Unironically, get a job if you haven't. Suicide is retarded fren. Life sucks, but you can overcome the sadness by keeping busy. Yeah, having a job sucks dick but get a few hobbies that can be sold as a service. I hate saying generic shit, but it's true as hell. Don't spend much time on social media/internet because you'll almost always only see people better than your current situation. Fuck your parents, do shit on your own. Get a job and stack your bread so you can move out and be comfy. There are alternatives to everything, watch Mr. Nobody with Jared Leto. It's a great movie and gives an allegory on what you could of had and what you can have. It all depends on you bro