"i was in a hell of a state, with thoughts of suicide constantly. i had never experienced feelings like this before. with help from a crisis center and my g.p, i was put on mirtazapine, increasing the dose gradually to 45mg. it has helped me immensely. i am back to my old self. i have put on a couple of stones and i do feel lethargic sometimes, but all in all a small price to pay to get your life back."