"i feel like this medication has saved my life.  at the beginning of 2010, i had a mental breakdown.  i was suffering from crying spells for no apparent reason and just did not want to live.  i felt like i was watching someone go through the motions of my life and my true self was suffering and hurting.  i made an emercency appointment with my psychiatrist.  he started me at 50mg on day one, 100mg on day two, 150mg day three, 200mg day four and 300mg as maintenance.  i used to have passive suicidal thoughts all the time and can now say that i don&#039;t.  i&#039;ve suffered from this condition for 12 years (depersonalization disorder).  i&#039;ve not known what it is like to not have depression until now.  i feel like i owe my life to seroquel xr."