text: [Themes: love & dating, romance]
  
  You felt your stomach rumble as you started to head to the cafeteria. Over the past months when you started to hide in the bathroom stalls you hadn't eaten lunch at all always skipping it. You started to get used to it not feeling as hungry as you did the last day. But you tell yourself that you're going into a bad habit and you had to eat once in a while before you didn't eat at all.
  
  As you enter the cafeteria, you see most of the tables are empty as everyone has already gone outside to to do their own thing, but some of the tables are still filled with groups of girls talking to each other.
  
  You felt uneasy whenever you came to the cafeteria as you always thought they were staring and whispering about you. You just bought you lunch and had your back face them as you started to dig into the Chinese food special the school had today.
  
  You stopped coming to the cafeteria after the first few days of school when you saw no where else to sit. When you went over to where a table was full you looked around panicked that there was no more room when someone saw that you were troubled and told everyone at the table to scoot down for you. You can remember all the pitied faces that you saw around the cafeteria as everyone gave you room. That was enough reason for you never to go back to the cafeteria.
  
  As you silently ate the food in front of you a shadow came over you. "You don't mind if I sit here Web do you, I can't stand those girls over there and i don't want to be bored sitting alone."
  
  You look up to see Stephanie, it was the girl that everyone always talks about, about the stuff she did in the beginning of the year with the other guys.
  
  The stories first spread from the guys she had done it with, as soon as the girls heard it though most of them wanted little to do with her as she was branded now. The only people she hangs out with are the guys who want to get into her pants because they heard she was easy.
  
  You nod as you slurp the noodles in your bin wanting to leave and get away from this awkward moment. "Hey, are you ok?" She asks a little concerned as you notice yourself trying to eat at a fast pace.
  
  "Yeah, im fine, just want to get outside that's all." You smile as you swallow your food. "Really, I don't see you outside that often." she says, tilting her head in wonder. You ignore her and continue to eat.
  
  "I see you go to the bathroom after 4th period and don't see you till 6th when lunch is over, why are you alone in here?" She continues.
  
  She's on to you stupid, she knows what you are.
  
  You finish your Chinese food and start getting up to throw your trash away when you hear her behind you. "Please stay until im done." You hear from Stephanie.
  
  You know she wants to question you further, why does she pester you so? You want to leave, but then again a little bit of you wants to stay and talk to someone other than in class when people don't have much of a choice. What should you do?
  
  > Leave
  You know she'll tell everyone you're a loser when she find out dumbass, how stupid are you.
  
  You shake your thoughts from your head and leave not looking back to see the disappointed face on Stephanie. You think you hear her calling out your name once again as you leave, but your head is clogged with to much emotion to even comprehend any voices that are talking.
  
  Why did she have to say that to you, you don't even want to think about what that question means to you. You continue walking without thinking of where to go Who else sees you going into the bathroom and never coming out. Does everyone else know and leaves you alone like Stephanie because you have already been branded.
  
  They know what you are, why are you trying to hide from the facts, you're a loser with no friends around.
  
  You feel yourself enter the school building as you let your feet guide you to your destination. The place you always automatically go whenever you feel numb.
  
  "Why are you walking around the halls Web, shouldn't you be outside with your friends you say you have."
  
  You look up to see your old friend Henry with his new pot-smoking skateboarder clique. You don't want to deal with their shit at the moment. You just need to get to your safe haven. As you start to walk past them Henry gets in front you.
  
  "What's the matter Web, did we make you cry, you always did cry back in elementary, its ok your friends will cheer you up, oh that's right their all gone."
  
  Are you going to take that like you always do from him and his weed junkies? Show some self respect and teach his skinny ass a lesson.
  
  You battle in your mind on what to do as the world around you gets slower and slower. Henry has always been pushing you around and embarrassing you in front front of everyone. Just because he has a hot girl friend that everyone chased last year. So fucking what.
  
  You don't, no you won't take this shit from him anymore.
  
  > stand your ground
  You don't even think twice about what you're going to do. Your left fist hits him in the nose while your other one goes to his stomach. Henry clutches his bleeding nose as he gets on his knees looking at the ground. That's when you feel your body pushed against the wall as you realize that Henry's friends were with him the whole time.
  
  You take a charge at a rather tall one and knock his head against the wall. You use both your hands and keep slamming his head while he sends weak punches at your cheeks.
  
  Another one of his friends grabs you by the shoulders and throws you to the ground, sending you sliding a couple of feet from him. You quickly get up, seeing there's still two other guys with bewildered looks on their faces with the girls just watching, mouths gaping open.
  
  You just run at them, something in you broke and there was no going back for you. As you charge and get your head in a ramming position aimed for one of the guy's stomach, he knees your face as you get close sending you to the floor.
  
  You could feel the warmth of the blood coming out of your nose as you then go for his knees bringing him down. His other friend however pushed you back to the floor and got on top of you. He grabbed both of your hands as you started trying to head butt him. "Go get Mr. Patterson!" He told his friend as he had a worried look in his eyes.
  
  It didn't take long for Mr. Patterson along with some other teachers to get to us and get ahold of the situation. You were grabbed by two teachers and quickly brought up. You could see one of the kids clutching his head as it bled where you smashed it against the wall.
  
  In your sane state you would have sympathized with him and tried to apologize, but you just started trying to break out of the teachers grasp. "Come on you son of a bitch, I'm not done with you!" You yelled as the teachers pulled you towards the office while some stayed behind on their phones possibly calling 911.
  
  You don't remember much after that. Just the empty feeling you had sitting down in the office with the school security guard standing next to you in case you tried something else. The paramedics came along with some police officers. Had the fight been a smaller scale you probably would have just been suspended.
  
  But due to the severity of injuries you had caused you were to be taken into the police station for questioning where you would meet your parents and decide the punishment for your actions. While you were sitting in the cold room at the police station with you head down and the Police officers and your parents on the other side questioning your actions you just blocked them out. Your mind was buzzing like a a broken T.V and it wouldn't seem to change.
  
  You were charged with assault and sentenced to a year in prison after you failed to talk, but you couldn't help it as you were now mute. The voices in your head had taken control and you followed them whenever you had choices to make. You lost all self control as that has led you to where you are now. The last words that left your mouth at the police station were the same ones that were repeating in your head.
  
  It's over Web, What have you done?
  
  Fists before mentality ending