text: -1- I met her for the first time today. She's wonderfully lovely and funny. I should get to know her better. -2- She came to visit me again. Her smile is enough to warm my heart. For the first time, I dont feel so alone. -3- Her hands brush mine and my skin is hot. I watch her as she watches the screen. Her eyelashes flutter. I could get used to this. -4- Afterwards, she traces my face and holds me close. Her bare skin against mine is comforting. Our chests rise and fall together. She makes my life so much better. -5- We go out together. I cant help but hold her hand. I want to protect her. She is mine and I am hers. -6- We are no longer separate for very long. She follows me, I follow her. I watch her face. She lights my soul up when she looks at me. -7- I don't remember the last time we were alone. But I wouldn't want it any other way. I want to create a family with her. She agrees. -8- She wants to go out with her friends. I see the way she dresses when she leaves and it makes me sick. I watch her come and go. -9- She's busy. Even when she's here, she's not here. She's mine, but I'm more alone than I ever was. -10- She touches me and I light up. I remember how good we are, how good we feel together. I don't think I can survive without her. -11- She is separating herself from me. I can feel it. I've gotten myself stuck. I need her to keep going. -12- She says there's nothing wrong. She's lying. She doesn't pay attention to me like she used to. -13- She goes out. If she looks like that someone will take her from me. She's mine. I need her. -14- She tells me she's taking a step back. She tells me she loves me. She tells me she doesn't want a family. I don't know what to believe. -15- She tells me she cant do this anymore. She tells me she can't commit. I need her. She can't leave me. -16- She's gone. ~~~~ -1- I met him at the beach. He's cute. I give him my number. -2- I seem to be spending more time with him. The more I get to know him, the more I like him. -3- I'm with him. I watch films, he watches me. How odd. -4- I sleep with him. I touch his face and tell him he's handsome. His curls fall over his face and my heart strings tug. -5- We go out. His crooked smile warms me. My hand holds his and I am at peace. -6- He makes me laugh and I reward him with a kiss. My life is carefree, bright and happy. I am safe. -7- I have no commitments but to him. I am with him always. He wants a family. In the future, I tell him. -8- I haven't seen my friends in ages. I am going out drinking with them. They dress me and pull me away. I watch his eyes storm as I leave. -9- I start work again. Life becomes hectic but I am still safe. He is still here with me. We do our best. -10- I miss holding him, so I do. I miss touching him, so I do. He is sad, but I am trying to help. -11- I see my friends more often. I am working, I am productive, I am happy. I wish he was too. -12- He questions me about my intentions, my whereabouts, my actions. He questions my integrity. There's nothing wrong with my actions. -13- I get ready to go out with my friends. I listen to him rage about my clothes. I go anyways. Its not his decision. -14- I feel like he's trying to control my life. I can't let that happen. I need more space to exist. I no longer feel safe. -15- I tell him I can't be with him anymore. I refuse to be caged by a man when I can be free forever. He'll make it without me. -16- I leave.