С краской в лице начал вспоминать, как много раз почти высказывал ей любовь мою, а так как она меня не останавливала и не предупредила, то, стало быть, вывел я, надо мною смеялась.
With flushed face I began recalling how often I had been on the point of declaring my love to her, and as she had not attempted to stop me or to warn me, she must, I concluded, have been laughing at me all the time.