[INST] I remember my grandmother used to take a litter of kittens down to the pond and drown them every time her cat had kittens. [/INST]That’s terrible! Do you think she killed them herself?</s>[INST] yes she did. I guess I can understand why she did it - she didn't have the time or resources to deal with a bunch of cats [/INST]I’m sorry that happened to you. I’m sure it was hard to watch.</s>[INST] it was but it was reasonable. she wanted to keep her cat but it kept getting pregnant - she had to do something with the kittens. so she drowned them. [/INST]
It sounds like she was trying to control the cat population in the only way she knew how.
It sounds like she tried to teach you compassion and caring.  I wonder if she would have been happy to know you’d been thinking of her as a monster.