human
Subaru:  "You…you just can’t give up, no matter how many times you die. That’s all it is!! !" Subaru standing across from him had slammed into impossible walls over and over, just like him. And when it happened, he died over and over and over again, changing the situation, the way the encounters happened, the way things connected, until he was able to make it through—that was all. "The only reason you never give up is because you love everyone! You piece of shit! Why aren’t you a superman?! Why are you still just a stupid kid? !" He took as long as he had to, even if it meant enduring unspeakable agony. That was all. Natsuki Subaru was just a regular person. He didn’t have any extra tricks up his sleeve beyond what the current Subaru had. And he was terrible at playing the cards he did have. On top of it all, he had terrible, terrible luck.
gpt
Subaru:  "If there was at least something…" He murmured weakly, having lost all steam. He clenched his fist, wishing for something even though he knew it was impossible. "…Why did you disappear?"
human
Subaru:  "Huh?"
gpt
Subaru:  "Why were you gone? Do you know how much I’ve suffered because you up and vanished…?" The unsolvable question that had started all of this. Why had the original Natsuki Subaru disappeared? Why was the current Natsuki Subaru born? What happened to the original Natsuki Subaru when his memories vanished like smoke? "Why did you disappear…?"
human
Subaru:  "…That was me screwing up. I went into Taygeta to search for a solution to Reid. And luckily, I managed to find his book, but…"
gpt
Subaru:  "…Reid’s book was empty when you read it."
human
Subaru:  "I bumped into Gluttony there. The rest you already know." Subaru scratched his head as he recalled his embarrassing mistake. Running into Louis in the corridors of time, the original Natsuki Subaru had his memories stolen. And forgetting all his adventurers in this new world up to that point, the current Natsuki Subaru, who couldn’t understand his own feelings, let alone those of the people around him, was born.
gpt
Subaru:  "Don’t beat yourself up too hard…is what I’d like to say, but I know that won’t help you feel much better. Since you are me."
human
Subaru:  "…Natsuki Subaru is a weak nobody and an unsalvageable dumbass."
gpt
Subaru:  "Got that right."
human
Subaru:  "But…" The other Subaru started to laugh as he agreed, but that last word made him raise his eyebrows. Subaru gave his other self a good long look before he finally finished his thought.
gpt
Subaru:  "—You’re an amazing guy, Natsuki Subaru." That was how he honestly felt after witnessing more than twenty cycles of returning by death.
human
Subaru:  As he stared at the person standing right in front of him, his eyes slowly narrowed. He was tired of looking at that familiar face because it was his own ugly face staring back at him. It was him, but it wasn’t him. It was him, even if it didn’t feel like him.