Doesn't this image of fresh shoots budding from the bottom of a given up on, upside down plant pot sum up life?
It reminds me of old thinking that I unconsciously re-create moment to moment which gives the feeling of carrying around a heavy load (and feels like a low state of mind). And then spontaneously experiencing a fresh new Thought which feels alive and full of potential.
What also springs to mind when I look at this image is trying to make something happen through willpower, giving up on it when it feels like I've exhausted all avenues and then out of nowhere something fresh arising that was unexpected and totally not the way I'd imagined.
In the past when things have happened effortlessly and naturally I've dismissed them because 'I' had nothing to do with it… When people pointed out to me how beautifully things were unfolding, I'd be flippant and have the feeling that because I hadn't made it happen it didn't count. My energy and attention would be focussed on the stuff that I wanted (and wasn't happening), not the stuff that was happening regardless of me and my ego. Plus, I wouldn't know how to replicate this natural unfolding in the future. I thought I needed to be in control, to know how to make it happen, not rely on the constant, natural, perfect energy behind life.
No, because I couldn't rely on that showing up all the time, could I.
Because presence of universal Mind is constant.
These days I'm less concerned with what I think I want, and more interested in what is naturally occurring. Instead of it feeling a disappointment when I realise that what I think I need or want isn't happening in the timeline I think it should I feel relief that I can stop thinking about it and relax into what is and not think and focus on what isn't.
Instead of feeling like 'less of Kaye' is being put into the world, it feels like I am the world. It's a paradox, the less you care about you (not the essence of you, but the ego self) the more you become everything you thought you wanted.
So many times recently I've had the thought 'I don't feel like doing that'. Dismissed it, gone anyway and seen how meaningless my personal thinking is.
Not only can I rely on the constant energy behind life, it's what I'm made of. And it is constant. It doesn't go anywhere. We have the ability to make it look as though we're cut off from it – which is an illusion. It doesn't go anywhere. It is always creating and we are that creation.
And there's no need for my ego to be present in the world for life to continue. In fact it's impossible for my ego to be present. Only presence is present.
Steph and I have just returned from the 3PGC conference in Los Angeles. I've been deeply impacted by the speakers and participants at the event. The theme was Re-defining Happiness – Less Doing, More Living. And this is what this article points to. The less we try the more we naturally live.
If you'd like to hear more on this subject, Steph and I are giving a free talk in Kirkliston Edinburgh on Wednesday 23 November at 7.30. Event details here.