"hello! i have not been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but i am 18 and have felt overly sensitive and quick to extreme emotions all my life. i have a trauma history, and have been prescribed zoloft, prozac, and trazadone to cope with my rape trauma, ptsd, etc.. while these meds have helped a bit, my mood swings and my emotional scale still really effects my relationships and lifestyle. i&#039;ve been feeling really hopeless and self hating lately because of the way i am and have always been. i am being prescribed lamotrigine by my psychiatrist and doctor. i am a little scared at how it will effect me. i hate feeling numb and non-present. i want emotions i just want to control them and not for them to control me. i want to feel whole someday."