the sensation I can only imagine one suffers from Restless Leg Syndrome, enveloping my soul. My limbs begged to be outstretched. For a long while, I struggled and for a long while after, I didn’t. My thoughts were all that were left with me. My sanity became my purpose. I found myself philosophizing, for one reason or another. Life and Death were where I would eventually and undoubtedly find myself, because neither applied to me any longer. I would ponder that vastness of the Universe I once called home. I found myself wondering if amongst the infinite amount of infinite sets of infinite digits within the value of pi, the Universe had accounted for a way in which I would eventually end up nowhere. I hadn’t come here, I hadn’t been transported, I just simply was here and wasn’t where I had been. I had come here, by no means at all, for no reason at all; an effect without a cause. There was nothing here for me, and it certainly wanted to be noticed.