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We have been together since we were 18 and 20. Regarding sexual partners, He doesnt keep count but it is significantly more than my partners. I can count the partners I have had on one hand. The penetration is what I have to feel safe about and that is rare with someone I just met.

About five years ago, we dabbled in the swinger lifestyle. He said I brought it up back then but I don't remember ever saying it and aside from a little liquid courage or trying to appease him, I've never entered into these relationships on my own. Even after his not-so-subtle push for me to be a hot wife or a cam girl. He regularly encourages me to go get drunk and go home with someone, claiming he just wants to share me. I've never done it, because I don't want to. He insists I just won't admit I want to sleep with other people or get out of my comfort zone.

I was molested as a child. During the early phases of our relationship and exploring intimacy, I even had breakdowns about conflicting feelings of being sexually touched and allowing myself to let it feel "okay". He knows my past. 

He is a fantastic lover. He has studied my body and strives to give me so many orgasms, I lose count. Amazing! 10/10

However, he has also put hidden cameras in our bedroom, more than once, after I made it  clear how it made me feel. One time, I did try to allow it to satisfy him but I hated being watched. He has coached me via text to mastubate and such while watching me, on a camera, I didn't know existed. 

We recently started couples therapy. I've been in therapy myself about two months longer than our couple sessions, different therapist of course. 

Therapy seems to be going well and sometimes he can see my perspective but he recently asked me if we will ever have sex like we did, meaning allowing him to use all sorts of toys on me. I don't always enjoy it. I usually don't ask for it. When he asks and I decline he sighs and shows obvious disappointment. I'm processing a lot of my own trauma including the deceit I feel about the cameras and have only been willing to use toys a handful of times in the last 3 months or so. 

AITA for telling him that I like the sex we have without all the toys, restraints and additional partners? At least until I can process everything and feel safe again?

It's my body and I certainly can't predict when I'll suddenly feel like I'm trapped and being abused again but I'm trying to learn how to process and let it go. I'm trying to stay in my "safe zone" and proposed I do still enjoy it sometimes but I want to be the one to ask to do toys, etc because then I actually do want it versus him asking and me feeling guilted to oblige or having to tell him no and him being visibly disappointed. 

Hopefully, I was clear. Thanks, reddit friends. 

telling him that I like the sex we have without all the toys, restraints and additional partners? sexual abuse trigger