 [ Symptoms ] my husband does not want sex but does not want me to masturbate we have been married 10 months what do i do  he does not pursue me often maybe once every week and a half i will not cheat on him physically but have i mentally by thinking about sex with someone else yes i have and thats just as bad i do not know what to do with this burning desire for sex this natural god given desire that should not be unfulfilled in marriage he does not want me to masturbate so i do not because i know it hurts him but he also does not want me so here i am stuck with this unquenched desire for sex what do i do [ Disease ] gonorrhea is a sexually transmitted disease so if you truly have an accurate diagnosis of gonorrhea involving your penis you did not get it from kissing a girl twice unless this kiss involved your genitals and she had pharyngeal gonorrhea non sexually transmitted gonorrhea is technically possible if you had penile contact with fresh secretions like a toilet seat or wearing someone is contaminated underwear but as you can imagine this rarely if ever happens so if you are being 100 honest and i assume that you are then i would have no idea how you got it if you had a throat culture that grew out neisseria the genus of gonorrhea then it will need more thorough laboratory testing since there can be an innocent gram negative bacterial species of neisseria that grows in the throat that is not gonorrhea