"doctors would often laugh when they heard which medication i was taking for adhd: cylert, i was on a &quot;kid dosage&quot;: 37.5 mg, 1 in the morning. i was diagnosed with attention deficit as a young adult. i&#039;d struggled my whole life with social anxiety, depression, impulsiveness, inability to remain in stable relationships. maintained a good gpa through my junior year in university and couldn&#039;t tolerate one more year. i&#039;d always been creative and quickly learned what interested me. i was shocked when cylert was blackboxed. my liver function was fine and i had a normal sex drive. after decades of demanding high-tech jobs, one day cylert just quit working. ritalin..finally adderall. both killed my sex drive. but i could focus! switching to dexedrine er."