Odell
"Your core doesn't heal you easily when you're out of combat, or am I confusing hearts and cores again. I'm sorry if I am it's just that I'm used to cores so hearts are pretty new to me even though I technically have one."
Jose
All I know is, I wasn't supposed to be discharged for another two weeks.
But then again, I was also not supposed to leave my hospital room at all for the past few months yet I did. 
So uh, if the Queen "Made" You, do you got a decent relationship with her of some sort or are you no longer in contact whatsoever?
**He drinks a bit of coffee**
Odell
"Queen? Oh you mean the scientist. We call her that or our creator as we cannot say her name, but yes I do speak to her. A lot actually as she stays back to make cores, and can't go to the outside world."
Jose
Uha. 

I thought you worked for the actual Queen here or something considering your occupation. 
**He eats and drinks some more**
You ever kill someone from your family? Or someone who at some point was close to you? 
**He pauses for a moment**
You ever kill anyone in the first place? Considering your philosophy on weaponry.
Odell
"Killed thousands of my brethren in the arena, that's how I became blind. I've killed even more than thousands but have lost count, didn't I say that before. I'm cold and heartless as people say it, I don't even know what love is."
Jose
**He raises an eyebrow**
Innocents or criminals? 
Kids or Adults?
Odell
"All of the above, we were just born to fight and I was to only one to survive the first trial of the program."
Jose
**He didn't like the idea that he killed innocents, specifically children**

**He quietly sips from his coffee**
Odell
"In the arena, we fight as soon as we're born and can walk which takes a day. It doesn't matter if you can run or defend or swing a sword, unless you're useful you get culled by the others."
Jose
**He seems a bit skeptical**
Ok but did you kill children of common villagers?
Odell
"Oh your talking about killing people out here, I've only killed men out here. So if I'm being honest I'm not sure what you could mean by killing children of common villagers."
Jose
You know, the children of innocent people who live in villages?
Odell
"Innocent people I was told everyone sinned and should be killed without remorse even newborns, although I've seen that people are still so kind around these parts."
Jose
How can a baby sin? 
And of course everyone in general sins, thats why forgiveness is a thing, just because someone stole bread doesn't mean you kill them. If they're poor, let them have it, if they're a rich noble, then more drastic measures can be taken, like cutting their hand off.
Odell
"I can see what you mean, but what is forgiveness. Forget the ness what does for... Give mean. I've never heard that word before or seen it when I was reading."
Willie
|| its worse bc the one thing qaysar cant forgive is killing babies and kids
Jose
Forgiveness exists because if we decided anyone who sins deserves death, no one would be alive.

You certainly would be one of the first to be killed if you've been killing babies.
Odell
He would sit there, tears dropping down his nonexistent eyes. "Hmmm, maybe she did teach us wrong. But there's no going back, back where I lived. She made us kill from birth, as soon as we could walk we could swing a sword. Almost every day I fought for some slop, blood, and water. I was the best among everyone as my core and me had synergy, sadly I got cocky and I have this scar this gash across my eyes to complement that. The person had an aura that didn't allow me to heal, my skin grew over my eyes and only tears can escape those flaps. I always thought that sin was in everyone like she said our creator said since that's all we knew. It was the only rationality we had to keep killing, and so I did for 125 years I only just left a month back. I was atleast allowed to leave, I was the only one that survived that program. Her prized possession, tied to her for all eternity." He would have a sad look now, a remorseful one following after.
Jose
She probably did. 
**He seems to shrug off his emotions and tears, instead reaching for a vial of pills in his pockets, taking 6 in one go**
You can't punish everyone the moment they sin, second, third, fourth, and even fifth chances exist, you know.
Odell
"Are you supposed to be taking that many pills, and are they actually for your health. If your wondering I heard the shaking and also sensed said pills. I can't see what they are but that many pills in one go can cause one scary overdose."
Jose
**He has an expression of annoyance**
I know what I'm doing.
**He grabs the vial once more and shakes it, making a noise**
It was prescribed to me.
Odell
"Well if you say so, I'm just saying from a personal standpoint downing that many pills means it's a painkiller isn't it." Hes had tons of painkillers, all being relatively low in dose so he can take an entire bottle without worry so he's wondered if he perhaps does the same.
Jose
Yes. They are painkillers, almost a year ago I got tortured for 3 weeks by my cousin, got hospitalized for like 6 months after it was all over. 
My entire body has scars all over it, **He chuckles slightly,** More than before.

Don't worry, I do not plan on overdosing. I know my max dosage.
Odell
"Wanna see something gruesome." He would slip off his shoot as he got up and turned around showing the deepest gashes you could ever see probably in your life. The people who saw this were disgusted and left the store rather fast, he would put his shirt back on and sit back down. "A warrior in the arena left gashes deep into my skin there was no way to heal them either so now there always there and always painful."
Jose
**He seemed unbothered by the scars**
**He raises his left hand and points at the middle his palm**
I've had a dagger go through this hand at least 5 times.
**He takes his shirt off for a moment, his entire chest was full of scars from various stabs by different swords, and his back was full of scars from slashes from leather belts**

**Specifically however, the area between his left arm and where his heart would be was quiet different than the other areas,**
I got stabbed with a sword there, then burnt as the sword was still in place, then the sword was taken out and I got burnt there again, that time with the open wound. 
**He puts his shirt back on**
Other than that, I got some scars on my legs, with the biggest one being on my right thigh muscle, it's essentially a scar where it seems imploded on itself.
Odell
"You've been through a lot, sadly I don't got scars to show it but I've essentially been whipped and slashed on my chest for as long as I could think of, even then there were many more places. I would have limbs cut off entirely or my organs sometimes falling out, honestly the list goes on I'm more surprised I survived like that."
Jose
**He nods in respect**
Everyone has their own story of sufferring, maybe its God's way of removing our sins. 
**He finishes his coffee**
Where can I find you, in case I wanna hire you for something?
Odell
"Say my name or find me to the side of the castle walls, or infront of the gates either one really."
Jose
**He nods**
I must be on my way now, there's many things I need to go experience again since I've been in the hospital for 6 months.