SUBREDDIT: r/relationships
TITLE: I [30F] can't get over my ex [29M], and it's making me physically sick
POST: I feel silly even writing this - I dated my ex nearly two years ago for a while before I moved away. We kept in contact, sexted and met up again last year. It didn't turn into anything more as we were both living in different places, and I was dealing with taking care of my sick mother. He entered into a relationship with someone else following that, which ended in January. Since then, he has again has been in contact with me, texting often, asking if I had moved back in town, and wanting to meet up again when I'm coming to town in a few weeks. We've been really friendly with each other. The thing is, I know he is hooking up with other girls right now, and it makes me really sad. 

I don't want to meet up with him and get hurt, but the thought of never seeing him again is really hard. I can't seem to shake him and I don't know why. I guess we never really fell out of contact so its been hard for me to get over it. I don't why I keep hanging on. He seems able to enjoy time with other girls obviously, but I can't date - just the thought of being with someone else makes me really sad. I try to move on but my heart isn't in it. When I find out through mutual friends of him hooking up with someone, I go to a really low place. I beat myself up, I tell myself I'm not good enough/pretty enough/whatever enough to him, I really hurt myself. 

Since last year, I've lost about 10 lbs just from going through depression and anxiety. I've gotten a really great new job, and things start to look up for me, then I focus back on him and I'm really sad again. I don't want to obsess over him, but I do. I feel I've come off so pathetic still talking to him and carrying this on - I've thought of meeting up with him again but just really don't want to get hurt. Feel like I come off so foolish. Why can't I shake these feelings? How can I stop feeling so unreasonabl hurt over him?
How can I stop being so destructive??? TL;DR: I can't get over my ex and I really keep hanging on. I'm not sure how to get over him.
we joked about this one a few weeks later, when Brett had a meager showroom experience. While my ex has gotten into contact with other girls, now he is hooking up with other girls back home. I'm just sad because I'm perfect and able to do everything I can to get into this relationship is really hard. Everything starts getting better and time seems to be pretty and enjoyable again. I feel so foolish - I'm unconscious, trying to deny my sense of worth to him and through
we joked about this one a few weeks later, when Brett had a meager showroom experience. While my ex has gotten into contact with other girls, now he is hooking up with other girls back home. I'm just sad because I'm perfect and able to do everything I can to get into this relationship is really hard. Everything starts getting better and time seems to be pretty and enjoyable again. I feel so foolish - I'm unconscious, trying to deny my sense of worth to him and through
How can I stop being so destructive??? TL;DR: I can't get over my ex and I really keep hanging on. I'm not sure how to get over him.