My dad beat and mentally abused me so badly that I can't function properly. Letting go of the past is important to moving on and getting better, but Im terrified to get better because I don't even know who I am without the trauma. I've never gotten to be myself. I don't even know who I am.
How do I let go of the abuse my dad showed me?
I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling. Getting to know yourself after a trauma (especially at the hands of a caregiver) and learning to trust yourself can feel terrifying. I would encourage you to seek out a trauma therapist who can work with you slowly and at your pace. You are not your trauma. You are good and you are whole. Please seek out the support of a therapist who sees that in you.