"i&#039;ve gone through deepshit, to the wall depression - had ect et al while on meds. went off and have noooo regrets b/c i finally started having feelings again (after 25 years on meds).... but i went through deep retaliation at work for speaking out against a bully, and the ptsd from that became deeply real only after two lawsuits were settled and every state/federal complaint was successfully settled. i won... but the ptsd won even more. and ya think you can find a shrink who looks at alternatives to antidepressants? ha! my only salvation came in the form of my doctor, an internist, who suggested i go to er b/c of thyroid stuff.  while 5 days on a med/surg unit was not free from shit... i got connected with a shrink who prescribed this."