Why I Had My Nuts Cut Off
TG, TESTICLES, MINOR
Why I had my nuts cut off
` I can't tell you how relieved becoming a Eunuch been for me. I wanted to get
away from my fantasies of being dominated and having people hurt me for sexual
gratification. My desire to have people hurt me for sexual gratification
really depressed me. I can't tell you how many nights I layed in bed thinking
I should just blow my brains out. If you are someone out there who takes
gratification from people performing degrading acts of pain and humiliation on
you then you have severe mental problems. I know it cost me much of my
emotional sanity for many years. `

Also, I'm not counting light play domination between people who love each
other as sadistic domination, that's just play. I needed domination because
the other fetish that aroused me was little youn adolescent and prepubescent
girls. I never acted on these impulses. But for some sick reason little girls
made my dick real hard. I masturbated alot to the mental images of these young
schoolgirls sucking my dick and stroking my cock. I never acted on these
impulses. But because I fantasized about it to such a high degree when I did
seek out sexual interaction with a real partner I wanted them to punish me for
the awful thoughts that go through my head.

That's why I went scheduled an appointment with the good doctor in
Philadelphia and had my nuts cut off surgically. I still masturbate, but my
dick never really becomes hard. I couldn't penetrae anyone if I wanted to.
Unfortunately I still fantasize about little girls while I jack off, but my
depression is greatly reduced since I know I can never act on the impulse.

Since being castrated I have even started cross dressing and taking it up the
ass like a queer. I find that receiving anal sex greatly increases my
occasional desire to jack off. It's almost like sucking dick and taking it up
the ass is a safe alternative to my desires. I even dress as a schoolgirl
maybe fulfilling another sick bastards perverted desires.

I greatly suggest this as a lifestyle for other perverts like me who get
turned on by looking at little girls or boys that should never be desired by
an adult.  

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