I had panic attacks when I ate, thinking I was weak for having cheated on my so-called diet; I couldnt figure out why I was so unhappy  even to the point of self-harming  because, for the first time, I was finally thin enough to be considered "healthy" and my doctor at the time was gleefully cheering me on in my weight loss journey." Weight is fiercely moralized and, to many, being heavier is considered a moral failure, he said. Like any random person on the street, they were just looking at my body and making a judgment. Fat shaming is particularly harmful. Its about weight and fatphobia.
I had panic attacks when I ate, casting myself out.
( z0 attack :ARG0-of ( z1 cause :ARG1 ( z2 cast :ARG0 ( z3 i ) :ARG1 z3 :ARG2 ( z4 out ) ) ) :domain z3 :mod ( z5 panic ) :time ( z6 eat :ARG0 z3 ) )
(z0 / attack
    :ARG0-of (z1 / cause-01
                 :ARG1 (z2 / cast-01
                           :ARG0 (z3 / i)
                           :ARG1 z3
                           :ARG2 (z4 / out)))
    :domain z3
    :mod (z5 / panic)
    :time (z6 / eat-01
              :ARG0 z3))
I had panic attacks when I ate , casting myself out .
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z0 :domain z3
z0 :ARG0-of z1
z0 :time z6
z6 :ARG0 z3
z1 :ARG1 z2
z2 :ARG1 z3
z2 :ARG0 z3
z2 :ARG2 z4