i'm sorry you've been going through this and want to tell you you've suffered long enough. it's time to get you some help. the behavior you're describing can be caused by a few different things. i'd suggest you begin by seeing your primary health care provider to rule out any sort of neurological problem. if you get a clean bill of health then i'd suggest you see a counselor or psychotherapist. many people cope with stress by hitting or cutting themselves so please do not feel embarrassed to seek help for this problem. sometimes the issue can be solved with just a few visits to a therapist. other times it may take a bit longer. you don't deserve the abuse you're experiencing. you deserve relief from this behavior. i urge you to seek attention for this. be well!
why do i hit myself in the head when angry (usually until i see stars or ears ring) and how can i stop? . when i get very angry (either with myself things around me people around me just about anything in general) i will hit myself in the sides of the head and will keep hitting myself until i see stars or my ears start ringing at that point i usually feel a pretty good release and will stop hitting myself but usually am still mad at myself for doing such. obviously i know this is going to do massive damage to myself in the long run i've been doing this at least 20 years. as long as i remember