When I'm in large crowds I get angry and I just can't deal with people. I don't really like other people (I prefer animals) they make me nervous and scared. I lay awake at night thinking and having conversations in my head and i almost always end up making myself feel terrible and crying, I have more conversions in my head than I do with actual people. I don't know what's wrong with me and why I feel this way. What should I do?
I feel really uncomfortable around other people
First of all, having these thoughts and feelings does not mean there is something wrong with you. It's very normal to worry about social relationships and how others see us because we need other people in our lives to survive and thrive.It sounds like you may have some social anxiety, which is very workable and treatable. Rumination is a common way the brain attempts to deal with the worry that stems from social anxiety, though not effectively. One way we ruminate is to try to excessively plan out what we will say and how we will act in social situations that may never even occur, which ultimately ends in a lot of unneeded psychological pain and stress.One way to cope with those thoughts is to write about the worries you have. When we write, it forces us to slow down the thought process, which can allow for more clarity and other information to come through about our experiences. Another benefit for this is to externalize the thoughts and feelings you are having; this can really help to organize your thoughts and feelings as well as put them outside of the mind.Seeing a counselor may be helpful as well. They can help sort through your anxieties and the underlying reasons why they may exist. They can also help with individualized coping strategies and tasks that will fit for your personal needs.