"with the death of my mom in june 2009 i immediately started having nausea and vomiting, couldn&#039;t eat, couldn&#039;t concentrate. i thought i was dying myself.  every time i tried to go to sleep i could feel my heart beating furiously through my chest.  i wanted to die myself. my doctor finally prescribed xanax after a horrible episode of just trying to drive home from his office. i had to stop about 20 times because i was crying so bad. he said i was suffering from ptsd. without xanax i do not think i would have been able to handle all the legal paperwork that i had to do, plus work. now in 2010 we had to close our business and have lost my job. the whole episode has started up again. i hope the increased dose will help and i can continue my life."