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Input: This story actually is way too long but I will try to tell it shortly as much as I can.

Me(20) and this girl(20) were together for some time but we really had a different connection. We both can understand each other even in the deepest conversations. Last summer she broke up with me when I was overseas. I had really really hard times when I was a child but this time I had similar traumas again. Not only about her but also about my own life. Made many mistakes because I was depressed and couldn't sleep for very long time and still can't. We fought a lot after the broke up because I couldn't get over things that a normal person would. I really think she is the one for me but I also know she is not a person for serious relationships. She really cares for me still as a person. She even would like to sleep with me but she says she can't be my partner. I live in a place where I can be attractive because I have not the suitable social skills for the people where I live. But somehow she has and now she is in place for a few months more where she can spend time with probably any guy she want and I respect that. I am not jealous or something but she knows she can distract herself this way and I can distract myself only with alcohol. The problem is I want her in my life as a person who really understands me and makes me feel alive and well but AITA for not being able to stay as just friends?
She is okay with staying good friends and help each other at hard times but I still have huge feelings for her and she knows that.

I think I am the a-hole here in my opinion. What do you think?

not wanting to lose my ex and best friend