"in 2012, i was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder from trauma from 9-11-01 events in new york city. i had lived with ptsd for over 10 years unknowingly. two different doctors put me on anti-depressants because i did not sleep well. all 3 (zoloft, amitriptyline, and trazodone) worsened my mood. i did not have clinical depression; i.e., did not have trouble getting out of bed. a third doctor prescribed gabapentin. i am less reactive, feel more social, and generally more happy. also, if i wait to take a dose, i can feel the onset of anxiety, unlike in the last 12 years, which is helpful for practicing sensory emotional regulation. with the ability to feel when anxiety sets, i can practice the technique. i hope to be off medication soon."