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36, suffered since childhood. anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. believing i have heart problems, heart pounding that my mind is creating, hatred, anger, anger, anger, and lack of ever really just feeling good. and by good, i don&#039;t mean parties and hooking up two people to date. i mean just taking in life and acknowledging nature for those very brief beautiful moments i only have vague memories of doing.



this drug helped me, and i wish i could stay on it, but i can&#039;t. it built tolerance, affected my memory, and started degrading my cognitive functions. outside of that, the search was finally over when i got on it, but now it&#039;s back to hell because i can&#039;t stay. everyone is different, don&#039;t increase the dose."