"when i was about 15, i started getting these feelings of what i can only explain as &quot;an impending doom.&quot; i wasn&#039;t sad, but whenever i tried to do something that i thought was fun, my whole brain started to freak out and all i wanted to do was shut down. there was nothing i could do about it.

apparently, this sort of thing happened to most of the people in my family and on my mothers side. so, i talked to my doctor and he said it sounded like a chemical imbalance, seeing as i wasn&#039;t sad about anything and i was healthy, so he asked me to try amitriptyline. once i started it, all of my symptoms basically vanished and after 2 years i&#039;ve fully adjusted to it&#039;s affects on my body."