text: [Themes: love & dating, romance]
  
  You look into her eyes again as she does the same. You want to tell yourself that your wrong and that there's a good girl deep inside but you look away with a sad look. You have your morals and you won't lose them for a good bang.
  
  Stephanie see's your analysis of her and just looks at everyone else playing at the field. "It was nice talking again Stephanie." You say as you leave her alone and head out into the field. You don't want her seeing you heading back into the building so you go out and sit at the bleachers as you watch the guy's play soccer with groups of kids sitting around you talking with one another.
  
  Normally you would worry about everyone seeing you alone but your mind is busy at how your reacted to Stephanie. Whenever you doubt your reasoning you just think of all the things she's done over the past three years. You keep that in your mind as you rest your head on your hands and silently wait for the bell to ring.
  
  Over the next few days you expect to see Stephanie back with her usual friends but that doesn't happen. She just sits alone away from everyone else during class and sits alone during lunch when you go in there to get food after everyone is gone.
  
  She seems lost in her thoughts as you always are but she seems different. As each day passes you think about what you said and your doubts take control. You feel the need to apologize but a tiny bit of you stops you each day.
  
  It's been a week and nothing changes as she continues to sit alone with her hands covering her face. You see people walk by snickering to the person next to them as they look to her.
  
  You hypocrite, you cry about being alone and yet you caused her the emotions you run from, How dare you.
  
  Halfway during the next week as you walk home from school you see her silently walking ahead of you on her usual route when she takes a sudden turn into a alley. You see her carrying a paper bag in her hand.
  
  You tell yourself that she's probably off to go with another guy she found out of school and that they were going to do weed. But a tiny bit of you wants to follow her. You tell yourself that she wouldn't forgive you, you went to far last week and she would ignore you. You were probably right.
  
  What do you do?
  
  > leave her to her new life
  She would be happy with her new boyfriend, why interfere and make things worse. You smile to yourself as you think of how she'll be happy again once she finds a new lover, no matter how wrong it is you can't stand to see her depressed.
  
  It's not until tomorrow that you notice something is strange. Stephanie misses school and you know how she take's school seriously no matter her situation or position. But she's absent. No one minds however as she's someone who no one talks to.
  
  When you get home after school you turn on the T.V wanting to skip out on your homework to save for lunch when you see It's already on the news.
  
  "Reports of the girl's intentions for such suicidal actions are not known at the moment, but investigators are around the scene and are looking for anything that can help understand the poor girl's intentions."
  
  Your face is frozen as you look at the alleyway where you saw Stephanie enter. "That report's all over the local news stations." You hear a voice behind you say and look to see your dad. "Guessing they didn't think such a sweet looking girl would commit suicide by drug overdose in that alleyway."
  
  Your face is still frozen as the picture of Stephanie's 7th grade yearbook photo is on the screen. You don't feel tears or sadness come over you, just the realization that the girl who you wanted to follow afterschool to see if she was alright died by injecting herself with drugs.
  
  The next day roses are brought by most of the 8th grade as word of Stephanie's demise spreads all over the school. A assembly is held as the school has there own mini funeral. Kids go up to a podium settled on a stage and talk about the memories they had with Stephanie and how she was a good student.
  
  As each person goes up you notice each person ignored her or said something nasty that you overheard about her. You look up in shock as person after person goes up and tells lies about how them and Stephanie always talked together and they never noticed her going suicidal.
  
  The worst part was when the girls that singled her out when word spread that she slept with guys said they wanted to start a non-suicide campaign for the school to stop such things from happening again brought an applause from everyone in the cafeteria.
  
  When it was your turn to get up on the stage you just looked at everyone in the audience as they patiently waited for you to say your part. You wanted to let everyone know what they've done and what monsters they were.
  
  But the realization came to you that the blame was on you as much as it was on them. In fact you were the main reason she was dead. Tears dropped down your face as you started to cry in front of everyone. But you didn't care, if your punishment was to be an outcast for the rest of your life then so be it.
  
  I'm sorry Stephanie,I'm so sorry
  
  Hypocrite ending