"at first, when i began taking prozac, i had a lost more &quot;episodes&quot;. i just cried in my bedroom for hours; i can&#039;t even describe the emotions, if i could even call them that, going through me. it was like a dark part of me took over, and it wanted nothing but an end; i don&#039;t even to what. everything was way worse; multiple suicidal thoughts per a single day were not uncommon. gradually, i started feeling better; there was no sudden happiness or peace, but i felt normal. now, i just don&#039;t know what&#039;s going on with me. stress and everything is piling up on me, once again. eating is a chore. i feel like i&#039;m on the brink of falling apart, on the thin line between sanity&amp;insanity. i don&#039;t want life or death. i want to not exist. i&#039;m just confused"