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Input: This Christmas season I(23NB) have been visiting the family home, and so has all my siblings. This year we were a lot of people in a very small space. It has been very stressful for everyone, and I have wanted to help out my fair share around the house and with cooking, but I have not been able to do much at all.
I suffer from avoidant personality disorder, deep depression, suicidal ideation, and some complex ptsd that is connected to my mom who was present.

In the little time I've been here I have had several bouts of depressive and suicidal moods, and had non-stop anxiety, resulting in many anxiety- and panic attacks, which I did my best to shield my family from, as to not make them worry about me.
I did try to make it known to my family that I wasn't doing very well mentally, and couldn't contribute as much as I wanted to, which they seemed to accept.

I felt like a terrible burden all the way through Christmas and new years. Everyone else went all out with amazing cooking and baking and kept the house nice, while I was stuck to my bed or the couch most of the time, debilitatingly miserable for no good reason, doing nothing of value. 
I tried to let everybody know, verbally, how much I appreciated them and their effort, because I really do, and I didn't want them to think I took it for granted.

I tried to not let my feelings and thoughts of uselessness and helplessness get to me though, as I learned in therapy that that kind of thinking rarely helps.
But today I was let known that everyone in family felt strongly that I wasn't pulling my weight. My siblings had put in all this effort to make an amazing Christmas, but felt exhausted and unappreciated, and I didn't even offer to help. They had been afraid to call me out on my inactivity or to ask anything of me, as they know that any sort of responsibility can make me feel extremely anxious and upset, because of my many deepseated insecurities.

Today, my mother finally confronted me about it. She insisted I should have been able to do more, but I honestly don't think I was able to. It turned into a nasty fight with no resolution.

I want to let them all know how incredibly shitty I feel about this. I feel like a monster. I wanna die. I wanna run away. I don't want to come back next year to be a burden again. I feel so guilty, even though I know I can't do much better yet.

But I am afraid that telling them this could end up being manipulative of me, hurt their feelings and force them to not confront me about my flaws in the future either. 
I am also afraid of making any promises I cannot keep about helping out a lot more.

I've considered leaving for my own home early, or going to a hotel, but I can't afford it.

I feel so terrible and I need to know if I really am. Sorry that I write bad.

letting my mental health issues make me a burden