Hidden words lie behind faux meaning words lost in meaning fading afar invisible to reason my last words act freelytime is darkness that feeds an addiction to be loved and cared beyond my last request beyond this long journey it is the hand that feeds my strength to carry on it is the hand that has slain the star of deatheveryday is a eulogy of race asking god to free our lost souls with the wisdom to know better with the heart to preach loveeveryday is a eulogy on race every hour we face fear as we pray and cope another pale day words have become a cold mystery words lost hide behind meaningdreams hide behind a cloud of menagerie that drift and disappear in fear every word lived is not what it seems every word is borrowed time words are ideas alive as you feel them finding hiding secrets behind the liesinvisible to reason my last words hold my fate having lost all meaning time is the dark that feeds behind your last request that feeds the slain star of deathmy relationship with god is full of hope, wisdom and experience. With god in my life, I would be unstable. Love is an addiction one cannot resist. The myth of true happiness begins with accepting god in your life. Without faith, there is no hope. One finds god once she identifies with who she is. She will relate to faith by releasing all the hate inside so her soul can act freely. I have found that in order to cure your inner being, you must find the supplement to heal the pain that if not cured can be used to break you. I have been sick for some time. Until I found trust in god, I began to heal. God listens. God answers your prayers. Everything else in the world is circumstance, but willing, god will find the way. I was lost and now I am found. I was blind and now I see. I see because I solved the root of my problem when I realized that I am the blame for my faults, in thoughts and in words. I am a victim of being depressed and suicidal. For many years I was asleep and I failed to understand what was wrong. In order to find eternal happiness, begins with me. I was a victim of putting my goals in life above god. It was then my agenda altered. I became dysfunctional. I feared my life was ruined and I lost all reason to live. The small things in life were big to me now. The life I had was not worth the misery. I became stressed and I could not concentrate until I prayed for god to help and it is when I prayed what mattered most meant the world to me. I could hear the voices talking, but they did not disturb my thoughts from loving god. Prayer overcame my worries. Prayer sustained my fears. I learned to balance my life with faith and prayer. It is then I found myself, because, I learned to accept me for who I am. I was too quiet, I was too sensitive, I was too shy, I was not pretty, I was never smart as everyone else and it became an addiction to please everyone, because, I felt insecure. I became a victim of my self-thought and the root of my problem began with self-hate. I changed when I found god. God made me feel beautiful because I believed that I am someone, established by faith and my choices can make a difference in everyone's life not just my own and if you are in disbelief, say to yourself, I am somebody until you find yourself. 