 [ Symptoms ] we lost our only daughter 1 year ago i have severe upper back pain head ache memory loss and difficultly breathing [ Disease ] hi i am very sorry for your loss in my opinion you are suffering from sever depression and having panic attacks i recommend that you see a psychiatrist untill then 10 mg hydroxyzine every 12 hours will help you alot life is ahead of you i hope you get a new healthy baby soon hope i was of help good luck