i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder with major highs (euphoria) appx 9 years ago that co-occured with adult adhd aggressive personality and anger issues. i was medicated with lamicta serquel and adderall. needless to say i was on a roller coaster and after a while no longer desired medical help. over the last 4 years i've slipped off into a whirl wind of mental problems. i have now encountered high blood pressure tmj panic attacks multiple fractures in my lower limbs (without known cause) due to avascular necrosis which is medical terms for death of bone i also over the last 2 1/2 years had constant headaches with up to as many as 12 migraines (go to the er type) a month i do not sleep well and grind my teeth in return broken them i have unexplained pains and aches throughout most of my body on a daily bases some that go as quickly as they came my outburst are 10x worse now than ever. mostly in the evening time when my children and husband get home my reproductive system after stopping treatment failed and unfortunately after 3 cyst were removed and my sons premature birth i was basically pushed into having a partial hystercotomy i have sinus infections around every 6-8 weeks with 3 known cyst in my left sinus cavities. i just recently (last week) went back to my dr a new one and briefly told her what my issues were and how i havent been treated in several years. she has started me on a low dose of adderall again and recommended i see a specialist to combine biopolar treatment. she doesnt know my deepest struggles or demons and i've learned to mask my problems around strangers if possible so answering her questionnaire was simple as not being quite honest due to my own fears of being judged. bipolar affected my grandmother my aunt one of my cousins. i'd say my mother is borderline and my younger brother is. i unfortunately see it in my daughter who is only 5 and my oldest son who is nearly 10 is hard to tell cause he is adhd but i believe it is masking bipolar because he is very depressed alot but also has been through some tough stuff with me and other problems. i have found that i turn to other releases due to pain management of other physical issues though i feel okay for an hour or so any pain meds prescribed to me tend to accelerate my mood swings and i've found them to be addicting mentally though i never intended to use them for other than my multiple breaks. my adderall definitely intensifies panic mainly in the evening. but its ultimately a huge help for the morning due to shuffling kids and my husband and i own our own company. i cant work with the public due to this nor be in social situations. my marriage has been a disaster for atleast 2 1/2 years and it is me but now my husband has became moody as well and i do whole heartedly believe it started due to my mental problems. i do not at the moment take anything other than my adderall and pain meds for my fractures and honestly decided today i dont really think adderall is the best thing unless im treated with something else for the moods. i still have to make an appt with a specialized dr and treatment will take quite sometime because of my fear of drs due to years back when all this started they put me on so so so many different meds i felt like a lab rat and nothing seemed to truly work and i dont really honestly open up to a dr. i will never tell them about my addictions nor will i ever tell them my increased thoughts of suicide. many things can co-exist with bipolar. mimic it. mask it. and everyone is different. it is a horrible disease unfortunately and is something when you hit rock bottom if you have the courage and will to get help you will. if you are like me you'll ruin everything you have because of fear. and honestly this is the first time i've truly opened up about certain things i feel or that i have associated with my bipolar. some may see these things or believe i experience these things but i do not truly discuss them with anyone not my mother. my husband (most i do) or my dr.
what illnesses often co-exist with bipolar disorder?