Detachment
"i hate being a burden."
i woke up really sad today, looking out the window, not moving until rain started falling. i couldn't bring myself to do anything or watch anything, and this film felt somewhat appropriate to sort of focus my eyesight on something slow and depressing.
and instead of trying to understand it and form a singular debate in my own mind on how this film felt somewhat pandering or problematic, i just let it wash over me, and what was left after that was pure depression on screen, and i felt connected with all of it, in its uncomfortable and isolated scenes and in whatever this movie wanted to say, i felt everything... and that's all that matters after having a terrible day.
i'll leave the opinions of this divisive movie to other people who where on a better mental state and knew some parts of it might've been fucked up, but i still think this movie felt real and honest, and it matters, it matters a whole fucking lot.
"you may see me, but i'm hollow." 823