Emily's Story (personal anecdote)
Hi, my penname is Emily Wannabe, and I am a crossdressing

straight male who fantasizes about castration. This is my story.

I started crossdressing about age 10 when I was playing with my little sister,

and she wanted to play store. She set up a whole bunch of toys and such

around her room. One of the items was a pair of my Mom's pumps. One thing lead
to another,

and I found myself wearing the pumps. I was hooked. I have dressed in secret
for

24 years.

About five years ago, I tried a new game. I was dresses to the nines,

and thought, what if someone caught me, and told me they were going to

castrate me? I then took a guitar string, wrapped it around my balls,

and ran it up through my outfit until it came out the neck of my dress.

I then stood on a stool and tied the other end to the shower rod. I then

leaned back until I had tension on the wire, and fantasized about being put

in this position by my girlfriend who then told me to jump, or be pushed.

Funny thing happened...I slipped...It's not that easy to stand on a stool in

four inch heels. I hung there for about a minute, then the string broke.

That scared the living daylights out of me, because I like fantasizing, but

hadn't really seriously considered finishing the job. This little game had

drawn blood, and alerted me to the dangers of my little game.

I have played this game a number of times since, but avoid the 4 inch heels

so I can keep my traction. I have also played with rubber bands and an
elastrator.

I only leave the bands on for about 20 minutes, so I think I'm still playing
it safe.

Well...That's it in a nutshell.

Comments? Write me

emily_wannabe@hotmail.com