David James Savarese
Coming to My Senses
autism adulthoodvol 1 2 insightsfree accesscoming sensesdavid james savaresedavid james savareseaddress correspondence david james savarese ba email address djsavaresegmailcomsearch papers authorpublished online13 apr 2019httpsdoiorg101089aut20190001aboutsectionspdfepub permissions citationspermissionsdownload citationstrack citationsadd favorites back publication shareshare onfacebooktwitterlinked inredditemail little typed fatheri use texttovoice synthesizer communicateautism sucks see things dont see sky example become sky barn become barn even hand become hand painting seurat object appears million points color little flecks something need name hold attention completely course learned find sky barn hand making points cohere giving name regard entire process reductive little bit boringin wilderness preservation world thoreau wrote wilderness still existed one could go woods live deliberately would thoreau condos lining walden pond water polluted drink might wish autisticthat wilderness lived eye rather brain autistic winged thoughts would never turn poultry impressions would soar cluck farmyard pen would bathe forever golden flood1am romantic perhaps remember also said autism sucks life cannot speak brain wont allow words linger cave mouth like kid grounded room say things adoptive father taught say stop instancebecause attacked foster care wanted able resist verbally anything ever happened againbut took months learn general motor skills quite poor cannot tie shoes scrape teeth brush themi also perseverate medical termi use part ironically means engage repetitive behavior flapping arms touching lampposts elbows making unusual noises word finds origin notion perseveranceas possible fathers words persevere long something leave scientists render virtue pejorative thoreau perseverates wildness rejoice says horses steers broken made slaves men men wild oats still left sow become submissive members society1 resist common mold one simply must stubborn respect autism confers advantage oats enough hundred peoplethe diagnostic statistical manual mental disorders dsm2 understands perseveration sign impaired imagination progressive scientists recently proposed theory accords experience autistic people3 take perpetual blizzard detail instinctively think categories world seems much new complex nonautistic people thoreau speaks gospel according moment1 gospel matter beautiful exhausts exhausts also makes anxious cannot relax father explains generalizations seeing me4 predict come next since everything particular thus compensate turning experience villanelle using embodied morphing refrains manage anxietythe theory suggests autistic people excel local coherence nonautistic people global coherence3 unfortunately often presented eitheror phenomenon either details categories indentations bricks say bricks many autistic people learned one thing appreciate art especially poetry values local coherence example way alliteration weaves words together aurally line also values pattern detection seems depend ability move beneath abstractions organize world thereby find surprising connections indentations bricks indentations human faces connections metaphor born autistic people research shows possess superior pattern detection skills56consider following poem wrote creative writing class makes kind carnival local coherence although words make sense sense point point watch letters first second lines first couplet become scrambled first second lines subsequent couplets freed customary subordination letters preen prance threatening undermine circus meaningode iowaiowa soybeans augustwhat golden carpetsi augustgold hats cars petso boy sean augustthaws old carpi saw boys guststag hold tarpiowa arghhag noel harki love poem much amber waves grain grainy waves ambertoward end essay walking thoreau remarks part feel regard nature live sort border life confines world make occasional transient forays only1 regrets fulltime mosstrooper says would gladly follow even willothe wisp bogs sloughs unimaginable moon firefly shown causeway it1 live sort border life forays seuratian nature anything transient fact postman brings mail said labor opposite directioni struggle find cultivated gardens categorical thoughtwhen walk generally need companion exactly walk person tarry behind themsometimes 50 yards behind thoreau says walks would fain return senses1 senses timei tend use posterior sensory regions brain thinki danger neglecting modern predators automobile could notice similar way light catches windshield car skylight home iowa end crushed faint reminder person front enough keep becoming entirely lost patterned pulchritude father joked wants around least another half centurymy peers oberlin doubt witnessed spectacle picture flapping arms making ducklike noises greeting lamppost elbows sometimes sauntering sometimes jig cross campus person front repeatedly looks back like orpheus make sure usually carrying backpack heavy backpack helps locate body space autistic people experience hyper hyposensitivity senses proprioception fails use backpack way someone mobility impairment uses cane really bad days purposefully crash ground landing butt reboot system thing understand walking world found worlds world houses trees sidewalks wilderness world unlabeled impressionsalthough completely understand thoreaus wish retreat society perhaps appreciate disabled persons wish included public privilege 1970s many states still ugly laws books laws forbade significantly disabled people public square7 idea disability disturbing nondisabled people perhaps reminded lifes merciless contingencies mortality oberlin colleges first nonspeaking student autism far know eight nonspeaking autistics ever gotten college degree first live aide dorm walking campus town thus thrillingand scaryas walking nature thoreaui chose oberlin long history inclusion accepted first female college student first african american female college student previously mentioned creative writing class wrote poem honor mary jane patterson presented literacy akin parents dash freedom slaves implied involved version thoreaus walking underground alphabetif hear dogs keep going see torches woods keep going theres shouting keep going dont ever stop keep going want taste freedom keep goingharriet tubmana moves trees night b covers face c steals canoe riverbank hides barn e makes run cornered f yells freedom top lungs g sobs fellow slave caught h fights hunger sits classroom oberlin college recalling parents emeline eliza henry irving learned read thinks feet striding frantically across page called blackboard mary jane patterson perfect penmanship writes word future outside winter prejudice falls sky blankets everything8i told father look harriet encouragement every day also look mary janein essay award father depicted high school inclusion experience akin slaves experience underground railroad9 essay less hard get regular education difficult found gotten could work work sometimes disturbed narratives adventures huckleberry finn invite reader identify hero faces brutal adversity novels comic tone people forget huck abandoned child savagely beaten nearly killed father faced similar circumstances life novel really activated posttraumatic stress disorder fathers essay learn handle challenging materialto extent shows moving crowded halls grinnell high school longing safety american literature teachers roomwhat father recognize daunting public disabled person difficulty primed anxiety made reading novel like huck finn doubly challenging jim constantly worried captured bounty hunters worried dogged eyes stared whats retard would sayor rather bark ferociously bounty hunters hounds read tubman carried rifle much kill bounty hunter slave latter experience sudden failure nerve tubman knew entire railroad would put jeopardy slave returned ownerwhen young safe foster care proud african american couple exposed black church culture politics course experience visible nonspeaking student school slaves fear identified less sent back resonated man know tubmans peril far outweighed kid patterson closely answered need mentors tendency feel peoples energy ownto connect others visceral levelamplified identification themof course inclusion specialist ever pointed rifle still relate sudden bouts overwhelming fear first semester oberlin nightmarenot academically write articles like nobodys business psychologically anxiety high barking orbs classmates loud impulse superseded reason anthropology lecture ran front room adjusted pant legs professor simply like way fell across shoes another time darted office physics professor took couple books never even met manthe poor guy thought robbed steals copy beginning quantum mechanics back head sensory regions anxiety coursing like swollen river veins truly thoreaus unbroken horse anything domesticated chicken social awareness leaves impulse nth degree even college degree hand fully employed still succumb gawking strangers make way crowded airports speak bobbing heads auditoriumbut things got better oberlin grew love saw glimpse future love late first semester concert chapel remember getting pew danceto horror people around music commandeered nerves needed thrash needed flap like wet bird arms knew two black women 50s joined even taking handstheir smiles wide mississippi cairo place jim huck missed turn night went walking across campus thoreau would say much air sunshine thoughts1author disclosure statementno competing financial interests existreferences1 thoreau hd walking atl 1862 httpswwwtheatlanticcommagazinearchive186206walking304674 accessed april 30 2017 google scholar2 american psychiatric association diagnostic statistical manual mental disorders 5th edition arlington virginia american psychiatric publishing 2013 crossref google scholar3 happ f frith u weak coherence account detailfocused cognitive style autism spectrum disorders j autism dev disord 2006361525 crossref 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