I start to think of an issue that doesn't even matter or something bad that happened years ago. Then, I cry, pull at my hair, plug my ears, hit myself, and throw things. In loud public places, I get on edge and start being sarcastic and moody. I have an awful fear of people leaving me (which normally ends up happening) and I feel like I'm too clingy.
I've been having breakdowns for no reason at all
There is a reason you are having breakdowns.I can't agree that they happen for"no reason at all". Finding out the reason is going to be your biggest challenge because that may require you to dig deep into your past, uncover hurtful experiences, orrecognize something that would be extremely pain. However, if you don't find professional help to carefully guide you through whatever you mayconfront,the symptoms mentioned will continue and may even get worse. There is a light at the end of the road but you needsome help to find the right road to get on so you can see it.