i am so sorry to hear about your childhood molestation so i can understand that oral sex with your husband could surface some of those past demons. having a consentual caring sexual relationship with your husband is not the same. i trust that your husband will be respectful and understanding about your reluctance. i can assure you that semen is harmless in your mouth but your husband does not have to ejaculate. he can control it. you will not get any disease-causing germs from this practice in a monogamous relationship with your husband. consentual oral sex is safe and can be pleasurable for both of you. this would be a new sexual experience for you so if you are emotionally ready take "little steps" at first.
my husband wants me to have oral sex will i get sick if he comes in my mouth. i was physically and sexually abused as a child. my husband knows about this. he has asked if i would preform oral sex for him will i get sick if he comes in my mouth? are there germs that can also make me sick. when i was forced to do this as a child and my dad crammed his dick in my mouth and came i threw up and began to chock. i was also afraid that i would get pg.