text: I died, and I enjoyed it. Something about the moment of death they don't tell you about. The more emotion pent up inside of that life, the more orgiastic the death. They say death is like taking off a tight shoe. "I" could vaguely remember who "I" was...as if "I" mattered; it was a life of nothing but pain and disappointment for "me". Nothing ever mattered I thought, what was the point? I floated along, for what had felt like years. It must have been a century, in that awesome darkness. Wading through the dark matter fluid. I, a single spark, floats along the sea of pure equanimity. What I am, or what I was; was gone. Who I am, what I am being, is now. I am being. I roll on like this forever, in this sea of equanimous delight. A cascade of images fill the background that was just the dark void of my darkened velvet screen. Faces, places, and things morph in front of me conceiving the next object out of itself. Inside the space within space, my being has no weight. Images flash again in front of me. It is recognizable. Every mistake, every problem I ever had, every disappointment, every failure. Every unlucky thing. All of these images enfolded out in front of me. Then immediately they compressed and compounded into a single unit in space. It collapses into a singular voxel. Like stepping through a doorway on the inside of my mind. A familiar sensation of being thrust into the physical dimension, as if being thrust from the womb. I was in a very familiar place. A place I had been many times before. It was your home. I opened the front door, and stepped into this very real place that I couldn't recall being in, since well... before when I was alive.. and had my body. It was different, but only slightly from what I remember. it was christmas time, but it was decorated in a way that I couldn't recall. Then you came from around the corner, from the kitchen. You had a cup of hot cocoa in your hand, and a smile on your face. I hadn't seen you in over 4 decades, and now you were standing here. Young, alive, and in front of me. I couldn't make a single decision or choice. I could only observe, carry on a life, that I never seemed to have had. everything collapsed into a single voxel again. that wasn't me, wait a second. each time I opened my being, another life would flash before my eyes. each time, I shudder and convulse in pain and delight. i realize i am not the being i am time, yet even I addict and I attach. I follow you through this portal of dimension, they kissed. This is when they were in love, when we were in love I thought. "I love you" I said. and then I was stuck in the moment, "What do you want to have for dinner tonight hunny?" "I don't know! You decide!" she said and then the eternal debate began.