"it&#039;s been a rough 29 years discovering, living with and losing things because of bipolar, adhd,and ocd!  tried literally every medicine under the sun, (ours and prob a couple other solar systems too.). so many my doc looked me in my eye and told me that i might &quot;just have to learn how to live&quot; with my head, mind, thoughts, and lack of actions, or intestinal fortitude as your father calls it, he&#039;s air force retired after 22 yrs. suicidal thoughts all the time.  given all my possessions away.  stood on the bridge, the roof, and had the gun in my hand, but i always held on, cause i knew their was something like nuvigil out there somewhere, i just had to hang on long enough.  if not for nuvigil i wouldn&#039;t have been able to focus long enough to write this!"