most helpful answer based on your posting depression would be high on my list. depression can certainly be managed by a variety of ways but you will need to take the first and most important step. see your medical provider so you can be properly evaluated and treated. it would not be possible to do these things blindly over the internet so it is really up to you to do this. if your boyfriend is sensitive he will understand until you have time and help to sort out your feelings.
i feel sad and just like i don't want to do anything. i want to do nothing and talk to nobody and just lay down and cry. i am supposed to go out with my boyfriend today and i feel obligated to because he's my boyfriend and it's valentine's day and i really don't want to. i don't know how to tell him because he's so sensitive and i actually do wanna go out but i also want to do nothing and i really think i'm asexual but i want love and happiness and kids but then i don't want it at the same time. i don't know what's wrong with me.