"i am 40. i was diagnosed bipolar 15 years ago. my mania manifests itself as aggression/rage. my rage has been a problem since i was young. my violent outbursts consisted of me punching myself, bashing my head against walls and other horrifically embarrassing and dangerous actions. i was extremely verbally abusive to anyone unfortunate enough to be near me during my rages. i have been on many meds throughout my life. every benzo. mellaril. thorazine. every ssri. depakote. lithium. nothing curbed my rage. in fact - ssri meds intensified my rage. 10 years ago, my psychiatrist put me on 20mg of abilify. within 4 days - i felt like i could finally breathe. my rage literally disappeared. but i don&#039;t feel &quot;zombie-ish&quot; like with other meds."