《资治通鉴·宋纪·宋纪九》
皇上气得不得了，尽管我跪下叩头乞求他开恩，都不能使他平息愤怒，现在这样，我活着还有什么用呢？
上怒甚，我叩头乞恩不能解，今何用生为！
The emperor was furious. Despite me kneeling and kowtowing to beg for his forgiveness, it didn’t stop his anger, so what’s the purpose of me living now? 