Ive realised Im not going to be 100% right now and yes, I will have ups and downs, but as the weeks have gone on Im learning to manage those and keep myself that bit busier. He has come to terms with having to take a blood thinner for the rest of his life but there have been panic and anxiety attacks, including one that put him in hospital. You are starting like a baby, crawling before you can walk. Each year I gave it my all because I never knew if it was going to be my last. Now I need to find a new purpose.
im not going to be the next generation star.
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im not going to be the next generation star .
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